It's Not The Same

by Excy

Rating: everyone
Tags: Spike, Romance, Fluttershy, Slice of Life, Sad, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 956

Fluttershy celebrates Hearts and Hooves Day with Spike.

Hearts and Hooves Day is here once again, but Fluttershy has to celebrate it in her least favorite place.

The cemetary.

*Not involved with any of my previous stories (except maybe HWB if you want to think of it like that)*

Published 2014-02-16 08:10:05 UTC
Last updated 2014-02-16 08:10:05 UTC

Happy Hearts And Hooves, Spike!

It's that time of year again, where everybody celebrates Hearts and Hooves Day. A day dedicated to love, where everypony expresses their love for another, or for the lonely souls, eat chocolate. Everypony loves this day. Twilight is alone, once again, and so is Appejack. Rainbow Dash is spending her day with Soarin. Rarity is spending it with Bic Mac, and Pinkie is spending it with Cheese Sandwich, both working together to throw the biggest Hearts and Hooves Day party right in the middle of Ponyville.

And then there's Fluttershy.

Fluttershy is spending it alone this year, the second year in a row, by choice. She doesn't want a new stallion in her life. Every year on this day, she locks herself away in her room and doesn't come out until the next day. The days before are worse. Colts constantly asking to spend it with them, she constantly driving them away, or atleast trying to. She desperately tries to spend it alone, and can't unless she confines herself. She only comes out once, and that's to visit her one and only.

Spike.

"Okay Angel, I'm off. I will try to not take so long this time." She said in a dull tone. Angel didn't even respond. He already knew how hard this day was for her and didn't want it to be any harder.

She looked around. Nopony. Perfect. She flew high into the sky and straight to her set location.

"Dear Celestia, I hate coming here. If it wasn't for Spike, I wouldn't have to come. I wish he didn't have to go so fast." Tears formed at her eyes. She hadn't cried once today, and wanted to get it out, but couldn't. She sighed.

"Excuse me, Miss. Are you busy tonight?" The colt in front of Fluttershy asked, stopping her dead in the air.

"Yes. My husband is taking me to dinner."

"Oh, okay. Happy Hearts and Hooves, Ma'am." He said sadly.

"Yeah." She said with no sympathy. She didn't feel bad for the colt. She was to busy in her own problems.

She finally landed at the entrance.

"I hate it here." She said. Fluttershy doesn't hate alot of things, but one things for sure, she hated this place.

The cemetary.

Wasting no time, she looked for him.

"Ughh, where is he? There are so many here. Poor ponies." She said quietly. After a few minutes, she found him.

"Spike." She flew to him. She hugged him so hard and had tears streaming from her eyes.  She couldn't be any happier to see him.

Unfortunately, she wasn't very happy to see him in his current state.

In a coffin.

"Hello, Spike. I've missed you so, so much." She said between tears. "It's so hard without you at home, hun. Happy Hearts and Hooves, darling. Our favorite day, always spent between us. No one to bother us. But you're not here anymore, and it's so different. I keep geting flowers at my door. I got at least 10 bouquets just today, not including the past two weeks. Colts left and right 'Wanna go to dinner?' It's so annoying. I get so many flowers, but none were roses. Only you did that. Every year it was roses. And it never got old. They always smelled like beauty and happiness. And then a box of chocolates, even though I'd never eat them, because I'm not crazy about sweets. But then you'd always say 'Hey, maybe this year's different.' and I'd always eat one or two with you, and  you'd always look so excited when I did. And then, every once in a while, you'd have the present. I always told you not to get me anything, but you never listened. It would either be a necklace, or a ring, or some piece of jewelry, and I would cry tears of joy. And then I would feel bad because all I would get you would be sapphires or emeralds or what-have-you. But then you'd say 'Hey, it's okay, I didn't listen, you don't have to worry-" at this point she was crying even more.

"But then I'd tell you that I always worry and that I would never stop worrying because I love you so much and that I could never forgive myself if something happened and you'd say that you'd make sure nothing would happen but you were wrong! Something did happen to you and I couldn't stop it and you got hurt and I wasn't there to do anything! I'm so sorry, Spike! I love you so much, and you were just... gone, so fast. Like lightning. Gone with the wind. It's funny. All the wrong things happen to the wrong people. And you didn't deserve it. You didn't know that a stampede was going to start. You didn't know then when you left to go get some dinner that it was gonna be raining. You didn't know at all, and you didn't even deserve it! You didn't deserve death! You didn't deserve to get all the hate you got for being a dragon! You didn't deserve to be treated as a pet! You didn't desreve to die! You didn't have the right! You had so much going for you! You were the best husband, could've been a great father. Why Spike?! Why us?!" She broke down and cried right in place.

She cried in that spot for awhile, maybe 30 minutes. She then stopped, and looked at the gravestone. And remembered all the good times they had together, every Hearts and Hooves day, every Hearts Warming day. And thought for a moment. She then spoke up and said:

"But there's nothing I would give to take it all back."