I could hear a long sigh come from below me as I try to revel in this moment.
“I never wished for this to happen. Oh how I want it to be what it once was, for you to hold me as you do now. Will it ever be like that my love?”
I slowly look down as my eyes meet Luna’s. The both of us sitting on a couch together in her room. Her head laying upon my chest as I hold her tight. I wish this moment could last forever, to hold her and keep her with me till the very end of time.
“No.” I answer bitterly.
We both fall silent to my answer. It is one we have come to accept, and yet something that hurts to be heard. Denying the truth never helps in the end.
“I love you, you know that right?” She asks, looking to me for some confirmation.
“That is something I’ll never question, Luna.” I smile sadly down upon her. I knew she loves me with all her heart. as I her. “Never question my love for you either.”
I could feel her grip tighten on me as she buries her face into my chest. The dampness of my cloth telling me exactly what I knew would happen. It is something that always happens when the time comes.
“I-I don't want this to end.” I could hear the hitch in her throat. “I don't want to go!” She wails.
I feel myself arms pull her closer to my chest, the feeling of my heart aching, crying out desperately to end this pain. My eye watering, for they know the truth. I look over to the door leading out the room and see it slowly start to waver.
“It’s time my love” I say gravely.
She was crying openly now as she shook her head in denial.
“No, please! Please don't leave me alone!” She cries out. I feel her hooves digging into me. “Please don't do this! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it! I want to go home! I want to be with you! I don't want to be here anymore! Please don't go! I’ll do anything! I’ll never do it again!”
I feel my eyes start to flow freely now as I look up once again to the walls as they waver in a quicken pace. I kiss my lover gently on her head. She was crying aloud as she held me tighter, our time soon coming to an end.
“I’m sorry Luna, I’m so sorry.”
I rise quickly from my bed into a sitting position, covered in a cold sweat. I felt my stomach turn as I quickly hop out of bed and run to the bathroom. I fall to my knees at the toilet and purge my insides clear of my dinner last night. I had been there for awhile, but as soon as I feel my stomach settle do I go over to the sink to wash out my mouth. I look into the mirror at my own reflection. My eyes were tinted red and the bags from this restless night apparent.
I feel my anger hit a boiling point as I strike the mirror that held this mocking image of myself, shattering it into pieces. I see broken images of myself in the remains, seemingly laughing at me. I can't help but let out a primal scream to the heavens above. It held everything that I experienced this night and yet could never hold claim to the pain that ran through my very soul.
It soon dies down in my throat, the soreness from yelling too long having made my throat raw, to continue would prove pointless. I walk out of the bathroom and just stand there looking around the room. I knew that I wouldn't get anymore sleep this night, so I made my way towards the balcony. Slowly I open the door and take in the overhead view of Canterlot before me. It all looks so peaceful.
I look up into the dull and lifeless sky, something I am not use to seeing ever since I use to watch Luna paint the sky, treating it as if it were just a simple piece of canvas. She truly did put more heart into her night sky than Celestia ever did for her day, and yet these ponies went out of their way to never gaze upon it, to never take in the joy of such majesty.
My gaze slowly trails towards to the moon, something of a ritual of mine these days. I feel my heart wrench as I take in the one thing that has put a hole into my heart. There upon the moon lay the image of a alicorns head. My love, my sweet Luna. How did it get to this point? Why couldn't I have saved you from it? She was taken from me by the darkness that ran thru her heart. A heart that I could not sway, a heart that I could not heal.
Even though we loved each other, she still could not stow her jealousy. I tried, oh how I tried to talk sense into her. In the end she was taken from me, taken by the very elements she once wielded to protect others. I will never be able to touch her, to feel her lips upon my own, never hold her as I lay to rest at night. What I have been given in this life was something I would never wish to change, and yet it has caused me the most pain.
I take a seat on the balcony edge as I look up to the moon. I have lost her and what is worse is that I will not live long enough to meet her again. At best I will continue for fifty more years, after that I cannot hope to beat death at his cruel game. She was taken from me as I was take from her. All we have left now is our dreams, and the memories we share.
