Entry #1:
Hey Twilight, it's me Spike. I did what you told me to do, and I'm recording the effects of that new spell you were working on. I can't remember what it was suppose to do exactly, but I assumed it was a teleportation spell, since you suddenly vanished like that. It must have been, a more advanced spell since it's been a day when you last performed that spell. I'm pretty confident that you won't be gone for too long, you always find a way. I'll keep recording these entries, and their effects in the meantime. I'll also keep writing these entries down every few days, until you come back. Hope to see you soon.
Entry #2:
We are now on day four, and still you're not home yet. Though I know you will come home soon, I had to tell your friends a little white lie about where you've been. Don't worry, I just told them that you went on a trip to Canterlot, to meet up with your family. I know you would scold me harshly for lying, but I had to. If I told them what really happened, then they jump to the conclusion that you be lost in time, or something over the top. Besides, you'll probably be back soon anyways, and you can explain what really happened. Anyway, there seems to be no noticeable effects from that "teleportation" spell. Except for a huge burn mark on the floor from where you were standing. I'll find some way to clean that up, eventually. Though I know you can handle yourself, but still be careful where ever you are.
Entry #3:
Sadly the inevitable has happened, I eventually had to tell the others what really happened. Although I didn't want to, you were gone for too long to keep hiding the truth. It's been exactly over a week since the incident, and the others were getting curious. So I ended up telling them, and they did what I knew what they were going to do. They started to freak out, even though I tried calming them down, they ran off before I could say anything.
Later that day, Celestia, and the royal guards came to the library, to ask me questions about what happened that day. I did just that, and I answered their questions. Though before they left, Celestia told me to let them know if you come back. She had a nervous look on her face, though I don't understand. You would think that she would have more faith in her "Most Faithful Student" Oh well. I guess even royalty can get worried sometimes. Anyway, still can't get that burn mark out of that darn floor. Hopefully this mess will get resolved soon, but I still believe you'll be back on your own. No matter what
Entry #4
This entry took longer than expected to write, due to the fact that our friends had me take part in a search party looking for you. After the search, (which lasted two weeks), I told them not to worry. They gave me weird looks when I told them this. Rarity was the first to respond to my attitude, "How can be so calm about this whole situation?" And to that I responded saying how I know you never actually leave your friends. That you would never fail at trying to see your friends again. But of course they acted like I was in denial or as if I was stupid. Which got me extremely offended.
I then let out my frustration towards the group. "Do you really think that Twilight isn't capable of fixing this problem? You're her friends for pony's sake! Have some faith in her!" I then turned around, prepared to walk away, until Rarity put her hoof on my shoulder, and spoke.
"It's not like that at all." She said in a soothing tone. "It's just that we're her friends, and we're just worried about her." I understood what she was getting at, this whole thing is getting every pony immensely stressed. Still, I removed her hoof off my shoulder, and walked off. Now finally I am able get this entry written down, after an unnecessarily long hiatus. Your friends may not understand how truly capable you are, but don't worry Twilight, I do. And I always will.
Entry #5
It has now been about three months since the last entry, but I have been just too busy trying to manage the library. The girls are still behaving a little bit frantic trying some way to find you. Although even with them preoccupied with trying to find you, out of all of them, Rarity seems more worried about me. She'd come by every other day to see if I'm okay, and I would always answer "Yes." Though she would try to talk about the whole incident, though I always change the subject when she did.She never seemed to want to press on the subject, and would usually leave after the subject changing.
As time seems to be moving on, there have been times where I've been skeptic about you ever coming back. That you might actually be gone for good, but I'm still hoping you'll be back at anytime. It's just that my skepticism is seemingly rising, by each day that you don't show up. Maybe you won't come back, and I might have to get over it. I just don't know what to think.
Entry # 6
I... I did something I'm not proud of, something that makes me feel absolutely sick. It all started this morning, exactly two weeks since the last entry. Rarity came over as usual, and once again asked me about the whole incident. Just like the other times, I tried to change the subject. Yet, this time she didn't give up, instead she kept bringing it up. I kept telling her that I didn't want to talk about it. She kept persisting though, not wanting to just let it go. Rarity wanted me to stop living in a world of denial, saying that it wasn't right to lie to myself. All she wanted to do was help me, and the only true way to do that was for her to bluntly state that Twilight wasn't coming back, that she was gone. Over the past two weeks, I was starting to think the same thing too, but I couldn't bring myself to admit that. Then hearing one of my own friends say it, makes it even harder to admit.
So, I did something irrational, I lost my temper with her. Since I wasn't strong enough to admit what she said to me was true, I took out all of my rage out on her. I accused her of not knowing who her own friend was, telling that "I hated her", and repeatedly telling her to "get out" All because I didn't have the strength to admit that she was right, and I was wrong.
The look in her eyes was completely heart-broken, and she didn't hesitate to open the door, and leave. What have I done, Rarity only wanted to help, and I lashed out at her for it. I'm a monster, not caring about any pony else, except for me. I deserve to be alone, I just wish I can take back those words, but I can't.
Entry #7
I had a dream about you last night, that you came back from out of nowhere. I would then run towards you, and just give you a big hug. It was truly perfect, only for Celestia's sun to wake me up from the dream. I'm not really sure why I'm still calling these entries, they've become more like letters. Letters that will never be sent out to you. I don't even really know why I'm still even writing these still, they have absolutely no purpose.
Remember that time when we were in King Sombra's castle, and that door got control of my worst fears? Which was you leaving me forever, and you told me that would never happen. That's solely the reason why I did not want to believe that you were really gone. You were a big sister to me, some pony who took care of since day one. I looked out for you, and you looked out for me. I just don't want accept the fact that someone who is the closest family I have is gone.
But I have to, whether I like it or not. I just hope you're safe where ever you are, and that we all miss you. Even if you don't come back until thirty years from now, I'll still be right here waiting for you.
