Things Go By

Last night I slept next to Big Mac and didnt dream. Yet, I did have a dream onlynit wasnt a dream it was more like a memory- YES exactly ot was a memory but of what. Ugh these things are never easy. Remember. Remember. What was it? It was a pony, but it wasnt a pony. What was it than? You already know.

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A certain red earth pony had his hoof around my waist keeping me close and warmer then what was needed. I didnt mind it felt good to be close to him. I kissed his cheek and began to nuzzle his chest. Im going to try and wake him up as gently as I can. I begin to nuzzle with more pressure. It would make perfect sense if Big Mac was a heavy sleeper, I mean with all that hard work he does out on the field...making himself sweat heh..and his muscles heh. *POMF* *SMACK*. My wings fully extended and slapped him across the face, he gave out a quick snort and woke up.

"Wh-what in tarnatio-" for once I could notice the obvious blush that burned underneath his entire face.

"Uh-uhhh....good morning?" I myself had a blush that would put a tomato to shame.

"Should I give ya some time?" I simply nodded.

He laughed a small bit then got up and left the room. Leaving me to me wingboner.

"Ugh dammit why did I have to be born a pegasus." THERE! That's what it was. It was a pony more specific..it was a Pegasus.

I think it about time I got some answers...who exactly was that pegasus. Hmmm. My wings dropped as I began to think hard. A spark a small tiny ember that could light a forest on fire. That was all I needed just give me that spark to remember. Please? I looked at my own two hooves. What can I do to find him?

"You all done in ther? Its been like ten minutes?"

Woah I didn't realize that it has been that long it felt like it has only been one minute.

"Oh yeah I'm done sorry about that I don't know what happened." I gave him a giggle which made him smile. Perfect.

"No problem, now I got to go out and work on the farm, gotta go buck some trees." He smiled and gave me a hug then turned away.

"You will be fine here?" Big Mac looked at me as he spoke.

"Actually, I meed to go into town today I need to go find out something." He had a concerned look on his face..

"Alright but be careful don't want no one hurtin mah precious flower." He left the barn

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It was only a five minute flight to Ponyville. On my way there though...the more I tried to remember about who that Pegasus was the more my head hurt...yet, I kept thinking. Think. Think. My eyes crossed and my wings were no longer in my control. I was falling, falling, falling...it didn't matter I have taken higher falls it wouldn't hurt to bad just depends how I land..I pull my legs in to my body and prepare to hit the ground hard. This might actually hurt. I see the ground rushing towards me. Five. Big Mac...what would he think when I came home with a bunch of scrapes and bruises. Four. I might of underestimated my height and speed so this will hurt more then what I thought. Three. Will I be able to find that pegasus? Two. A tree...the library heh kinda funny I was heading there either way. One.  I closed my eyes preparing for the pain.....Zero........Negative one.....Negative two....hmm why haven't I hit the ground. I opened my eyes to see a certain purple alicorn. Her aura was purple heh funny just like her coat...but her aura had something more, there were sparkles that twinkled around the edges like some sort of shield of stars. They begged to be noticed...they were eager to see..eager to learn. Hmm.

"Uh..hi." I waved and smiled at her.

"Hi there Ditz- oh." She was looking straight into my eyes....I know that look..I have seen it so many times but now from Twilight? To think she said my eyes were pretty once.

"Thank for saving me and all but I need to get into the library I gotta find something out."

Her horn began to glow and a bright flash of white occurred...and just like that I was in the library.

"B-but we..we were just outside..a-and-" she interrupted me.

"A basic teleportation spell but now I have to ask, what happened to your eyes they are all...'derped'." She kinda held onto that last word there.

"That what I am here for, I wanna find out how and why."

"Sorry if I seem rude I'm just curious....I haven't seen anything like this at all it is some sort of medical mystery, oh! Have you been to the hospital?"

"Thats where I was when....when they told me my eyes would never be normal again..BUT I can make them look normal if I try!"

"Was it some sort of accident or did it just happen?"

"Sort of both."

"What do you mean."

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About ten or fifteen minuets later of explaining she was looking around frantically in the library. She was hellbent on finding a book that could explain who or what that pegasus was.

"FOUND IT, I FOUND IT!!!" Ow..my ears.

She galloped up to me and help the book out with her magic she then blew the dust of of the cover.

"Now what is the name and author of this book that might help out as well." She began to turn it around in circles only to see there wasn't a name to the book or a name of an author.

"Huh? Maybe it on the inside of the cover." She cracked open the book and looked on both of the covers front and back, beginning and ending.

"There is nothing..."

"Then how do you know that is the right book?"

She shrugged "I just...knew."

She opened the book and held it up to where we both could see its contents. I gasped the words were shifting and moving not slowing and not constant some words danced around others dragged themselves across the page while others zipped to the ends of the pages.

"Woah."

"What why is the book empty!? What kind of book is this?!" Twilight was beginning to become flustered.

"What? You're telling me you cant see the words!"

"What words?!...wait can you see them?" The purple in her aura began to fade and now the sparkles were becoming more prominent.

And here I thought I wouldn't have to help another pony...I thought I was done...oh well!

"Yes, but Twilight..I need to ask you something."

"O-oh, ok then."

"Do you ever think for yourself?"

"Wh-what!?" Her words were a blend of anger and questioning.

"Books cant solve everything you know." She took a step back from me.

"Seriously though. Think for yourself for once maybe you wont need to rely on books all the time!"

"But books teach they have the answers!"

"TO QUESTIONS THAT HAVE TO DO WITH KNOWLEDGE!, do you really think everything has to make sense? That everything can be solved with a book?"

"YOURE ONE TO TALK, WHY ARE YOU HERE HUH?" She would have gotten me there but I was already ahead of her.

"Because, I don't make sense." She looked at me.

"Is there a book out there that explains why my eyes are like they are? If there is please show me I want to know why I am like this! I wanna know why I had to live months of my life being a freak!"

"I-I don't know!"

"Then tell me why I have gotten over it, explain what makes me strong enough to push out the words and abuse from all the ponies who have ever hurt me! Use a book to solve that answer!" She sits there thinking...no bad. Don't think

"Stop trying to think about everything sometimes things wont make sense and never will we just have to accept them! Even me with my eyes!" I realize that now. I just have to accept what I am now. I go to the door open it and leave. A white glow follows me out the door for a moment, I shut the door knowing she is ok.

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I was at the barn now, I just have to accept that I may not ever find out but hey, at least...no this wasn't a least I have Mac..if it wasn't for the accident then I wouldn't have been this close to Mac..maybe I wouldn't of even known him. That pegasus may have destroyed my old life...but damn did he make my new one a hay of a lot better. I smiled.

"Thanks for everything."