Easing the Cycle

by ChroniclerOfFantasies

Rating: everyone
Tags: Tragedy, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Romance, Original Character, Princess Cadance
Length: 10293

Cadence, the princess of love. One would think she'd have the usual story. Her knight in shining armor whisks her away to a beautiful palace where they live happily ever after, and while that may have happened, few know that it was the wrong kni

Cadence, the princess of love. One would think she'd have the usual story. Her knight in shining armor whisks her away to a beautiful palace where they live happily ever after. And while that may have happened, few know that it was the wrong knight.

A peaceful conversation brings up painful memories from Cadences past along with a slew of questions left unanswered for years. Now armed with a painful truth, she sets out to reclaim what she lost.

Published 2014-03-24 19:30:05 UTC
Last updated 2014-03-24 19:30:05 UTC

Never Loved

“But that was a long time ago. Now we’re just living happily together, right shining?” Cadence said. Shining smiled and nodded his head as he ate one of the tea shops little cakes. He and Cadence had just finished telling Twilight and the others the story of how they met and became a couple at the academy.

While Rarity and Fluttershy sat with rapped attention, Raibow Dash had been bored out of her mind and Pinky was too busy lecturing the shop owners on how to throw a proper party, much to the workers dismay.

“That is simply the most MARVELOUS story I have ever heard!” said Rarity. “But I must ask you both… did you truly never have another pony you liked before you met each other? There wasn’t a filly or foal you had a crush on in your early days?”

“Not a one.” Shining replied.

“Well…” Cadence said, her voice hushed and her eyes looking sadly away.

“Wait there was another guy?” Shining asked.

“Yes. We split up shortly before we got together actually. It was… more than a little heartbreaking.”

“Oh, tell us Cadence. What’s the story behind this one?” Rarity said.

Cadence now had everyone’s full attention. They knew about her happy ever after with Shining, but now they wanted to hear about the person who could be so cruel as to break poor Cadence’s heart. She looked around the table, a sad look on her face as she sighed. “There… isn’t much to tell to be honest. It was so… sudden. To tell you the truth I haven’t gotten over it yet.”

“But Cadence… you’re married to my brother! Are you saying you still love somepony else?”

“Yeah Cadence… what are you trying to say?” Shining said. He wasn’t even trying to hide the animosity in his voice.

“Don’t get me wrong! I love shining. Truly I do! What I mean is… the way the two of us ended… it left so many questions unanswered. I was so confused, still am. If I saw him now I’m not sure how I would feel or what I would do. I don’t know whether I’d hug him, blast him with questions, or hit him with my hoof.”

“I can think of what I’D do…” said her ever so jealous husband.

“Please don’t start Shining. I guess I’ll tell you a little bit about him. You see his name was Glowing Radiance but you’d never catch anyone calling him that. He hated that name and insisted that everyone call him Rade. He was a light blue unicorn with short spiky navy blue hair and a pretty big tail that he kept tied at the base. He had a weird tendency to always keep his ears down. Whenever you asked why he always said that it was for fun, but I never saw what was so much fun about it. He was a genius too. His magic skills were so great that some thought he would have been a match for Celestia. Of course that wasn’t true, but if you could see the things he did you’d find it hard to believe it wasn’t.”

“I bet he wasn‘t even in my league!” Shining said as he puffed out his chest.

“Oh no not even close.” Shining smiled with pride. “He was at least ten leagues higher.” Shining leaned over like he had been kicked in the gut. That was obviously a harsh blow to his pride. “I remember Celestia meeting him once, and if you ask her this she’ll deny it, but after talking with him a bit and seeing him do some amazing magic she accidentally said ‘Good job, Starswirl!’. I kid you not!”

They’re mouths dropped to the table. “Did she really, Cadence?” Twilight asked.

“Like I said she’ll deny it if you ask, but it’s true. I’ll never forget the day he took up a challenge just to prove he wasn’t as strong as Celestia. He had gotten so frustrated with everyone comparing him to the princess he walked right past the guards and straight into our dining hall early in the morning before the sun rose demanding that Celestia teach him the spell so he could give it a shot and everyone would stop comparing the two. You should have seen the look on our faces!”

“Whoa seriously? Celestia must have been angry!” Shining said a little hopeful.

“Oh no not at all! In fact she just laughed and spent the next twenty minutes teaching him the spell. Then once it hit six o’clock, we went to the balcony where she raised the sun every morning alongside a couple of guards and watched his attempt.”

“Wait he really tried to raise the sun?!” Twilight shouted astounded. It was such a shock even rainbow dash had started paying attention again.

“He didn’t TRY Twilight… he SUCCEEDED. I mean by the time he was done he was barely able to stand and had blood dripping from his nose due to the strain, but yes, he managed to raise the sun. A few seconds after words he ended up passing out, not his most graceful moment I assure you. You should have seen him when he woke up. He looked at me and asked me how bad he did and you know I told him how he did it. By Celestia was he mad! The entire reason he did that was to prove that he wasn’t on Celestias level but there he goes raising the sun. The teasing only got worse after that.

“Anyways we had been good friends ever since we were small. As we grew up it became something a bit… more. I think the best part of being around him was that he always made me feel so small.”

Rainbow Dash slammed her hoof on the table. “How can feeling small be a GOOD thing?!”

“Well when I was younger people looked at me and they saw someone who was good at everything. I was pretty, smart, great at sports, there was nothing I couldn’t do. And when I became an Alicorn I was showered with even more praise than I already had. I always felt so much BIGGER than everypony and I hated it. I didn’t want the attention or the adoration. I just wanted to be treated like a normal pony. But him? He was TRULY great. Yes I was good at everything… but even I had to work a little to be that way. Him? He was a natural. Better than everyone. If you could do it he could do it better, and on his first try no less. He made everything seem so effortless and to him it was. Yet even though he was the best, he didn’t act like it. He didn’t see himself as this amazing guy. He just did stuff and did it well and that was all and he was always calm, cool, collected. Nothing ever phased him. People showered him with praise constantly but he could have cared less. I was a Princess, but in my eyes, HE was a KING. And as a King he treated me like a Queen. Everything was perfect.”

“It certainly sounds like it. So what happened then? Why would the two of you break up?” Rarity asked.

“She’s right. If you were so happy together… what went wrong?” Fluttershy added.

Cadence looked down and sighed. With her eyes closed she said “I don’t know.”

Shining looked up confused. “What do you mean you don’t know?”

“I mean exactly what I said, love. I don’t know. The day after hearts and hooves day he knocked on my door in the middle of the night. My mom saw it was him and he asked to see me. Naturally I rushed down to meet him excited but when I saw the look on his face I got scared. His face was cold, uncaring. The only times I ever saw his face like that was when he had bad news. I looked at him and said “What’s wrong, Rade?”

Cadence paused staring blankly at her empty plate on the table, lost deep in her memories. Her eyes began to water. Tears didn’t fall, but they surely wanted out. Shining tried to give her a comforting hoof but she shoved him away, much to everyone’s surprise. She took a deep shaky breath before she continued.

“Rade… he looked me dead in the eyes and said ‘I’m breaking up with you.’ Then he just… walked away. He didn’t say another word. Didn’t wait to see my reaction. Just walked away never to be seen again.”

“Wait what do you mean never to be seen again?!” Pinkie asked.

“Just that. After he left me broken hearted at my doorstep, no one ever saw him again. He was just… gone. Poof. Like he had never existed at all. His parents came over to my house the next morning asking if we had any idea where he was. All I was able to tell them was that he broke up with me and walked away. He sent all of Canterlot into chaos. Only one person saw him after me and that was Cherilee. She saw him walking into the Everfree forest about an hour after he left my house. She didn’t think anything of it at the time because for him that was a perfectly normal thing to do. He used to go into the forest all the time to research the creatures and plants that lived there. She told me once that she wanted to ask him about what he was doing but thought against it. Now it’s her biggest regret.”

“He sounds like a complete jerk if you ask me!” Rainbow shouted. The rest of the ponies all nodded their heads in agreement.

“Maybe. But I still wonder, what happened to him in those woods? Where did he go and why did he leave so suddenly? Was it my fault? Did I do something wrong? Did I nag him too much? Was I too clingy? I thought we were so happy and then… in an instant… it was over. Like I had been living a dream.”

There was an awkward silence that passed through the group of ponies. None of them really knew what to say or think. Sure everypony thought he was a jerk, but he was certainly a very mysterious jerk. The silence was finally broken when Pinkie couldn’t take it anymore and pulled out her party cannon, raining streamers and confetti all over the café, much to the dismay of its employees. After another hour of talking and catching up, they all parted their ways with Cadence and shining returning to the Palace.

As Luna rose the moon and night fell upon the castle, Cadence and Shining Armor laid down to sleep. Shining was out like a light within minutes, but Cadence stayed wide awake for quite some time, the thought of the days conversation running through her head. She hadn’t thought of Glowing Radiance in years. She tried her best not to. They had become painful memories for her. Yet here she was thinking of him again. Questions filled her mind, just like the night he left. But soon exhaustion overcame her, and drifted into the world of dreams.

Cadence opened her eyes and found herself looking in a mirror. Her mouth fell open when she saw her younger self staring back. She looked around to see that she was in her old room again. She was more than a little confused. Had she not been with Shining Armor just moments ago?

Just then she heard her mother call from the stairs. “Oh Cadence! Rade’s here to see you!”

Cadence looked at the door. “Rade… but that’s impossible… have I traveled back in time. No… I wouldn’t be younger if that had happened…”

“Cadence are you coming? He looks pretty serious I think it’s something important.”

“C-Coming mom!” she called. She opened the door and began running down the stairs. She opened the door and repeated the words she said so long ago. “What’s wrong Rade?”

“I’m breaking up with you.” he said and he turned around and started walking away.

Suddenly grief and panic overtook the princess. “Rade stop! Don’t go to Everfree please!” She tried to run after him but slammed into a barrier halfway through her yard. She got up and started ramming her head against the invisible shield. Smashing at it with all her might trying to will it to break, but nothing worked. She slumped into the dirt crying as she watched him walking away. “Rade please… at least tell me why… why are you leaving? Why are you going to everfree? Please just give me a reason. I want to know something before you disappear, please! Anything!”

“RADE DON’T GO!” she screamed sitting up and opening her eyes. She placed a hoof over her head as she shielded her eyes from the rays of the sun. Once they adjusted she was able to see that she was still in her room in the castle, tears still streaming down her face as reality sunk in. “It was… just a nightmare?”

“Yeah. One I sadly couldn’t wake you out of. Cadence turned her head to find a very annoyed Shining Armor with a plate full of food. It took her a while to realize why he was so upset but when she did she tried her best to apologize.

“Shining I’m sorry! You know I didn’t mean to.”

He raised his hoof. “It’s alright. After listening to ‘No Rade!’ ‘Rade please don’t go!’ ‘Rade I LOVE you!’ for an hour, you get used to it.” he said with a mocking tone.

Cadence flinched. Had she been like that all night? No wonder he was upset. Shining sighed, and put down his jelly biscuit. “Look, I’m sorry. No one can control what they dream about… except maybe Luna. I know you it’s not your fault so let’s just forget about it and get through our day okay? We got a lot of work ahead of us.

Cadence smiled. Where would she be without such an understanding husband? Of course, understanding and patient are two different things. And while he was both, his patience began to wear thin when it happened the next night… and the next… and the next… and the next. Finally a week had passed and every night Cadence talked in her sleep begging Rade not to go. And every morning she woke up crying next to an upset Shining Armor. By the end of the week she was getting the full silent treatment. She and Armor couldn’t even look each other in the eyes.

Cadence was depressed. Between the nightmares, the stress of her royal duties, and the animosity between her and Shining at the moment, she just couldn’t handle it. So with some permission from Celestia she left the castle to go visit Twilight.

“That’s terrible Cadence. I can’t believe Shining would act like that.”

“Anypony would act like that in this situation, Twilight.”

“Have you talked to Princess Luna? Maybe there’s something she could do.”

“Yes, but she said she can’t do anything because the trauma is too bad. She said they either have to go away on their own or I have to find out what really happened.”

“So all you can do is wait?

Cadence nodded her head. “Oh what should I do Twilight? At this rate Armor and I are going to end up sleeping in different rooms and I don’t know if I could take that!”

“Sorry Cadence but I’m terrible at advice… although…”

Cadence lifted her head off of Twilights desk. “What? What is it?”

“There’s a Zebra who lives in the Everfree forest. Her name’s Zecora and she brews all sorts of helpful potions. Perhaps she can give you something to make the nightmare’s go away!”

“Oh thank you Twilight, thank you!”

AT ZECORA’S

“Hello Zecora!” Twilight said with a smile on her face.

“Ah miss Sparkle! What a surprise and who is this I see with my eyes?”

“This,” she points a hoof towards Cadence “Is my sister-in-law, Cadence.” Cadence managed to squeak out a weak hello as she fought her ever growing fatigue.

“We were wondering if you could help her?”

Zecora gave a soft smile. “Sit over there you two, and Zecora will see what she can do.”

Cadence recounted everything that happened over the past week, even going into detail on what happened between herself and Rade all those years ago. When she finished her tale Zecora sat silently, pondering what to do.

Anxious Cadence asked “So… can you make me something to make the nightmares go away?”

“I could I could. But I thinks perhaps it’s not right that I should.”

“What?!” Cadence screamed. “You have to help me my marriage is at stake here!”

“Calm down Princess I understand. But I may just have a better plan.”

“Better? What could be better?”

Zecora walked over to her many cupboards and began looking through them, shuffling quickly through the contents. “You say you’re tortured by that day? Do you still wish to know his fate?”

Cadence was stunned into silence. “Are you… are you saying you can find out what happened?”

Zecora shook her head and looked at Twilight. “I cannot tell you what happened in his past. But perhaps if you’re lucky, we won’t have to ask. Do you have anything that belonged to him then? If you do I can make a potion for your friend..”

Twilight opened her mouth, but shut it and looked at Cadence. Cadence put her head down and took a deep breath before replying. “Yes… I do. But if I give it too you, will I get it back?”

“The potion I brew is a powerful one. Once it’s in, the item is done.”

“But… you’re sure that I can find out the truth?”

“So long as he had feelings for you.”

Cadence looked down at her hooves and thought for a long time. She took a deep breath before looking up and saying. “Alright. I’ll do it. Twilight, I want you to teleport to my room in Canterlot. Look in my luggage and you’ll find a small purple jewelry box. I want you to bring it to me okay?” Twilight nodded her head. And disappeared in a flash of purple light. It was silent for a few minutes, save for the sound of Zecora mixing her potion. Suddenly they heard a loud crashing sound and turned to find Fluttershy and Rarity standing there.

“Oh, I’m sorry Zecora.” Rarity said. “I stumbled right before I pushed the door open and it seems that I startled you and your guest. Speaking of which, I didn’t know you knew Princess Cadence!”

“Well she didn’t really. You see since I told you guys the story at the café I’ve been having
nightmares about that day. Twilight said that if I came here Zecora might be able to brew me a potion to make them stop.”

“Can you?” Fluttershy asked.

“A potion for nightly fears is easy to make these years, but Cadence’s problem runs deeper than that, so I’m brewing another to find what she lacks.”

“Your pardon?” Rarity said confused.

“Zecora thinks she can make something to help me find out what happened to Rade all those years ago.”

Rarity and Fluttershy both gasped. “Well,” Rarity said. “I just came here to find out more about her culture for a new line of clothes I’m working on… but this is much more important! Mind if I stick around to see what happens?”

“Me too, I mean… if you want…”

Cadence giggled. “Yes, it’s fine. I need another ingredient though, something that belonged to him. Twilight’s gone to fetch it.” Just then a bright purple flash ripped through the room and there stood Twilight with Cadence’s jewelry box.

“Here you go Cadence. Oh! Hi Rariy. Hi Fluttershy. What are you doing here?”

“Never mind that Twilight. We’re just here for Cadence now.”

“Thank you Twilight, and you too Rarity and Fluttershy.” Cadence opened up the box, setting the bottom aside and holding the lid. Very carefully she removed the fabric the covered the inside of the lid and pulled out a beautiful golden ring with a large diamond on it.

“What IS that?” Fluttershy asked.

“It is… no. It WAS our engagement ring.”

Everyone except Zecora sucked in their breath. “Wait… you were ENGAGED?” Twilight asked.

“WERE… and that was a very long time ago. We were young but we… we truly loved each other. He proposed to me even though we were still in school. It’s funny looking back. Normally people freak out when the couple makes a decision like that while they’re so young. Yet nobody judged us. Everyone was supportive even our parents. We were just so…” Perfect for each other. She thought.

“Will this do, Zecora?”

“So long as his feelings for you were true, it shall make for an excellent ingredient to brew.” Zecora took the ring and tossed it into the pot while Cadence flinched. She knew she shouldn’t have kept that ring all these years, especially when she was with her husband now. But it had become something she just couldn’t let go of. The memories, the emotions, they were just too precious for her.

“The potion will be ready by tomorrow Princess. Please return here after some well deserved rest.”

Cadence and the others thanked her. Rarity asked if she and the others could come with her in the morning and Cadence happily agreed, so long as they didn’t tell Shining Armor about the engagement ring. They all returned home, Cadence hoping that Shining would be asleep and as luck would have it he was. She laid next to him and drifted to sleep.

But this time there were no nightmares. Just dreams of the happy days she spent with her beloved Rade.

Cadence awoke with Shining Armor nowhere to be found. Normally this would have sent her into a panic but today she was thankful for it. She looked at the clock only to discover she was late! She got ready as fast as she could and didn’t even bother putting on some of her usual attire. No make up today. No crown or fancy shoes. Just brush her mane and go. Today was too important of a day to be late.

She arrived at Zecora’s shop and could see through the window that there were already people there. She sighed out of embarrassment. She was sure Twilight was going to nag her about waking up on time and being punctual. Closing her eyes and preparing herself for the oncoming nagging she pushed open the door.

“Sorry I’m late everyone. I accidentally slept in. But I’m here now so let’s get started.”

“Yes… let’s. I want to know what happened to this Fiancé of yours.” Said a voice she wasn’t expecting. Cadence snapped her eyes open to see Shining Armor standing in the middle of the crowd of ponies. He was angry, that much was for sure. What she wasn’t sure about was how he knew. She looked at the gaggle of girls over in the corner. Five of them parted like the sea to reveal an ashamed Applejack.

“Applejack… why?”

“Because I asked, that’s why. I had a feeling you were going to try and find out more about what happened to… Rade. And I wanted to know what you found out. So here we are.”

“Fine then… do what you like Shining. Okay Zecora, let’s do this.”

“This is the potion that you must drink, but don’t be surprised if it’s different than what you think.”

Twilight grabbed the potion and held it to her face. It was in a crystal flask that glimmered a very light pink. “Hey Zecora,” she asked. “Have you given me this potion before by any chance?”

“I believe I have, princess Twilight. You used it to help you in the Everfree fight.”

Twilight smiled. “Here Cadence, drink up. I’ve had this before so I know it’ll work now.”

Cadence grabbed the glass and downed it, sighing contentedly when she finished. After a few seconds she said “Nothing’s happen-” but her words never finished. Cadence stood completely still, like she was lost in a trance. And not just her but Twilight too.

“Hey… hey what’s going on?” Shining asked. “What’s wrong with Twily?!”

“You’re worried about your sister and not your wife?” said Rainbow Dash angrily.

“Shining Armor worry not, for it seems that I have forgot. When one drinks this special brew, they stay connected until serving number two.”

“So she’s just seeing what Cadence is-” Shining stopped talking at the sound of sobbing. Everyone turned their eyes to Cadence. Tears fell like waterfalls down her cheeks. With wide eyes and a slack jaw, she began to mumble to herself almost incoherently.

“Rade no… please no. You’re not alone… I’m right here… please… look at me… I’m right here please…” Suddenly her eyes seemed to come back to life. Her already shaking legs buckled under the weight they no longer had the strength to carry. Twilight placed a hoof on Cadence’s head and spoke to her sister-in-law softly.

“Cadence it’s okay. He did it to protect you. To protect EVERYPONY. It wasn’t in vain…”

“But he was calling me Twilight! He was alone and scared and all he wanted was me! He knew what was coming and he was so terrified. In the end all he wanted was me… but I… I… oh I’m so ashamed. I spent that night cursing him. Hoping he would burn. But he… he…”

Cadence struggled to get back on her hooves. “Everyone I’m sorry but… I need to go for a little while. I need to be alone. I’ll see you all later… eventually.”

Several days passed and people grew worried. Cadence had not left her room in all that time. She was supposed to return to the Crystal Empire a while ago but she refused to go anywhere. She was barely eating, and she only ever left in the dead of night to use the restroom.

Shining Armor didn’t stay. “Somepony has to run the Crystal Empire!” he said before he stormed off and onto the train. Twilight refused to talk about what happened. Apparently Cadence made her promise not to tell. Besides, she didn’t really feel like she had the right.

Finally though Twilight decided that it was time to talk to Cadence whether she wanted to or not. She stood at her door, Celestia and Luna on either side of her, and knocked gently with her hoof. “Cadence? Cadence are you there? It’s me, Twilight… I’m coming in okay?”

She pushed the door open gently and peered inside. What she saw astounded her. Books lay scattered everywhere, scrolls had been littered about haphazardly. Bags of snacks she had snuck from the kitchen crunched under Twilight’s feet. She moved over to Cadence to find the young Princess fast asleep and covered by a yellow blanket with her hair tied up and sprayed over her shoulder. Her matted fur was covered in stains and frankly she smelled terrible.

Twilight looked at the book under Cadence’s hoof and gasped.

These… they’re all books about time travel magic! How did she get so many? Twilight nudged her old foal sitter, begging her to wake. “Cadence… Cadence wake up please. We need to talk.”

“Wh-what? Rade? Is that you?” Cadence lifted her head slowly and sighed when she saw Twilight. “Oh… it’s just you Twilight. What do you want?”

“Cadence listen to me please. You can’t change the past. He’s time locked. There’s no helping him now. He’s stuck in an infinite loop you can’t change that!”

“Twilight I… WE owe him. He saved us all. The least we can do is TRY to save him.”

“And if it was still all those years ago I’m sure we could. But we can’t now. Celestia banned time travel magic for a REASON. Trust me I know from first hoof experience. Besides even if you ARE a princess, you wouldn’t be able to hold that gate open AND save him at the same time. You’ll die from exhaustion long before you ever get anywhere.”

“I have to try, Twilight. All these years… all these years and I didn’t know how much he suffered. None of us did. So many people came to hate him. So many people couldn’t stand him… it’s time to set things right. I’m going to save his life and he’s going to live it through like he was meant to!”

“And what about Shining?”

“What about him?”

“If you save Rade you’ll have no reason to be with my brother. You’ll never fall in love with him, never get married! You’ll end up with Rade instead!”

Cadence looked away. “At this point, Twilight… I’m not so sure how bad of a thing that would be.”

Twilight gasped. “What… what’re you saying?”

“Look around, Twilight! Do you see your brother anywhere?! NO! He’s in the crystal empire!”

“Somepony has to run your kingdom!”

“The crystal empire has an entire council under me who can run things on their own! I’m little
more than a figurehead! The empire doesn’t NEED us, but I DO need him! But oh look, he’s not even here is he?”

“That’s because… because…”

“Girls that’s enough.” Celestia said entering the room. Luna followed in suit as the two walked over to Twilight and Cadence. “Bickering will get us nowhere. And as for this business about going back in time… I believe we should try. If we work together, it might just work.”

Twilight walked over to Celestia and looked her in the eyes. “But you said that type of magic is forbidden.”

“And it is, for good reason as you APPARENTLY already know.” Twilight flinched. “But Cadence is not the only one who feels guilty. Rade came to me all those years ago trying several times to warn me of an oncoming tragedy. He pleaded with me several times to be at the ready to do something about it. He came to me time and again but I always shrugged it off thinking he was talking nonsense. Then when he disappeared… somehow I knew. He had gone to confront whatever danger had risen against his home and he had succeeded but at a steep cost. I feel I am partly to blame for this, and I wish to rectify this wrong.”

“My sister and I have talked it over and we believe that if the four of us princesses work together we can send you back for about an hour Cadence. But we can’t give you a second more.”

Cadence shot up from her bed. “You mean you’ll help me?!”

“Of course.” Celestia replied. “I’d do anything to help Starswirl… I mean Glorious Radiance.”

Cadence rushed over to Celestia, wrapping her in a hug. “Thank you so much… this means so much to me you have no idea!”

“Come now,” Luna said. “Let’s get ready.”

Night fell over Canterlot. Twilight, Celestia, Luna, and Cadence stood together in a magic circle. Twilight had been upset ever since they had agreed to do this. She didn’t want to do it, but without her help it couldn’t be done so she agreed but remained vocal about her feelings towards the whole ordeal.

“Is everypony ready? Cadence have you cast a secure illusion spell? We don‘t want anyone from the past recognizing you.” Celestia asked. Cadence, who now resembled Celestia in every way, nodded her head. “Alright then, let’s begin.”

They closed their eyes, willing magic into and out of their horns. Light gathered in a circle at their center. It started out small, now bigger round than a can of fruit, but it slowly began to expand, spreading a dazzling light all over the throne room. “Now Cadence!” Luna shouted. She wasted no time, running at the light in a full gallop she jumped into the air and dived into the portal as the light faded behind her.

Neverending Love

Small green flames singed the ground around her as Cadence woke up. She looked around, her eyesight fuzzy and her head in a daze. As her world stopped spinning and her eyesight readjusted, she found herself in the palace gardens. She stood up shakily, the ride through the portal had been a bumpy one and her body was reluctant to move. Unfortunately for her she didn’t have much of a choice. Every second was precious. Cadence spread out her wings, jumping back for a moment before remembering why they were white. She would have to keep in mind that while she was here she was actually Celestia.

She took off into the air and headed straight for the residential area of Canterlot. She and the other princesses had discussed how she’d go about saving Rade. The enemy Rade faced was too powerful for Cadance, or any of the princesses for that matter, to face alone. Even Celestia would fall by its hand if she wasn’t careful.

Therefore if Cadence was to save Rade, she needed help. They considered asking the Celestia of the past, but in order to get to Celestia they would need someone who could walk through the palace unhindered. Back then Cadence was the only one who could do that aside from Celestia herself and since it was already decided that Cadence needed to be in disguise there was no way she could get help from her. Not without needlessly fighting the royal guard or worse, Celestia herself.

With no other alternative left, they knew there was only one pony in that time who had enough of the magic she needed to help her protect Rade. And that was herself. Cadence needed to find Cadence and she knew exactly where to go.

She touched down on the doorstep of a rather large home. It wasn’t the biggest in Canterlot, but it was certainly bigger and more extravagant than anything you’d see in Ponyville or most of the other towns and cities in Equestria. Cadence knocked on the door with her hoof and waited patiently before the door opened with a click and there stood her mother, albeit much younger than she was in her own time.

“Ah, Princess Celestia. Are you here for Cadence? I’m sorry but… can you come back in a little while maybe? Cadence… something just happened and she… she’s not her best at the moment.”

“I’m sorry Mrs. Cadenza, but it can’t wait. Please excuse me.” Cadence pushed passed the younger version of her mother and walked into her homes living. She turned to her right, heading up the stairs that led to her old room and knocked on the door. She heard sobbing and sniffles from the other side.

“Who is it?”

“It’s me, Princess Celestia. Cadence I know you don’t want to speak with me or anypony right now, but it’s urgent. Please let me in we have no time to waste!”

Cadence waited a few moments before hearing the door click unlocked. She gave it a soft push, causing it to swing in and open up. What she saw was a bit unnerving. She looked down to see a younger version of herself curled into a ball with her head lying on a soaked pillow. The disguised Cadence gently closed the door behind her before approaching the younger Cadence before speaking.

“Cadence, what did Rade do?” The younger Cadence looked up from her pillow for a second before flopping her head back down and speaking in muffled tones.

“He broke up with me. ME. The love of his life. Or at least, I thought I was. I mean, we… we were going to get married and now… now I’m just… I don’t even know.”

The older Cadence chuckled. “It’s not funny, Celestia!”

“I’m not laughing at you. I’m laughing at how big of an idiot Rade is.” the older Cadence walked a bit forwards, tilting her head down and looking her in the eyes. “Listen to me, what he said was a lie.”

The younger Cadence looked up to what she thought was Celestia. “A… lie? Why would he lie about something like that?”

“So he could see you without you following him. Listen Cadence I’ve made a terrible mistake. There’s a horrible monster about to be unleashed on Equestria any minute now and the only thing standing in his way is Rade. He… tried to warn me… but I didn’t listen. I thought what he was talking about was nothing more than a myth… but I was wrong. I was in the palace library not long ago looking through old royal archives for some menial thing that’s unimportant. What IS important are several old scrolls I found written by people who would be very reliable sources from that time. They documented and talked about he very same beast that Rade has gone off to fight.”

“It was a monster so strong it took two pureblood Alicorns just to seal him away… both of which died after the battle.” The younger Cadence gasped.

“But… princess. Aren’t pureblood Alicorns like you… immortal?”

“Yes. But this monster is something unlike any other. He is the only being in the world capable of killing an Alicorn. And Rade has gone to face him alone.”

“But… but I… I don‘t understand. Why would he do that? Why would he say those things if he was going to his death? Why now, of all times? Why? We’re supposed to get married! The weddings in just a few months. We’ve been so excited! My girl friends and I were looking for a dress, we were choosing the themes. Why would he just leave me like this? If… if he really does hate me. Then I guess it’s best to just stay out of his way. It’s not like there’s anything I can do. Go Celestia… you have real power. I… I can’t offer him anything anymore…”

“Cadence… what makes you say that?!”

“Look at me Celestia! I’m a princess of love! Yet… yet… I couldn’t even keep him. You know, he always told me that I shouldn’t rely on love to fix everything. He used to tell me that love wouldn’t stop someone from hurting you, from hating you, especially not if it meant protecting you. He used to say that love is only as strong as the trust that’s built from it. That without that trust it’s nothing more than emotions fueled by chemicals in the brain. But I… must have somehow betrayed that trust. I must have done something wrong. There’s no other explanation. He hates me because of something I did and I have to figure out what. I’m powerless without love, and he’s holding all the love I have.”

“Oh Cadance that’s not it at all. Don’t you see? Rade believes he’s going to his death. He doesn’t want you to get hurt but at the same time he wanted to see you again. So he came up with a clever little trick, one that only he, in all his brilliance could come up with. He decided to break up with you. This way he could see you again, keep you from following him to his death, and make it so that you wouldn’t worry about him for the rest of your life due to pure hate.”

“But that’s impossible! I… I could never hate him…” younger Cadence screamed. She stood up and wiped the tears from her face.

“Weren’t you just cursing his name a moment ago?”

“I…! No! No… of course not. Why would I…”

“Cadence we need to go. If we’re to save Rade then we’ve no time to waste here. Please, quickly!”

“Just tell me where he is? That foal needs a hoof to the head!”

The older Cadence smiled. “Just follow me. We’re heading to the Everfree Forest.”

They flew as hard as they could, the elder Cadence leading the way. She knew exactly where to go. She had seen the place in her dreams. It was a massive lake filled with enchanted water made to be thousands of times denser that it was supposed to. The demon had been sealed beneath it, held down by the weight of the water and his chains. Time passed though and the spell weakened releasing him unto the world.

Seconds passed like hours as she flew. Like time in an hour glass, these were the last moments of his life. If she could get there quickly enough then maybe, just maybe, she could save him. Her thoughts were interrupted when she looked to her right. A roar ripped through the night, buffeting them with wind and forcing the ground to shiver and quake. Her eyes grew wide at what she saw. A human like creature rose from the water making sounds like thunder as the liquid poured off it’s black chitin skin. Glowing red lines criss-crossed its skin while sounds like thunder reverberated through the forest as the water that rolled off its body slammed back into the lake below.

It sent out a mighty roar and Cadence cringed to see the source. It’s mouth was not located on its head, but its neck. The mountain sized behemoth raised one of its mighty hands, balling it into a fist ready to strike an unforeseen enemy. Suddenly a blast of green light shot forth hitting the beast in the chest and forcing it to stumble. The two Cadences watched in horror as black flakes fell from its body only to form into monsters when they touched the ground.

“That must be Rade!” the younger Cadence shouted. “Come on Celestia let’s move!” She went soaring across the sky at breakneck speeds while the older Cadence took a moment to let reality catch up with her before following herself.

The elder Cadence watched as they sky lit up with colors. The monsters it seems were capable of fighting with magic of their own and were trying desperately to hurt her old fiancé. He had erected a barrier around himself however, and the monsters could do nothing to penetrate it. In fact he paid them no mind as he shot spell after spell, desperately attempting to subdue the beast.

Cadence watched in horror as a ball of red light appeared in front of the beasts head, slowly growing over time. Rade’s barrier had been completely covered by monsters leaving him with no way to see the actions of his enemy. “Cadence!” she called to her younger self. “The demons about to shoot Rade! You keep going to him, I’ll make sure the attack misses!” The younger Cadence nodded her head as she sped on, meanwhile the elder stopped in place, slowly charging up her magic and aiming it right at the beasts head. Flashes of pink covered the field as the two Cadences fired together, the elder striking the demon and the younger killing the monsters that covered her beloved.

The disguised Cadence watched as the monster reeled, the ball of light exploded in its face causing it too fall. She sped onwards toward Rade who was still covered in savage beasts. Helping her younger self she managed to blast enough of them away to create an opening for him to escape. The two alicorns flew low to Rades side as he ran, monsters fast on their tail.

“Rade!” her younger self called. At first Rade showed a slight surprise, then changed to a look of anger.

“What are you doing here loser?! Go home!” he shouted. His voice was firm, but both of the young alicorns could hear the faint quiver in it, one that told of both happiness and fear.

“Enough with your façade Rade, you’re not fooling anyone. We know you just want Cadence to leave so she doesn’t get hurt.” His eyes grew wide when he saw me, though for a brief instant he almost seemed to look confused.

“Princess? You too?”

“Of course!”

The younger Cadence then spoke. “Okay Rade introductions over. Now tell us how to kill this thing!”

Rade nodded his head looking forward as he continued to run. “To be honest I’m not sure we CAN kill this thing. The last time anyone fought it was over ten thousand years ago. There were barely even any records of it’s existence left. Two alicorns fought it long ago. Both pureblood and both dying in the process. They couldn’t kill it and instead sealed it away. The lake is the seal. Deep inside of it are massive chains that he’s broken in order to go free. What we need to do is force it to fall into the water, and reattach the broken chains. After that we just have to increase the water density and he’ll be locked up. Celestia and I will attack it and try to knock it into the lake. Cadence I want you to cover me from the air, keep the monsters falling off it’s body away from me! Once we get it into the water Celestia and I will attach the chains while you cast a weight spell on the water. Got it?”

Both Cadences nodded their heads in agreement. “Alright let’s rev it up!”

The younger Cadence snickered at the use of his catch phrase while the elder one just smiled. As she took her position she could feel the warmth filling her heart at hearing his voice. He was really here, and he was alive! Now all she had to do was keep him that way.

The demon which she decided to refer to as the Colossus had risen back onto it’s feet. It’s massive arm stretched out to swat her down, but she dodged it easily. She could see flashes of light from below as Rade began to circle back around, her younger self protecting him from the air. The elder alicorn looked towards the Colossus with hate in her eyes. It had been his fault that they didn’t get to spend their lives together, his fault that everything fell apart. It should have been Rade that helped her defeat Chrysalis, Rade who protected their new kingdom from King Sombra, Rade who helped make the crystal empire perfect for the Equestria games. Of course the more she thought about it the more she realized Rade would never have let anything go wrong to begin with. With rage building in her heart as she cried over their lost years, she assaulted the Colossus with spell after spell. Pushing it back but not down.

Soon her attacks were met with another, and she looked back to see her precious Rade continuing his earlier assault. She smiled as she watched him, the strongest unicorn alive, battle a monster once thought to be tamable by no less than a god. Then again, she thought, maybe he was on the same level now. After all he was on par with an alicorn, assuming he didn’t become one himself after this. She chuckled quietly as she pictured Rade with wings. The thought was hilarious.

A loud roar forced her mind back to the task at hand. Rade wasn’t going to survive this if she didn’t help him first. She readied up another blast aiming for it’s neck. A second later and a bright blast of pink slammed into the Colussus. It screamed louder than it ever had before, rocking back and forth as it clutched its throat in pain. A moment later she watched as a bolt of green light slammed into the back of it’s knee causing its leg to buckle and forcing it onto one knee.

Cadence charged up another shot quickly and launched it straight into the Colossuses head, forcing it backwards and into the water. They did it! The Colossus was down! She watched as the monsters stopped pursuing Rade and fled back to their master in a desperate bid to save him. She swooped down quickly letting out a barrage of spells to keep the beasts from reaching him. Soon she was joined by her younger version and the two of them watched as Rade pulled the heavy chains out of the water, wrapping them around the savage beast and mending the broken links. While he did that the younger Cadence activated her spell and the beast began to sink below its depths. With all of the monsters either rejoined with the original or destroyed, the elder Cadence flew back to Rade and helped to seal the savage beast.

The Colossus writhed and thrashed about, refusing to go down without even spilling a single drop of blood. It grabbed at it’s chains, and just before being pulled under the surface broke one of them sending it flying through the air… and straight at the two of them.

Time slowed down as she watched the chain come at her. She saw the look on her younger self’s face, filled with horror. Her mouth opened wide as she let out a scream, her legs and wings just barely able to move. She turned to Rade ready to push him out of the way, but was shocked to find him already doing the same. “CADENCE!” He screamed, and pushed the disguised alicorn out of the way as the chain fell on him. In that moment everything came to a halt. She had come all this way to save him and even so he still died.

Paralyzed by shock she scarcely noticed her younger self flying towards her. “Celestia… CELESTIA! Come on we have to lift this off of him! He could still be alive! He HAS to be alive!” she shouted, holding her elder self’s face in her hooves.

The older alicorn came back to her senses and stood up, pumping all of the magical strength she could into levitating the chain. It was far heavier than she thought and she had no idea how he had managed to do it earlier when she could barely do it with help. Finally though, the chain was lifted and refitted with the rest of the demons bindings, sealing it away once and for all. Their breathing heavy and ragged, they turned to their unicorn love.

He was lying in a crater created by the chain. Calling out his name the two alicorns slid into down the sand, the younger one cradling him in her hooves. “Rade, Rade speak to me please. Please be alive!” she shouted, tears streaming down her face. The elder Cadence sat her head upon his chest and heard the steady rhythm of his heart, albeit a bit weak, and let out a breath she hadn’t realized she’d been holding.

“It’s alright Cadence, he’s alive. Quick, help me use some healing magic.” The younger Cadence nodded before placing her horn against his chest. Together the two alicorns poured their magic into him working hard to fix whatever they could. It took time, but his heart gradually gained strength and eventually he began to stir.

“Cadence?” he whispered.

“Shh… quiet honey. It’s alright. We did it. You, me, and princess Celestia. Together we defeated that… that thing. He’s sealed away now. He won’t be anyone else’s problem for a long, long time.”

“Ah, I see… that’s good.”

“You… you aren’t angry with me are you?”

“Of course I am. The entire reason did what I did was to protect you… but I’m glad you’re here now. You were a big help.”

The younger Cadence smiled softly before placing a soft kiss on his lips. Rade coughed a little, before turning his attention to the fake alicorn. “And you, princess, you do realize that whatever you came to change won’t change for you right?”

The elder Cadences eyes grew as wide as saucers while the younger just looked on in confusion. The fake Celestia tried to open her mouth and speak, but had a hard time finding the right words. Finally she just closed her eyes and giggled. “All these years… and I still can’t fool you.” She whispered, and released the illusion. The younger Cadence gasped at the sight her eyes now beheld.

“I… but… we… me… WHAT?!” Rade raised a hoof and rested it gently on the young alicorns muzzle, quieting her.

“I believe you have some explaining to do, Cadence.”

The elder alicorn looked down, eyes somber and her expression pained. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have pretended to be something I’m not. It’s just… in my life…”

“I died, correct?”

“Yes and no. It gave you a wound you knew you would die from, so you used a spell to lock both of you in time, with the repeat point being your death. Over and over you’ve been battling him, your lives stuck in an unbreakable loop. Sure he’s sealed away, but you’ve been suffering for years, dying all alone over and over again always calling out my name…”

“I tried to forget you… to move on. I grew up, got married to someone else. Wound up running a kingdom of my own. I pushed you all the way out of my mind until one day I just happen to end up talking about you to a few friends. It was just supposed to be friendly chit chat you know? Nothing more… but then the nightmares came back. The ones I had after you left. I kept chasing you, trying to keep you out of the Everfree.”

“You knew I went to the Everfree?”

“Haha, Cherilee saw you go in.”

Rade just shook his head with a chuckle. “How am I not surprised?” he asked before getting a more serious look on his face. “You know this doesn’t change anything right? The spell you’ve used is too powerful. All you’ve done is create a new timeline parallel to your own. Your Rade will still be stuck in a loop even after your return.”

She closed her eyes and sighed. “I know, but that’s fine. So long as you’re still alive, be it with me or another, I’m happy. I just can’t stand the idea of your life ending like that.”

“I see. Well then before you go let me give you a word of advice. Do you still have that present I gave you when I proposed. Not the ring mind you, the other thing.”

“You mean that mirror? Yes I have it, why?”

“Bring it to where I died, hold it out in front of you, say ‘love never ending’, and then smash it. You’ll have five minutes.”

“Five minutes? Five minutes to do what?”

He chuckled again. “You’ll see. Now I think you need to go. Thank you for saving me Cadence.”

Before she could respond her world was covered in a sea of green flames. After blinking her eyes a few times and calling his name, she found herself in the center of a triangle of alicorns. “Well, how did it go?” Celestia asked.

Cadence smiled weakly as she looked up at her aunt. “I did it auntie Tia, I saved him. For that Cadence, everything is as it should be.”

“And what about you? What are you going to do now?” Twilight asked.

“Exactly what he told me to do. Come on everyone, follow me.”

* * *

Cadence looked around the lake. To her right, Celestia and Luna, to her left Twilight. She looked to the other princesses, each nodding their to encourage her as she pulled the mirror out of her saddle bag. It was a beautiful mirror that much was for sure, with an intricate ornate frame wrought from shining blue crystal that glowed gently in the night. She looked in it for a time, hovering it in the air with her magic as she stared at the enchantment. The mirror was special as it didn’t show you what you looked like, but how you looked to the person who gave it to you. Since the day she got it, she had always seen a reflection that was as beautiful as an angel.

But now wasn’t the time for gazing at herself. Summoning all the courage she could muster she set the mirror on the ground. “Love never ending.” she whispered, and smashed the mirror to pieces with her hoof. At first nothing happened and for a moment she was terrified that she had done something wrong, but just then the scene around them shifted. She heard a massive roar and looked up to find the Colossus walking stepping out of the lake. Twilight, Celestia, and Luna all took to the air and attacked, while Cadence looked around in a panic. Monsters were suddenly everywhere and she couldn’t make heads or tails of what was going on.

“C-Cadence…” She whipped her head around at the sound of her name. That was Rade’s voice, but he was dead! The events that happened were locked up! So then why… what was going on she wondered. She remembered how the other Rade had said she only had five minutes. Deciding it was best not to waste time, she took off in the air and sped to him as fast as she could.

“Cadence… I’m sorry… I hope you’ll find the strength in your heart to forgive me…”

“Don’t worry, I do.” Rade’s eyes grew wide as his world turned pink. He looked up and gave a gentle smile. Cadence draped her wing overtop of him as she pulled his broken body closer. With wet eyes she smiled and said “Hello Rade. Don’t worry, I’m here now.”

He chuckled. “You? Comforting me? Isn’t it normally the other way around?”

“Yeah… I guess it is.”

“You say that, but I don’t think that’s the case anymore. You’re much older than I remember.”

“And you haven’t aged a bit. Shame on you!”

“Haha. I take it you broke the mirror?” She nodded her head. A barrier came up around them, courtesy of Celestia.

“I’m not exactly sure what it does though. I mean it can’t save you can it? You’ve already cast the spell.”

He closed his eyes and let out a shaky sigh. “No Cadence. I can’t be saved, but that doesn’t mean things can’t be changed. Up until now, I’ve been living through the same process. I fight, I get injured, I cast the spell and I die. Rinse and repeat, time and time again.”

“So what about now? If we can’t save you then just what can we change?”

“Isn’t this enough?” Cadence cocked her head to the side in confusion. “Just look Cadence, I’ve spent all these years, dying alone over and over, yet here I am, being comforted by the mare I love so much. Isn’t this enough of a change?”

Tears dripped slowly from her eyes as she looked down at him, no attempt made to wipe them away. She smiled, nodding her head as she nuzzled at his neck. The let a few seconds pass in silence, choosing instead to simply bask in the warmth of the other. They listened to their heartbeats, felt the rise and fall of their chests. The feel of their fur as they cuddled holding each other in a dying embrace.

“Cadence…” She looked down at her lost love, curiosity in her eyes. “Could you… sing me a lullaby? I… always did love hearing you sing.” She gave a slight nod before tucking him in as close as she could get. She let the words roll off her tongue, as the notes she sang carried with them all of the love and passion she could muster. She knew her time was running short, and she had to put her everything into these last moments, as they would be the ones he spent eternity enjoying. She kept her voice as sweet as pure honey, never stuttering or pausing. It needed to be perfect. It HAD to be perfect.

Finally she reached the end, tears cascading like rapid waterfalls down her cheeks. She had but seconds now to revel in these moments. Oh how she wanted more time. So much more time…

“Cadence…” he whispered. His breathing was labored, he was almost out of time. “I love you.” She pulled as tightly on him as her hooves would allow.

“I love you too, Rade. I always have and I always will.”

She looked down at him, his golden eyes meeting her purple. They bent their heads together, lips touching as they embraced for one last kiss. Time ticked away so fast and yet so slow at the same time. Finally though the kiss was broken as she felt her beloved go limp in her arms, before slowly fading away.

* * *

“How are thou feeling, princess of love?” asked Luna. Celestia had risen the sun and they were now sitting on the bank of the lake. Several hours had passed and Cadence had not moved a muscle. She looked up and turned her face to the princess of the moon wearing a light smile. “Better aunt Lulu. Much, much better.”

“I don’t want to be rude but, what exactly did we achieve in coming here? We couldn’t save him so… what exactly was the point? We couldn’t break the cycle he was in. He’s still… you know… gone.”

Cadence giggled as she looked up to the sky. “You’re right Twilight, we couldn’t break the cycle. But we eased it, and that’s enough for me.”

Author's Note

In case you're wondering, the song Cadence sings is Lala's Lullaby from the anime D. Gray Man.