How to fix a Heart in less then 5 weeks

Tough Times go, tough guys stay. Yeah....but even the toughest guy has his week point.

Some of us love to eat, even when we are not hungry. Some Love to spend theyr whole day infront of the PC playing Video games, while they actually should clean the house ore do other things. Yes, we all have our litlle week point. Me too.

You, my dear reader of this lines, can probitly not Imagine such a Situation.

But try to Imagine that you hunt a dream. And that for years and years and YEARS! You even stopped to count the days you are on th hunt to make your dream come true.

And then suddenly, your dream, your Destination, the thing you ever dreamed of seems to get true. You feel like you are the luckiest person on Planet Earth. You want to give everything and everyone a big hug cause you finnaly can sleep in peace, knowing that your big Dream became Reality.

You can imagine that? Good!....now Imagine that all that falls appart in just some days.

You were the happyest person on Earth, and now...you stand here..with your shatterd dream. Imagine that? How you feel? Lonely, Horrible ore Confused? All that comes in your mind at the same time. Feelings you never feelt before. Such depressiv feelings who just pull you down in a big, dark and black hole. Dont feels so good ha?

But then, you suddenly remember what you teached yourself.

Never give up, never back down. And Indeed, you start to feel better. Sure, there is still pain in you. A pain that will not fade away so fast.

But someday it will. Now breath in! You went trough those horrible feelings, and the never Ending Pain. You accepted that you waited way to long for your dream to come true.

Its time to forgett about the burnt cupcakes and look forward to the one you already made.

Yes, you start to feel better. And soon you can smile again. You feel good again. Like before your dreams got shatterd. And now believe me, Imagine that it getts even greater! Cause there is something new you dream of!

And this time you are sure that you wont let this dream go so easy. You fight for it. This time you stand up for your dreams, you want them to become true.

And all your power you push in that will be honord, somehow. Cause...yes, you probitly know what comes now. Again your dream gets busted. This time it hurts even more.

You foght for it! Everything! You did nearly everything thats possible to make it true, and again you get disapointed. How you feel now Tough Guy, ha? Is that what you worked for? What you putted you heart, your soul and your sweat in? I don think so.

Yes, hard to Imagine, I know. That sounds awfull you think, not right, unfair. Yes, maybe its not fair.

You just sitt there and think why life hates you so much. What person did you maked angry that you now have so much Disapointments?

You just cant believe what happend. Again you got traited from life. Got punched down and left for Dead.

But you know what you do? You stand up again. Not like you are sad enaugh. You say to yourself. "Hey, what else cane come? Is that all you got?!

You start to Ignore your feelings. How Sad you are. The Pain, the feelings, all the things that nearly killed you. Again you pull yourself up. Cause you know that in this time, giving up, is no opinion.

But this time you feel different, like something is other this time. Like a part of your Heart, that feels sadness, got ripped out. You just ignore the pain, and slowely it fades away.

But now you stopp to hunt. You have no power left.

Every single part of your body and your heart you gaved to your dream. And whats left is a person that just ignores how sad she realy is. You should feel bad, but you dont do.

And now, you person who reads those Lines, Imagine the Incredible.

A Hope, a light shines up on your dark night Heaven. Someone that helps you. A person that sees how you are doing, and that helps you out of the night. Out of the Dark, into the Light. (*wink* Respect to who knows the song)

And suddely this person gets very Important in your Life. Cause she becomes your next Dream.

At first you dont want to realize it. You putt the thaughts away. Dont even think about the Idea to fight. You remember how sad you was the last time.

But then it gets other then you suspectted. Cause suddenly exactly THAT person makes YOU to her dream.

You cant believe it. You just sitt there. Like someone punched you in the face. Wow, you think. Slowely youre Brain starts working again. And you accept. You dont know it now. But you made the dream of someone Other true!

Remember what I told about the "cruel" and "Unfair" world? Now think again. Maybe....its not YOUR dream that should become true.

YOU are thy Key to someone others dream. You start to smile. Now you realize. The first time you see how happy you can make the person that helps you.

And now you want her dream to become true! Even when you feel wierd. You feel wierd cause its not so long ago that you were in a position wich is so far away from where you are now.

But everyday you meet the person, talk to her. You see how happy you can make someone. And you start to feel better.

Deep inside, you still are dark, and worried. But with the hours you spend with that person you feel better.

Kinda funny how fast our live can change just in some weeks. You look at the time you spend with that person, and see that its actually not so much.

You are shocked that you feel so good. Just some weeks ago you felt like the saddest person around. Captured in dark Thaughts.

And now, just some weeks later. You are on top again. Just in about 5 weeks, a person you dont even know, changed your live. Turned it upside down. Maked it better. Maked it worth to life. You trsust this person. You care for her. And you would give your Life for her!

She became the most Important thing in your life. Even if you at the moment dont feel completly like the person does. You are happy that you can help her. And you are happy that all your disapointing trys to make you dream come true lay behind you.

Finnaly, you can forgett them and start to think about how to help the person wich dream you are now.

A good feeling. The best feeling!

Well....maybe its realy true. Tought times may come, but they also go some day. And tough guys, who keep standing up, and dont give up, get honord. Its realy funny.

And now my dear Reader. A litlle Question to YOU!....Do you believe in miracles?....cause all that happend!

Maybe to me, maybe to someone else. You will never know. But what you know now, and what you can be sure of is that, Sometimes...Dreams can come true.

Its just a matter of time. And it only needs the right person^^