"I know everypony thinks of me as the 'bubbly, super happy-go-lucky pony', and they’re right... mostly… but that’s not always the case, imagine if you will. The thought of being rejected, the fear of nopony wanting you around, what I live for is giving smiles and laughter. But imagine if that was taken away. The time when the girls avoided me in planning my surprise party, when Rainbow pretty much told me to my face I’m second rate, and when they were at a loss of what to do about Maud… that… that crushed me worst of all.
No smiles, no laughter, no joy in the world. That is the crippling fear that I silently cry myself to sleep to, night in and night out. Some days it’s harder than others to put up the mask. The mask that showed small cracks when Cheese came to town and not even my closest friends… well, other than Twilight coming to see if anything WAS at least wrong, but even she didn't really try, and that broke me a little bit farther. Even the upbeat, always happy ponies need checks on how they a really doing, ‘but nope not pinkie pie no siree she’s all fine and…
and dandy…' I'M NOT ALWAYS OKAY!” I scream out to nopony. The cakes were out on a stroll with Pound and Pumpkin as it was a rather slow day. If there were any customers pinkie could handle it. I threw a glass snow globe lying on my nightstand at the door, shattering it into pieces, as well as breaking my reading lamp and shoving all my stuff off of the nightstand in a fit of rage. Now in tears, as well as bleeding a bit from my right hoof that had nicked something, I slumped to the floor covering myself with my now crossed forelegs.
“…I’m not okay… Even...even I need help sometimes…” I just lie there, bleeding drip by drip as tears fall unrestricted as nopony is there to see me cry. The bleeding slowly came to a stop and just then the door chime went off. Looking disheveled and crying, I quickly tried to compose myself long enough to get through this costumer, just so I can just go back in my hole in peace. And of all ponies it was Colgate the dentist. She came to pick up her mint chocolates one of the few sweets she’d eat… “Hi Colgate! Here to pick up your order?”
Pinkie asked. Colgate replied with a hum-y “Mhm~ indeed I am” in her usual chipper tone, then she got a good look at me. “Um… Pinkie, are you okay…? I don’t mean to pry, but you look like a mess, is everything alright?” a look of general concern pasted on her muzzle. I was irritated at that exact moment I rolled my eyes that thought to myself 'Oh yeah what the hell would you know?' At this point I was glaring at her, and as she backed down her ears went flat and she looked away. “I-if I did something to make you angry, I’m sorry…”
at this I stopped glaring and sighed. “Sorry Colgate. I’m just trying to work through some personal problems right now, I didn't mean to snap at you...” I pick through orders looking for hers and quickly gave it to her. “Here you are,” I said lackluster-ly, I just wanted her out of my sight. “Thanks Pinkie. And… um, I know this is a bit strange, but if you have something on your mind that you can’t talk to the girls about you could…come to me maybe?" she chuckled lightly. "I live alone and it would be nice to chat with somepony once in a while, or be used as a vent,”
she shakily said. I thought for a moment, “Hmm, I might take you up on that offer…” I looked up at Colgate with a small smile “…maybe later today...?” I asked while I rubbed a foreleg on the back of my head “I don’t see why not, it’s my day off” she replied. Then she did something I didn't expect out of anypony, especially her. She came underneath my chin and lovingly nuzzled me, head through to body like a cat, then playfully flicked her tail at the end. I caught the soft strains of her flowing two toned tail, light against my muzzle like a foals touch.
“I can tell you’re going through a lot and, well, I wanna be there… see ya soon!” she exited with a small, but sensual, sway in her plot. At this point my mouth was agape and couldn't make heads or tails of what just happened. After that I went back up to my room to... to just ponder what just happened. A small smile found it’s way on my lips. “S-somepony… cares… a-about me..." I pondered on this, though for a bit tears started flowing again. But this time, out of small hope and just like clockwork, the Cakes arrived.
“OH pinkie! Were back!” Miss Cake san. Just then, I half-bolted out of my room, still looking like crap but in somewhat higher spirits, and a gleam in my eye. I stopped by the cakes and asked them if now that they're back, I could go see Colgate 'cause we have a meet up planed. “Oh sure, I don’t really see why not. We can take care of everything from here on today,” Ms. Cake said noting my enthusiasm. “Oh thankyouthankyou THANKYOU!” I cheered, showing a bit of my normal self. I almost bolted out the door, but quickly returned and booped Pound and Pumpkin's noses.
“I’ll be back later guys, bye!” And with that, I was off to
Colgate’s. A few minutes later I was at her door. I raised a hoof to knock, but was hesitant to do so. Just then Colgate opened the door to see me standing there. Colgate let out a small *squee* and offered me into her home and shut the door behind her. "Would you like some tea or coffee?" Colgate asked. "Tea with sugar and honey, if you would," I responded. Colgate lit her horn and started prepping the water and condiments as she nuzzled me again under the chin like last time. She led me to her couch and I hopped up on it, getting cozy.
“So...” Colgate started, “what seems to be the matter sweetie pie?” She took the spot just under me, looking up at me from the floor and placing a hoof on mine. Colgate also brought out the filled tea cups and placed them on the end table for us to grab at our leisure. “Well," I replied, “sometimes I just feel unwanted and unloved, like nopony really cares or sees how hurt I really can get unless I show them. Like when the girls just ignored me while secretly planning my party or when rainbow told me that I was second rate. Nopony really knows what to do when I’m like that, so they just let me be...
”I started choking up as Colgate makes small circles on my hoof, showing she’s here for me and listening to all I have to say and wipes a few tears forming on my muzzle. “I-it just hurts, ya know…" I start crying in full as Colgate gets up and wraps her hooves around me. “Shhh… shhh, it's okay…” she whispers in my ear, gently kissing it. "Dry those tears. I’m here now, just let it all out.” At this point I’m bawling into her shoulder letting all the pain just flow out of me while she is just silent, holding and caring for me. She kisses my tears away gently. “It’s okay sweetie pie, you have me now. Shhh….” In my moment of utter weakness, and without thinking, I planted a deep, meaningful kiss on Colgate’s lips, in which she requited.
We just stayed like that for what seemed like an hour, then we parted the kiss mutually… ”Feeling a bit better now, Pinkie?” Colgate asked. I nodded, blushing & looking away, then Colgate brought my cup of tea to my lips. I drank it as Colgate smiled and nuzzled me underneath the chin, not once having let go of my hoof. I smiled, and for the first time somepony has taken the time to understand the me under the me they know without pushing away. “Thank you, Colgate.” I kissed her again on the lips, aware of it this time, & I loved every minute of it. Colgate teased her tongue, playfully licking at my teeth like she was checking for cavities in the funniest and hottest of ways. I giggled as did she. As we broke off I said "So… same time next week? I’ll need to be checked weekly for cavities..." Colgate giggled and nodded, "I'm here whenever you need me."
Author's Note
well this is my first entry into the FIMfic MLP waters i hope you enjoy what i thought up as i have not seen many or any like this
-Sailu-
All things Flutter-
