Tortured Life of a Once Normal Teen

Hey, my names Jacob. What would you do if you were ripped away from your normal everyday happy life, and thrown face first into something that no child should ever have to go through? That was my life: a killer. I was forced to do things that I wouldn't wish on my greatest enemy. However, by some miracle I was able to escape that life... well, in a way. I can't take two steps without something reminding me of those days. And worse, I fear I might revert back at anytime. I don't know what to do anymore...

Now here I am, sixteen years old and I've been allowed back into normal society and into one of the most prestigious schools in all of Equestria, Canterlot High, so I am under the watchful eye of Princess Celestia herself. I was only rescued nine months prior to me being released into the normal world again. I was still having nightmares every night from the days I had to fight for my life. The blood… screams… and hopeful looks in their eyes thinking I would spare them. Only for their hopes to be destroyed with the killing blow by my hands. I never wanted to! I mean some of them I was friends with, but it was either me or them… clearly I chose them. I always would wake up screaming or looking around for help or the eyes of those I had killed.

But that was only when I was getting help. Now after those nine months I have been put under the eye of Princess Celestia. At the time I never knew why, but soon that answer would be brought to me. She had explained to me that if I was to have any chance of living like I had before I would need to go to school for it. She said being around hundreds of people could help me with the stress and I could make friends. Of course, I accepted without thinking it over at first, but now as I got ready for the first day of the school I was going to attend I was starting to have second thoughts. Not just the fact that all the friends I had ever made died by or in front of me. Also I knew from just a door slamming I would think I was having to fight for the sound was similar to a shield being bashed by the opponent, the heralding sound of the arena.

The arena… with its huge space… blood everywhere and bodies… an announcer on the loudspeaker announcing every move the fighters did… the screaming, oh Celestia the screaming! Sorry… got into a flashback. Anyways that’s why I hate loud noises. But as for what I look like...just picture a normal looking sixteen year old. Around six(feet) and five(inches). I used to have a light built but grew to a medium built from fighting and grueling training. I have short brown hair and green eyes. I am a normal equestrian with tan skin with a good bit of Thai heritage in my blood. But I don't worship the Buddha or anything like that. As for my family, I live alone. Ever since I was kidnapped, I could never find my real parents nor any of my relatives, so I just gave up. What else can someone in my situation do?

So now you know a little bit about my life. Now this is where the actual story begins. The story of when I was brought back from hell and into a more peaceful life. But even through peace, hell lurks around every corner just wanting to bring you back from what you’re so close to achieving.

I was standing at the doors of Canterlot High in their school uniform. A simple suite like shirt with black dress pants my backpack on my back. Class was already about to start and a bunch of students were already on their way to their own classes. I sighed while walking towards the massive building and up the steps. As soon as I entered the school my ears were assaulted by the sound of chattering kids and lockers opening. Along with the slamming...I swear the first slam made me wanna just jump behind something or just go and hide forever. But I just clenched my hands tight having to hold back the urge to do so. I walked in further trying to just find the office looking for a sign. My movement slow while my hearing as well as my sight were on high alert.

After what seemed like forever I saw a sign that said “Main Office.” I let out a sigh of relief as I walked in eagerly. I opened the door and closed it behind me the sound of lockers slamming muffled and much easier to deal with.

“Why hello. How can I help you?” I heard a voice say. I turned towards it quickly on instinct. Sitting there was an elderly woman looking to be maybe sixty five. She had short pure white hair and her eyes were behind a pair of elder glasses. Along with a long blue dress with white dots with plain looking shoes.

“Um… yes I was wondering if this was the main office.” I said while I get my nerves under control. The woman smiled as she pointed to her left. There were file cabinets sitting on either side of the door that had a small sign that read “Principal's Office”.

“Thanks.” I said as I made my way to the door and knocked.

“Come in.” I heard a female voice say. I opened it and walked inside. In front of me was Celestia herself, her ever flowing hair shined beautifully as she greets me a warm smile. I did the same though it has been awhile since I even cracked a grin so I was afraid it looked weird. I walked over to her and saw quickly that she was wearing a woman's suite with white tie and tan dress pants. I sat down in a chair that was in front of her.

“So… Jacob how are you holding up?” Celestia was one of the few people to talk to me after I was rescued from that hellish place and she even set up therapy for me to go to. So she was one of the people I felt I could open up to.

“Not so good… I feel like I am going through all that hell again… like I’m back in that place again.” I slumped over, putting my hands over my face as sweat started to form on my body.

Celestia frowned at seeing me in this state. “Please have a seat, you can take the time to relax while I get your paperwork ready.”

“Th-thanks.” I stuttered as my mind raced with thoughts of my old life. “I can’t seem to shake the memories sometimes.” I quickly took a seat and sighed heavily.

“Don’t stress yourself, these things come with time. And with everything that’s happened, it’s a miracle you came this far, you are stronger than you think.” Celestia concludes as she leaves to get my file. I sit there waiting for her as I calm myself down. It only took her a few seconds before she returned with a folder in hand. She sits down and places the folder onto the desk, opening it. The picture was of me recently taken.

“Does it... have all of my information of what I went through?” Celestia looked at me and for once she didn’t seem to know how to answer. All she did was nod. I looked back at the folder. It was very detailed in what it was saying about what I went through. From what I looked like before being abducted. Long hair, always smiling, very skinny, and kind. I quickly skimmed down and saw that all that had changed. It said I was found with a bloody weapon in my hands three bodies around me. My expression was of one who had just got into a fight with anger surging through me like a wild animal. My mind suddenly went to that day.

~*~*~

“Hey, kid come back here or else!” One of the men yelled as I ran for my life.

“We aren’t gonna hurt you, we just want to talk!” Another man yelled as he laughed.

I was running for a straight ten minutes and was completely out of breath as a rounded a corner trying to get away from the three brutes chasing me. The whole arena was in chaos, they were finally found out and the princess herself as well as a whole platoon of her royal guards marched in out of nowhere. I had to take this chance to escape, before being captured myself. Unfortunately these guys had a different plan. I think they wanted revenge for me killing a mate of theirs, but I didn’t care, I just wanted to get away from this place, to be free. As I rounded the corner, it was blocked of my a gate that had been shut to prevent anyone from escaping.

“No, no, no! there has to be a way!” I screamed in frustration. But as I went to turn around, the three men were already on me. I took a swift jab to the stomach then was forced to the ground. I can remember them laughing as they held me there, telling me that I’m done for and that I’d never see the light of day.

I watched as one pulled out a knife, licking the blade, cheap scare tactic that I never fell for. But what I knew I had to fear was my imminent death if I didn’t get away. I began struggling as hard as I could muster despite having a buff, fully grown man on top of me. I remembered wailing and cursing at them as they laughed. I watched as the one with the knife slowly inched it towards my face, pressing the sharp edge against my cheek, he slowly started carving, I felt the blood running down my face and neck while they laughed. Thanks to the torture and pain I was used to already, I was able to hold back any tears. As he left a good long cut across my face, he started along my arm; the pain was beginning to become hard to deal with. However, when he suddenly stabbed it to my bicep, I remember letting out the largest scream of pain that I could remember. I don't know why, maybe it was because it was me wishing someone would save me or me wishing they’d let me go. Either way, I lay there as tears start to wail up as he sliced my chest, stomach and legs. I felt myself wanting to slip into unconsciousness, wanting to just finally let all the struggling, all the pain disappear and die off.

But then, out of nowhere I get a rush of adrenaline just like when I’d fight for my life in the arena in front of hundreds of people. I didn’t want to die, I didn’t want to fade away and my life end like this. My eyes shot open as I flailed as hard as I could, knocking the guy carving me up and getting one of my legs free. The only thing I remember after this is slamming my foot into the guys hand as the blade pierced his jugular. Blood squirted all over me, a feeling I knew all too well. His friends seemed to recoil at the sight and I managed to free myself long enough to grab the knife, slam it into the guy that was holding me down’s side and repeatedly stab him over and over again until he was a pile of blood and guts. That’s when it faded in and out, the next thing I knew I was standing over three corpses covered in so much blood I didn’t know how much was mine or theirs and in the middle of all this I just cried. I didn’t cry because of the pain, or the blood, I cried because I just wanted the killing to stop.

I remember holding the knife to my throat as I knelt down on my knees, I wanted it all to stop one way or another, I figured there’d be no help for me so if I took my own life, at least there’d be peace in some way. And as soon as I was about to thrust the knife forward, a hand grabbed mine.

A man in armor looked down at me, eyes filled with kindness and sorrow. He told me that he was there was no need to kill myself, that he was here to rescue me from this life. Soon after that I just passed out from all the stress and loss of blood.

~*~*~

I snapped back to reality when I heard Celesta calling my name. I looked up at her and saw that her kind eyes showed severe worry. I shook my head.

“Sorry… sorry... I just had another flashback. Were you trying to tell me something?” I asked once my daze was gone.

“I was only saying that if you need any help just ask to come see me. All the teachers know about your condition, but not the students. So you are excused should the circumstances need be.” I nodded at this just happy that she went through all of this trouble to help me.

“Thank you... you really hel-” A loud noise echoed through the whole building. The sound on its own was another signal for the arena. It was to say that more people would arrive. Instinct kicked in again as I stood up and spun around to look at the door thinking someone would come rushing out. All I could hear was my rapid heart beat and another loud sound. I started stepping back and ended up knocking the chair over, though I didn’t hear it. Another loud noise echoed as I fell back onto the desk, crawling backwards as fast as I could, my heart beating so fast that I thought my ears would burst while sweat covered my whole body. the bell lets out its last note as I fell to the ground, knocking everything off the desk. I stood up quickly looking around frantically for a weapon of any kind. Suddenly I heard my name being called, though it starts off muffled.

“Jacob... Jacob... Jacob!” I shook my head quickly as the loud noise stopping, my heart beat slowly disappearing from my ears. I looked around seeing the two chairs knocked over and the desk no longer having anything on it, but it was all on the floor. I heard my name to my left and saw Celestia there looking at me with worried eyes. Suddenly I felt something trail down my face and my vision got blurry. I then knew I was crying from fear. All the fear I had thought i’d escaped had come back after me. Without saying a single word... she gathered me into a gentle hug. At first my whole body tensed up at first, this is the first time I’ve been hugged like this that I can remember and the whole experience felt strange to me. I was gonna break away until she gave me a soothing noise.

“Shhh... shhhh. it’s ok Jacob... no one here is going to hurt you, you know.” She said in the most calming voice ever. I slowly relaxed as I wrapped my arms slowly around her feeling the gentle touch of a hug for the first time in what seemed like ages. After a bit of time passed we both let go as I pulled away. That hug helped me out so much.

“Thank you... it helped... er, sorry about the office.” I said apologetically. Celestia shrugged.

“It’s ok, no harm done. Listen, I know how hard it’s going to be so I am asking you to promise me something. Do your best not to lose yourself when something loud, or anything that reminds you of that place, for if you do... I'd have to be forced to have you removed if you're a danger to the students, so please, do your best to remain calm and if you ever feel like you can't handle it, come see me immediately, no matter what. All the teachers know about you and will let you go," understand?” I nodded at this, knowing that if I had flipped like that in class some terrible things would ensue. She smiled at me. “Now go on Jacob you’re gonna be late on your first day.” She said kindly. I smiled as I turned and walked out of the office, feeling guilty for destroying it.

As I walked through the now slowly emptying hallways that had the little amount of students filter into class rooms. I checked my back pocket and took out my schedule. It said for first period I had to get to classroom two hundred and three for Math. I kept looking down at the schedule, remembering all my classes when I suddenly bumped into something and was knocked back a little. Again my heart raced, it reminded me of all the times I was rushed at by my enemy’s. I looked up and saw that I had bumped into a girl. She wore a green with white lines skirt and white suite the schools uniform for girls, her rain colored like a bright rainbow. She was rubbing her head as I rubbed my chest probably hitting me there.

“Ow... hey watch where you're going!” She said with anger. The tone of her voice made my heart race. “I just have to get away as quickly as possible!” I thought to myself as I just rushed by her, looking down at my schedule, fearing if I looked at her again I would get the urge to do something I’d regret to an innocent student. I kept walking as she was yelling about how rude I was and if I was ever going to apologize to her. My heart rate starts to slow down as I get to my classroom. The room was packed with students goofing around and doing school work.

“Oh you must be the new student?” I heard a voice say behind me. I turned and saw an older man standing there. He had on a brown suit with a black tie and brown pants with black dress shoes. I stepped away from the door so he could walk in. He had black hair and brown eyes with a beard. He walked in. “Your name is Jacob, yes?” He asked.

“Yeah... it is.” I said to him trying to not sound weird. He was one of the first people I had talked to, besides the lady in the office, that I didn’t know. He smiled.

“Ah, well good. Happy to see you made it to the right class. I’ll let you decide whether or not to say hello to the students or not. Either way, you can sit at one of the empty desks on the back.” He says, pointing to an empty seat. As I got to the back row and sat in one of the available desks, I noticed the girl sitting next to me, I found it a little strange how I only just noticed her. She had long pink hair that that went past her shoulder with blue eyes. She was wearing the same uniform as the other girl was only it seemed very tight around her chest area. I shook my head realizing I shouldn't be looking at girls in that way. Then the loud noise happened again, I remembered what Celesta had told me that I should keep my cool and try my best not react the way I normally would. I closed my eyes and took in a deep breath and held it for a few seconds. In that time frame all the noises came and went. I opened my eyes as I exhaled, finally figuring out that those were bells that signaled when a class ended and when a new one starts. Knowing that helped me a good bit.

“Excuse me...um, are you... ok?” I heard a timid voice say to my right. I looked and saw that the girl was looking at me with concern. Half her face covered by her long pink hair. I nodded.

“Yeah... yeah I’m... fine..” I said with a hint of a chuckle hoping the lie would work. She gave me a small smile and looked back up front. I did the same as all the students took their seats.

“Ok everyone please settle down now. It’s time to start class so here we go.” He turned to the board and with a white piece of chalk wrote up a equation. 6x-2=10. Above it he wrote the word ‘Solve’. I took out a folder from my bag that was labeled ‘Math’. Celestia went through the trouble of getting all my supplies. I also took out my pencil from the bag and opened the folder. Inside was notebook paper and a few math sheets that could help get caught up. I looked around and saw that some students were whispering amongst themselves not caring for the work that the teacher had given them. Others were working as if it was easy and some, like myself, were struggling on how to even start it. I refrained from looking at other peoples papers not wanting to make habit of depending on others to do my work for me. I wrote down the problem onto the paper I had and just stared at it. My mind a blank on what to do and how to work it out. Only a minute passed before the teacher tapped his desk. Everyone stopped and looked at him.

“Ok everyone that should’ve been enough time. Volunteers?” He asked. No one raised their hands. He sighed as he turned and did the problem explaining that you add two to both sides, then divide by six on both sides making X equal two. I was surprised as I put the notes he said down as he spoke. The whole class went like that. Him writing problem after problem onto the board and explaining each problem. Once he was done for the day he said that we had a few minutes before class was over and it would be time to go to the next one. Suddenly, one of the students started walking up towards the girl next to me. Fluttershy looks up and then quickly back down, avoiding eye contact and looking really nervous. The student walked over to her resting his hand on the back of her chair. Fluttershy looked at him and I saw that she had a look of fear in her eyes.

“So, little Miss Fluttershy I hear there’s a certain rumor going around.” The guy was very buff with a leather jacket draped over one shoulder with the words, “Canterlot High Football Quarterback.” I looked and saw the teacher was out of the room. I just looked at my notes as he continued. “I heard from a certain person that you like to stuff that huge bra of yours. I figured hey why don’t I see if that’s true?” I looked over this time hearing what he was gonna do. He suddenly grabbed her chest and the girl yelped. She tried pushing his arm away in vain since he was obviously stronger than her. I looked around hoping someone would help her. No one seemed to want to help the girls looking away while most of the guys ignored it a some seemed to be wanting to see more. I looked back at what he was doing as he gripped her shirt starting to pull it down.

“Stop, leave her alone.” I said as I stood up grabbing his arm in a quick motion. The guy looked at me shocked as I gripped it so hard for a second he lost his grip from her shirt and I pulled it away violently, but not in an effort to hurt him.

“The... what the fuck you think you're doing?!” He yelled in anger. I let go of his arm as he stepped back.

“She’s obviously not the type that likes being treated like that, so leave her be.” I said in a calm voice. He looked at me in anger. He had short blond hair with blue eyes. His eyes seemed to be burning with anger and he came up to me quickly and shoved me back. I stumbled back and got my footing as I looked at him.

“What are you gonna do!” He yelled as he shoved me again. I could feel my anger rising as I looked at him.

“Shove me again... and I will break your fucking arm.” I said in pure anger. He chuckled at this and even at that moment I knew my face had to have changed. Into one of a person who was ready to pounce, ready to fight, and ready to kill. The jock rushed forward and did one hard punch to the right side of my face. My head jerked to my left as he stood there smiling. I slowly looked at back at him a grin on my face. Blood slowly trickled down my face near my lips and I lapped it up in my tongue the taste of blood making me smile more. He recoiled a little at the sight. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him close till I was face to face with him.

“Stay away from me and if you come near me, I may not be able to hold myself back.” I looked at the girl to see if she was ok. When I did, she had a frightened and timid look on her face, I can guess why though as I looked back at him.

“What’s going on here?!” I heard the teacher say behind me. The jock looked at him the anger quickly leaving his face. I let him go from my grasp.

“Nothing at all. Just guys fooling around is all. Am I right?” He asked looking back at me. I nodded not losing eye contact. The sound of what I figured out now was the bell rung.

“You better watch yourself from here on, punk.” He whispered to me before walking away. My face was normal again, the rage dissipating. I looked at the girl who was being harassed to ask if she was ok. However, before I could get a word out, she jumps out of her desk and left as quickly as possible. I sighed to myself as I packed my things and left to my next class of the day..

All the other classes were fairly difficult as well, since I wasn’t taught much other than fighting tactics and whatnot. I even saw the same girl as before in my other classes, making it a little awkward as well, I could tell she didn’t really want me near her so I tried to sit in different locations. My last class was science class. It wasn’t very exciting for me either, I’d had hoped things would at least be interesting here, but I guess not. Suddenly, the phone rings in the front of class, causing me to jump slightly.

“Jacob. Celestia wants to see you.” I only nodded as I walked out of the classroom and made my way to the office. As I headed inside, and saw Celestia sitting at her desk. She looked up at me.

“So Jacob, how was your first day?” She asked. She didn’t notice the wound I got on my face so it must have been covered by my hair. I decided against my judgement to lie to her.

“Went well. Nothing bad happened.” I said. She smiled at me.

“Happy to hear that, Jacob.” The bell rings and I managed not to flinch.

“See, I’ve gotten better already.” I said smiling weirdly again. She smiled back.

“That’s great. Well that’s all I really wanted to talk to you about. You can leave if you want, Jacob. Be sure and stay out of trouble and you know where I am if you need me.” She said with a gentle smile. I smiled back before turning to leave the office and head home. As I stood outside of the school, I let out a sigh, mixed emotions filling my mind.

‘This has been one hell of a first day. But I have to make this work somehow. I have to control my impulses so I can live a normal life.’ I thought to myself.