Author's Note

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Some of you may be happy to see Colgate's Entertainment back up and running again. But then again this story is died for likes/dislikes so... The other half of you will hate me for it.

I cannot explain what exactly made me able to write another chapter of this. Whatever originally made me write this story has become lost to me recently, something I'm not prepared to explain at this moment in time.

Whatever the case, I hope you enjoy the new chapter. I am not -at this time- ready to discuss where this is all going. I'm letting Colgate decide what she does next, hopefully things will work out better this time.

-Cutedementia

Entry #11 - Behind the curtain

The camera flicked on. It was glitching at first. The screen was jumping about with flashes of color and light before it finally came into focus. The camera would still glitch out a bit as it shuffled in the grass, finally stopping at a good view over the side of the large hill it seemed to be on. Colgate sighed, stepping out in front of the camera, but not looking back at it yet, staring off toward Ponyville down below her. "She asked me not to run away..." Colgate said, without much explanation at first. A moment of silence followed for a moment before she spoke again.

"What does that even mean?" she asked in a frustrated tone. "Run away from what?....this town?" she asked, gently kicking at the dirt below her. "Run away from her? From her death?..." she asked again, as if something might answer her. "How am I supposed to stick around while all this happens? My life I've worked so hard to create and now....now it's just all gone." she said, clearly getting rather emotional now.

"All of that work, all of that planning. For what? It's all gone now. The mare I took years upon years to create is now gone because of those rats," she said with a hiss in her tone. "All I can think to do is turn to my friends. The only two left who still have some respect for me are Lyra and Bon Bon. But without Berry, I'm afraid they won't care for me as they used to..."

She sighed, sitting down. "The only option I have left is to try and-" she stopped as the camera glitched again, a small slip of paper falling out the side. Her magic quickly snagged it, pulling it up to her view.

anonymous said:
Pls continue ;_;

"Are you asking me to....keep going?" Colgate asked with a frown, looking back at the camera for the first during all this. "How am I supposed to keep doing this without her?...nothing I've ever done alone has satisfied me like she has," she sighed, looking down at the floor. "I'm sorry...I don't think I can..." she said, her eyes fading slightly from their bright blue down to something darker, closer to black. "I can't..."

Her breath started to grow faster, her muscles clenching a bit around her throat as her color once more grew darker. "Oh great, now look at me," she said in a choked tone, her hoof reaching up to wipe tears from her eyes. "What happened to being the strong one, Colgate?" she asked herself, clearing a second tear. "Ugh, this is pathetic," she said with anger. "Stop it!" she yelled at herself, using her magic this time.

"See what happens when you do this shit to me!?" she screamed toward the general direction of Ponyville. "Fuckers...sitting there, watching me break down over this..." she said with a heavy sigh. "Like looking behind the curtain, huh?!" she screamed again. "It's dangerous to look back here!" she said continuing to scream.

"Ask Berry..." she said in a hushed tone now, looking down at the floor. "Bastards..." she said with a hiss, her tears still falling. "Berry, why can't I just run?" Colgate asked, starting to sob now. "Why are you making me stay here?" she asked again, her posture starting to slip. "I can't be happy here, not anymore. Our house is cursed..." she continued to sob.

Taking heavy and deep breaths, she looked up into the sky, her magic kicking up. "Ugh, get a hold of yourself," she said through her tears. Her horn now glowing brightly, her body started to correct herself her muscles gaining back control. She took one long deep breath to fully calm herself, her last tear dripping onto the floor.

"What are you doing?" a small voice somewhere behind the camera asked. "Are you okay?" it questioned.

Colgate turned back toward the camera, eyes locking on something above it. She sighed, looking down as her eyes returned to blue again. "I'm sorry, child. Just talking to ghosts, I guess," she said, standing up and walking over to the camera, keeping her distance from whatever was behind it.

"Ghosts?" the voice asked. "Are they scary ghosts?"

"No, no, just...somepony I knew," she frowned, her eyes visibly dimming a bit. "What are you doing up here all alone, little one?"

"Running away," the small voice said confidently.

Colgate laughed a little, sitting down once again. "Really? Running from what?"

"My mother, she's driving me insane..." the voice said, lowering in pitch as if sad. "Makes me feel like shit every day I'm around her.”

Colgate frowned. "Hey, watch your mouth now little one, how old are you?"

"I'm fourteen," the small voice said as if questioning it.

"Now, now, don't make me bring you back to Ponyville. Tell the truth," Colgate insisted.

"Thirteen..." the voice sighed.

Colgate nodded standing up with a bit of a smile. "I'm Colgate, what about you?" she asked.

"I'm Dinky," the young mare responded.

"Dinky...Dinky," she said, rolling the name around her mouth for a moment.

"I heard you yelling, are you angry?" Dinky asked stepping forward, her hoof now resting in front of the camera’s lenses.

"I was, I guess...I'm angry at myself," Colgate explained. "You shouldn't be running away," Colgate said, walking closer to the small filly. "Oh look, now I'm even talking like her," she said with a heavy sigh. "Damn."

"Talking like who?" Dinky said looking around.

"The mare I lost," Colgate said without further detail.

"Mare? Was she family?"

"She was my wife," Colgate answered simply.

"What is it like losing somepony like that?" Dinky asked. Colgate was starting to like this curious little mare so she decided to answer.

"Kinda like...at first it puts you in a daze, I guess. You don't realize how fast things around you are happening. Before you know it, they're gone and you're alone again..." Colgate said, her eyes darkening once more. "Again...." she said, closing her eyes tight and shaking her head. "Ugh."

"Are you okay?" Dinky asked, walking up to her. The camera now had a view of the small filly. Fine long blonde hair draped across her body, a sort of purple/pink coat covered the rest of her body. Colgate remembered seeing this filly before, but only at a quick glance, annd not with this mane style. It was rolling down across her shoulders. Normally, Colgate would be taking great interest at this point, but so soon after Berry left, she couldn't take interest in anything.

"Yeah, I'm fine little one. Are you sure you really want to run away?" she asked, concerned for the small filly.

"Absolutely, I've been thinking about it for months..." Dinky said confidently.

"Can we make a deal? I won't tell anyone you're running off if you wait just a few more days to make sure this is what you want."

"Wait a few more days? I've been out here for a day already...it gets cold at night. I was going to get going again before I heard you yelling."

"How about I take you back to my apartment, and you can stay there for the next few days? Make sure you are making the right choice, and if you still want to leave, I'll help you," she said.

"Promise you won't tell anyone?" Dinky asked concerned. "I promise. I don't need anyone knocking on my door any time soon. I just want to be alone for a bit."

"Okay, it would be nice to have some food...if that's alright?" Dinky asked.

"Yes, it's fine. Come, we should get inside before it gets dark," Colgate said glancing off toward the sunset. "Why were you trying to move at night?"

"Moving keeps you warm, sleeping in this cold is...hard."

"I understand. We should get inside before somepony sees you...but do not forget our deal, you need to think seriously about this.”

"I will, where are we going?"

"My apartment, just outside of Ponyville. Come, I'll lead you there,” Colgate said, her magic lifting the camera up out of the grass.

"What's that?" Dinky asked, looking up at it.

"These are my friends, I guess, or...something like that," Colgate tried to explain.

"Can I be your friend too?" Dinky asked.

"Yes, of course. Come on, I'll give you a tour of my house," she said with a light smile, holding the camera up behind them.

Dinky started walking toward the hill, Colgate following right behind her, surprised Dinky was going in the right direction. She watched the young thing gad about on the hill for a moment before bringing the camera down so it could see her face. She gave it a light smile looking with a sigh. "Alright, Berry, let's see what you have planned for me..."