‘’Ugh, you are worse than a baby’’

Again my thirst is being satisfied by her, I still wonder who is she and why she is helping me even knowing that is costing her too much. I am a burden to her and she made it very clear when I first woke up here, this building in a very bad condition. I may be exhausted both mental and physical, even with my vague fragments that serve me as memories I know that the place where I am resting can collapse.

James Johnson, the Tallboy… does that title has an important significance? Still if the water is doing good to me slowly regenerating my body, but is a dread feeling that wax inside me the simple fact of do not feel anything from my body, despite my whole head is normal for me is not enough. I just allow my eyelids to get closer to each other as the water enters my system through my thirsty throat. I shouldn’t have cried, it only did worst in my dehydration

‘’I expected better of you, you know that? ‘’ The last drops of water leave the bowl which she was using, she is near me. My eyes sparks with curiosity about her, I may know her features but in my weakened state that I was back there didn’t help me much in catching more about her. I was lost in thought until I felt something collided with the right side of my face, the pain isn’t immense but it was enough to make me snap out of my trance.

With my focus regained I notice the reason of why she hit me moments ago, she was offering me something red, I think is a…apple… yes that is an apple. I stared at the fruit, my whole focus was in that inanimate red object right in front of me. The frustration, the impotence, the dread, those negative feelings were returning to me when I tried to reach and get that apple from her black hands and realize that no matter how much I rested and healed, my body just don’t want to follow my commands.

‘I can’t cry…it will not do well to my hydration process’ And that thought made it worse my desire to let my eyes water.
Finally both side of my face felt a warm and wet sensation which slowly reached my chin too; she must have noticed my tears of frustration if her narrowed expression is any indicator.

‘’Do you want me to chew your food too?’’ Her voice always telling me that I’m a complete burden indirectly, her grip on the apple also expresses her hostile demeanor because her strength that is using causes the apple to drip on my face.

‘’No…I can… do it…’’ Still it was beyond difficult to speak, my breaths become more labored for each spoken word ‘’just…slice it…please…’’ I never thought that speak could be that difficult, but I hope that my improvement may help me with her hostile position towards me, besides I know deep inside me that I have some pride left.

‘’If it wasn’t for the Outsider, I would have left you at the mercy of the Everfree forest’’ she says making a frown.
When I asked her to slice the apple I expected her to use a tools for that, never did I expect her to use her own hands though she have already showed her strength when the apple had been squeezed a bit on her grasp.

She digs her nails and tears apart the apple to obtain two pieces; she repeats the same action over and over again. I get the idea of what she is trying to imply, but I opted to keep my mouth shut.
Now the apple is in several pieces on her palm, small drops were leaking from there. With the other hand she started to feed me, is so degrading I just hope that her price is not high when I get better. I was an explosion inside my mouth, the flavor of the fruit was unique it was like I haven’t eaten something like that for ages. I enjoyed every second of it, the juices and the pulp of the apple was incredible. I think this is one of those happy moments of life, though I only have vague flashes of memories that I don’t count as life.

I continued chewing the fruit as she gave me more, I just couldn’t get enough of it; but everything has to come to an end. There was no more slices of apple left to eat thus I have to swallow what remained of the apple inside my mouth. The satisfied sigh followed then.

‘’Thanks’’

The meal healed me a bit more, my voice now is not ridiculously weak and my eardrum catch the faint sound of metal clinking which was coming from the end of my arms, or better said my hands; finally my body is starting to respond.
She didn’t respond as she stood up and walked away, but before she left in my loneliness she turned her head ‘’Don’t ‘thank’ me alright? I want something useful not meaningless words’’ Then she was gone.

‘Why is she just so...hostile?’

An exasperated sigh escaped through my lips, but again she mentioned the Outsider raising more question inside my head; question that only confuse me more. She must clear my doubts but in my current state, even that I healed a bit, only cause her to keep the minimal contact with me. I need to prove that I’m not useless, not for her this is for me.
I prepared myself by giving long breaths and clenching my hands into fist. Then both of my arms propelled my body upwards, it was quick but it spent my new found energy dangerously quickly. My eyes look back and forth around the room as my pants try to restore calm my exhausted lungs.

‘I…did…it’
Joy is the feeling that is inside me now, the result of my effort makes me feel much better and encouraging me to continue. But I should have stayed where I was and never have pushed myself more.

A migraine attacks my brain with such force that it silenced my screams, I am suffering in silence and that is the worst I’ve felt until now. Again the warm and wet sensation is felt over my cheeks; my mouth is hanging open allowing a few tears touch my tongue. The intense pain on my head caused me to go blank for while, and when I recovered my senses I noticed that I was lying on the cold stone floor.
Again the pain on my brain attacks me but with more force than before.

This time I screamed my lungs out, I didn’t if she would complain about the noise because the screaming was the only thing that I wanted to do. Not only for the unbearable pain which I am dealing right now, also the frustration about once again feel useless. I feel like somebody is hitting my brain with a spiked object several times, slowly my senses start to leave me beginning with the hearing.

With a guttural scream my vision fade into the darkness.

My eyes shot open when I felt something pierce the skin of my neck, I tried to move but something held my head in its place. I was about to panic but a black hand muffled my screams. My eyes moved side to side uncontrollably until they connect with a pair of light blue orbs which didn’t look happy by the way.

‘’Breath’’ She commanded

I follow her commands and I get into a calm state, now in a better state I found out what was the thing that was keeping my head from moving, it was her other hand.

‘’I had to use a potion to accelerate you metabolism so I wouldn’t need to care of you’’ Albeit there is something different with her, her voice stopped being hostile or angry it was normal. ‘’But how you passed out I had to inject it directly to your system, besides the effects are faster in that way’’

I stared at the roof with a blank expression, confused about thanking her or not. But she regained my attention snapping her fingers.
‘’Hey look at me’’ I complied and looked at her, then she started to check on my eyes with the help of both of her hands ‘’I need to be sure about something’’

‘’First, do you know your own name?’’ She asks

I nod as I wonder what she is trying to do, because judging for her attitude she wouldn’t act like this.

‘’Good, second; do you know who you are?’’

I hesitantly nod because I am not sure who am I but knowing my name is a good start or is what I believe, I just hope that I can remember everything in a future.

Her faces pass from neutral to thinker, is difficult to say if she is looking to another part because she lacks of irises. ‘’Tell me if you know something about your past’’

I shook my head side to side. Now I feel bad really bad, I don’t think that her intentions were actually making me feel this bad but that doesn’t ease the psychological pain. Is terrible and I can feel that I’m reaching into my limit point before break and cry until there are no tears left.
She noticed my mood but she acted completely different of what I was expecting, a hand caresses my hair and her face frowns slightly with a hint of sadness and worry. But that feels comforting.

‘’You are in the recovery process then’’

I felt another spark of strength, I don’t want to stay in the darkness of reality; I want answers now!

‘’What do you mean about recovery process?’’ I was left astonished that the spark of moments ago gave enough force to speak properly.
‘’Do you really want to know?’’ She asks, but her voice showed another hint of worry which was confusing me greatly, in the start she didn’t seem to care about me, why did she change?

‘’When I found you I was about to leave you but then I heard the song or whisper, I checked one I found Bone charms on your chest belt.’’ Again what is she talking about? ‘’I have to remove your metal slits for be able to move you, but when I touched your head I sensed your insanity’’

She gave a pause before continue ‘’Your insanity was beyond imaginable and if you were awake then you would harm anybody around you or yourself’’

‘’I don’t know how you became that insane and I don’t care, but I needed to cure your mental damage before I bring you here’’ She waved the right hand signaling the whole place where I was currently resting.

‘’I had to reboot your mind’’

My brow rose in confusion at the revelation, I hope that my small action is enough to make her understand that I don’t catch the idea.
Her hand rubs her forehead as she sighed exasperated, and I know the reason; probably she believes that I’m an idiot for don’t be able to understand.

‘’In other words is that I have to erase your memory to remove you illness’’
The truth hit me hard; I don’t know what to think anymore

She admitted that she erased my memory, I want hit her. I don’t care if she did it with good intentions because she is the responsible of this dread that overwhelm my being. But her hand over my mouth shut me again.

‘’Don’t do anything stupid, I had to do it anyways’’ She stated firmly ‘’Besides your memory will return eventually, but you can accelerate the process if you find special words that will stimulate your mind to remember’’

The relief which I felt in that moment was immense; I can even say it felt more than my last headache, so I just need to wait for memories o return. I know what to do when all this recory thing ends, I will hug her and thank her for everything. Even I will try to compensate her though she stated that she has a price, still I don’t care she deserves it.

‘’But few memories are lost forever no matter what you try to do’’

My mind froze completely as I stopped breathing, immediately I shot my question ‘’What kind of memories?’’ This time I was hoping for the worst of scenarios.

She was lost of words, continuously trying to give me an answer but she didn’t know how, her stare pierced my eyes reaching my soul and every second I was becoming more desperate for the answer. Finally she gave a deep inhalation before say the terrible truth

‘’I’m so sorry but most of the time the lost memories are about family and friends’’

Author's Note

Well finaly is here, it really took me a while to get a chapter but well here it is!!!

I just hope that you can be patient because it will take a couple of chapter before the real action begins
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Lufe out!