I hugged the big purple book close to my chest as I laid back on my bed. On the book was a horseshoe. In the middle, was a pink star. Surrounding it, there was a red lightning bolt, a purple gem, a pink butterfly, an orange apple and a sky blue balloon.

I sighed.

Magic, loyalty, generosity, kindness, honesty, and... Oh yeah, laughter.

My best friends. I wiped my tears away, even though they continued to flow.

Tears dropped onto the front cover, adding to the previous tear stains.

I traced my hoof around each shape. I glanced at the glass case that held my golden necklace with the replaced blue balloon in the middle.

My element had sat in that very case for two years, untouched.

I just stared at it.

I pet my six year old pet alligator as my eyes stayed set on the shiny jewellery.

I almost smiled, but then remembered things were different now.

"Just a smidgemetre to the south!"

Dashie moved grumbled.

"PINKIE!" She shouted.

"Oh." I said as I blushed. "Sorry, that's good."

We waited for a minute, and then a waved my hoof at her. Spike walked out of the building, and Dashie kicked the cloud, making it boom as lightning shot out.

"Ahhh!" Spike shouted. We both waited for something to happen.

A single hiccup came out of his mouth, followed by several more.

"Hahaha, Rainbow, we scared Spike into getting the hiccups!" I laughed.

"Haha, good- hic- one Pinkie! -hic- you're always-hic- pull-hic-ing a fast once on me -hic-!" Spike said.

"I can think of one thing that more funny." Dashie mumbled, before kicking the cloud again, and a loud boom went off.

"WAHH!" I shouted. "Hiccup!" I started laughing uncontrollably.

"Hey Pinkie, you're not as annoying as I thought!" Dashie said. "Wanna hang out?" A pang of happiness flowed through me as I shot all over the place.

Dashie stopped me by shoving a hoof in my mouth.

"A simple nod will work." She said.

"Mhm!" I hummed as I nodded.

I couldn't bring myself to smiling. Thinking of all the great memories I've had only made it worse.

All my best friends are gone, only two remaining in Ponyville, who I never ever see.

I remembered all the fights we won, all the laughs we had, all the problems we solved.

I choked back a series of sobs. I covered my eyes with my hooves and let all my tears flow out.

Why'd they have to leave me behind?

I probably seem like a really happy pony. But in reality, I can become really sad if the cards are played right. Whenever I go outside, I put on a completely fake smile, so nopony worries about me.

I'd rather suffer by myself than have the whole town down.

I know, that seems like something Rarity or Fluttershy would say, but it's true.

I took a picture off the wall. It was Twilight's welcome to Ponyville party. I hung it back on the wall and thought- Why can these pictures make me happy like they once did?

I knew the answer right away. This time, my best friends weren't here to comfort me.

"Oh look at those happy faces! All the parties that I have thrown! I made them laugh, had such a blast, I smile that's all their own!"

I looked up. Wait a minute.

"They loved seeing me, the REAL Pinkie!"

My ears perked up.

"Show them a time of their life like they've never known! Like they've never knooooown!"

I glanced back at the journal on my bed.

"I've got to get back out there, and show them that I tried, for there's only one great party pony, that is Pinkie Pie!"

I rushed back over to my bed and flipped open to the first page. The first letter Twilight wrote to Princess Celestia was copied in, and so were the rest.

"Dear Princess Celestia," I read. "I've learned that one of the joys of friendship is sharing your blessings, but when there's not enough blessings to go around," I read the rest in my head. I flipped a few pages ahead.

"Dearest Princess Celestia, today I learned that it's hard to except when somepony you like wants to spend time with someone who's not so nice." I read. "Though it's impossible to control who your friends hang out with, it is possible to control your behaviour. Just continue to be a good friend. In the end, the difference between a false friend and one who is true will surely come to light." I remembered this. "Your faithful student, Twilight Sparkle."

I flipped to the lesson on the day of Fluttershy's last photoshoot.

"Dear Princess Celestia, being a good friend means being able to keep a secret, but you should never be afraid to share your true feelings with a good friend." I sighed.

if only I told her... I thought.

I read all the entries in the journal.

Who knows, maybe you and your future friends are all looking at the same rainbow.

You've got to share, you got to care.

Having fun is the best part, even if you have to get your hooves a little bit dirty.

You should never forget your friends and where you came from, and that's something to be proud of.

I'll always chose my friends.

I slammed the book shut and looked at Gummy.

"Gummy, I know what to do!" I looked at the picture of my friends all together.

Gummy blinked as I looked back at him.

"My friends are the most important thing to me ever, and I know how to get the gang back together!" I cracked a small smile.

Happiness flowed through me as my smile grew. I raced down the stairs as fast as I could and ran across town faster than I ever had before.

Author's Note

This is sort of based off of Magical Mystery cure, except with Pinkie.