Break your Fate

Chapter 7

I open my eyes.

I'm back in my room. But the room is dark. Darker then it ever was before, even at night.

"You killed her." Something whispers in the back of my head. "You killed your mother."

The world feels wrong, like something was watching me.

I close my eyes to stiffle the tears.

A new feeling appears around my neck. The feeling of hooves, tightening their grip to strangle me.

I open my eyes and the tears I tried to stiffle run down my cheeks.

I look up and see my father, his hooves around my neck, pressing down.

"You killed her..." He sobs. "You killed my wife, your mother. You killed your family."

His grip tightens even more. I can heardly breath. But I still can.

I raise my hooves to his hooves and look into his watery eyes.

"Do it." I whisper. "Do it so I can follow her and beg for forgiveness for all eternity."

His grip tightens even more.

More tears escape his eyes.

"You won't follow her. You will go straight to tartarus and burn for what you've done. And when my time comes I will follow you to haunt you. I will haunt you. You will never feel peace again."

"You will only feel endless sorrow."

My lungs burn, trying in vain to get air into them. My heart pounds faster then ever before. My mind screams at me to throw him off, to fill my lungs with air. To survive.

I won't listen.

I smile as the grip around my throat tightens one last time. I can hear a soft crunching as my larynge breaks.

And with that my life ends.

And with that I die.

And with that...

I wake up, tears fill my eyes instantly.

And the very first feeling I have is pain. Massive, indescribable pain echoing through my chest and my right shoulder.

The first comes from my heart, a massive pain of loss. Pain of remorse, pain of guilt.

And the second...

I try to move my right front leg to see where the pain comes from.

My eyes widen.

My vision is blurry from the tears that fill them. But even with such a blurry vision I notice the difference.

My right leg was missing.

I scream.

Darkness takes over.

I wake up once again. And once again my eyes fill with tears.

And once again I feel pain.

"Crescent." A soft voice whispers.

I turn my head.

Auntie Luna was sitting right next to me. Wearing a sad expression.

"Auntie...." I whisper as more tears escape my eyes, running down my cheeks.

"It's a dream." I whisper with a pleading tone. "It has to be a dream." Luna looks down on me with her sad eyes. I notice that her eyes are red and puffy, her cheeks moist. I see the tears that well up in them.

"No." I growl. "No!" I raise my leg to my eyes, covering them. I feel the tears soaking my coat. "NO!" I scream, trying to end the heartache.

"Crescent." Luna whispers again, her soft hoof on my leg. "Look at me."

I shake my head, my body. "It can't be." I cry. "It can't be."

The tears won't stop.

I hear Luna's soft voice as she whispers calming things.

I wake up once more. Looking up to the white ceiling.

This time there are no tears.

I feel something on my leg and look down.

Meteor was lying in my bed, right next to me, sleeping quietly.

I can see the moist fur of her cheeks. I can hear her soft mutters. Her sobs.

"Crecent." I turn my head and see Luna sitting next to us. "Hi." She whispers softly.

I just nod, not trusting my voice.

"How do you feel?" She asks quietly.

I think about her question and a way to answer it.

I could shout at her, for asking such a stupid thing.

I could slap her across the face.

I could thank her for her anxiety.

I could thank her being here right now.

"I..." I stutter. "I-i think..." I look into her worried eyes. These honest eyes of the pony that always helped me. The pony who teases me more than any of my friends. The pony I love.

The aunt I love.

"I think..." I close my mouth again and look at my little sister, cuddled up to me, I hear her soft breaths.

"Pretty miserable." I answer.

Luna nods but doesn't say anything.

"How long have I been asleep?" I ask quietly, freeing my leg from Meteor's weight to rub my eyes.

"Over 40 hours." Luna answers. "Well... If you don't count the times where you woke up to just scream and fall back into unconsciousness.

"And if you count them?" I ask, cuddling closer to Meteor. Her soft breaths on my chest.

Luna sighs. "5 hours." She answers.

"Where's dad?" I keep my voice low and soft, Meteor deserves to sleep.

"He's gone." Luna answers.

My eyes widen as raise my head to look at her.

"He's alive." She raises a hoof to calm me, speaking softly. "But after he heard... it... he teleported away. I don't know where to."

I nod and lay my head back down on the pillow, looking down at the sleeping form of my sister. I stroke her mane.

"What happened to my leg?" I ask emotionless.

Luna doesn't answer. I look back up to her and see her worried and sorrowful expression.

"Tell me." I whisper, looking at her menacingly.

A tear rolls down her cheek.

"During your battle you pierced your leg with one of her teeth. The ooze she was covered with was contagious. At first they removed the already infected part. After a few hours they checked the wound and noticed that more infected tissue had appeared so they amputated your lower leg." She sobs. "They checked again and..." Another sob. "To be safe they took of your complete leg."

"When was the last time they checked?" I ask.

"2 hours ago. They are sure that the infection is gone now." Her voice was quivering.

"Crescent." She looks at me with a sorrowful expression. "There is something I have to tell you."

I perk my ears.

"You..." She takes a deep breath.

"You are not allowed to mourn her dead." She states almost coldly.

"What!?" I ask quietly. "Why?"

Luna shakes her head. "I can't tell you. All you need to know is that you can't grieve."

"Is this some kind of perverted punishment?" I raise my voice. Right now I don' care that my little sister is right next to me.

She shakes her head again. "No it's no punishment."

"Then why can't I mourn?"

"You just can't." She answers. "None of us can."

"Why?" I shout, my sister escapes a whimper.

"You just can't!" She shouts back at me, waking my sister. "We all want to grieve! But we can't! None of us can." More tears stream down her face.

"None of us can." Her head hanging low, she cries.

I feel Meteor tembling, I hear her sobs.

"Mommy..." She whispers, I feel her tears soaking my coat.

I embrace her softly with my remaining leg.

"Sorry for waking you Sunny." I whisper. "Go back to sleep."

Meteor sobs.

"Hush now, quiet now, it's time to lay your sleepy head..." I whisper the lullaby that mom sang to me when I was small.

Meteor's soft whimpers in my ears as I whisper the lullaby.