Diary of a Wimpy Pegasus

by DJ-Photonix

Rating: mature
Tags: Tragedy, Sad
Length: 3672

Fluttershy never told anypony of her problems she went through before she moved to Ponyville, but stress is keeping her from working as hard as she can to help her animal friends. So she writes away her problems.

Years of being bullied, and beaten by her parents, years of ponies laughing at her nimble figure, years of having only one friend to sick up for you has made Fluttershy upset. Stressed from new coming animals to take care of, Fluttershy finds that not talking to another pony about her past has made it hard for her to work to her %100 happy, and healthy animals. After buying a diary she starts to write about her past one day at a time. However as Fluttershy starts to feel better, Twilight takes into account that her friend has been acting differently lately. How far will she go to uncover what this shy pegasus has been hiding from others?

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2014-03-11 03:24:47 UTC

Day 0

After coming home from flight school, Fluttershy waves goodbye to Rainbow Dash. With her fake smile gone, Fluttershy looks at the dark cloud door to her house. Deep down she knew nothing would change when it came to her parents. She took a few breaths in, and out trying to stay as calm as possible.

Opening the door, she saw her mother stare directly into her eyes, and Fluttershy's feeling was right. Her mother walked angerly towards her, her rose red eyes staring into Fluttershy's kind light green-blue eyes. After tugging on her ear, Fluttershy's mom, Eagle Eye, threw her across the floor.

Fluttershy cried. "What did I do!?" She plead to her mother.

"You're weak!" She shouted. "Never before has your big sister failed as badly as you do everyday!" Eagle picked up Fluttershy once more, and threw her into her room upstairs. "You will stay here until your father returns from making clouds!"

        "No! Please! He hurts me!" Fluttershy begged as the door slammed into her face. She walked over to the back corner of her room. "Please...not again..."

       "Fluttershy?" Twilight asked. "Are you okay?"

       Fluttershy shook her head, trying to shake away another flashback. "Yes, I'm okay, but I think I need to feed angel bunny." She said trying to run off. Twilight refused to end it, and teleported infront of her, nearly stopping Fluttershy's fragile heart. "Please..." She said closing her eyes.

The door slammed open, then it was shut with the sound of the door locking. Fluttershy was now hugging the wall as her large father named Storm Chaser got close to her. He smiled evily at her step daughter, and threw her on her bed. She screamed, but he stuck his hoof in her mouth.

       "Screaming won't help...you're my toy...toys don't scream for help." He said, nearly whispering. "Do they?" He asked.

       Fluttershy shook her head slowly, Storm's hoof still in her mouth. "Mmmmmm...." She mumbled quietly.

       "Fluttershy!" Twilight called again.

       "No please don't!" She screamed, running off to her cottage, and left Twilight with much confusion on her face.

        Fluttershy slammee the door shut, scaring the small animals inside. They surrounded her quietly, as she panted heavily. She opened her eyes, and saw the slight fear in her patient's eyes. After giving a long sigh, she gave a fake smile she was used to making.

       "I'm alright little ones...just not myself today..."

       A little chipmunk ran up to her, sqeeking it said. "You've been like this for days Fluttershy!"

       "I know, my birthday is coming up..."

       Angel hopped over, frowning. "You're like this every year Fluttershy...you can tell us what's wrong."

      Fluttershy shook her head quickly. "No!" She screamed. "No pony should know...its my problem...and I'll keep it that way." She walked over to her cabinet, and opened it expecting it was full. Like always they had eaten the rest of the food. "I forgot to feed you again huh?" She asked, looking over to her animals.

       They all nodded in responce, and she gave a huff of dissapointment. "Alright, don't eat my food while I'm out to get more food."

       Fluttershy grabbed her saddle bags, and walked out the door. She stepped onto the cobblestone road, and slowly walked past the bridge that arced over a small streem that ran into the Ponyville river. Trees gave a nice long shadow that one would wish for on a hot day, and the tree cover acted as a rain cover animals could get under when it rained heavily and their homes were flooded.

       It wasn't ever a long walk to the pet shop in Ponyville where Fluttershy got all of her pet supplies. From food to first aid kits, the Ponyville pet store had everything an animal needed.

       "Hey there Fluttershy!" The owner of the shop greeted as Fluttershy walked in. "Whatcha need this time?"

       "Some pet food please...two pounds of the regular order." She said throwing down the bits one by one. "How much is it again?"

       "For you? Its 50% off, so twenty bits."

       "Nineteen...twenty!" She said.

       "You know, its going to be your birthday soon. Pinkie Pie won't stop talking about it." He said. "Tell you what, if you can come by for a minute or two, I'll give you some free food. As a gift for being a regular, and a friend."

       "Oh thank you Mr. Herd!" Fluttershy said, sqeeing.

       "No problem Fluttershy, boy keep that up you'll make ponies think you're a toy..."

       Cloud mounted Fluttershy, ripping her legs open. He inserted his penis slowly into her small tight pussy. Fluttershy grunted in pain as it went deeper. She could feel the blood pulse in her step father's penis as it stretched, growing in size.

       "Play time!" He said, thrusting his hips into her's. Fluttershy screamed lightly, her body being ripped slowly in half, the pain coming from her lower portion from Cloud's large penis. He continued the assault on Fluttershy, pounding harder, and harder until she was screaming in pain. Faster now, he pounded her small tight yellow pussy, faster, and harder until he slowed. Pulling out, he cummed over her.

       "Hey!" The shop owner called. "Here's your order."

       "Thanks, I'll be on my way, see you next week."

       "Can't wait..." Fluttershy said, walking back to her home.

        Twilight watched Fluttershy from afar, exiting the food store. Spike who was dragged along, tugged lightly on her tail. She looked back at him, and shoved a large gem into his mouth.

       "She's hiding something...I know it!"

        Spike, who's mouth was full spoke. "Wat...makes......think that?" He asked.

       "I tried to use a spell that would, but its not made to breach one's mind to their inner thoughts. If I could have just one way to see them, it would help me help her!" She answered.

       "Why not ask her yourself Twilight?" He asked. "She can trust you more than anypony!"

       "Not true Spike, everypony knows Rainbow Dash has been her friend since flight school, if not before that...Maybe Rainbow Dash knows..." She stated. "Come on Spike, we're going to Rainbow Dash's house in the sky!"

Day 0: Part Two

       "Rainbow Dash!" Twilight called from outside Dash's home. "I know you're there!"

       The door opened slowly with Rainbow Dash looking out at Twilight one eye closed, and the other had her hoof rubbing her other eye. The moment she opened both of her eyes, Rainbow Dash gave a smile. "Hey Twi!" She greeted. "What's up?"

       "Sorry to disturb your nap, but can we talk...inside?"

       "Sure, um, come on in. Oh and mine the mess." She said opening the door wider to allow Twilight, and Spike in.

       Spike wasn't sure why Twilight needed him to tag along, but he didn't care. As long as he wasn't cleaning up Twilight's mess, he was content.

       Twilight walked in, nearly tripping over a couple of small dumbbells on the floor. They were made out of condensed clouds that were used to help pegasi train their wings. "Ugh...What is that?" She asked looking over at what might of been a pizza slice hanging on the edge of the couch.

       "Um....I dunno...So what do you need to talk about?" She asked back.

       "It's about Fluttershy..."

       Rainbow Dash stopped moving, and her wings as well as her head to the cloud floor. Then looked over at Twilight, tears already forming in her eyes.

       "I...I want to tell you...I really do Twi." Rainbow Dash said, her voice cracking. "But...I promised..."

       "Why? Was is bad?!" Twilight asked. "Tell me what you can tell me! Please...I'm not going to abuse my powers of being a princess, but I order you to tell me what you can!" Twilight begged. "Please..."

       Rainbow Dash sighed, walking over to Twilight. "Her parents...ask them..." She said, then shook her head. "Damn...forgot. Don't ask them."

       "Why?"

       "They're liers, that's why. Everyday, they'd take her to flight school with her having a black eye. No pony knew why, but they lied...I knew. I would watch from a nearby cloud."

       "Did they hurt her?"

       Rainbow Dash shrugged. "The closest cloud to there's was a good ways away. I only saw her run in to her room." She replied. "Look, I need to get going."

       "Thanks Rainbow Dash."

       "Anytime Twi." Rainbow Dash said, before stopping Twilight one last time. "If you want to know that bad, ask her, but make sure that you have some way of making her tell you. Trick her maybe..."

       Twilight stared into Rainbow Dash's eyes. "I'm glad you didn't tell me. Your element hasn't been more shown today, than any other day I've been around you." She smiled. "However, how am I going to trick her?"

       "I hear diaries are good for writing secrets." Rainbow Dash said rolling her eyes off to the left. "Tell her exactly this..."

       Fluttershy opened her front door, and saw the animals running about, playing with each other in harmony. She gave an honest smile, and dropped the food off to the side, making a mental note to put it away later. After that she looked at a book off to the side. It was the last Daring Doo book, and she had forgotten to drop it back at Rainbow Dash's today. Giving a heavy sigh, she slouched on her small couch.

       Right as she got comfortable, Fluttershy heard a knock at the door. She couldn't get a break for even a minute, and despite her slight annoyance, she opened the door slowly.

       "Hello Fluttershy!" Discord said with a smile. "I was wondering if you can help me with one teny tiny thing."

       Fluttershy put a hoof to her head. "Yes?" She asked.

       "Can you help me get these bevers to stop eating up my favorite tree?" He asked, pointing to a tree nearby that looked like himself. "Please?"

      Fluttershy trotted over to the bevers, and smiled lightly. "Oh, excuse me, but can you please stop trying to eat this tree?" She asked. "Discord likes is so much, and would like if you stopped."

       The bevers looked at each other, and all shrugged before running off. Content, she trotted back inside and flopped back onto her couch.

       "Oh thank you so!" Discord smiled, before flashing away.

       Fluttershy felt tired, and felt like it was a good time to take a light nap. Slowly her eyes closed, and began to dream.

       Fluttershy's dad laughed heavily, as he took another shot of vodka. Looking over at Fluttershy, who was trying her hardest to study for a flight exam, he motioned her to come to him. She hesitated, but moved anyways, walking slowly to her step father.

       "Hurry up bitch!" He shouted. "I'm not one to go slow!"

       "Y-yes, I know..." She replied, as she neared. "W-what do you need?"

       Cloud chuckled with in a low tone. "Come sit on my lap..." He said. "Let's talk."

       Fluttershy's ears shifted in confusion. "On...your lap?"

       "Yeah, come on!" He smiled drunkly. "I want to tell you a story."

       Fluttershy jumped up onto Cloud's lap, and looked at him, fear in her eyes. "Relax...He said. I'm not that awful stallion while him drunk." He said. "Along time ago, when I had just met you, I thought you were really sweet. Bringing your mother flowers from the ground made her happy." He said, his smile turning to a look of dread. "Then, it happened. While I was on a cloud delivery with your mother, something happened. I thought it was a dream, until I figured out what happened later on."

       "What, happened?" She asked.

       "There...was a dark shadow...I thought it was the cloud breaking up, so I told your mother to help me fix it. Oh how wrong I was. When we got to where I was talking about, it flew into us, and I blacked...Hey, what are you doing on my lap?!"

       "What? You were telling me a story." She replied.

       "Want to hear another? Suck my dick!"

      "Help!" She cried, but as she was trying to get away, her tail was pulled, in turn stopping her.

       The force made Fluttershy jump from her couch. After looking around for a moment, she sighed, realizing it was a nightmare. It had also turned night, and she still had to feed her chickens for their midnight snack. When she got up, a knock was at her door. This time she was okay in answering it.

       When it opened she saw Twilight, and smiled. "Oh,hello Twilight. What do you need?"

       "I wanted to say sorry for scaring you earlier. So I wanted to give you this." Twilight said, pulling a pink book from her saddle bag. "It's a book you can write in, anything you want. There's a magic spell on it so no pony can read what's inside. I hope it'll make you feel better to write your problems away."

       Fluttershy turned her head to the side. "Who said I had problems?" She asked.

      "Well, I thought you had...um...mare issues...Yeah, that's why."

       "Well, there is this nice stallion I met while I was in the market yesterday..." She said, accepting the gift from Twilight. "Thanks alot Twilight, but I need to feed my chickens, then head to bed."

       "Alright! Night!" Twilight said walking away.

       "Writing away my problems? Huh, maybe that'll get my mind off of them."

Day 1

Dear Diary, I'm new to this kind of thing, so I'll start slow. When I was little, I only had one real friend, and her name was Rainbow Dash. She came to my rescue one day when a few bullies started to make fun of me, because I couldn't fly as well as the rest of the pegasi could. When she jumped in, bucking them right in their faces, and telling them they shouldn't bully somepony who is weaker than them. That day we talked, and laughed, it made me feel like I could finally have a break from the hell I lived everyday. Now, after that day, we've been friends ever since.

       Fluttershy closed the book seeing tiny little runes fly across it, protecting the words inside. She actually felt like a tiny but huge weight off of her chest. Her smile grew on her face, and tucked away the small pink book, then looked out her room window. It was as if her whole world seemed to glow brighter, and all she wanted to do was leave the shadow of her past.

       She trotted down stairs, and saw Discord messing around with Angle Bunny. The little bunny was lost in panic as its legs grew, then shrunk, it's ears followed the same path. He stopped when he noticed Fluttershy looking at him. He smiled lightly before teleporting away.

       Fluttershy could only give a sigh as she rolled her eyes. Not that she didn't mind Discord messing around with her favorite pet, but she couldn't really do anything about it. Yeah, she would tell him to stop, but he would do it again. So he would mess around when  wasn't looking. To her it was fair enough, because he was a God, nothing could truly tell him what to do. Besides who could ever order chaos? Not even Celestia could tell the God of Chaos himself to stop messing around.

       Discord's often excuse was "I'm just doing my job to keep my side of the balance in check. It is my lonesome duty to.". All the ponies in the world couldn't argue with his fact.

       After feeding her animals over the course of a few hours, afternoon hit, and she was starting to feel hungry. Her stomach made a few noises which only would've made her notice more how hungry she actually was. She did often skip breakfast to feed her animals.

       When she went inside she saw Rainbow Dash sitting on her stairs. As soon as Rainbow Dash saw that Fluttershy entered the room, she sighed.

       "Twilight came here last night right?" She asked.

       "She did, why?"

       "I think you should be careful. She's trying to find out what happened in our past." She replied. "Careful what you do now." Rainbow Dash said, walking out.

       Fluttershy didn't know what Rainbow Dash was talking about down to the slightest. Why did she need to worry about her friend. Maybe like the dozens of Filly Services ponies who came to Fluttershy's house when she was little.

She watched as Rainbow Dash flew off back to clearing the skies. Nothing in the world could of made Fluttershy more excited. She looked around for any helpless animal that needed her help, and when she found that they were okay, she left her home to walk around town for a bit.

Walking around town gave time for her to think, as well as meet up some some friends. As she neared Rarity's boutique she thought about talking to her, and maybe taking some time to relax at the spa. Relaxing at the spa gave Fluttershy time to day dream, read a book, talk about stallions, and other things that was on her mind.

She knocked a few times, and to Fluttershy's surprise it was Sweetie Bell who answered.

"Oh hey Fluttershy, what's up?" She asked.

"Nothing much, is Rarity home?"

"Not for a little while, she went to the train station to meet with an important client. I think his name was Fashion Forward or something like that." Sweetie Bell stated. "If you want you can help me with cleaning up the place!"

Fluttershy giggled at the filly's request, and nodded. "Okay, I guess I could help for a bit."

"Oh thank you!" Sweetie Bell shouted as she jumped into the air. "Come on! There's a lot to do!"

On the other side of town it was a different story. Rainbow Dash was clearing the sky for a storm that was supposed to be up by the next day, and the old clouds couldn't hold any rain whatsoever. However she was distracted, thinking about last night.

"This is what you do." She said. "You got magic right? So make a book that only you can Fluttershy can open, and when she isn't around, read it."

Twilight took a step back to Rainbow Dash's idea. "What? I can't read her personal thoughts and feelings!"

"Then I guess you'll have to find out what happened some other way then, but my way is easier." Rainbow Dash said.

"No, no...I'll do it. As much as I really want to know what happened, it hurts me to got behind my best friend's back like that."

"Well, its how I found out."

"HEY RAINBOW DASH!" Spitfire called out. "We need these clouds out of the way pronto!"

"Oh, sorry, on it!" She replied, continuing to clear the clouds.

"You seem to be not yourself today." Storm Chaser said. "Everything alright? Is it a stallion?"

"What? NO!" She said. "My best friend is trying to dig some where she shouldn't in another friend's business, and it's my fault."

"Is it Fluttershy?" She asked. "That pony does have a secretive past. Nopony knows what happens behind her door. And it was until she was placed in the orphanage did she actually come up to ponies and talk to them."

"I know, that's the problem. Twilight wan'ts to know what happened before the orphanage."

"Well, tell her I said good luck!" Storm said flying off the other direction.

Rainbow Dash sighed as she broke apart the last cloud. It was only thirty minutes that time to clear the sky, or five times longer than usual. She looked around, double checking to see if she was actually done, and other than her lonely cloud in the sky, she was done.

"That day..." She said to herself as she remembered the day she was ripped away from her parents.

"NO!" They shouted trying to pull back the nimble filly back into her home. "You will not take her away from us!"

"We're sorry ma'am, but ponies have reported to us that she comes to school bruised from head to tail. Until we see that you aren't the ones harming her, she'll be placed in foster care."

"Please don't take my friend away..." Rainbow Dash said. "She's bruised because we play fight alot!"

The FS ponies looked at Rainbow Dash, and gave a frown. "I'm sorry once again little one, but she's not safe here."

"Can I at least say goodbye?" Rainbow Dash asked. "I am her friend...and she's mine!" She said, stomping her small hoof into the cloud. She tried as hard as she could from showing her sadness.

       The two FS ponies glanced over at Rainbow Dash, then to each other before nodding to Fluttershy. She ran over to Rainbow Dash, tear streaming down her face like tiny rivers. They embraced in a hug that made it feel like time had stopped, just for them.

       "How long will you be gone?" Dash asked.

       "A month, or until I'm adopted by a nicer family." Fluttershy answered her friend. "I'll write if you want."

       Rainbow Dash nodded, her head rubbing against Fluttershy's plush yellow coat. "I'll miss you."

       "And me too..."

       "Alright, time's up you two. Finish up." The mare said.

       "NO!"

        When Rainbow Dash noticed she was close to smashing into a tree, she turned upwards, and gazed towards Fluttershy's cottage. After giving a light sigh, she flew into her home, locking the door. Flying into her bathroom, she turned on the shower, and began to cry.