Ooops I'm pregnant

Saying goodbye is always hard, for some ponies it's just as hard as saying 'hello'. For Serenity, 'goodbyes' happen more then 'hellos', simply because their are more ponies whom she knew dying then there are being born. Today was an especially hard day. Today was the day her youngest sister was buried in the deep, cool earth. Today was the day her family became her and a good-for-nothing-step-sister. She is just a filly and her mum, dad, twin and now little sister have lived full long lives.

Princess Luna holds her close. Lumos and Darcy sit on Luna's other side tears falling down their cheeks. Daybreak is sobbing in Celestia's arms. Serenity was not crying. Serenity would not cry. Crying was for the weak. Serenity was not weak. Who cares if  all of her biological family became senior citizens before she even got her cutie mark? Who cares if no pony remembered her in the long run? All her life had been her parents caring for her from afar as needles and wires were poked into her dark skin. This was her forth and potentially last time going outside. Correction: hopefully last time. Who knows how many more times she could take before the tears came back?

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Tick, tock, tick, tock goes the clock. Yes, no, yes, no goes mummy and auntie.

"We need more love and friendship surely you understand that, Princess?"

"No, we need force might, of course this makes sense to you?"

"Equestria will fall if we chose that route, take my word for it!"

"What about the...mutants?" I for one wouldn't want them around my dear Carissime, and I doubt any pony else would want them dubbed 'princess'. Its just not right, you know who they look like..."

Uh-oh, I heard my name again, thought Carissime. It had been coming up in conversation a lot recently, particularity when mummy was arguing with auntie.

Mummy shouldn't argue with auntie. Mummy is weak compared to auntie. Auntie has Princess Luna and Twilight on her side. Mummy has no pony. Poor, poor mummy. She used to have daddy, but he disappeared along, long time ago. Silly, silly mummy...

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Dear dairy,

Apparently, I look alot like my uncle. Though I can't verify that because I never met him. I think he might be dead...

Anyway, I have a long, dark blue mane that seems to defy gravity, like my dad's. It has light blue and bright pink streaks randomly placed through it and I can never make it lie flat. My eyes are blue like my dad's and my body is lavender like my mum's. All in all, I think I look pretty hot.

Oops I guess that sounds arrogant. Mum says that's on list of things that a princess shouldn't do. What I meant to say was that I am much more attractive than the average pony. Still arrogant. Oh well, I give up. Just another thing for mum to bug me about. Urgh, she's so annoying. I don't know how she landed a stallion like dad, guess I should have asked him that when he was alive.

I miss living with him and Rarity. They were the best. So were the sisters. In total at one point there was four of us, now there's just  three; Serenity and Bluebelle (Rarity's twins), Swift Charm (Rarity and Flash's baby) and me.

What sucked about being me was that every weekend I had to stay with mum. I hate living with her. 'Daybreak go study' or 'Daybreak read this' and 'Daybreak stop doing that its not proper'. I get that last one a lot. I wish Bluebelle was the princess. She would have been a great princess. I miss her. She should have been an alicorn too.

Mum said that a ponies' name is linked to their cutie mark and destiny. I don't have a cutie mark, so I guess in order to get one I have to uh...break the day? What dose that even mean? Do I just break auntie Celestia's bone or something? I wish this was clearer because almost all of my alicorn siblings and cousins have their cutie marks. I think I'm the family embarrassment. I heard that every family has one, and I'm pretty embarrassing. Lumos is pretty clumsy, but she's really smart and pretty so it couldn't be her. Darcy and Serenity could be embarrassing because of their-

(Blood marks the pages of the diary. There are no more entries after this.)