Heh.
Who would've known that this would have happen so soon? I mean... I knew you had to go eventually. I guess I just... I just talked myself into the idea that you would be with me for much longer until I believed it whole-heartedly. I guess... I was scared by the idea of losing you. I still am, I am horrified by the fact that you aren't here with us, with me anymore.
Twilight tried to comfort me by reassuring me that you were in a better place now. I already knew that you were going to a better place, a place you wouldn't have to visit the hospital for several checkups every weekend. Her words did make me feel a little bit better, though. Her presence just reminded me further that I wasn't alone, even when the pony I shared her life with is gone. Never to return.
The funeral ended a few hours ago. I never left your side since the moment you were buried. I don't want to leave you, I will never leave you, as you never left my side, even when I was a dragon and destroyed so many things when I grew up. Even when I grew up from my childish crush I had on you and realized that I truly did love you, you never left me and became disgusted because of a dragon thinking so highly of you.
Heh, look at me, bringing up the past out of the blue. You know how it went and how it ended up. All those years were beautiful and I owe it all to you.
Rarity Belle, you were amazing. I don't really know how to say it differently. You always had your positive outlook on everything, even when the end drew closer for you. You smiled. You laughed. Like I always remembered you doing whenever I came home.
I don't... I don't know what I'm supposed to do now... You were everything I had now when Twilight moved back to Canterlot. There is no way I'll be able to keep both the library and the Carousel Boutique running on my own. Both of us remember how well it ended the last time I decided to make a dress... At least you got a good laugh out of it. That's all that mattered to me.
To think that you would be the first one to go of your friends... You always seemed so healthy and you took care of yourself. I may be overthinking it, but it could have been a genetic fault. Oh well, what happens, happens. I can't control it, no matter how hard I try.
All I wanted was to make you happy and keep you safe. I know I kept you happy and that makes me happy. To keep you safe... I did everything I could but time eventually takes all of us so it was to be expected, sadly. It was all just a question of when and how. My only comfort is that you passed away silently and calmly in your own bed, not in some hospital far away from home and everything that makes you comfortable.
I held you in my arms when it happened. I felt you growing colder for every second. Your breaths became shorter and shorter, until they finally stopped altogether. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks after I realised what had happened to you. I kissed your forehead one last time, tucked you down properly and went off to the hospital to break the news of what had happened.
The lonely walk to the hospital felt longer than ever before. I couldn't feel my claws scraping the ground beneath me, nor could I hear any birds or any critters doing their business. I was numb, I was deaf. I had no emotions whatsoever except for the empty feeling in my heart and soul. Something was missing. To correct myself, you were gone and the part of you inside of me went away with you. All I had left of you were my memories of a life we built together.
As soon as I entered the hospital, a doctor I recognized approached me with an unreadable expression. I don't remember much else from that night aside the fact that he asked me something and I answered with a solemn nod. After that, everything became a blur and eventually, here we are. Exactly five days since you passed away and everything was finally set and ready for your funeral.
These last days... I had to force myself out of bed to get even the easiest tasks done. As soon as she heard of what had happened, Twilight came down from Canterlot to attend the funeral and to help me get through the week without you near me and just being with me. I just...
I just miss you... So much. Oh man, I'm starting to cry again... I haven't cried for decades but these tears are justified. I lost you on a moment's notice and I will never see you again... What am I supposed to do...
Twilight says that I should let you go but when she suggested that, I snapped at her and said that I couldn't just let go of nearly sixty years together. She calmed me down and explained that if I keep getting dragged down from you passing away, eventually I could become depressed and attempt to join you.
I understood what she meant... The first day without you was pure agony, the second day without you was nothing short of a living hell. Even though I am ashamed to admit it, I did consider joining you but after the conversation I had with Twilight, I changed my mind very quickly. Besides, I couldn't stand the pressure of making our friends lose another close friend on such a short notice.
Pinkie Pie would be heartbroken, to say the least.
My point is... Even though I love you so much that I'd do everything. Everything to have you back with me, I need to let you go for your own sake. For my sake. I don't know how long my lifespan is but if I'd guess it's around a few thousand years. To walk around with such a burden for so long... I would lose my mind...
I guess all I can say is... Goodbye, my Rarity.
Author's Note
Woops. This happened, sorry for the crappy quality but I wanted to write something.
