Service

The moment of my very first awakening was extremely confusing and terrifying. I found myself blind. Unable to see more than just colorless blurs faintly shifting and moving beyond me. The horror of existence hit me like a wall. My body was… small. I only had small nubs where I would eventually grow limbs. At the time, I had no idea that I was in my larval stage. My brothers and sisters were all attached to small combs in the wall of our home. What I would learn to be the Hive. My brothers and sisters of my generation all hung on this wall, placed inside small combs to hide and protect us.

Eventually, despite my efforts to free myself, I gave in. Unable to move or do much of anything with my nubs all I could do was sit about and do nothing. I distinctly remember, waiting and holding my eye's closed for days at a time, opening them to see how much more they had developed and how much more I could see. Twice a day, one of my brothers or sisters would fly up to me, and exude a pink paste I would learn to be “love” in it’s edible form. As it turns out, I was rather high up on the larval wall. Not that my still-developing eyeballs could tell, nor my new infant mind could understand the concept of depth and height.

I would however, learn to hate my place in the wall, as my tiny enclosed space quickly grew too small for my body. The very first sign that I was different from my brothers and sisters, once again, my young mind was too fresh to understand that. Day after day, I pushed at my space's walls, hoping that I could break free. I would pray that my Queen would free me from my crushing torment, even before I knew about my Queen herself. Truly she is the greatest mother if I can call to her even without knowing who exactly she was. The idea and love for my Queen must be imprinted on my brain itself.

That was my life for a short while, being fed, but never becoming full. And striving to free myself. That was all I was and could do. I would like to stress the fact that in the entire time I was encased on that wall in my larval form, I was never fed to a degree that would sate my ever hunger. In other words I was always hungry… and I do mean that in the most stressed of ways. I was always hungry.

Fortunately, this was the shortest form and period of my life.

After an amount of time unknown to me, one of my brothers freed me from my prison! He pulled me from the wall. My size made him struggle with that, but still he pulled me free! My hatred for that wall is still great, but it is no place for me ever again. This event marks the end of my larval stage and begins my entering my pupa stage.