Getting up was always a hard thing for me.But I have to do it anyway, because I didn't want to dissapoint my parents nor look like I don't care.I do care about my life, I want to be a vet when I get out of this ugly place...I brushed my light pink hair,but it just stayed as messy as before.Looking at myself at the mirror wan't a great thing anyway, I am not beautiful like all the other girls,with their nice ,slighty tanned clean skins.I had hair on my skinny,unshaped legs and pimples on my nose.And then they ask me why I hide 3/4 part of my face.Well that's why.
I had already arrived,wearing my classic yellow shirt.For the second time in a week.Actually,I was waiting for Rainbow Dash I was wondering if we could talk a little.It's been a long while after the accident Rainbow dash had while doing acrobatics.Well....she fell on her leg and broke it.Poor her.We had talked only by phone a few times,but I hadn't even visited her.Almost all of the class had visited her.Everyone but me.It wouldn't mind me if she called me a horrible friend.
While I was drunk in my thoughts I noticed Rainbow walking with crotches.I tried to run torwards her but before I arrived there were already a bunch of classmates and friends around her. I...got scared and turned my back and just acted like I hadn't noticed her.Yeah you got it.I get scared of when I talk to Rainbow Dash infront of other people.No, not scared.More like embarassed.Or even worse butterflies in my stomach.
I had no idea why I even felt this way.
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Two lonely,boring and dark hours had passed and it was finally time for lunch."Maybe I can get a change to speak now." , I whispered to myself,since I felt that there was no one else in the whole school,just shadows and blurrs.
I was leading my tired body through the halls of the dark place that's called school, when I saw Rainbow waiting in the Line.That was my chance! I thought.I went right behind to Rainbow,setting my own personal record in running. I tried to stay "cool" as possible.But I bet I looked like a weirdo.
Rainbow dash saw me and her eyes seem to open wide with a glee "Hey Shy! How are you doing?"
"I am fine,how about you?" I asked,looking at what she was picking as a lunch. She was picking chicken with salad :her favourite.
"Um..I am sorry that I didn't visit you" I said it under my clinched teeth while i was picking a carrot salad. 'I had some problems with my parents..." I added,and picked up my plate.
"It's cool,I understand tottaly!" She said with a warmth in her voice and expression. I actuallly like it that it made me blush... A little.
"Now,do you wanna tell me about your problem, I can help you if you want."
"Um...well...-"
"Hey Dash!How's your broken bone?" I heard a familiar voice from an older girl.Don't tell me...
I saw Gilda.Well I just looked at the floor.
"I wanna show you something tottaly awesome,Com'ere!" She said and bragged the rainbow girl.
"Alright then...!" Dash awnsered Gilda,I just tried to look less dissapointed as possible.
"I am sorry Flutters but I really gotta get to do something, we shall meet and talk about it later! I g she saw my dissapointment,because she also patted be on the shoulder. But Gilda grabbed Dash and they left.
That was something... strange.
Why did I felt sad about her going with someone else,and adored the feeling of when she patted my shoulder?
I probably just need to sit in the corner and eat my salad...
Author's Note
This is the First charpet of the First fanfic I ever write on fimfiction! *squee*
It's not very good (and it's kind of short) But I would like to hear your comments about it! Maybe I should fix something :)
The school's bell rang,finally I would rest my head in my tiring thoughts about Rainbow Dash and...Homework.
How tiring homework is. I kept miving my legs until I reached to my "loner" home. Dropping my bag, lying on the couch and then for the dramatic finale : dying.
I stared at the ceiling of the dark living room, like I had nothing else to do.Well you know I had ,-homework. But then again, after all, I was diving. Not in water,but in feelings. The weird about those feelings was that they were about Rainbow Dash.
Oh forget it,Fluttershy. Why do you even think like a lesbian,it would be weird and creepy if you had feelings for a girl...right? And if you actually did have feelings for her, she would leave scared, or creeped out atleast.
Thinking and thinking shy and more shy thoughts.
I looked at the table and saw an old photo album.My, I was kind of curious about it.I didn't rember of having this photo album. My hands slowly grabbed it and started looking through the pages. Most of the photos were just baby me , I even started giggling at my baby version. I must admit it... I looked kind of cute in baby pajamas.
Nevermind. All babies are cute with baby pajamas.Especially light, baby coloured ones.
Suddenly I saw a scene from a short long while ago. It was me and rainbow dash in elementary school! Rainbow looked adorable back then. She had even messier hair and her clothes were dirty most of the time. And she had her skin covered in small and light scratches.Even on her face.From cats, mice, tripping, even bullies.
Bullies.
"Oh Flutter. Why do you always try to bring my embarassing memories ?
I hated it when I was called names like loser, stupid,ugly and useless.I just wanted to die back then.
But a very special person bumped into my life. And that person was Rainbow. Rainbow Dash.
She was the one who protected me from when they surrounded me. She helped me understand school homework way better than I used to. She was that piece of my life I never wanted to let go from.
If that piece vanished I would probably break apart.
It was tham moment when I said alone, with the photo album : " Oh Dash, what could I've managed without you?"
Then I softly lied on the couch and slept, probably holding the album.
