Things Go By

A problem needs to be repaired or fixed but what happens when that problem is broken..broken beyond repair unfixable..and cant be helped. What happens then?

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"I need to find him I need to get to him. I have to I made a promise!" My own thoughts screamed in the back of my head as I flew towards his trail...his black, revolting trail of devastation...everything screamed against me. Every rational thought told me not to follow it...everything told me that in wont end good..every last part of me..but thats not possible because I still was following him. Maybe because I made a promise, maybe because I wanted to help, maybe because his loneliness reminded me of myself and it pushed me that much further. It might of even been all of these..I didn't know but I still followed the trail.

I could see his trail of light...no this wasn't light..this was darkness. I followed his darkness and I knew it was his I felt it, I cant explain but I know it is his. The trail went into the sky then took a sharp fall towards the ground, straight towards the Everfree. Great, just great.

I flew down and hovered above the treetops. I had to go down there, but oh how my body fought against me.

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Finally my wings slowed there furious beats at the air and let me descend into the forest. I continued the hunt following his trail once again, but at a clearing in the forest the trail just stopped..I trot further into the clearing to see him...just laying there looking up at the dark night sky..it was filled with stars...but they seemed so insignificant to him..to here right now..everything seemed small compared to what is here..what is now.

"You cant help." His words weren't filled with anger...hate..sorrow...they were just there...but definite like an everlasting wall. As if, he has thought about himself for longer than his own existence.

"Everything can be helped." I wasn't close enough to look at his aura but there was a deep vibration resonating from the air at this distance from him. It shook me violently and I could feel the crack being formed into my own being..into my own soul. My eyes drifted opposite ways once again but it wasn't like the other times where as it was from a hit or a though it was from his very existence...Once again everything inside of me told me to run..to get away, to hide from this nightmare...only he was real and this wasn't a dream.

"Not things that are already broken."

"Come on lets go to Fluttershy she wants to apologies."

I blinked and he was no longer laying down where he was but now he stood maybe ten hooves away from me. His presence..this close..cant..think...STRAIGHT.

"HA HER SHE IS AS GOOD AS THE REST OF THOSE PONIES!!!" His words were destroying me and it wasn't because of his shouts or the meaning put behind these word but it is his PRESENCE! cant think straight.

"Usually anypony would have broken down into tears or ran..why are you different?" He placed his hoof upon me but I still couldnt look at him as if there was some sort of....thing that wouldn't let me..I knew he was there but my eyes kept staring at two different directions.

"Why..cant I...look." He cut me off.

"You cant look at me because I decided I don't want you to." He turned and trotted off into the distance my thoughts finally start to come back to me.

"I-I can help please let me!"

"You are afraid...why try to fix something that you think will hurt you?"

"I made a promise."

"That you can't keep!" He returned quickly as if he knew I was going to say those exact words.

"I can if you let me!"

"Nothing can help me."

I looked up at him but he was still too far from me to see his aura..my vision went blurry from the un welcomed tears that invaded my eyes. I wasn't afraid of him...but something in me was..yet I wasn't crying because of this. I was crying because deep down...I knew I wasn't going to be able to fix the forever broken pegasus that stood there in front of me...wait in front of me? When did he?

"Look at me...eyes to eyes,"

I look up into his eyes...his eyes! They were two different colors one completely black the other completely white. No pupils no iris...just the whole eye itself filled with black and white. I let out a gasp.

"You see..how can you fix a freak."

"You aren't a freak!" I hated that word!

"You're right."

What he agreed!?

"I am not a freak I am broken...how can you fix me when my whole life I was raised to be this...this thing...this nightmare!"

"I..I dont know!"

"You don't know because there is no answer, I am broken and will forever be until death." His words were complete. There was no helping him. I broke a promise. It was too late and I knew it.

"I wish I could of helped."

"Thanks but you were to late. Not that there was ever a chance." With his words finished I could see his aura now...it was black with crack of white streaming through him. The white was hope..It wasn't truth. It was nothingness, not empty but nothing.

"Its not to late." A last desperate attempt to help.

"You're a bad liar, you know."

"Yeah, I know." I sighed.

"Tell Shy' that I am gone, tell her that nothing can help, but also tell her I wish it could have been different..as for you..I can see your light." Before I could ask him or even take a breath he was gone. Just gone as if he. Blinked out of this world..or as if he fell through a crack that was there in existence...or as if he was never there to begin with.

I stood there waiting for something..anything, I was waiting for something amazing, but I knew I would of had to wait longer.

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So, what happens when you cant fix something that is unfixable? You get nothing. Absolute nothing. I went to Fluttershy and explained she cried at first of course but I explained and told her what he asked me to. She just nodded and understood something that wasn't there.

Sometimes there are things...ponies..that were meant for something different. I may not be able to understand what it is but its is unstoppable its fate. I hope he is in a better place.

Nothing. Absolute. Finale. Complete. Done...maybe I cant comprehend it maybe thats why I call 'it' nothing.