Whispers of Instinct

by New Lunar Principality

Rating: teen
Tags: Tragedy, Rumble, Thunderlane, Main 6, Gore, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Romance, Sex, Spike, Cutie Mark Crusaders
Length: 4335

spike ponyville's residential baby dragon must face and answer the whispers in his head that speak of his true destiny

When Spike, Ponyville's residential baby dragon starts hearing something in his head that he cant explain, something happens to his mind something he thought that he would never go through: the revelation of who and what he truly is

This is my first fan fic so please leave some constructive criticism

on hiatus until an editor is found

Warning contain: mentions of rape but no clop scenes and Grusome depictions of the consumption of live animals and of murder

Takes place after s4 finaly

thanks for cover art go to onxyprince on deviantart

editor:scalor barracuda cyborg

Published 2014-06-17 17:30:03 UTC
Last updated 2016-04-02 01:41:21 UTC

Nightmare (edited)

As spike hid his journal behind the dresser in his room. ever since twilight had moved into the castle of friendship he had for the first time in his life he had finally gotten his own room it was a modest room it only had dresser a bed and a desk it was about the same size of twilight's old room at golden oaks he was so happy when he moved in but the happiness soon faded thanks to the whispers he was so tired after helping the CMC write those short stories it was exhausting he didn't know why but he had trouble concentrating when he was around them his eye's would travel up and down there bodies almost always coming to their blank flanks he didn't know why he kept doing this he wondered if the whispers had something to do with it he would have to write it down in his next entry along  with his other observations

he had also noticed how he was becoming more irritable when pinkie and rainbow had pranked him by replacing the ink he had bought to help the CMC with blackberry syrup while they were laughing he had already prepared to set fire to rainbows tail. before realizing what he was about to do and had snorted out as a puff of smoke and glared out them still pretty angry and those whispers certainly didn't help. But that could wait until tomorrow right now he was tired he crawled into his bed he fell asleep as soon as his head hit the pillow.

(SPIKES DREAM)

Spike found himself floating in what felt like water, but he could breathe just fine he opened his eyes he saw a sky it was white that faded to several shades of grey in several places he realized he was drifting down to something  he rolled over and saw Ponyville but it looked different the castle of friendship was nowhere to be seen and everything looked run down he noticed he was heading to one place all to familiar; golden oaks. As he got closer he noticed that the top of it was completely destroyed leaving only the base floor and the wall's as he floated down to the library he heard it the whispers except now they were words he could hear words now in that hushed distorted voice

"Tired…" as he got closer he also saw sort of black mass in the center

"tired....tired of being their slave" as he got closer he could make out its shape it was hunched over he could tell it bipedal by its bended legs, he got close enough that he could make out spines as black as its body running down its body to its long and slender draconic tail ending with in a spade he figured out this the thing was making the whispers

"What is this thing talking about tired of being slave is this thing trying to ask for my help or something?"

"Must claim and protect mates."

"What!?!."

He was now inside the library looking straight at the creature haunting his dream he took a few brave steps closer to what he's now identified as a dragon but there was something off with it. Its scales didn't look like scales whatever covered its body it looked like to be made of the blackest of inks they looked smooth he didn't know where the it began and ended even its spines looked to be same except the edges seemed to gleam purple in a unseen light. There where these white glowing lines traveling up its arms and legs. its back was too spike surrounded by the ruined remains of books some looked burned others looked shredded all the while it kept whispering

"Must claim…"

"Must have revenge…"

"Must break free…"

"Are you ok?" Spike asked the dragon after swallowing a lump in his throat, "Who are you?"

The dragon slowly turned its head revealing it sterile white glowing eyes with two more of those glowing lines traveling up its cheeks threw it eyes and up to past its brow it opened its mouth revealing its black teeth and its glowing white mouth

"You…"

"What?"

"YOU" it said again it's hush and distorted voice becoming loud and angrier in swift movement it went from its crouched position to standing on all fours its maw mere inches away from spikes face. It studied the much smaller dragon until it met spikes eyes suddenly it spoke again its voice becoming a sweet happy tone one a parent would use when talking with its child "I am you.... and you.... are me".

Spike awoke from his slumber screaming at top his lungs fire spewing from his mouth scorching the crystal ceiling not even noticing his flame's color had changed; from its usual emerald to a now dark purple flame.

awakened (edited)

Awakened

After calming down from his nightmare he sat shaking until the door to spike's bedroom was swung open by a purple glow and twilight came running into his room and rushed towards spike "spike are you ok!??" She asked with a worry laced voice,

"I'm ok twilight it was just a bad dream" the dragon replied but as he said this he had one sorrowful thought go around in his head. "I can't tell her if I tell her about my dream she will just keep asking until I’m forced to tell her about the whispers and she'll just think I’m losing my mind."

"Sure that's the reason" said the voice of that beast from his dream spike jumped at this looking around the room any sign of it twilight noticed him looking around the room with a look of fear "Spike what are doing?."

"I...........uh.......uh."

"I had a nightmare about Tirek."

"I had a nightmare about Tirek."

"Wait why did I just did that?" spike thought as he absentmindedly repeated what the voice said.

"Oh spike" said twilight as she pulled spike into a gentle hug "is this the first nightmare or have then been more."

"No this is the first one but really twilight I'm fine it just spooked me is all" he replied as he pushed himself free of the hug twilight would have accepted that response if it wasn't for the for the black scorch mark on the ceiling "that dream scared him so much it caused him to breathe fire out of defense"

She thought as her gaze went from the scorched ceiling to the dragon sitting in front of her. "Spike it's obvious that you are little more than spooked I think it be best if you took tomorrow off."

"Twilight I’m te-" the dragon was quickly interrupted by the purple mare putting a hoof to his mouth silencing him.

"Please spike I think this nightmare may have been caused by the stress from Tirek’s attack and getting this place in working order."

After hearing this spike gave up on trying to convince her, "Ok Twilight, I'll take tomorrow off from assisting you."

"Thank you spike, now then it's late you should get back to sleep." Twilight then left spike's room leaving him alone or so she thought.

"What are you?" Spike asked not really expecting an answer.

"I already told you, I am you and you are me!" The voice replied back.

"What do you mean by that?" Spike then looked down to the crystal floor and was shocked by what he saw in his reflection it was another dragon it had the same built and height as him but it's scales were a deep black with pure white ear fins and underbelly, it's eyes and spines were a deep dark purple "fine then let me explain"

His dark reflection said with that haunting voice. "I am your basic true self I am in a way your instincts."

"So that’s why you helped me with Twilight, but how come I haven't heard you before and why now of all times?."

"I don't know why I have finally emerged from your subconscious, it took me several days to emerge fully to be able to talk to you right now."

"So all those whispers."

"Was me trying to get your attention so I could emerge, and all it took was for me to cause that nightmare of yours."

The dark dragons distorted voice took a joking tone.

"But...but what was with that form you took you looking completely different now." Spike asked and stuttered while trying to come to terms with this knowledge his dark self smirked and gave an amused look "questions like that will be answered soon enough, all you need to know now is that you don't need to be afraid of me I'm here to help you."

"How can you help me?."

"What part of I am your instincts don't you understand I know things about you even you don't know about yourself, like for instance what kind of dragon you are."

"What? If you know tell me!." Spike nearly shouted.

"I could but as I said in due time I shall explain, you should get some sleep I promise I shall leave your dreams alone" the dark reflection started to fade away

"Wait when will I see or hear you again." Spike asked as the reflection continued to fade to his own with.

Only the voices head still showing.

"Don’t worry"

as it spoke it's distorted voice became a whisper "I'll come when you need me."

With those final words it disappeared leaving spike staring at his own reflection with nothing but unanswered questions in his thoughts he soon drifted into a dreamless sleep.

(The next morning)

Spike was walking through the fields of sweet apple acres he had woken up early out of habit he had recorded the conversation between him and the thing that was calling itself his instinct in his journal. After that he found he had nothing else do to so he decided to take a walk through Ponyville, but he decided to walk to Sweet Apple Acres instead with all of the tourists looking at the castle praising it and twilight and how she got it integrated into Ponyville that just got him angry he wanted to rip that ponies throat right then and there. That was his work, he worked his tail off organizing everything helping twilight choosing the guard's for the castle he had filed through the applicants for the staff and had chosen the best of them he had filled all the paperwork for the castle's insurance and the medical for the staff all his work yet she had always got praised for it.

Angry at the dumb pony he decided to walk around sweet apple acres where he could be alone with his thoughts about his encounter last night with that thing, "I need to think of name for him? I guess."

Spike continued his walk alone with his thoughts, that is until he heard the yelling of a familiar voice "I already told you rumble I’m not interested in you!!!!."

"I don’t care you orange penguin I want you so you are going to be mine."

Hearing this spike ran to see what was going on "I hope Scootaloo is okay."

He thought as he sped towards were he heard the voices.

the wrath of a dragon (edited)

THE WRATH OF A DRAGON

Spike was running towards the screams hoping that Scootaloo was okay

"I have to help her" he thought as he ran to her aid when he got there what he made him feel several emotions all at once shock fear confusion but the strongest of them all was pure unadulterated rage the scene was a two toned gray colt which he guessed was this rumble he was standing over Scootaloo she was bruised and her main was a mess with her coat covered in dirt rumble looked down at her with an amused look in his eyes he "listen you chicken you are mine you will do what I say you"

"No rumble I'm not yours I will never be yours!!!" when she finished he slapped her with his hooves

"Why is it because of that pathetic dragon?"

"What? Scootaloo likes me I didn't know-" his thoughts were interrupted by all too familiar voice "of course she does but that doesn't matter are going just let that asshole beat on one of your mate's"

"What Scootaloo isn't my mate besides how I am supposed to help her, I’m not a fighter."

"Wrong we can help her I can help you fight him and help you claim your first mate" instinct said spike was about to rebuttal that is until he heard what rumble said next me him stop and look at rumble from around tree he was hiding behind "he doesn't care for you he nothing more than princess twilight's and that mare rarity's little bitch he’s such a love sick puppy he will never love a ugly flightless chicken like you-"

Rumble never got to finish he was soon sent flying from a kick to the side of his face Scootaloo looked too see who had saved her eye's displayed only shock at what she saw "s...Spike?"

There standing in between her and the fallen rumble was spike he then turned his head and spoke to her  "Don't worry Scootaloo I'll protect you and I will make sure he will pay for what he's done to you"

she could feel the hatred exuding from his voice " I never heard him speak like that what was it that made spike like this was it what rumble said or was it seeing me like this made spike like this was it what rumble said or was it seeing me like this" were thoughts of the scared filly looking at her savior

Rumble then got back up his cheek now bearing a purple bruise "what the hell?"

He said in a confused but angered tone he then looked over and saw the cause of his bruised face and ego "oh look it's the walking fax machine"

Spike turned his head back to rumble any insults the colt had where quickly washed away by the sense of fear that gripped his heart the look spike gave him was terrifying his eyes were like that of a feral beast staring at its prey he was growling lowly the slits that were his pupils had turned completely white they were practically glowing in the shadows caused by the apple trees "wait a minute"

Rumble thought to himself "this the princess's pet dragon he's a pathetic little weakling he doesn't have the gall to fight me"

Shaking his head rumble glared back at the drake "nice trick spike but it's not going to work on me I know you don’t have courage to fight me but I tell you what I'd be willing to let it go if you leave me to my business with my insolent mare"

Spikes growling only grew louder "she doesn't belong to you and I will show you I am not to be underestimated"

Spike’s voice sounded slightly distorted like two voices where speaking at once "fine then have it your way you overgrown iguana"

And with that two charged at each other spike clenched his claw into a fist and raised it. Rumble with his wings elevating him raised his fore hoof to strike the dragon when they met both their strikes struck each other's faces seemingly ending in a draw. That is until rumbles hoof chipped and he pulled away now with two bruised cheeks and a chipped hoof now holding his injured hoof he looked to see if he had injured spike, "What in Celestia’s mane? !?!"

What he saw horrified him to his core part of spikes face had changed starting from his left eye and ending at the top of snout and his first spine had turned black his eye turning into a glowing pool of white with a strip of white traveling down his cheek and to the top of his brow the spine had become more angular and sharp the top of it tinted a dark purple he was breathing heavily with small green and purple flames escaping from his mouth and growling with each exhale "what's happening to him".

Thought Scootaloo in fear but she also felt something else while looking at spike she couldn't explain it but spike's thought were anything but fear he didn't know what was happening to him why he felt stronger and he didn't care all he knew was that he was going to make rumble pay for hurting Scootaloo and that he was going to enjoy it

"Together"

"Together"

"We"

"We"

"Shall"

"Shall"

"Make"

"Make"

"Him"

"Him"

"PPPAAAYYY!!!!!!"

Spike then raised his right claw and pulled back dark wavering energy started to gather around his claw "listen here you Lizard your tricks aren't going to work on-" Rumble was interrupted by spike slashing his claw forward a larger black claw came shooting out of his hand rumble narrowly dodged it but it brushed past his left wing singing the tips of his grey feathers turning them black and sending waves of pain into his wing he then looked back to see spike was gone before he could he even react he was grabbed by his face and was raised into the air and then thrown with great force against a nearby apple tree he was then kicked in the stomach the wood splintered causing him to sink into the tree the scream of pain and the coughing of his blood caused his attacker to feel some sense of joy but that was buried deeply under all the anger and hate he felt towards the colt

Rumble with eyes the size of dinner plates look towards the dragon that mere moments ago he was mocking now stood before him with his leg keeping him pinned in the trunk of the tree that black substance now covering the entire left side of his face.

his left eye was nothing more the a pool of glowing white hatred his right eye was still had the green pupil of his but now it had a glowing white slit and glowing white streaks going through the pool of emerald all of the spines on his head were now all pure black with edges of purple the shape of razors "that was for insulting me and Scootaloo."

Spike then removed his leg and grabbed rumble by his main and pulled him from the trunk his back was covered in splinters and cuts "this is for hurting my Scootaloo."

Spike then threw him into the air only to elbow him in his back and to knee him in jaw he spun around and delivered a kick to rumbles barrel sending him flying backwards then all of spikes body was engulfed by the same wavering energy and he sinked into the ground only to then he pop out of it right behind rumble and grab him by his throat and slam him to the ground face first "and let me make this clear for you she does not belong to you and I am not that bitch twilight's or that whore rarity's pet"

He then kicked rumble over so that he was now lying on his back he and stomped his foot on rumbles ribs and raised his claw forming an arrow shape with his claws "now I am going to make sure  YOU NEVER HURT HER AGAIN!!!!!!"

intermission: what is too come

(to set the mood)

"kill this little weakling it is our way it is your destiny to slaughter and dominate your enemies as a shadow drake"

"Spike the dragon I willing give myself to you mind body and soul and become your mate"

"They did what to my kind your liying the ponies wouldn't do something so horrible and cruel"

"I can feel the power course threw my vains and it feels amazeing I can feel the shadows all around me cry out for blood and I will glady answer their call for it"

"My whole life I have been ordered around used forgotten and left behind only to be used again and now I have a way out of that so what in the hell makes you think im going to say no"

"mmmmuuuhhhhahhahahah the shadow drakes shall live threw me!!!"

"your body and that harmonic magic are fast but your mind is so sluggish it cant keep up with it that is why im faster then you rainbow crash because I have the marks of a true being of speed my thoughts instincts and reflexes are one"

"your power comes from the friendship you six all share but my power comes from the sins of pony kind and not only mine but all of my ancestors rage and hatred thousands of angry souls of my kind crie out for revenge on the ones that caused their murder

"Twilight let me make this clear for you you have never been nor will you ever be my mother"

"Spike how could you....you.....you....defile my little sister and applebloom like that ....you......you monster"

"Said the mare who used my heart as her play thing I dont give a damn if you think im a monster I do what I please so mind your own business you wannabe princess"

"YOU PONIES HAVE TAKEN EVERYTHING FROM ME MY FAMILY MY OWN RACE MY FREEDOM Bbut I WONT LET YOU TAKE MY BIRTH RIGHT FROM ME RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWRRRRRR!!!!"

"I will protect you three and are family no matter the cost"

"AND WITH THIS I SHALL RID MY SELF OF THE CURSE OF EVER BEING YOUR FRIEND"

"heh heh your to late celestia the shadow drakes legacy shall continue not only threw me but also by my foal"

"I AM SPIKE SON OF ORBHAS KING OF THE SHADOW DRAKES THE DRAGON OF THE 7 DEADLY SINS AND DESTROYER OF THE PRINCESS"

The finale

Spike looked staggered back his anger and garw leaving flowing out of him like Scootaloo’s tears. He dropped Rumble’s nearly lifeless body as Scootaloo walked to stand beside him.

“Were....you going...to kill him?” Scootaloo asked hesitantly. Spike hung his head down in shame.

“Yeah” Scootaloo wiped her tears aways and nudged him.

“Why didn't you say so, thought you were going to ‘teach him a lesson’ or some shit”

“Huh?” Spike gawked like confused.

“Just kill him” Scootaloo said with a smile.

“Ehhh, fuck it” Spike ripped out Rumble’s heart spilling blood and by some form of mysterious fate the blood spelled out two horrible words that every being fears for a whole day a year.

April fools!

And another sentence.

Feel free to call me a bastard

Spike and Scootaloo then bucked. The end

journal entry #1-#2 (re-re-edit)

Whispers of instinct

Journal entry #1

My name is Spike. I'm twelve years old. I am the number one assistant of Princess Twilight Sparkle, and I live in Ponyville. I am a dragon and I'm afraid, so afraid. I'm scared even now as I write this.

I should probably explain why I'm so scared.

Ever since Tirek's attack I have been hearing things in my head. They're just distorted whispers but they been getting worse. It usually happens at random; They're too quiet and distorted for me to make them out but they scare me. I asked Twilight to magically scan me to see if this was my body or inner magic's reaction to tirek's magic, but I didn't tell her about the whispers. I couldn't tell her. She'd probably think I was crazy and would  just lock me away in a psych ward somewhere....

I lied, saying that I just wanted to make sure my dragon fire wasn't affected by being drained. I don't know what I was hoping to find, I just thought knowing what caused this might help me stop it. My heart nearly stopped when she said she found nothing.

I am so scared... I don't know what to do. I can't tell anypony, they would just think I'm crazy or that I'm lying to get attention, so I've decided every time I hear these whispers I will write it down in this journal. I just hope I can figure this out.

Journal entry #2

It's been three days since the whispering started, and it's getting louder and more distinct. I still can't tell what it's saying but I have noticed one thing: it only happens when I'm around other ponies; never when I'm alone.

But sometimes it will make a distinct sound, like it's trying to say a word but it's struggling with the distortion. Being a hushed whisper, it's hard to make out, but this is what I have noticed so far. It made this noise when I was pranked by Rainbow and Pinkie. I heard the whisper make a "reeeeeaaaahhhvvvaa" sound and when the CMC asked me for help with another one of their escapades. I think it was for novel writing, but I can't remember exactly. It was hard to focus because the whole time I heard the whisper making these noises. The first one sounds like "mmmmouunthaa," the second one, "cccccclllmmmmiiiaaa," and the last one, "pppprrrrtttcccaahh. I'm not sure why it was making these attempts at... words, I guess you could call them. It only makes these noises around the three crusaders. Around everypony else, it's just indistinguishable distorted whispers.

I really think i need to tell somepony this im just so scared not just because of the whispers but well they believe or will they say im crazy or

will they brush me aside just like those six whores always do and just leave until they need me to be there sla- ....

were did that come from i think thats enough for this entry im just going to hide this journal and go to bed im im exhausted.