She was awesome, she was beautiful, she was all I could think about, day and night. I didn't think she knew I exsisted, I was to shy to go and ask her out, I could dream about it but I could never do it.
Every morning I would tell myself I was going to talk to her today.
Every night I would bang my head on the wall of my crappy apartment wall for being to afraid to approach her.
I don't know what it was, maybe I was afraid to get rejected by the one pony that made my life worth living, or maybe I was afraid that if I was ever with her there would be a nagging feeling that she deserved better.
Then one day it just sort of happened, I was walking down the sidewalk outside my apartment when she ran into me.
"omigosh, I'm sorry I didn't see you." She squeaked out in a hoarse voice before going around me and into the alley between my apartment and the coffee shop next to it.
I had only caught a glimpse of her face before she flew away in a flurry of rainbow hair.
There had been tear streaks down her face and her eyes looked red like she had been crying.
After living in my apartment for at least a year, I knew there was absolutely nothing in that alley, not even a way out the other side and I didn't see her fly out.
I don't know what happened, I didn't even think.
I just started walking towards the alley and when I rounded the corner and saw her sitting on the ground slumped against the building crying, it broke my heart.
So I walked over to her and slid down to sit next to her.
"Are you okay?"
She just kept crying for a few minutes before answering.
"No I'm not okay, and I don't feel like sharing my feelings with somepony I don't know."
"Well... my name is straps." I said sticking my hoof out to her.
She stopped crying and looked up at me, eyes glistening with tears.
The tiniest of smiles appeared on her face as she sniffled, she bumped my hoof.
"Hey straps, I'm rainbow dash."
I could tell her mood had lightened a little bit.
"So, if you don't mind me asking, what's got you so down in the dumps?"
she looked back down at the ground.
"Y'now, just the usual life sucks, my boyfriend dumped me and I just lost my job so." She stared at the ground and sniffled a bit.
"That doesn't sound like the usual life sucks kind of days if you ask me."
She sighed.
"Yeah, I know, I don't know what to do."
She looked up at me, and I felt something stir inside me.
"Y'now what, how bout we go into the coffee shop and I'll buy you a coffee, and then you can tell me the whole story if you like."
She looked at me skepticly for a second before smiling.
"Yeah, okay, sure."
After that day we started seeing each other more often.
It started with meeting in the coffee shop a couple times a week and before I knew it we were a couple.
We truly loved each other, it wasn't like any of the other relationships I had had In the past, this one felt different, this one felt real.
I remember the first time we kissed.
I brought her to one of my most favorite places in all of equestrian. I was the only one who knew how to get there.
It was way back in the mountians down a hidden trail, it was a valley completely untouched by other pony's, it was the kind of place you could only dream of seeing. It had lush green grass as far as the eye could see, dotted here and there with wild flowers and dandelions. The sides of the valley curving upwards with the grass growing sparser as it rode up the mountain side. And in the very middle of all this stood a single oak tree, the evening sun shining on it.
We laid down next to each other under the oaktree staring up at the sky and listening to the light breeze blowing through the long grass of the field. The sun was starting to make it's way down towards the horizon.
"Y'now what straps, I've never felt so close to anypony in my entire life. You and me, it just feels...it feels right."
She turned her head to look at me and I did the same.
I stared into here magenta eyes, glimmering from the now rising moon.
"Your life was 20% cooler the moment I stepped into it." She said
"I hope you know just how right you are." I replied, giving a little smirk.
She stared at me for a second.
"My life wasn't going anywhere." I told her, she had a questioning look on her face.
I sighed.
"I used to go through every day hoping the next would be better, but it never happened." She was staring at me intently. "I eventually gave up on it and accepted that my life sucked, I was going to end it, but I saw you moving in down the road and...and I felt like I had something to live for again. I started hoping that maybe you would notice me, that was all that kept me going." I sighed again, feeling as if a weight had lifted off me.
"Y-you were going to kill yourself?" She asked in a quiet voice, she looked scared.
"Yeah, I was." I looked back up at the stars and chuckled slightly. "But don't worry, I would never do it now, I have sompony that makes my life worth it." I looked back and smiled at her and she smiled back.
We just stared into each others eye's, she started moving closer and I didn't even have to think.
Our lips pressed together as we embraced, I wrapped my hooves around her and she did the same. When our lips finally pulled apart, we just lay there hugging each other saying nothing, and we eventually fell asleep under the oak tree.
That was the best night of my entire life, I can't even begin to describe how it felt to just lay there with the pony I loved the most, having all my worries and cares forgotten and washed away.
I also cant even begin to describe what it's like to have it ripped away either.
I don't know what happened, we were as happy as could be, we didn't need expensive things or a nice place to live, we were fine as long as we were together.
She started to grow quieter and more distant, and then one day it finally happened.
She left.
There was no note, she even left all her stuff.
I should have seen it coming, I should have talked to her more, tried to figure out what was going on.
I always had that nagging feeling that she deserved better, maybe she finally found it.
I called the police, they said they had found her but that she wanted to be left alone, they wouldn't tell me where she was.
I still loved her though, I couldn't help it, the feeling just wouldn't go away.
After about two days I just couldn't take anymore.
I packed what I could in a saddle bag ant set off.
I looked, and I looked, and I looked. It took me six months to track her down.
Author's Note
I wrote this about a year ago, I took another look at it today and decided it was worth finishing. I'm going to use whatever time I have to finish it.
