Chaos and Order

by Damien Helvian

Rating: everyone
Tags: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Romance, Tragedy, Discord, Princess Celestia, Alternate Universe, Sad
Length: 7283

The First Tragic Love Story of Equestria

The memories of Discord, from the time before his rule. Happy memories, spent with his true love. None other than Princess Celestia herself. Starting from a young age, they were just friends. Up until the point where she was old enough to date him...and ending in Tragedy.

(This story was written as history drabbles for my AU Discord account on tumblr.)

Published 2014-04-30 02:30:04 UTC
Last updated 2014-04-30 02:30:04 UTC

The First Meeting

It began with a glance, on one of those rare occasions that I dared to wander about the streets of Canterlot. It was night of course, so nopony could see me, or so I thought.

Caught unaware, she shouted, the girl with a pink, sparkling mane, flowing as if caught in a wind. It took but a moment to realize whom it was that called out to me, the Princess herself, Celestia.

I found myself unable to move an inch, smitten at first glance, lost in her eyes. No words reached my ears, that was, until she came face to face with me, yelling for my attention. Snapped into focus, I finally responded, "Y-you're not afraid?"

"Of course I'm not, I'm a princess!" Her voice was strong, it was clear she meant what she said, "Who...what are you? And what are you doing here?"

"I am a draconequus milady, a creature of pure chaos. As to my reason for being here, I am simply wandering. I come from time to time, on a breath of wind to see the lovely visage of the kingdom." I found myself speaking softly, not wanting to seem as if I were raising my voice.

"Well, why are you here in the middle of the night? It's kind of creepy you know." Her voice had lightened quickly, as if amused by me. My only chance to escape was to take advantage of this.

"Well, isn't it obvious, milady? Not everypony is a fearless princess, most would be frightened by my appearance. As such, I come only at a time when all but a few are asleep. I do have to ask, why are you about? You are the Princess of the Sun, yes? Isn't it strange for you to even be awake right now? Or are you attempting to be a sneaky-pony and take reign of the night like a bat!"

"You aren't that scary looking. Trust me, if you came out in the morning, nopony would be afraid. Weirded out, maybe, but not afraid." Oh, if only that were true... She giggled at my words, "Well, maybe I want to be a bat, a vampony bat!" What a delightful joke she sprung on me. I never thought royalty was capable of being funny.

"Well, milady, if you really want to be a vampony bat, I could help with that." Snapping my claws, I conjured up a nice little wizard's outfit upon my form, "You see, I am a master of magic. My power is beyond even that of the famed Starswirl the Bearded!"

It wasn't long before she burst out laughing, "You have to be joking. Nopony is more powerful than sir Starswirl. He's the greatest pony wizard of all time."

"You are right, my little pony, Nopony is. But you see, I am not a pony, am I? As I stated before, I am a draconequus, the only one as a matter of fact. Do you want to know why?"

As she stopped laughing, she looked up at me with curious eyes. It was clear that seeking knowledge was a hobby of hers, "Oh fine then, why?"

"Because, I created the draconequus form myself. The truth of the matter is, I'm not just some random creature of this world. I am Discord, God of Chaos. You don't have to believe me though, it doesn't really matter. I mean, what kind of God wanders amongst mortal creatures so nonchalantly?"

"I believe you, mister Discord." Those words came out so quickly, I could hardly believe it. And the look on her face showed that she meant it.

"Why do you believe me so easily, milady? I have done nothing to gain your trust. To you, I am but a passing stranger, who's quite odd."

"Because...he talks about you, you know. Sir Starswirl that is. One day in the gardens, I asked him if there was anypony more powerful than he was, and he said the same thing."

Celestia recalled the day she learned about him. She and Starswirl sat amidst the Canterlot gardens. And when she asked him if there was anypony more powerful than he was, he responded, "There is nopony that I know of...but there is one who is not a pony. A creature, so strange..with a body made of many animals. I happened upon him one day in Everfree, he called himself Discord, said he was a god. At first I didn't believe him, told him to prove it. And so he did, and it was the most amazing spectacle I'd ever seen. He turned the trees a multitude of colors, the grass into chocolate candy, and the water into lime gelatin. He showed me how he could make himself into any form he wished. When I asked him why he didn't try turning into a pony, he simply said, "Because, one's natural form, is the most beautiful of all." Wiser words have never been spoken, My dear Princess, if you ever get the chance to meet him, you should try and learn from him."

When she told me this tale, a tear came to my eye as a reminisced about the day I first met him. It started about the same as this night, I asked him why afraid, and he told me that one should never fear what they don't understand. As for the rest, that's a story for another day.

Back to this one. After I finished reminiscing, I turned my gaze down to her, "Well, milady, I guess you do believe me. And maybe one day, I can teach you...but time has flown past, you must return to the castle by dawn, or you might get in trouble."

"Oh gosh, you're right. Um, will you meet me in the gardens tomorrow night?" I nodded, and waved her off as she ran back to the castle

Author's Note

The entire story is written as a Narrative by Discord.

The First Picnic

It was a warm night, comforting to the mind and soul, as well as the body. A night that would be the first of many quite the same. I had agreed to meet the princess in the Canterlot gardens, and as the sun set, I carefully made my way there.

Not as easy as it sounds of course. Dodging the guard-ponies, and their ever-watchful eyes. So perceptive they are, but who's to notice a simple little firefly looking for a place to rest? And what better place for such a lovely little insect, than the gardens.

Having made my entry into the beautiful landscape behind Canterlot castle, I took to my natural form, and waited. It didn't take long before her adorable little visage made itself known to my gaze. The little filly princess trotting down the wayward path from the castle, not a care in the world.

As far as I could tell, she was a professional at sneaking out. It seemed like she did this every night. I gave a bow, and she did the same in return, "A fair greetings, milady, how are you on this fine evening?"

She smiled so brightly at me, happy that I came to see her, "I am doing well, good sir. And I trust you are the same?" She had a genuine care for me, I could hear it in her voice.

I gave a nod, and chuckled, "Yes, I am, milady. Better now, actually, that you are here to keep me company. There aren't many who would be so willing to talk to a beast like me."

"We shan't have any more of that, you here? You are a wonderful creature, sir Discord. Just like sir Starswirl told me...no need to berate yourself for being what you are." Her tone was firm, she spoke well beyond her young years, it was simply amazing.

"I apologize for my negativity, princess, it simply comes from a lifetime of running." In an attempt to lighten the mood, I conjured up a white water lily, holding it out to her, "For you, a beautiful white flower, unknown to these parts."

She smiled again, using her magic, powerful for one her age, and setting it in her mane. With that, she turned towards the Canterlot Maze, a masterpiece, recently crafted by the finest topiary artists in all the land, "Come, I know a spot where we'll be safe alone."

She led me off into the bowels of the maze, and even though it hadn't been around for long, she knew it like the back of her hoof. The twists and turns, so wild even I had trouble keeping track. But, in moments, we were at its center. An open space, with naught but a single, young tree for one to lay against should they need to rest.

"You show your brilliance, young princess, how clever you must be to have so easily learned the paths of the maze." I gave her a gentle smile, "It is clear why Starswirl loves to be your teacher."

Celestia giggled, making her way to settle underneath the tree, younger than even she, "Oh, come now, I'm not that smart. It took me an entire day to figure it all out. You should've seen how many times I got lost, it was ridiculous."

"it's a good thing I wasn't there, I would've just made every path a dead end, just to mess with you." A soft chuckle escaped my lips, "Of course, I would've eventually let you through, don't need a princess losing her mind, do we, milady?"

"What's wrong with that? Starswirl says that ones mind is sometimes best lost, because searching for it gives us much more to learn..."More wise words, she learned well, "And another thing, you can stop calling me 'milady'...from now on I want you to use my name, Celestia."

"Yes, mi-...Celestia. So, now that we're here, what do you think about a picnic?" I waved my hands, causing confetti to spray everywhere, "A picnic of the ages, to celebrate a new friendship!~"

Another giggle, so innocent and pure. How I wish that the future never came to be, "That sounds perfect, but, we don't have anything to eat, or drink?"

"You forget, my little pony, I have magic." With a snap of the claws, a small arrangement appeared in a flash of light. A simple blanket for us to rest on, a tea set crafted from pearls, and a humble basket full of goodies, "Ta-da~"

Celestia clapped her hooves together in amusement, "Amazing, simply amazing. And this tea set, it's so beautiful, where did you get it?" She rubbed the teapot with a hoof, feeling the smooth beauty of it.

"I crafted it myself, out of a pearl as big as your eyes." The joke elicited a small bout of laughter, "And when we're done here tonight, you can have it, a gift for a new friend."

She let out a silent gasp, "R-really? Oh thank you Dizzy, It's a wonderful present. I think it's time to try it out. My favorite is white tea, no cream or sugar, think you can do that?"

"Dizzy? A nickname for me? Oh how wonderful! I've never had a nickname before...but I feel I should return the favor. What do you think of, Tia? Not quite as silly as Dizzy, but fitting." I gave a soft chuckle, waving a fuzzy paw over the teapot, "Of course, I can make anything you like."

She smiled at the name I gave her, nodding, "I like it, Tia it is. And don't tell anypony, you're the only one allowed to call me that, ok?" I agreed, not like anypony would listen. After a moment the young princess attempted to use her magic to lift the teapot, but it fizzled out, giving her a twinge of pain.

"Are you ok, Tia?" She nodded, rubbing her head. Another attempt, another failure. After that, I went ahead and used my dextrous tail to lift the pot and pour tea out for her, nice and hot.

Worried about breaking the cup, she picked it up carefully in her hooves and took a sip, letting out a gentle hum of bliss, "This is the best tea I've ever had."

A blush alighted my face, and I waved a hand dismissively at her compliment, "It's just tea, nothing special. Now, if you want a proper treat, how about some food? I wasn't sure what you'd like, so I packed a bit of everything."

And boy, did I mean everything. I took to the basket like a hungered fiend, tossing out plates, landing lightly on the blanket behind. Next came food, all sorts of food. From Fritters to pies, salads to soups. Anything you could think of, was there, "You really did mean everything did you?"

"Everything but the kitchen sink...Oh, wait-." Reaching in one last time, I pulled out a sink, and tossed off to the side of the blanket, "I forgot, I actually did pack the kitchen sink."

She burst out laughing, "W-why did you pack, a k-kltchen sink?"She thought it was but a joke, but I really did mean it when I said everything.

"I always pack a spare, you know, just in case. You never know when you might want to wash your hooves, or brush your teeth. Where would you be in such a situation without a sink? And one from the kitchen is best, because you can also do the dishes in it." I tried to put on a serious facade, but she saw right through it and continued laughing.

"You're so silly Dizzy, I'm glad you're my new friend." After she had finished laughing, even wiping a tear of joy from her eye, she went straight for the muffins, "I love muffins, they're my favorite." With the first bite she let out a deep groan, "Blueberry, I can't believe they're blueberry. These, are amazing!"

"Well, the truth is, most of my sweets are very special, they attune themselves to the favorite flavors of whomever eats them. That is part of the magic that is chaos, ever changing, like the wind." I smiled, "Oh, and another thing, you might enjoy, you'll never gain any weight, no matter how much of it you'll eat~"

She looked at me in disbelief for a moment, before cheering silently and continuing through the muffins. She was quick, but clean at the same time, well-versed in the ways of eating like a princess. I soon joined her, sadly I could not say the same about myself. Devouring the sweets like a hound, I got crumbs everywhere, especially in Celestia's mane.

This elicited a shriek from her, "Dizzy! Stop that, you're getting crumbs all over me!" She shook frantically, trying to get it all out of her mane, "Help me get it out, or I will...I don't know what I'll do, but I'll do it!"

I found myself rushing to aide her, even though there likely wasn't much she could actually do to me. Picking out bits and pieces with my talons was quite easy, and soon enough she was clean as a whistle, but still enraged.

Celestia huffed and puffed, a pout on her face. There was only one thing to do! With a flash of light, i transformed myself into a fluffy little puppy and slurped her face, "I'm sowwy Tia, I pwomise I won't do it again."

She tried to hold it in, but, I got through and she smiled again, petting my head, "Fine, but you better mean it. I'm a princess, I don't need to get messy."

Transforming myself back, I nodded, "Don't worry, I do mean it. Now, there's a lot of food, and little time to eat it all. Let us hurry and eat as much as we can."

With a giggle, the filly went back to eating. Moments later, I joined in, and before long, almost all of it was gone. Of course, the majority was my doing. We were so distracted by the picnic, that we didn't notice the time.

"Oh no, I have to go, it's almost morning. I'm sorry Dizzy, I'd help you clean up, but really have to get back!" Before I could say a word, she was off. All I wanted to tell her, was not to forget the tea set. It was a gift, and she deserved it.

With a snap of my claws, I teleported it into her room, hoping it'd make her happy to see it. I couldn't wait to see her again, so after cleaning up, I turned into a blue bird and flew off to wait until the next picnic. There would be many to come, after all.

The First Lesson

It had been a year since we first met, and so many picnics were had in our favorite spot And it was about half a year ago that she had asked me to start teaching her magic. Up until now, I simply told her, that her magic wasn't stable enough yet.

On her birthday, she put on a display with the magics she learned from Starswirl. I watched from amidst the crowd, disguised as a pony for a special occasion. That night, during a birthday picnic, with a cake the size of me, she asked again for me to teach her, and I said yes.

A week had passed before we were able to meet again, the Princess was busy with things in the castle. I had plenty of time to prepare the first lesson. When we finally met outside the Canterlot Maze, I told her we were going on a trip.

"I've got something special planned today. It'll be your first lesson in magic from me, so I figured we should to go a place where my magic is normal, the place where I met sir Starswirl, the Everfree Forest."

She let out a gasp, thinking for a moment to herself, "I-I've never been there, I was told it was very dangerous. That there are things there that could eat me whole, or turn my magic upside down."

"These statements are true. Large, ferocious beasts live in the everfree, almost as strange as I. And some of the plants have poisons that can do many a thing, including mess with your magic. But, I promise, that if you come with me, I will protect you." I offered my paw with a sincere smile.

With but a small hesitation, she took my paw in hoof, and nodded, "Ok, I'll go, because I know that I'm safe with you." In a flash of light, we were gone from the gardens, and in the depths of the Everfree forest.

The darkness was different here, thicker, tainted with chaos not like my own. Some would say it was evil, I simply call it different. We were lucky enough to just miss landing in a patch of Poison Joke, which I pointed out to her, "That, my dear Tia, is one of the plants I told you about. Poison Joke, not the worst of the lot, it's poison simply likes to have fun. The effects of it are pretty random."

I conjured up an image of the princess, changing it to showcase some possibilities, "It could turn you purple or green, or pink with yellow polka dots. It could turn your hair into hay, your horn into jelly, or even your tongue into a toad. Sometimes the joke may be severe, but more often than not, it will be harmless."

She stared wide eyed at the different variations of the image, stepping as far away from the plants as she could, whilst still remaining close to me, "I d-don't think it'd be a good idea t-to hang around that stuff. Is there a better spot?"

"Yes, there's a clearing not far from here, across the bottomless chasm." I led her through the forest with care, and across the rickety bridge that connected the two sides. Here lay the clearing that would be the future site of the dark castle, but for now, it was barren, except for a small table and a pair of chairs. Of course, I put those there myself.

Celestia had followed me silently all the way here, only speaking up when we reached out destination, "Why is this place here, in the middle of the forest? It seems so...different." While awaiting a response, she took a seat to rest her hooves.

"The answer is simple. Within all darkness, there is a glimmer of light. This clearing, is the light of the Everfree Forest." A light that would eventually be smothered by her own sister, "I chose this spot because the atmosphere is rich in magic. I figured it would help you in your lessons."

While I explained, wisps started appearing, flying about wildly, a perfect representation of the magic in the air. One was so bold as to alight itself atop Celestia's nose, causing her to giggle, which made it fly away, "I can tell...this place feels so amazing."

I gave a slight chuckle, making my way over to the other chair to have a seat, "Some of the spells I'll teach you, will only work here..at least until your magic is strong enough on its own. To start with, a bit of light reading." A snap of the claws, brought forth a book so massive and heavy, it made the table creak.

"Oh my...what? Please tell me you're joking." She reached out to open it, but the slightest touch sent the table crumbling beneath it, and the book fell down. I, of course, burst out in laughter, "What? What's so funny?"

"Of course I was joking, Tia. I'd never make you read that. Besides, wherever would you find the time?" She huffed cutely, and I cast the book away. "The real lesson is nothing like that. But, I can only teach one spell per lesson, ok? I don't wish to tire you out."

She nodded in agreement, and we began. "The first spell is quite basic, yet extremely powerful. I taught it to Sir Starswirl, and he made his own version of it. Has he told you about teleportation?" Another nod, "Well, my form of it is different than his, I call it flashing."

In a flash of light, I vanished, appearing and disappearing all over the place, before bringing myself back to the seat. "But before I teach you, a bit of explanation about magic. Normal magic flows outward, like an explosion of energy. My magic does the opposite, flowing inward, imploding. This makes it unstable, but much more powerful."

She watched in amazement of my rapid movements, sitting in silence when I appeared again in front of her. She nodded some more, listening close, "When you do that, the light appears, but, instead of just going away, it gets sucked in, is that what you mean?" I smiled an nodded, she understood well. "Starswirl tried to teach me his kind, but I couldn't do it. I wasn't strong enough..."

"Don't worry, dear Tia. There's two reasons why you won't have that problem now. The first, is this place, you are much stronger here. The second is, my spell requires much less energy. Would you like to try." She nodded, somewhat frantically, eager to learn.

"To start, focus your magic into a single point, as you would with casting any spell. But instead of putting it at the tip of your horn, put it at the core of your body. When you've gathered as much as you can, push inward, compress the magic, into a tight little ball. While doing so, think about where you want to go, now, this may require practice, to think about a location, whilst also casting a spell so complex. Eventually, the magic will collapse, and release all the energy. If done right, poof, there you go."

Without another word, she stood up, taking a spot a few feet away. She closed her eyes in focus, pouring all her effort into her magic. It took a few tries before she was even able to move it from her horn to her body. All the magical energy coming off her,sparked the air. Wisps started appearing by the dozens. She was very powerful back then, and even more powerful now.

Her first attempt at actually casting the spell failed. She created a small burst of light, but nothing more. The second, and third attempts ended about the same. But she didn't give up, even when panting in exhaustion. Time and time again, she tried, and somehow, getting stronger each time. It was like nothing I'd seen before. This princess, was more powerful than even sir Starswirl...Celestia, the pony who would be the only one, to outmatch me, alone.

Finally, just before Dawn, she succeeded. It wasn't much, only moving a few feet away, but she did it. At first, she couldn't believe it, but realizing what had happened was real, she started jumping, and cheering. In her exhaustion, this cause her to topple over. When I rushed over, she was giggling like a madpony, "I did it Dizzy, I did it! Thank you so much...I can't wait til I'm strong enough to use it back home."

"Tia, I should warn you..my magic is that of Chaos...using that spell willy-nilly outside of Everfree could be trouble. You must promise me that you will only use it if you absolutely have to, ok?" The giggling stopped quickly and her face grew stern, "Ok."

I let out a sigh and smiled, "I think it's time we get you home...you need to rest a bit before your day starts." She stood up shakily, and I picked her up, "Let's go." In a flash, we were gone. At some point, the filly fell asleep. She'd awaken in her bed, with me nowhere to be seen. I went back to the forest, the place I called home.

Flashing was the first spell she learned from me, likely the most unstable of the lot. She kept her promise though, never using it outside of the forest. She never really needed to, and when she did, she usually fell back on the one she learned from Starswirl. Only once, did I ever see her using it...but that is part of another memory, the last one I had before...well, you'll see.

The First Love

Yet another day, I will never forget. It came as a surprise, those words she said. I didn't believe it at first, she was so young, so naive...but in time they'd prove themselves to be truer than anything ever.

It had been a few years since I'd started teaching her the ways of ancient, and chaotic magics. Our picnics, of course, continued. But, once a week, we'd go to the clearing in Everfree, where all magic was amplified, to practice.

I taught her all sorts of spells, transformation, conjuring, weather manipulation, mind manipulation. Some, she was safe to use, others, she promised never to use. I taught them all though, for the sake of knowledge. She's the only one I'd ever trust with such spells.

It was on one of these nights that it happened. I'd just finished teaching her about time travel. A spell that was safe to use, but taboo. There were many like it already in the Royal Archives, forbidden to even know. But, as Royalty, she was given leeway. But, to be on the safe side, it would be forever a secret.

After she had finished practicing, finished perfecting the spell, she ran up to me, and gave me a hug. This one was different from others she had given me, gentle, caring, warm. And then she spoke those wonderful words, "I love you, Dizzy."

I looked down in shock, "You can't mean that. I am just your friend, and teacher. Besides, I'm much, much older than you. And you, are young, too young to possibly know."

Pain struck me, as she slapped me across the face with a hoof, "Dizzy, you know how smart I am. And you know I'd never lie to you. I mean it, I love you, i really do." Next came emotional pain, as tears started to well up in her eyes, "D-don't you love me? I m-mean...sometimes I see it, in your eyes...I-I was sure-"

"Stop....no need to continue. You're right, dear Tia...I do love you, I've loved you since the day we met....and before you get weirded out, let me explain. I exist beyond time, I've taught you this already. Sometimes I catch glimpses of the future...when I first saw you, I saw what you would become...and I was smitten. I've been waiting for that day, when your visage would match the one I saw that night..."

Her tears grew larger, but they were different. Tears of joy, not of sadness or despair, "D-do you really mean it? I-I'm going to be beautiful? And...you love me?" She hugged me tighter, and kissed my cheek. An innocent kiss, of course, but, a kiss that would eventually become one of love.

"I can't wait until I'm her...me...the one you saw. Because that means I'll be old enough for us to be together, right?" I smiled, kissing her cheek in return, "Yes, my little pony, it does."

We embraced for some time, lovingly, warmly. But, soon our thoughts turned back to practice. And even though we were distracted, ever so slightly, things went well. Dawn came, and she returned to the palace. My heart ached already, being apart. It was a love so true, that it was beyond time itself, just as I was. But it was a tragic love...I'm sure you've already figured that out.

Until the next memory...we part.

The First Date

What a wonderful night it was. The clouds were clear, but a gentle mist coated the entire kingdom of Canterlot. It was a very special night, a little over a month since Celestia's birthday. Three years, since we declared our love for each other, and tonight, we were going to make it official.

During our last picnic, Tia asked me out on a date. Of course I said yes, there was nothing I wanted more than to go out with her. Tonight was the night we settled on, and the atmosphere was perfect, some would say...romantic.

We met at our usual spot, just outside the Canterlot maze. The princess was the first to speak, "Dizzy, I've prepared something special for tonight. The guards have been ordered to clear out the dining hall, all but one table. The chefs have prepared a magnificent meal...I told them I was going to be with my special somepony."

"T-they know about me? Y-you told them?" I was worried, quite worried. If they knew about me, it would only be a matter of time before they came after me. But, she shook her head.

"Don't fret, Dizzy. The only pony who actually knows who you are is Starswirl...but, everypony else had figured out I was with somepony. I told them that it was true, but not who you were. They were respectful towards me, and didn't dig further...And, I also gave the guards the night off, said I'd be safe with you. And even Starswirl said it was true. So, what do you think?"

I found myself speechless. She kept the secret so well, even though everyone knew that she was with somepony. I guess, that as a princess, she reserved the right to be with whomever she wished...and everyone respected that. I nodded, and she led me to the castle.

I was still worried, that we'd be caught. But as we went on, it became clear, there was not a single guard in sight. The princess was known for her honesty, so they believed her when she said she'd be safe. It was my first time in the castle...and what a lovely place it was.

Tia chose most of the decorations herself, she had quite good tastes. Well, of course, we already knew that, seeing as she chose to be with me. The Castle was large, but it seemed like only moments had passed when we reached the dining hall.

Right in the middle sat a single, small table. The pearl tea set I gave her rest upon it, glistening in the light of a few candlesticks. Seeing that there brought a joyous tear to my eye. Then, there was the smell, so sweet.

She'd convinced the chefs to make a meal for me, that most ponies would turn their noses at...honey-glazed ham. They must've thought it weird that she was with a meat-eater, but, they made it anyway. As for her, a magnificent salad, with plenty of blueberries.

We continued onward, I pulled out her chair for her, and moved it back when she sat down. When I took my seat, her smile shined brighter than the candles. It lit up the room like the sun she represented, "I remember, during one of our picnics, you told me you liked Strawberry Cordial...so, I had it made for our date. Try some, and tell me what you think."

"F-for me? Oh, thank you Tia." I poured each of us a glass, before taking a sip. It was magnificent, the flavor so robust and sweet. Lingering on the tongue long after I had finished drinking. I was quick, but the princess took her time, savoring it for as long as she could, "I can see why you like it so much."

The drinks out of the way, we began to feast. It was strange for me, to eat so delicately. I took it slow, bite by bite. Whilst normally I'd wolf it down. This seemed to make her happy, as she nibbled away at her salad.

We talked while we ate, a wonderful chat. She told me more about her life as princess. I never really asked much, it seemed too stressful to think of. And it was, the studies, the training, the meetings...I still don't understand how she does it all.

She asked about history, about what life was like before Canterlot. I told her about the world before even ponies existed. When dragons ruled the lands, gryphons ruled the skies, and the kirins ruled the mountains. I told her about the war, that tore the planet apart, and created the wastelands.

Celestia was enthralled with my words. The world of the past was a wild and dangerous place. And yet, when the ponies appeared, they quickly turned it into what it is now. A place of light, of happiness and friendship. The complete opposite of how it used to be.

Before we knew it, the night was gone, the guards were coming back to duty. We were long since finished with our meal, but the discussion went on. I was almost caught, but, Celestia rescued me, taking me away to a secret passage out of the castle.

Before we parted ways, she gave me a kiss, a proper kiss. So deep, so passionate...I can still feel it to this day, "I love you...Dizzy. Please, be safe, ok?"

I was speechless yet again. She kissed me again before running back into the castle. She went through all that trouble, and I was almost caught again. But, before I was, I transformed into a hummingbird and escaped.

That night, would be one of my happiest memories ever. And even though we had more like it, that, was the first.

The First Goodbye, and The Final Farewell

It was a time, Celestia and I would never forget. But, that is not a good thing. Quite the opposite in fact...it was the beginning of the end of both of us, in a sense.

It started with a day, like any other. We had been going out for 3 years now, and had been sleeping together for one. I was growing accustomed to coming out during the day, to see her in all her glory as Princess of the Sun.

But, that is why that day came to be. I snuck into the castle, like I'd done many times before, to watch her on the throne. So beautiful, and elegant. Yet, strong, and willful. I was enamored by her, so much, that I was unaware that I'd finally been caught.

One of the guards spotted me hiding away, he let out a powerful shout to all nearby, "We have an intruder...some thing has invaded the castle. All guards on duty, come protect the princess!" She tried to call out to stop them, but her words fell on deaf ears.

In a matter of moments I was surrounded, but that didn't really mean anything. In a flash, I was gone, but in my haste, I forgot to choose a location, landing in the middle of Canterlot itself. My arrival was greeted by shrieks and screams, ponies scrambled to get away. 'Monster, Monster!' they cried. It was clear that they were afraid.

This is what I dreaded. The fear, the hatred...all because of how I appeared. Celestia never believed me when I told her this would happen. I was right all along...but, I didn't want to be at that moment. I wanted it to be a lie, a horrible, horrible lie.

That was not the case. The city guards came to investigate, and surrounded me like the Royal guards did. I tried to flash again, but couldn't focus. The screaming, the name calling, the emotions in the air. It was so thick, I felt like I was suffocating. I felt, like I, an immortal being, was about to just die.

The guards launched an attack, throwing their weapons with magic, to little effect. My chaos protected me from harm, turning the armaments into dust. When that failed, they attacked directly with magic, imprisoning me in a bubble.

That didn't work either. With a burst of energy, I split the bubble open and broke free. My retaliation came at a cost, I lost control of my chaos. The atmosphere darkened, the skies clouded over with a dreadful storm. It began to rain, so cold that it froze the body to the core in pain.

Lightning struck all around Canterlot, and part of me could hear her, all the way at the castle. Screaming, calling to me to stop. She could feel it, feel me falling apart. She tried to save me with her beautiful voice, but it was too late.

I was not myself anymore, I was chaos. It took over, took control of me, and I went on a rampage. They say it was like some demon had broke out from the darkest pits of hell, and ravaged the land. Tearing it open with quakes, burning it down with a hail of fire.

There are two sides of chaos. The one that the real me prefers, the essence of fun and randomness. Then there's the one that took over that day....Pure destruction. The kind that starts wars and destroys planets with meteors.

Luckily, no meteors came that day...but the land probably would've been better off. It was far worse. I enslaved the people with controlling magic, and imprisoned anyone who broke free. And the worst of it all came, when she approached me.

She was in tears, standing beside her sister, trying to coax my mind back to normal. But, I could not hear her, I was a prisoner myself, in my own body. One small thing broke free of that prison, a single word, "Goodbye...." A word filled with pain and despair. It was the last thing she heard from me, before I cast her and her sister away, far across the world, stripped of their magic.

That was the beginning of my rule. Canterlot, and all of Equestria was mine. But, if I'd actually had a say in it all, I'd give it all up just to be with her again. I'd taken up house in the Castle, turned the stone into basalt, and the throne into rubies. Some stories say that the throne sat upon a mountain of skulls...but that is just a lie. Even in that state, I wouldn't have done that.

The land was warped by chaos, buildings in the sky, day and night confused. The rivers changed from one fluid to the next all the time. The weather was out of control, and you'd never know exactly what would come raining down on your head. I was dreadfully happy during it all, but inside, I was not.

A year went by quickly...one could never keep track of the days after all. And on the anniversary of my rule, she came back. Both of them had found their way home, and along the way, discovered the one thing that could defeat me.

A magic opposite to my own. Some call it Harmony, but its real name was Order. Six elements had bound themselves to the sisters. You know them well. Kindness, Honesty, Loyalty, Laughter, Generosity, and Magic.

The magic was powerful, but so was my own. We engaged in a duel to determine the final fate of the world. One, I didn't want to win..and maybe, that's why I didn't. It felt like the real me, had interfered, broken the dark magic long enough for them to win.

I had lost, and I was happy. Even as I felt my body turning to stone. That happiness was gone when I looked at her face. While her sister had collapsed in exhaustion, Celestia stood there, looking at me. Her face stained with tears, of pain and sadness.

She did what she had to do, and I will never hate her for that. And I will never forget those words, never. "Farewell, my love...I will miss you always." The last thing I saw before the spell has completely encased me was her running away, while the world went back to normal.

Over a thousand years later, when I was free again, after the events with the six friends, and my reimprisonment. When I broke free for the last time, and turned to the side of good...I approached Luna, and asked her what happened afterwards, so many years ago.

She told me that Celestia had vanished for a week. Nopony knew where she went. They finally found her in the middle of Canterlot maze, under the tree. Her face so stained, it was almost hard to tell it was her. She had cried so long, that there was nothing left.

Nopony dared to ask her why. Starswirl told Luna the truth, about how Celestia and I were together. She was the only pony in all the land left alive, that knew our secret. And for a thousand years, she herself was gone, imprisoned on the moon, never to reveal an ancient secret.

Recently, I found a book, buried deep in the archives, written by none other than Sir Starswirl himself. 'The Real History of Equestria'. And in it, the truth about what happened there. The truth I told Luna, and she had told me. Lost amongst the rest of history.

Celestia wanted to forget, so did I. But we both knew, it would be in our memories, for the rest of time. Not just the sad part, but all the happiness that came before it. A tragic love story, unlike any other you'll ever read. Maybe one day, this book will find its way out in the open, so everyone can learn what really happened, so long ago.

Until then, you only have my memories...

Author's Note

This was originally two separate chapters, but they went together so I made it one.