Stranger to Light

by Cromegas_Flare

Rating: teen
Tags: Spike, Tragedy, Twilight Sparkle, Dark, Sad, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic
Length: 11461

It's been a long time since Twilight Sparkle went missing. Now she is found, but what can her friends do if they can't even recognize the friend that brought them all together from the beginning?

Years had past since Twilight Sparkle had gone missing. Many had speculated that she was kidnapped, some thought she could not take her new role as princess and ran away. Others had theorized that she was kidnapped by changelings in revenge to what happened at her brothers royal wedding.

Now, just past of all hope being lost for her return she is found in the middle of the lake. Yet, even though she is found, could she still be lost? Can her friends reach her in time, or is Twilight doomed to a fate worse than death?

Artwork is done by: sharpieboss
and is used with his permission.

Published 2014-09-18 19:40:02 UTC
Last updated 2016-01-07 05:02:10 UTC

Stranger than Light

"Blasphemy." It's what many say when they hear the story of one who forgot their soul. Saying things like, it's impossible or utterly incomprehensible and any who claim such a thing is within realms of insanity. They are right, anypony who can claim that they themselves have forgotten their soul is in the realm of insanity, but impossible is far from the truth.

Years had passed since Twilight Sparkle had gone missing. Many had speculated that she was kidnapped, some thought she couldn't take her new role as princess and ran away. Others had theorized that she was kidnapped by changelings in revenge to what happened at her brother's wedding.

Now, along a lakeshore, Spike finds Twilight unconscious and cold.

~Dear Princess Celestia,

We found her!

Sincerely

~Spike

~Dear Princess Celestia,

I am afraid something's happened to Twilight. We placed her on the bed like you asked to let her sleep. Roughly ten minutes after you left, she woke up. Now she's looking at the wall, completely ignoring everyone. She won’t speak to anypony. I don't know what’s wrong.

~Spike.

~Dear Princess Celestia,

I'm so sorry I was gone when you arrived again, and I had no idea what happened until I returned to the library. Did she really scream at you? Like you were some sort of scary monster trying to attack her? I mean, I know this is a hard question, and you don't have to answer them because I can take my friends’ word on what happened, so it's alright if you don't answer. I'm just very shocked because I never thought Twilight capable of doing such a thing.

I did fix up the house, and I was able to get some other friends to help out and clean her beautiful home. We will keep you updated on how Twilight is doing as time goes by. If any changes are made, I will let you know, that is if it's ok with you. As of right now, she's in the same place as before, just sitting up on her bed staring at the wall, she's not even taken a bite to eat yet. I'm worried for her, but I'm sure we can do all that we can to help her.

~Fluttershy

~Dear Princess Celestia,

It's been a whole day since we found her, and she still won't eat or drink anything! Pinkie Pie had baked some stuff for her, but she completely ignored them. Seriously, who does that!? Ignoring Pinkie’s desserts is like refusing a free Wonderbolts ticket. All she does all day and all night is stare at that dumb wall, and it's starting to creep me out. I actually miss her egghead lectures... and her voice. Please, don't tell anyone I said that. Now, I'm going out for some fresh air.

~Rainbow Dash

~Dear Princess Celestia,

I've been watching Twilight a while now, and to be honest, absolutely nothing has changed. We all wave our hooves in front of her and talk to her, and we still get no response from that, it's like she's gone blind. I can't explain it, because the doc says that her eyes are just fine, and nothing’s physically wrong with her. I don't know what to think, but she just sits on her bed, letting her tail droop down the sidings, just staring straight ahead, like she's trying to look right through the wall. Like she's blind to the world or something. I reckon there's a proper word for that, I really don't know, but all I can do is describe it the best I know.

There is some good news, or at least I think it is. She doesn't look upset or nothing, just deep in thought. I look into her eyes, and I can see her brain going. I notice this because Big Mac gets the same look at times. I might bring Big Mac around to take a look, see what he thinks, you know?

Sincerely,

~Applejack

~Dear Princess Celestia,

Eeyup, what my sis said.

~Big Macintosh

~Dear Princess Celestia,

Twilight spoke today, she actually spoke! It was odd because we really didn't notice until after the fact. We were all sitting down, playing cards with each other, and having a grand time. I personally believe it was quite childish, but since it was Pinkie's idea to help us all stick together, I humored the darling. Anyway, we were sitting there and I was about to ask Rainbow Dash if she had an angelfish, Suddenly, she talked!

"Water."

Her voice sounded dry, which didn’t surprise me, my beautiful voice would also be raspy if I went that long without a decent drink of water.

It took everypony a bit to notice who had spoken, but it was Twilight asking for water. The others started to talk to Twilight while I got the poor dear a glass of water, and though she didn’t speak again, we were thankfully able to get her to drink something.

I do have to let you know that she didn’t drink the water on her own. She didn't even move a muscle other than her lips. We had to put the glass up to her mouth and do all that nursing stuff for her. At least I can say we've made progress.

Best Regards,

~Rarity

~Dear Princess Celestia,

~

~Twilight Sparkle

~Dear Princess Celestia,

I'm sorry about that, I got bored and wanted to see if Twilight wanted to write you a letter. So I started it out and put a pen in her mouth. She spit it out and it made a scratch on the letter, so I sent it to you. At least it's something right? I’m so proud of her!

~Pinkie Pie

~Dear Princess Celestia,

Yesterday, she asked for water, she did so again today. This time she also asked for some food, but she was rather specific as to what she wanted. I’d say this is a good thing, even though I'm not a fan of hay fries since they are absolutely horrible for my diet, at least she knows what she wants. Now that I think about it though, her saying "hay fries," and "water," could count on the same level of specifics.

The good news is that she is at least eating. She still won't say anything else, and her eyes are still glued to the wall. I wish I knew how to help. Perhaps if we made her a mural, she’d react...

The psychiatrist came again today, and he suggested that we put her in the mental ward. That way we could get on with our lives and let professionals take care of her. He also mentioned that doctors could examine her more there than having them make house calls.

He told all of us that she should have been at the ward months ago, when we first found her in the lake. He said we were being irresponsible by keeping her here and taking care of her ourselves. I’ve never been so insulted in my life! She is our friend, and we have been nothing but dedicated in our care for her!

But… I'm afraid he may be right. Maybe we should have her go to the hospital. It would help her more than we can.

~Rarity

~Dear Princess Celestia,

We all just got Twilight settled in the ward, and like usual, she didn't even react to the change. We moved in some books and bookshelves to help her feel at home, but I doubt that would have made a lick of difference. To be honest though, I don't think we brought any of her books for her benefit, but for ours alone.

I think we all want to remember Twilight for who she was, and books were a big part of that. She was smart, kind, intelligent, and brave. It was because of those books that we were able to do all that we were able. It's because of this, that I am writing this letter to you. I want to remember Twilight in that manner, and I’ve got plenty of chores to do on the farm still. I bet it might be best for me to go back and concentrate on this season’s harvest.

Don't you get me wrong though, I'm not abandoning Twilight, I just have some other obligations that won't allow me to be at her side that often. I just don't feel right staying here, doing nothing when I can do something that Twilight would want me to do. Besides, I can’t let my family down. Can’t let Big Mac do all the work, now can I?

My point, Princess, is that I'm gonna to get on with my life, the way Twilight would want me to. And when she wakes up to who I remember her as, I'll tell her I kept on moving, doing my part.

Sincerely for the last time,

~Applejack

Dear Princess Celestia,

I can’t take this anymore! Twilight HAS to smile, and stop looking so doomy-gloomy. I had Maud come over to visit today, and even she saw the sadness in Twilight. Of course, Maud is really, really sensitive to these types of things, so when she says Twilight is sad, then Twilight is sadder then the saddest thing in the universe.

I can’t let Twilight stay sad, so I, Pinkie Pie, Pinkie promise to get Twilight to smile, even if it’s the last thing I do.

Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye.

~Pinkie Pie

Dear Princess Celestia,

I was sitting at home today, when Angel bunny suggested to bring some of our little critter friends to visit Twilight. I don’t know what I was suspecting, and I guess I shouldn't be too disappointed. I guess I was hoping that the love from my animals would help pull Twilight out of it. It hurts still, even if I shouldn't be surprised, it’s still hard to accept. Oh… she just looks so sad.

We're doing as you had suggested and are waiting for time to take its course. It'll be hard, but I’ll stay here for as long as I can, possibly even help out some of the other patients around here as well.

~Fluttershy

Dear Princess Celestia,

I must say, today was an eventful day. We at least got Twilight to react in some way other than just asking for food or water. Though, I don’t approve of how this happened, or even the outcome. Still though, it might be progress.

This morning, Rainbow Dash walked in to Twilight's suite, and you know Rainbow Dash, if she gets worked up about something, she can get a smidge hostile. Well, Rainbow went into Twilight’s room shouting at her to at least make something of her situation. She yelled for a few minutes, and all Applejack and I could do was watch. Both of us were secretly hoping that what Rainbow Dash was doing could help.

After she figured out that it wasn’t working, Rainbow Dash got tired at yelling and went physical. She smacked Twilight on the cheek with her hoof like an absolute brute! What happened after that though, is why I’m writing to you.

Once she got smacked, her head turned to face Rainbow Dash, locking her eyes on her dear loyal friend. That was the first time Twilight ever acknowledged anyone aside from you. After that though, Twilight would only look at Rainbow Dash, no one else. It’s as if when Rainbow enters the room, all eyes go to her and only her.

Once Rainbow leaves the room though, her eyes go back to the wall. Everything goes back to how things were. So, I’m hoping this is progress and not the same sort of negative reaction similar to what happens when you show up. But all we can do is hope.

~Rarity

Dear Princess Celestia,

I shouldn't have hit Twilight the way I did. Now, it’s been a few weeks since I did that, and whenever I enter the room, all she does is stare at me! I wouldn't have a problem with it, if it weren't the only thing she did whenever I go into the room. She just stares at me, it’s like I’m the only one in the room with her, and I’m interrupting whatever world she is in. It’s starting to creep me out.

I don't know, I really can’t take much more of this, I know I can’t just abandon Twilight. But I can’t stay at her side either, not when she's like this anyway. So I’ll do what I can to visit her, but as long as she stares at me, I can't stick around. I wonder what Daring Do would do… What would a Wonderbolt do?

I won’t abandon Twilight though, I can't ever bring myself to do that. So I’ll do what Applejack does, just pop in every now and then. See if she’s being taken care of, then be on my way. It’s probably for the best. It's probably what Twilight would want as well.

So, I'm going out to continue to be the best flyer in Equestria.

Best wishes,

~Rainbow Dash

Dear Princess Celestia,

I know it’s been a really, really, really long time since we last updated you on how Twilight was doing. What was it? Like seven years? It’s been easier actually since you’ve been stopping by to talk to us personally. I just wish you could enter the room with us, but you know the way Twilight is… always going into some sort of attack mode.

Anyway, Rainbow Dash and Applejack have visited a few times since your last visit. No big deal and no change there. It’s still as hard on them as it is on us, and it’s hard for me to watch them leave with tears in their eyes. But at least I know they still care lots and lots, and that counts for something.

I threw a super-duper surprise party for Twilight yesterday too! It was really fun, because Fluttershy who now works in the care center, rolled in some of her neighbors and we had cake, and food, and fun… Yeah, good times. I just wish Twilight was here to enjoy it. Well, I mean she’s here and all, but I mean the Twilight I know and love.

I wish I knew what happened to her, but while Rarity’s been looking into some more research on magic, she hasn’t found anything. I bet Rarity’s looked through every single magic book in the whole library!

I’ll still find a way to make her smile though. I have a promise to keep!

~Pinkie Pie

Dear Princess Celestia,

I have some good news, and well some bad news. Let me start with the bad news so we can get that out of our manes.

I won’t be able to visit Twilight as often anymore. I’ll still visit her, and attend the large events. But I still have a business to run, and I need to move on with my life, and that brings me to the good news.

I have been chosen to be the fashion director for an high end company in Canterlot. This means that we’ll practically be neighbors, and if you ever need company to visit Twilight later down the road, I’m here to assist you.

So here is my last update on Twilight.

Yesterday, I was talking to her about the move and told her that I’d be out of town for a while. I hope this wasn’t just an accident, but a conscious response, though I doubt it. Twilight opened her mouth and asked for water like usual. I complied and used my magic to let her drink, and as I was doing so, I noticed a tear dripping down her cheek. I just hope one day, she comes to. Life has certainly gotten much more… dreary without her.

Hoping to see you soon,

~Rarity

Dear Princess Celestia,

It was six years ago since he passed, but I remember one of the things Angel told me. He was a persistent one, that sly cute little bunny, but he was right all along. He told me that I should make myself available to Twilight as often as I can. Working here at the care center has helped me with that. Now, after seven years, I'm the head nurse for this hospital. It’s a big, big responsibility, but I’m glad I can be so helpful to everypony.

Twilight is about the same as she was a few years ago, around the time when Rarity left. Oh, of course, you knew that because I see you about once a month now.

Applejack isn't doing too well. She's old, and I don’t think she has the same genes her granny had. At least she's spending her final days in the same room as Twilight, but she’s slipping. Her health isn't in the greatest of shape any more. If you could come down, and give some comfort to us, and inform Rarity, I would be ever so grateful.

I just wish I knew… what happened to us?

~Fluttershy

Dear Princess Celestia,

I see you like every day, I know. But I’m dying inside about this. One of the younger nurses accidentally dropped some soap into Twilight's water, and when Twilight tasted it, she spit all the water on the nurse. It had me laughing so hard. I know it was bad to laugh, but I couldn’t help myself. It was almost like old-Twilight was back, even though I knew she wasn’t.

I then got this crazy idea to have one last party with Twilight before I die. You know, go out with a bang! One like what we did for Applejack, Fluttershy, Rarity, and Rainbow Dash. I want to host it, but I feel so tired, like I haven’t had enough sugar. So, could you do this one last favor for me, Princess? For Twilight?

Could you host my final party?

~Pinkie Pie

Dear Princess Celestia,

What happened? Where am I? The nurses look at me like I’m some sort of… special case. I honestly have no idea what is going on. I only just got enough strength to write, but the attendants here have told me that you were on your way. I can’t speak, so I’m writing this for when you get here.

Where are my friends? I would think they would be here, but no one will tell me what happened. I try to keep my eyes open, but the light is hurting me. It’s like fire, searing its way into my head. I don’t know what’s going on, so I’d like to have you around, for a while.

Eagerly waiting your response,

~Twilight SparkleI'll work on it, but I'd rather keep it simple at this point.

Remember, she's abrasive and doesn't focus much on details. Rainbow is confrontational and quick to place blame on things. I did like your use of exclamations though.

I'd suggest adding a "countryism" as AJ puts it.

I honestly don't know very many country isms.

Author's Note

Helpers
I'm still editing this chapter as I go, but so far, all I have left to improve are Rarity's and Pinkie Pie's letters.

Hope you enjoy, Mr. Flare

Oh, and some special thanks to Rinnaul for critical input in changes that needed to be made, and to Kestrel , for helping me with a healthy dose of editing, and for reinforcing the voices of all the characters.

Everything one Loves

The Lost Letters of Princess Twilight Sparkle and her quest. These letters will never reach the eyes of her beloved princess and will be forgotten by all but the stranger to light.

~Dear Princess Celestia

Wow, it's been a long while since I last wrote to you. It feels even longer since I last wrote you a friendship report, though it actually has been a while since that time. Anyway, the reason why I'm writing this letter is in question to a matter I am researching. Yesterday, Spike and I were sitting down relaxing when he asked me a odd question. Though the question was simple, and asked before, it got me thinking. Who is Spike? I know he's a dragon, but I'm wondering what type of dragon. What happened to his family?

I remember the time where he went on that quest of his to find out more of himself, yet when he recalls that moment, he just feels happy to where he is at. Personally I feel that there may be a few questions and riddles about my assistant and friend that were left unchecked.

Princess Celestia, if you have or find any information on Spike's origin, please send it to me.

~Twilight Sparkle

~Dear Princess Celestia

I just received that package you sent me, and I want to thank you. I'm sure it will help me on my research. I feel excited about this, it feels like old times! Do you want me to send you a few progress reports? I hope so, that would be fun! Just like old times!

~Twilight Sparkle

~Dear Princess Celestia

I came across something uncanny today, or rather, something that has me concerned. I could not find any information on what type of dragon Spike actually is. All I could find was information to the area where his egg was found, and many more like it. As I looked deeper in the subject, all dragons which here hatched like Spike, disappeared after their 20th year. I'm concerned about this because Spike is a dear friend to me, and if there are any chances that he could vanish, I want to rectify a solution as soon as possible. If you have any information you could share with me, that would be wonderful!

~Twilight Sparkle

~Dear Princess Celestia

Why have you not written back? I guess you are busy, but I'm sure you are receiving my letters and are well aware about my progress. I know I'm a princess now, and that I have duties to attend to here in Ponyville. So when I say that I'm going to check the place where Spike came from, I'll be right back. The trip should take no longer than three days, and I'll be back with more information on Spike’s origins. To be honest, I don't know what I will find, but I think the trip will be useful.

Just between you and me, I want this to be a surprise for Spike. That's why I have been sending you the letters by my own spell and not his, so please, don't let him know I am doing this. Lets give him the information he deserves when we have enough to go on.

Write to you soon.

~Twilight Sparkle

~Dear Princess Celestia

I just got of the train at Scale Ridge. This place is more beautiful than I imagined, the rocks piled on each other. The rich red all around is just invigorating. According to the notes on the Serpent exposition, you know, the one where they found Spikes egg, among others as well. They were found in a cave just northwest of Belly rock, so I'm going to go and see any clues as to where to go.

~Twilight Sparkle.

Please send help!

Hel

Dear...

Whatever, I'll just write this down. I don't have much time and more than an nightmares worth of memories to last a lifetime. I've been here for three days, locked in this cave. It was strange how this all happened, too. I entered the cave, and found the usual, a rock hallway lingering down into darkness. That should have been my first clue if it weren't for the single well known fact that caves are always dark!

I went down, and found some rocks, they were like Spike's eggs, but they were all stone. I was excited to find at least something that could lead me to more information...

Someone is coming. I'll send this and write more later.

~Twilight Sparkle

OK, where was I?

Those stones I found gave me hope to continue on my quest. The quest to find the exact place where Spike was found years ago. There were not only stones in the area though, there were markings as well, markings speaking of the laws of magic. I could read some of it, but there were markings that I could not understand as well, another language beyond what I know. It must of been ancient! After a while of studying the markings, I moved along a unusually marked passage. It was strange though, as soon as I passed into the cave, I started sensing power. It felt new, strong; yet the energy that filled the room was stronger than anything I have ever felt before. I knew it was magic, a type I have never heard of before, yet at the same time it was familiar. It was as if I was returning home.

Following along the cave, I soon came to a room filled with light. The walls were glowing a light white color, Illuminating the chamber as the moon lights the sky. I was intrigued by what I found though, in the center, was this pedestal and on it lay an egg that look exactly like the one I hatched Spike from. I took a step forward and noticed as my hooves became soaked, that it was the center of a shallow pool. Water filled the area a good circumference of ten yards, roughly. I really don't know, I was so enthralled by the egg I didn't really take any considerate measurements of the pool.

I remember what you taught me a while back though Celestia, that I should never touch anything that seems important when in a place I know little about. I don't know what came over me though, I really don't. It was as if the egg was calling to me, begging me to touch it. Simply put, I used my magic to pick it up.

I was surprised to how close it resembled Spike’s egg, it was identical! The color of the shell, the spotted anomalies, it was all exactly like Spike's egg.

That was when things began to go a bit crazy, actually... It went really crazy. The whole time of being there, I thought I was alone. I was wrong though, for somepony shouted hey to me. I mean, I don't know why they would do that, I was holding an egg for Pete's sake! Tell Pete the mule I'm sorry, please.

Anyway, that was when I dropped the egg. I watched as the hollow shell shattered on the ground, then from that point, that was the last I saw. The walls went dark, and I could not see anything. Behind me I heard the same pony say "What have you done?"

I then blacked out. When I woke up, I found myself in this strange cell.

That's what happened, and I've been here ever since. I mean, occasionally somepony will stand on the other side of the door and ask me questions. Questions about magic, and how I felt. I told him other than a slight tingle in my chest, I was fine. I mean it was not uncomfortable, but surely I'm fine right?

Anyway, if you get this, that's what happened. Please come get me, I don't want to be here anymore.

~ Twilight Sparkle

I think I understand now. Today someone special visited me, though I never found out her name because she said it was not important, I couldn't even see her! She did tell me however, that my name may be important though, and that they needed one more sign before they knew for sure. She assured me that I would be fine in the end, but with what is happening, that consequences were required. As unnerving as that was to hear, it was as if her voice was caring and wise.

~Twilight Sparkle

It all makes sense now! Why I'm stuck here! I'm afraid to say, it may be a while before I return. I love him too much to leave, he must stay alive!

~Twilight Sparkle

I'll explain some things to you, things that need to be known in order to understand why this happened. Back at the room with the egg I smashed? That egg was the most important relic, an egg exempt from hatching, so no walking dragon could have the burden which it entitled. Celestia, I killed that egg. I destroyed the vessel of magic itself. As I learned, that had consequences.

I now know the truth of how I got my cutie mark. True, Rainbow Dash's rainboom triggered the cause, but I was not alone responsible for the effect. You see, that surge of raw magic did not come from me, but it came from Spike. Spike is a rare breed of dragon, born for the purpose of caring for the well being of magic. Though Spike did have the magical potential, he was not magic’s vessel. So the magic inside of him was brought into me. Because of that, when I broke the egg, not only did I put magic in danger, I also was the only key to saving it. I was key because of my connection to Spike.

It's going to take time, but I was shown the walls where the egg rested, they are beginning to glow again. It will take a long while for them to be ready, but I need to do this. Not just for the sake of saving magic, but also to save Spike.

Your Faithful Student

~Twilight

The people here, I really can't call them ponies because they aren't, they call themselves Guardians. They are the people who walk the magical plain, making sure all connects well and allows the world to survive. They assured me that they are not gods, or hold power in anyway, they just control the primary flow of magic. Though I can't see them, they can talk normally. It's fun to walk with them actually, because even though I can hear them, I can also feel them guide me around. Let me explain, since they are connected to the magical field, they allow me to sense their presence. I know where they are, so I can just simply follow them. It's actually fun and invigorating.

I'm actually happy I came across this place, I have learned so much about the nature of magic. At the same time though, I really miss my friends. I do hope they forgive me, I never meant for this to happen, but it must.

Anyway, the one who has been showing me around is their leader. She calls herself Vesta. She's the one who comforted me when I first arrived, and her ability to keep to honesty is perfect. She can tell me the truth to any situation, yet despite the horror and pain it could give, her presence make it easy to take in. I guess I could say, the only reason I have not turned to insanity yet is because of her.

I know it's been about a year now, but conversion is not yet ready. The walls are still dim, but that tingly feeling in my chest, or what I'm told, the cast of the vessel, is developing stronger.

There is not much more I can say right now, so I'll write later.

~Twilight

I have not forgotten why I'm still here. It's to save Spike. Even though I love learning everything here, I also miss my friends. At the same time, I can't leave because if I do, Spike will die. I can't choose between the two, but I can choose to help everyone live. In the end, I'm doing this because I love all my friends. I made a mistake, I will be the one to pay for it, but the consequences will affect more than just me.

Despite the years, It's my duty to do this. Not as princess, but as a friend.

~Twilight Sparkle

The time is nearly here. All I need to do is connect my magic to Spike, then the process of restoration will start. I will have three days to find Spike before the cast kills me. I've planned a course to Ponyville that will take one day instead of two, that should give me time to explain and say good bye. If by some miracle you are receiving these, please tell my friends that I am sorry.

I have so much to share, and so much to say goodbye to.

Once I touch Spike, his physical form will fuse with the magical plain, separating him from time, causing him to be pulled from every ponies memory. Sure, some things won't make sense to them, but their minds will fix the gap until he returns. If I don't do this, he will die since the plain will collapse. I'm not strong enough to handle restoring the plain, if I were I would do it myself. Only a Keeper of Magic can complete this, and Spike happens to be the only one around. All the magical residue I hold will fuse into him. During this time, I will become the vessel to Spikes soul. My body will be under so much stress, it won't function normally. We will both be in there, unconscious of the world around us. As much as I hate to say, Things will not return to normal until the essence of my power is fully given. That will include the Elements of Harmony.

I... I... I need a moment.

I can't do this! I want to be with my friends, I have not seen them so long! I can't lose them!

No, I'm doing this to save Spike! It's all for him.

The time has arrived, In about one hour, twenty seven minutes and forty five seconds, I will be leaving to head to Ponyville. I know the plan, and if all goes well... I will at least have time to say bye to my friends, even if they hate me, I need to see them one more time.

~Twilight

I'm not going to make it on time! My chest hurts, and I twisted my ankle! I can't run or walk, all I can do is crawl. Even as I write this, I'm wasting time. It's been two days already, and I have yet to see anypony to help. Why does this have to happen? Does the world hate me so much that it's going to kill me with the knowledge that my best friend will not only die, but cease from existence?

I'm at the lake side, so here is what I'm going to do. I'm going to jump in and float. Maybe, just maybe I'll get lucky. It's my only chance.

~Twilight

~Dear Princess Celestia

You know Celestia, I forgot a bit that I was writing to you. I don't know when I started writing these letters as journals, but I guess that does not matter now. I can feel my energy draining, even right now it hurts to breath. I guess all I can do now is hope. I'm scared, I haven't written about this yet, but this will change me. I will not remember everything, and worst of all... it will be as if my soul will be lost. I'm afraid to what will happen to me if I wake up, if this all works out. Right now, there are two events that will take place. Event one: I die, and Spike no longer exists. Event Two: Someone finds me, and Spike somehow manages to touch me before I die, starting the chain events that will ultimately save his life making him the most important dragon in the world.

Celestia, tell my friends I love them. After all, all I do is for them. Thank you for teaching me the power of friendship.

Always, your faithful student

~Twilight Sparkle.

Author's Note

Whew, this chapter was hard for me. I usually don't have a hard time writing Twilight because I can relate to her so well. However, when it comes to writing, her form of OCD and my form of OCD are not the same. I literally had to watch all of season one, and replay her letters over and over just to get the proper feel of how she writes her letters. So I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and there is one more that will answer some of the most pressing questions. The next chapter will also be the final, yet most powerful chapter revolving around the time after Twilight wakes up and how she copes with life.

Anyway, check out the piece I listened to while writing this chapter.

I would like to thank Eskerata and Soaring for helping me with some minor edits and insight.

Companion of Darkness

Stranger to Light

Chapter III: Sacrifice in Will

Dear Princes Celestia

It’s been two years since Spike ran away from home. I understand fully why he did and I don’t blame him for being mad at me. To this day, I don’t know why he was fused to my consciousness, forgotten by all, but I wish to work and find the answers. If anything, not for me, but for him. I just wish he could let me be near him so we can work together, and the last thing I want for him is to be alone. If you have any Ideas, I would greatly appreciate the feedback. Right now, we all need to be close to our friends, no matter our pain.

~Twilight Sparkle

Dear Twilight Sparkle

It’s been awhile hasn’t it? I know I haven’t wrote to you, and have ignored those letters you've sent. Truth is, I hurt Twilight. I’m more than mad at you, I'm angry, furious even. So much so that all I want to do when I’m around you is hurt you. I can’t let that happen, so please… Don’t contact me anymore.

~Spike

Dear Spike, my number one assistant

Spike, I need to know. Why exactly, do you hurt?

~Twilight Sparkle.

You don’t know what I saw Twilight, you don’t want to know what I saw. Yet you ask me in such a way that I know you won’t stop until I tell you. Of all the things I learned, I know I can’t stop your thirst for information so here you go, and don’t come crying to me when you learn the truth you… you…

When you returned, it was as if I no longer existed. I wasn’t even me anymore. One moment I was walking from your room after bringing you back, the next thing I know is that I am you… or at least… part of you. I was your eyes Twilight, I felt all your emotions. I watched day after day as Pinkie tried to make you laugh only to be rejected by your own dumb stupidity! On top of that, I watched Rainbow Dash grow tired of your crap and hit you. You know what I felt when that happened? You know what I felt?!

Rage.

Pure and unadulterated rage. You wanted Rainbow Dash gone Twilight. That is what drew the line for me, you were so angry at Rainbow that whenever she was around, all you would did was stare at her, daring her to strike again. I saw all that. I felt all of that.

What’s worse is that I had to watch all our friend’s hope for you die, I watched as they accepted that you would be a vegetable for the rest of your life, for their lives. Then in the end, I had to watch them suffer from the pain of losing all their friends. Not just losing you Twilight, but each other. I watched them grow old and die, and all that time… Not once did you have the strength to get up and hug them, to wake up and be with them. You were a weak cowered hiding behind your emotions the whole stinking time.

I don’t want anything to do with you, I want nothing to do with a weak pretty pony princess that needs to be pampered in order to be happy! Don’t contact me again.

Twilight

I’ve thought about what I’ve said in the past couple of days… Most of what I said was in a fit of rage, and I know that is no excuse, but that is the truth. I know that you aren’t weak Twilight… it was unfair of me. I’m Sorry.

~Spike

Dear Spike

You don’t need to be sorry, I know what you said needed to be said. I can only hope you are able to read this letter through my tears. I’ll be honest, I’m glad you remember what it was like… because I can’t remember anything. The only thing I remember is heading off somewhere to find you something… for your birthday… From there… the next thing I can recall is waking up to how things are now. So, I don’t blame you for how you feel. All I can ask is if you can forgive me. So, can you forgive me?

~With much love, Twilight

Twilight

Give me some time on that. Though, I’ve been thinking on one of the things I said, about my experience of when Rainbow Dash slapped me… or you in the face. The rage felt off… as if it was from something that was neither you nor me. What do you think it means? Or is it part of me wishing this was not real… I don’t know.

~Spike

Dear Princess Celestia

I’ve been writing to Spike as of late and he brought up something interesting. To summarize, during his unaccounted absence, his consciousness was apparently in mine. During our conversations through letter, he has informed me that the emotions he felt while in that state were quite… Foreign. I’m beginning to think that this may be a lead to what happened. If you know anything, I hope you can help me.

Thanks in advanced

~Twilight Sparkle

Twilight Sparkle

Is my sister Celestia in your company?

~Luna, High arch of the Night

Dear Princess Luna

No, Princess Celestia is not with me right now. Why do you ask?

~Twilight

Twilight Sparkle

I fear that we live among the age of missing princesses...

my sister has vanished.

~Luna

Spike

I realize that you and Twilight are not currently in the best of relations, but I may need you to check on her well being. I may have just sent her a letter giving news of my Sisters condition… without thinking of the repercussions. If you would, please pay her a visit as to make sure she is well.

~Luna

Luna

Why would you do that!?! I’m on my way to visit her now.

~Spike

Luna

I nearly had a heart attack when I got to Twilight. I found her in a corner staring into nothingness, and I was afraid something was happening again. However, a bit of water helped bring her out of it. Apparently her fears that the same thing happening to Celestia are just as real as yours and mine.

~Spike

Luna

Twilight is still a bit shaken up, but we are wondering, how did this happen? Is there anything we need to know?

~Spike

Dear Spike and Twilight Sparkle

There is quite a bit I would like to share with the both of you, but right now even I am not sure how this happened. It was just yesterday when Celestia informed me that she was not feeling well and requested to be excused from court. The next day, I found no sign of my sister in her bed chambers. The only sign I found there was a letter from you, Twilight. I do have a few questions concerning the time when both of you were… one in the same consciousness was it? We can get back to that later, as of right now we all should focus all our efforts to finding Celestia. I don’t think the whole of Equestria can handle another case of a missing princess. I’ll keep you informed on our search.

~Luna

Thank you Luna, and if I find anything in my research I’ll let you know. Also, do you have some Zotail? Spike is having some stomach pains, and I have run out of the stuff and was wondering if you had some lying around somewhere.

~Twilight Sparkle

Dear Twilight Sparkle

Enclosed in this letter is some of the medicine you have requested. Next time though, could you head to the local pharmacy? Zotail is a common enough drug, it should not be hard to find.

Also, tell Spike that he should stop eating ice cream as a primary meal. That may help with his stomach aches.

~Princess Luna

Dear Princess Luna

Thank you. Also, the Ponyville pharmacy was out of Zotail, but I’ll be sure to search around more next time.

Any word on Celestia yet?

~Twilight Sparkle

Dear Princess Luna

If you have sent any letters recently please send them directly to me. Spike’s stomach ache has gotten worse and he can’t send or receive anything.

Thank you.

~Twilight Sparkle

Twilight Sparkle

I’ll be sure to send letters to you, since Spike seems to be ill. Please let me know when he feels better, I may have a task for the both of you.

~Luna

Princess Luna

You may want to come down here now. Spike just started burping out letters, letters that were written by me years ago, during my disappearance. I feel we may have some clues to what happened to Celestia.

~Twilight

On my way.

~Luna

After Reading Twilight's Lost Letters

Twilight Sparkle

I have arrived at the caves, just like we discussed. I fear what we read my very well be true. These caves hold damage that will halt any attempt to magic instantly. There are signs here of inhabitants, but it is minimal, and feels as though the subject was forced to stay. I can’t assume anything, but I do believe that this is evidence of you being held here as stated in the letters.

I do believe that these ‘guardians’ are not who they say they are. Magic like this would not be used without malicious means. So I do have a task for you Twilight, if you could. Research information on anything that deals with the claim guardians, and any information you find, even in myth, inform me immediately.

~Princess Luna, Regent of the Night.

Dear Princess Luna

I’ll look into right away. I won’t leave any book unopened.

~Twilight Sparkle

Luna

While Twilight is looking through the books, I was wondering if I could ask you a question on the caves.

Twilight made the trip to help me find out my origins. So… Did you find anything in the caves that could link me to my roots? I ask because despite all the horrible things that happened, I would still like to know where I came from.

Any information you have, I would be grateful for.

~Spike.

Spike

I fear that anything in the cave that would relate to you was not only destroyed, but may have been forged to manipulate the flow of magic. I wish I could give something of use to you, but based on what I found, I’m not sure we can even trust the most solid of evidence until after it is tested.

I will continue to keep my ears and eyes peeled for any information on this matter. I do this in understanding that any information would be invaluable for you. Consider it a favor to a great friend.

~Luna

Luna, It took me a while to find anything, but after looking through mounds of information on the term guardians, in a sense of in-materialized champions, I have found some information that may answer what we found.

In the book titled Legends in the Shadows, I have found a bedtime story about those protected by beings. However, those beings, who called themselves Guardians, would not only work to protect their subject, but their subject would slowly weaken to the point of being consumed in a lethargic state. Allowing them to either completely drain their life force or attempt to possess.

These creatures were called wraiths in the story, and the way they work is similar to what we read in my letters.

It’s hard to believe I wrote those, but at least we have them now. It’s a lead. I’ll be sure to update you when I find more information on the Wraiths. If you feel that I am on the wrong track here, I do have some more stories found on Guardians, but right now, I feel this is our strongest lead.

~Twilight Sparkle

Twilight Sparkle

Don’t worry about digging more into Wraiths. I fear that they are the cause of all this and I’ll send you my personal research on the subject. I feel that it will hold enough information on the subject for you.

~Luna

Luna! You knew? At least you had some Idea? Why didn’t you tell me? This could have save us some time and we probably would be somewhere right now saving Celestia!

Twilight

I need you to understand, and I feel I owe you some explanation to my decision to hold the information from you until we had some solid Idea.

Yes, I had an Idea, and I hoped I was wrong. Unfortunately I am right and now Equestria may be in greater peril than we ever could have foreseen.

When I was young, before I could travel dreams I heard stories of the wraiths. Stories that are now forever lost except on the information you have found. These wraiths, despite all my research, I thought myth. That is until now.

I searched for any story and sliver of information I could on them, hoping to find out what exactly they were and to stop them. However, short of bedtime stories, I found nothing. I even taught myself how to peer into the dreams of my subjects, just to keep them safe from this potential harm. Potential that after years of negative results, I felt to deem them myth.

Now however, I’m glad I have kept the information. Information I kept from you because I needed to be sure that this was surely the case, otherwise I would be leading you down a voided path.

I hope you understand that this information was held in the interest of keep your research accurate with no prior contamination.

Let me explain a little of what I know about Wraiths. They are mystical beings without any physical form. Masters of deception, I have found that they will feed off one’s energy in hopes to consume and gain control of their prey’s physical form. To do this, they find a way to bring an environment of stress, the reveal themselves as the only hope of escape. From there, they protect the subject from any potential interference.

For them to make an attack on this scale, I fear their power is more menacing than I thought. I don’t know what their goal is, but if they feed off of the magical flow of nature, then they just harnessed one of the greatest conduits in existence. What I need you to do right now is try to figure out how to communicate with their level of existence. Find a way to communicate with non-materialistic intelligence. Do you think you can do that Twilight Sparkle?

~Luna

Luna

What if I find a way to recover my memories? If I do that, maybe I’ll be able to remember some information that will help us find the wraiths?

~Twilight Sparkle

Twilight Sparkle

I write to you not as a princess, but as a friend. Let’s concentrate on another route on locating the wraiths. I recommend this to you because not only recovering your memories by force will take too much time, but will also cause major damage to you. I’m not just talking about the shock of remembering all the horrible things you may have experienced, but because any attempted process of memory retrieval has only matched with traumatic results to the pony mind.

I believe that the lost letters that had somehow arrived though Spike is a greater gift in this mystery that we have received. Let’s concentrate on what we have, and find some other way to move on.

I’m on my way to the crystal mountains to see if I can find any more clues there. Might have actually changed since my last visit.

~Luna

Luna

I agree with you on letting Twilight's memories return naturally. It took me a while to help calm Twilight down from the obsession, and the only I did that was with the Idea that perhaps I could be used as a conduit on locating the wraiths.

If the letters were true, that I am an oracle to magic (That’s what I like to call it.), the perhaps I can use that energy to locate those creeps. Twilight is already on finding a way to look into the ties of arcane energy to help with this plan. So far it’s looking like it’s going places.

If this works out, I’ll do all I can to find Celestia. I’m tired of just waiting around, being the defenseless baby dragon. No, this time I’m going to do something and help out.

~Spike

Spike

You Idea is sound, but please be careful. We don’t know what these Wraiths have done to possibly prepare for this situation. I await your word in progress.

~Princess Luna, Regent of the NIght.

Dear Princess Luna

We just found the link we were looking for. Spike is strongly connected to another plain of consciousness. However, in order for him to proceed into this other state, we would need to enchant his body to be in stasis.

I have figured out how to do this, but his body will be vulnerable. Spike is here trying to convince me to send him on his mission, however I would like to consult with you the risks first.

I don’t know what state Spike would be if I were to send him through right now. He might be powerful… or powerless. I’m hoping for the former, but if he’s powerless over there, there is no way for me pull him out. I would need to go and fish him out, but I really don’t know how to do that yet.

I realize that the longer we wait, the closer the wraiths are to following through with the final stage of their plan.

I need your input on what we should do.

~Twilight Sparkle

Twilight Sparkle

I wouldn’t recommend entering this world until we understand more on what we are dealing with. However, we can not afford to delay any longer. My sister has been in there long enough, giving the Wraiths ample time to prepare for the final stage of whatever it is they are doing. So when you and Spike are ready, you have my permission to proceed with the plan.

~Princess Luna, Regent of the Night

Luna

I’m going in.

~Spike

Dear Twilight Sparkle

I write this for you Twilight, in case things come to worse. Don’t think for a second I feel this as a suicide mission, because I don’t feel that way at all. With that said though, one can not be too careful.

From the time I returned to physical world, after being in the same body as you, I have had this rage. Pure as the red bearing flag the griffin empire holds, all I wanted to do was hurt somepony, all Life. I despised anything around me and all I wanted was the world to burn. Even though I have said some hurtful things to you, I need you know that my anger was more to everything and I did all I could to not turn it all on you.

Over time, wrath would not leave my side. I hurt not physically, but mentally. Wishing nothing more but to end any life around me. That was the reason why I kept away from you Twilight. All this time, accompanied only by these feelings, I stayed away in my best efforts to protect you from myself. I didn’t know how long I could keep my self control, only to break and follow through with thoughts that I wouldn’t wish you to know… at least in detail.

It was all I could do, Twilight, to remember the good times. Back to the times where you would take me to Donut Joe’s when I’m feeling sad. To the time where you would sit down and read to me The Adventure of Daring Do. I always enjoyed that, and it didn’t matter what book it was. I even kept memory of the time where we all stayed up late to watch the meteor shower.

With these memories, I was able to keep a deep respect for you despite my surface feelings of hostility.

Remember Twilight, I love you. You are my sister, and not once have I hated you. Even at my worst, I held on to those memories.

Thank you Twilight. Thank you for being the best sister a dragon could have. Thank you for teaching me the value of friendship, and showing me one of the greatest treasures. A treasure that even a dragon can’t hold, a treasure that I, just a young dragon has.

Thank you.

Your Brother

~Spike

~~+~~

Luna

I’m worried Luna, Spike has not returned yet and it’s already been two days. I realize that it’s quite the mission, but I should at least do something. I can’t just leave him in there alone.

I have figured out a way for me to travel to that plain. However, unlike spike, I will be there physically. By altering my teleportation spell and reversing the quantum stabilization algorithm, it would land me to the same field as Spike. Allowing me to not only utilize its rules but also it’s resources. However, and this is a big however, I am more vulnerable. My body will be a guest to a world where physical structure is not supported. I’ve made a bracelet to help keep me alive, but if I were to remove the bracelet… My body will be torn apart, and this world would then become my permanent home. Either that, or I just die. Either way, there would be no turning back.

I’m going to wait another day before going in, but by this time tomorrow, I’m going in to save Spike, and possibly Celestia as well.

~Twilight Sparkle.

Alright Twilight Sparkle. Please be careful.

~Luna

To anyone who finds this, please send to Princess Luna immediately.

Dear Luna

I hope this letter finds you, weather I am successful, or in the case of emergency and my failure, this letter finds you quickly.

I have written all of this as I travel along this alternate world. I don’t know what to call it, but lets call it Sub Equestria. I know it sounds sub par, but it holds true to where I am at.

It’s really weird here, I look around and I can still see everything from our world. However, it’s misty and grey. The buildings radiate mist and the ponies walk around unaware of my presence right by them. It’s strange that I can’t use my wings to fly, I flap them and I don’t gain lift. So over here I don’t fly by using my wings, but by will. All I have to do is think and then I’m in the air.

I’m going to head over to the old cave to see if I can find anything here in this realm. Maybe then, I’ll find a lead on where to go.

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I’m here at the cave, well outside it anyway. Luna, you were right. This cave is damaged, I can’t even get in. It’s as if the non substantial structure is destroyed so anything in this realm cannot enter. It’s like an impassible black wall, nothing can get in there.

The peculiar thing is that I seem to be connected to this place. I see a purple stream between me and the blocked cavern. If weren’t for the fact that I’m starting to recall some events, including those in the lost letters, I would be scared. I’m not though because I feel good with this stream, like it’s a part of me. Hard to explain.

True, I can’t remember everything right now, but I feel that will change soon enough. There is also a green stream leading from the cavern heading to Canterlot. I think I’ll head over there to see what it’s connected. If I could guess on anything, I think it will lead to Spike. With his connection to all this, it only makes sense.

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I don’t know where to start, so I will just start from the beginning. When I first arrived to Canterlot, the green mist vanished. I didn’t think It would have lead me here for no reason so I decided to take look around. As I was, I could see the energy from everything here being pulled to the palace. It was as if something there was sucking in the energy.

Entering the Palace and into the hall of heroes, that is where I found Spike and Celestia, and it seems that Celestia is here physically. I don’t know how they did it, but the wraiths had somehow brought Celestia here without taking her consciousness from her physical form. Along with other beings--who I believe to be the wraiths.

I need to sit down and make a plan.

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They’re in cages, so I will have to find some way to break them out, even at that point though, I don’t know if I can wake them up. There are five tanks filled with some sort of gas probably some elements that I am unaware of, yet they feel familiar. Probably because their colors match the coats of my friends. Cyan, white, orange, pink, and yellow; now’s not the time to mourn them though.

If I can break those tanks, surely I can cause enough a distraction to wake up Spike and Celestia and get out of here. If worse comes to shove, I can probably use magic to defend myself from the manipulation of the wraiths, it’s risky since I don’t know their full abilities, I am on their turf, but I need to try anyway.

So here goes nothing. Not for me, but for them. This must end now.

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I just noticed something that I probably should note first. I just got a closer look at both Spike and Celestia and it seems I may have come across a problem. Something is draining the both of them and they are losing their color. It also looks like their energy is being absorbed by one of the wraiths, the largest of the five here. I also heard her speak about it being almost time, and the worst part is that I recognize the voice. It’s soft and caring and when I hear it I feel like I want to trust whatever is being said. If I didn’t know any better now, I probably would have given my position to talk with her. She may even be the one who claimed to be my guardian.

I’ll try to find a way to stop the link between them and my friends, but I don’t know any more. I don’t have that much more time, and I should act soon.

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To all my friends, to all who I love. I write this right now because I don’t know what will happen and this may be the last chance I have to share my thoughts.

I hold deep within fond memories. Memories that help me appreciate the life I have lived so far, even after all that has happened from the mission out to enjoying life with my friends; Pinkie Pie, Rarity, Rainbow Dash, Applejack, and Fluttershy. I hold those moments close because they have helped me appreciate everything I have experienced. They have helped me become the mare I am today and I owe much to them.

I also owe much to Equestria. They accepted me as a Princess and helped me spread around the importance of Friendship. They helped me become strong enough to stand up to Discord, Tirek, and many other people who wanted to harm and change the way things should be.

Luna, I am lucky to have a friend like you and I am glad to have met you. I want you to know that I appreciate the beautiful tapestry you bring us every night. The stars that shine and the moon as it flies across the sky. You do so much for everypony here, helping them get through their own personal nightmares, and befriending the ones who need friendship the most. Thank you Luna, for all that you have done for me.

Spike, from the time I hatched you I knew you were something special. You are an amazing dragon and I hope I have succeeded in saving you from the wraiths, along with Celestia. Even in the times where you were consumed with darkness and chaos, you overcame the worst and became and will become the mightiest of all dragons. Not because your strength is beyond any other, but because the purity and kindness in your heart. I know you will always try to do good Spike. I hope I am around to see you grow up, but in the worst case, I know Equestria will be safe in your watchful gaze. I love you Spike, never forget that.

~Twilight Sparkle

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Dear Princess Luna

I'm back, and... and... I don't even know how to say it.

I can’t believe it. She’s gone. And without her, we would all be gone. I don’t even know where to start, but Celestia is safe, so we succeeded. Thanks to Twilight, Equestria is safe from the Wraiths.

I can’t remember all that had happened, and I’m not sure I will ever remember all the details, all I know is that Twilight moved on happy…

Happy, something I wish I could feel…

Happy…

Celestia, I do have something to give you, it’s Twilight’s account of what happened in Sub Equestria, and her Final Letter.

~Spike

To all who must know.

She died happy. Even when the guard went to pick up her body, her face was smiling. Smiling while one single tear rolled down her cheek. I can’t say that her body is dead, just that there is nothing of her really inside… except that tear.
Maybe there is a way to pull her back? Maybe this was all a bad dream and she will wake up to hug me and tell me all is well.

No.

I know that will not happen, all that I experienced in the sub world did happen. I guess it’s time for me to tell you what really happened. From when I walked in, to where Twilight sacrificed herself to save equestrian, no, sacrificed herself to save me.

~Spike

Author's Note

Exactly one year since the last update... Ha, now that's funny. Anyway, pardon the wait.

So, I decided to cut this chapter short. I'm still deciding on whether I want to continue after this or not. If I do, it won't be in letter format because what comes next is a bit more... advanced than what can be described in letters.

So, While I think on that, I'll put this here now.

Enjoy.

Also, Zotail is a drug that spike uses when he eats to much ice cream and needs to relight his fire.
(My little head cannon)Pun intended