White Hawk's Fate

Dream Logs: Control

I was walking in a meadow outside of what looked like a mansion, not a modern mansion no. One like you would see before we had electricity. There were no lights on in the mansion but occasionally I would see something dart by the windows. I wasn't really worried about it though, I was content just walking through the beautiful meadow enjoying the sun. It felt like I walked for miles upon miles leaving the mansion behind me, or so I thought. After awhile I came to the back of the mansion, unlike the front of the mansion whatever I saw wasn't darting window to window. No it was staring intently at me from a window five from the left on the third floor, what bugged me really is that it was one of the beasts that I'm supposed to kill. It's black eyes with only the red dot in the middle, it greenish grey skin, its grey and white hair. Well what hair it had, it was almost completely bald the hair it had reminded me of Homer from the Simpsons. It looked as if it was only skin and bode and it had horribly long fingernails.

It flashed a crooked smile at me and waved, I felt a hand grab me and nails dig into my skin. Oh fuck. I looked behind me and saw three of the fucking beasts heading towards me and then the one already grabbing me. I was waiting for the change to come over me but the sphere of light never surrounded me. The beast began to dig his nails into me, I had no choice right now but to try and break its grip on me and run. Which wasn't really easy since these things were stronger than anything or anyone/pony I have met. I decided to see if these things were still sensitive after the change they've undergone, luckily they did. After I kicked the thing in the balls it let go of me and dropped into a fetal position.

"Ohh that was cold Gavin." There came the voice responsible for me being here. I should have known. I stopped running for a moment to look around. "It's nice to see you Gavin, we haven't had a nice chat in awhile."

"Where the FUCK are you?!" He then appeared in front of me, and everywhere after that.

"I'm here, here, here. HAHA! I'm everywhere! Oh dear I would suggest you run." I looked behind me and the beasts were coming at me running as if there lives depended on it. I tried to change and the light that I emit when I do flickered for a moment before it died. I released a roar of anger. "Tsk, tsk, do you REALLY think that you can just change without the slightest bit of effort? Come on now Gavin you are better than this!" He said this as I kept running from the beasts, once I thought I out ran them I ended running into their backs. Every once and awhile I would try to change again, but every time I would fail. My heart was beating as it tried to keep up with how fast i was running to stay away from those beasts, that and the terror their gazes pierced into my heart. These beasts were something out of a nightmare of Discord's wildest dreams!

"Why can't I control the change Discord?!" I shouted at him as he flew above me drinking tea.

"Why because you never had control in the first place of course! The first time you changed you weren't even aware of it! The second time you changed you were reacting on instinct! Well instinct won't always work my friend." I felt my energy beginning to deplete as I ran. Those beasts were beginning to catch up as I slowed down. "You know I'm not letting you out of this dream until you defeat these beasts. If you die, well then you will just respawn as if you were in a video game!" I swore silently at him, even if this was a dream it felt very real. My heavy breathing, the grass beneath my feet. It all felt real, so I could only assume the pain would too.

Knowing what I've learned about Discord he has probably already given me some sort of clue. I feel that I have no more spare energy to run, if the beasts caught up to me then I would take the pain. I just had to figure out what Discord's clue was. He seemed quick to point out the first time I changed. So I set about organizing that day through my head. Trying very hard to think of what happened before I found myself flying over Equestria.

It turns out to be very hard to think when beasts are tearing you apart. Luckily I had a knack for not feeling as much pain as I should, either that or Discord just felt like being nice. Either way it hurt like Hell but it probably should have hurt like fuck. Discord being the disturbed fucker he is, laughed at my screams of agony. As Discord finished laughing he said.

"Well I suppose it's time to give you a better hint since you seem to be too dim witted to understand the one I've given already." I was taken away from the pain the beast were causing me and into the the guest bed of Fluttershy's cottage. What? I tried to say, though it only came as a thought. I couldn't move, well not myself I was moving. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I couldn't control my movement. Fluttershy was laying besides me, she was wearing one of those night mask things. I sat up, I felt calm. The feeling increased as I reached oover and petted Fluttershy. How calm I felt was almost unbelievable, my vision was beginning to fill with light. I had no idea how Fluttershy wasn't waking up even with the night mask. I felt my body begin to change now, and I heard the snap of my old collar as my neck became to thick for the collar to handle. That was all in the background, what I was really focusing on was the intense feeling of calm.

It hit me now, I'm a nature spirit. Nature is supposed to give people/ponies a feeling of calm and peace, if I am not calm I cannot truly connect to any nature that is around me. That is why Discord put me in a meadow, a place filled with nature, a place were people naturally feel calm.

"Good job! Now that you know this, the beasts are beginning to get bored tearing your body apart." What?! I was blasted back to my original dream with the feeling of intense pain. Every sense of calm I had before was vanquished. "Now come on Gavin, I,m sure these beasts can't keep you from being calm." Your voice is not helping! I got to work trying to let the surrounding nature calm me. Which was as hard as... Nevermind, as the beasts tore away at my body. Eventually I gave up and just lay there, of course this is when I finally stated to feel calm. When I finally started to hear the sounds of nature around me. I was trying to hard.

After awhile of just laying there the beasts stopped as they saw light start to emit from me. I was finally calm and collected enough to change into the form that was my nature spirit, the white hawk. After the beasts initial shock they realized what was happening inside the sphere of light. They lunged towards me but the light was like a solid wall. Protecting me from the darkness, and the pain, inside their hearts. When the wall dissipated I lunged for the closest beast, my open beak ended up around the beasts neck. For a moment I heard a voice in my head reconsider what I was about to do. I ignored it though and closed my beak taking off the beasts head.

The other three beasts roared in anger as I did. They all lunged at me at the same time, I knocked two of them back with a wing but the third latched around me. As I started to get angry I felt my control slipping. I have to stay calm! I bit the beats arms making him let go, he dropped to the ground and I held him down with one clawed foot. With the other I released my anger as I stomped down on his head splatting it into little pieces. The other two beasts got their heads knocked together. When they died Discord said.

"Good job Gavin!"He did a cheer that I didn't even bother to listen to as he wore a cheer leaders outfit. "Now don't think this is the last time I take you here. You are going to need training to be able to calm yourself in a moments notice. I think tomorrow night will work, tonight you get a break. Goodbye!" With a flash of white I woke up.