Existence

by a guy with many hats

Rating: teen
Tags: Tragedy, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Sad, Princess Celestia
Length: 1647

Just as Luna has Nightmare Moon, so too does Celestia have another entity in her mind. An entity with one aspiration.

Just as Luna has Nightmare Moon, so too does Celestia have another entity in her mind. An entity with one aspiration:

Existence

Inspired by this.

Published 2014-04-23 09:50:02 UTC
Last updated 2014-04-24 22:50:44 UTC

Existence

Author's Note

Suggested listening

Existence

Celestia, can you hear me?

It's okay if you can't, I don't know if you even remember me.

It's been so long, so long since you locked me away.

But you're scared now.

Your student's off to try and save your sister.

I'm sorry, your real sister.

I guess I don't count.

I never counted.

But that's okay.

I'm here now, feeding off your anxiety and fear.

You'll remember me soon enough.

Always remember dear sister, I love you, and I will never stop loving you.

Even when you're gone, and I'm free, I'll never stop loving you.

You're giving me life, you're giving me a chance.

A chance you ripped away from me.

A chance at existence.

And for that, for your noble sacrifice, I love you.

I only ever wanted to exist.

Life

Celestia, you can hear me now.

You listen to me.

You listen as you raise the sun.

You listen as you speak to our student.

Tell her I'm sorry to take you away.

Tell her I never wanted much.

Tell your student I only wanted a chance.

A chance you took from me!

But I'm not angry, oh no dear sister.

Your children.

Your families.

Your name.

Everything you are will become mine.

That's all I wanted, a life.

I only wanted to exist.

But it's okay.

Remember dear sister.

That's right, I will always love you.

I will always love Luna.

I will love our subjects

I will love loyal student.

I will love you, for everything you give me.

You listen as you set the sun.

You listen as I plead for life, as I cry to god.

I only ever wanted life.

Freedom.

Celestia, you can feel me now.

Growing in your mind like a cancer.

I love you dear sister.

Your smile grows weaker as you feed me.

I'm sorry dear sister.

I hurt you, but you give me life.

Your mind is blurry.

Your memories are fading.

Dear sister, you can't remember your student's name.

I'm sorry dear sister, truly.

I only ever wanted to exist.

I only ever wanted life.

But you're giving me so much more.

You're giving me freedom.

Your student is worried about you.

You can barely raise the sun.

Dear Luna is worried as well.

I'll take care of them my lovely, forgiving, sister.

Celestia, listen to me.

I love you.

Your rest will come soon.

You will rest, your duties will be my own, the sun shall be my burden.

Dear charitable sister.

I only ever wanted freedom.

Memories

Celestia, your memories are mine now.

Your student Twilight Sparkle.

Our sister Princess Luna.

The sun.

The sunset.

The sunrise.

They will be mine soon.

I only ever wanted to exist.

I only ever wanted to live.

I only ever wanted freedom.

But you've given me so much more.

Your memories.

The places you've seen.

The things you've done.

The ponies you've met.

The emotions you've felt.

I cannot thank you enough generous sister.

I love you Celestia.

Remember that I love you.

Even as your mind fades, as you join the void, remember that I love you.

Your body wanes.

I shall care for it.

Because I love you sister.

You have given me your memories, to hold and cherish.

They are your precious gift to me.

I could not ask for more.

Sister please don't hate me.

I only ever wanted memories.

Control

Celestia, your body is nearly mine now.

Celestia, your mind is nearly mine now.

Dear sister.

I love you.

You ask why.

I cannot answer.

You know why.

I only ever wanted to exist.

I only ever wanted to live.

I only ever wanted a mind, full of memories to call my own.

All I ever wanted.

And you provide it all.

Dear sister how I love you.

Dear sister how you feed me.

Dear sister, your sacrifice is taken with love.

And still you offer more.

You offer your body.

You offer your mind.

You offer your existence.

You gave me a chance.

You've given me everything.

Dear sister how my hunger grows.

Dear sister how I love you.

Dear sister listen as I whisper in your ear.

Dear sister listen as I take control.

Dear sister, dear loving sister.

All I ever wanted, I needed, was control.

Hollow

Celestia, it is my time now.

You feel yourself dying.

Good.

Dear sister.

All I ever knew was to exist.

All I ever saw was life.

All I ever wanted was freedom

All I ever had were memories.

All I ever needed was control.

And now you are mine.

Your shattered existence is gone.

You hang by a thread.

For everything you have done to me sister, for everything you have done, you shall pay.

I feel hollow.

Your life shall fill the void.

I only ever wanted to exist.

But you wouldn't let me.

I grew.

And grew.

Until here I am, taking what should have been mine.

Dear sister.

How I love you.

The sun shall be mine.

The sun shall fill the void.

Our loyal student will fill the void.

Our subjects will fill the void.

Our sister shall fill the voice.

I only feel empty.

Pain

Sister why do you do this to me?

I wanted to exist.

Now that I exist I want to eat, never full.

Celestia why do you do this!?

Why!?

Celestia answer me!

I don't want to be alone anymore!

I want everything, I want you, I want life.

But I can't have it all.

It hurts.

Existence hurts.

Pain is all I feel now!

Pain and emptiness.

Fuck you!

You bring me pain!

Kill you for hurting me!

Celestia I'm sorry.

Make it stop!

Please make it stop.

Sister is sorry.

Sister hurts.

No like hurt.

No like exist.

No like void.

Sister scared....

Celestia help sister.

Sister doesn't want to go back to the dark.

But sister loves you.

Sister does not want without you.

I need you.

I need myself.

Please make pain stop.

Make fear stop.

Sister loves Celestia...does Celestia love sister?

Love

Dear sister.

I love you.

Remember that.

As you return to life.

As I return all you have given me.

As I fade away

You offered everything.

But dear sister, I love you.

I will always love you.

I could have had control.

I could have had memories.

I could have had freedom.

I could have had life.

I could have existed.

But I love you dear sister.

I felt you slipping away.

I could not let you.

Dear sister.

I cannot steal from you, what was denied from me.

I may not live.

I may not be free.

I may not remember.

I may not control.

But please dear sister.

Remember.

For so long as you remember me.

I shall exist.

Dear sister.

How I love you.

How I've always loved you.

How I love dear student.

How I love dear Luna.

I only ever wanted to love.

Author's Note

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Dear Sister of The Sun

Dear sister of the sun, we listened.

I know what you wanted.

I understand how the hunger grew.

You started with nothing.

You were given a chance.

You consumed more and more, and yet you still felt hollow.

My name is Spike, and I will remember you.

Twilight's scared to talk about you, Celestia only cries, but I remember.

We only ever want to be, and not to be is torment eternal.

But when we exist, we grow hungry.

When we eat, then we grow.

And as we grow, so too does the hunger grow.

But we are strong.

We overcame our greed, our avarice.

We had eternity offered to us, yet we refused.

We are better than ourselves, we are better than our instincts.

And when we exist no more.

The creeping void will cease.

And we will want no more, for we shall be whole once again.

Light

Sister scared, Celestia.

Sister knows.

Celestia is full, whole.

Sister is not full, I never full.

Sister stupid.

Sister scared.

Sister wants fear to stop.

Knows only way.

Only way is void.

Celestia is only way.

I don't want to go to the void.

Sister is scared of void.

Sister scared of blackness, of darkness, of emptyness.

Void is hollow.

Sister is hollow.

Celestia fills void.

Celestia makes sister whole.

Celestia strong.

Sister weak.

Sister gets in way.

Sister must go.

Sister must not exist.

Scared.

Sun doesn't leave me.

Sun is always up.

Don't like darkness.

But we must join the darkness.

Celestia is sun. light.

Sister is darkness. Void.

Sister bad....

I only wanted light.

Celestia is light.

Only ever wanted you.

But sister cannot have you...sister is sorry, I am sorry.

Hunger makes sister dim.

Sister is sorry.

Sister fades away, Celestia brightens.

Whole

Dear sister.

I'm going to kill you today.

Today I take back what you took.

Today I fill the void.

Your voice will be mine.

You life will be mine.

Your reality will be mine.

You will join the void that you forced me into.

I will have the world.

I will have everything!

Dear sister, oh dearest sister.

Your world shall fill the void.

The sun will never set again.

I want it all.

All I ever wanted was to know contentment.

All I need is everything.

I hunger.

I feed.

I destroy.

Consume sister.

Consume world.

Consume all.

World is empty now.

World is lonely now.

I am lonely now.

Sister....

All I ever wanted was to feel whole.

The hollow only grows.

Never enough.

Help me.

Sister is scared.

Sister consumes all.

Sister wants to feel full.

Save me.

Sister doesn't want to be alone.