Found this in my desk today. Didn't want to fix the obvious spelling mistakes cause it brings some charm and class to a letter that by definition thanks to everything in my life, I think I failed. I have so many thoughts of death that I think by definition I can't aspire to be anything but a failure thanks to the very cheerful and hopeful bar set in this letter. Ironically. I wanted to die before going back to school. Today I am going back to school. It is a constant struggle in my head to not do what a part of my mind wants.

November~~ (Written 5 years after I was born) Actual date unimportant.

Dinky,

I love you! You are so special! You a smart, talented, cheerful, wonderful. The other day mom called and to me, that Amethyst had said she thought you were smarter than her. I am so lucky to know you Dinky! I remember the day we were told mom was going to have a baby Dad started off by saying how mom had a disease and all I could think was she was going to die we all prayed for you to be smart and cheerful: and look at you! I told mom after, we should have prayed for good teeth also but that was an after-thought. You changed our family and I want to thank you. All of us grew up and became a closer family because of you.

I remember the day you were born. I remember your first steps (sort of :) ) I think of how amazingly smart and coordinated you are when you put together a difficult puzzle and I can't do a 30 piece puzzle!

Mother always said how special I was, and it was always wonderful to hear that. That is why I always wrote you those letters that didn't say much other than" I love you".

I want to thank you for your generosity. . .Like when you gave me your two "bug" toys, Hayburger car, and brown crayon. I know these meant a lot to you because over the summer you would play with the "bug" things and you could never wait to get to Hayburger to get the latest toy.

This letter is difficult to write when I think of you; I think of the adorable, sweet, wonderful, almost five year old that I last saw three months ago. When I try to think of what you will be like when you open this letter I see many different pictures. Actually- perhaps more questions than anything. Will you be tall like dad or take after mom? Will you have Amethyst's wonderful hair? Hopefully you look more like her than me cause she is quiet cute!

I see you as an intellegent young mare who excels in Equestrian, understands Math, loves art and computers. A special young mare who is kind and generous; who everyone loves and respects. You can be anything- the world is open to you!

As you play with bricks and blocks, you could be an architect. As you love to draw, you could be an artist. As you have a wonderful sense of humor, you could be a comedian. As you do so well with your rodeo performances, you could be a cowpony. Perhaps an engineer with all your patience. A doctor with how well you take care of your dolls. A teach with the way you help your classmates. A chef with your enjoyment in the kitchen!

When I think about the time in which you will open this letter; I question will it be filled with peace for my sisters and children? Or rather will it be the Third War? Will Equestria still be there? Will the end of the world come and past? Will you open this letter when asked? Perhaps you will never find this. Perhaps, these will be yellowed sheets of paper with faded writing?

I, from my life (as of yet) is naturally inept to ask nothing but these futile questions. All we can do-- even in this technology ridden world full of computers, televisions, telephones, and calculators- can do is hope! I hope you are able to read this in a peaceful world. . . in an uncorrupt world, where megaspells and chemical weapons were part of a 'base' era. . .where we love flowers, where the world is clean, where disease is of the past, where we work and live together in brotherly love.

When you are supposed to open this letter, you will be eighteen, and calculated correctly it will be 1012 since Celestia beat NMM. 1012? Sounds so far away!!! When I think about it, I see a digital world with people wearing funny clothes-- I don't now why, , , Even if 1012 is only 13 years from now!

I wish you all the luck in the world. I hope you are successful. I hope you find a special person who loves you for you- but that will be even further in the future.

Cloudkicker, your loving sister,

Words to live by in my own personal experience:

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars."

"Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional."

"Cherish your vision and your dreams as they are the children of your soul; the blue prints of your ultimate achievements."

"Whether you think you can, or think you can't, your right."

"History has showed that the most notable winners usually encounter heart breaking obstacles before they triumph. They won because they refused to be discouraged by their faults."

Author's Note

Written on the envelope holding the letter- with happy smiley faces keeping a utterly ripped apart envelope together.

Note: Not to open until 18th birthday.
P.P.S.- Dinky decided to send Cloudkicker some dinosaurs for her birthday.

P.S. OOPS- this was opened by Dinky when she saw it was for her- Enclosed were lots of stickers- she took them right away and placed them on the enclosed paper. She was so happy.