Chapter 2 - Lunar Emotions

The wind whipped through Luna’s mane and tail, as she flew over the Everfree Forest. Her heart pounded in her chest like a drum. She wasn’t sure where she was flying to. It didn’t matter. The tears that resided on her eyes, completely blurred all of her vision.

Her wings were aching to slow down, but she ignored it and pushed on. She knew that if she stopped now, she would be found. Twilight would find her. How Twilight hadn’t killed Luna on the spot, was beyond her.

Luna pushed her wings faster. She had no idea where she was going, but some part of her was guiding her forward. She could hear her heart pounding in her ears.

“I am nothing but a useless coward.” Luna spoke out loud to herself.

She felt awful. Solar Eclipse had died because of her. Twilight had only just barely escaped the same fate. She had nearly caused the death of one of the few who she considered her friend. She had caused the death of her brother, whom she hadn’t seen in over a millenium.

Luna looked down at the forest. She must not have realized she was travelling as fast as she was. Trees were flying by underneath her, faster than she could count. Luna looked back in front of her. The forest stretched on further than her eyes could see. As if the immense solitude wasn’t enough, Luna spotted storm clouds in the sky, directly in her path of travel.

Luna flew under the storm clouds. Rain began to pelt her body. She held a hoof up above her eyes, so that the rain would not make her vision any worse.

The light of the moon was blocked by the thick storm clouds. Luna could see random bouts of lightning striking the ground in various places all around her. Thunder boomed from the earth.

Through a flash of lightning, Luna could see a large structure far away, down in the forest. She was quickly above it, and with another flash of light, she instantly recognized it as her old castle home.

She angled her wings downward, pushing herself into a graceful, shallow, circular dive. The rain continued to throw itself at her, drenching her body in a cold, debilitating wetness. The cold only adding to the conflicting emotions in her heart. The need for shelter took heed, and she decided to get to the castle as quickly as possible. Once she was positioned directly above one of the crumbling holes in the roof of the castle, she dropped into a vertical dive.

Pushing her emotions aside, she flew as quickly as she could, down into the castle. She started flapping backwards as she grew closer to her landing, and slowed herself considerably. Once she was through the hole in the roof, she found herself in a long stone hallway. Doors lined one side, windows positioned opposite the doors on the other wall.

She raised a hoof to clear her eyes from the onslaught of tears, but found it futile, as her hooves were soaked as well. She could not recognize where she was in the castle, but knew she was somewhere on the second story of the Lunar Wing. She fumbled her way to one end of the hallway, passing doors that were in every different state of disrepair. The sconces on the walls, still held partially burnt candles, now covered in dust, and cobwebs. The high vaulted ceiling leaked water into the hallway, and the once grand rug that sprawled the length of the entire hallway, was tattered, soaked, and torn.

Luna fought to hold back the tears that came with the reminder of what she had done so many years ago. She finally made her way to the end of the hallway, and followed a bend that led inward towards the castle. The more she walked, and looked around, the more she recognized where she was. She flew in through the roof, into the servants quarters. Down the hallway she was currently traveling, was the grand entrance to the Luna Wing, that connected it to the main section of the castle. The main section held the throne room, but that is not what she wanted to find.

She passed through the grand entrance, glancing around only for a moment. The two stairways that led up the sides of the room, were both completely collapsed. The glass chandelier that once hung from a dome in the ceiling, lay destroyed on the floor, beneath the rubble of the imploded dome. The painting of Luna that once sat in the middle of the room, at the top of the stairways, was burned, and tattered beyond recognition.

Luna waked into another hallway across from the one she had just left. She had to fly over a hole in the floor. The hole appeared to go further down, as another hole could be seen in the floor of the first level, that spilled out into the basement.

Luna reached the end of the hallway, and stopped. Where there used to be a ‘T’ intersection in the hallway, was now a giant gaping hole, that scarred the castle, from the roof, to the muddy ground below.

Luna once again, took to the air, and flew around the corner to her right, entering the long hallway. At the far end, she could see the large oak door, that stood, blocking her old private chambers from view. All along the walls of the new hallway, were black burn marks, that grew progressively darker as she walked closer to her room.

She finally reached the end of the hallway, and stood before her door, examining it. New tears formed in her eyes, fighting for space against the ones that had already staked their claim. The door was exactly how she remembered it. That must’ve been Celestia’s doing. She remembered blasting the door off of it’s hinges when she became nightmare moon.

The door was coated in midnight black paint. At the center of the door, where the doors split to open, was a full moon engraved in the door. There were words engraved on the inside of the moon, too clean to be done with a tool. Luna craned her head down to read it.

I MISS YOU

Luna felt a lump build up in her throat, so much that her neck began to physically hurt. She decided it best not to look at it too much longer, and opened the door, taking the first look into her room since one thousand and three years ago.

Everything was exactly as she remembered it. Her bed still sat at the far end of the room, directly opposite the door. The two windows that sat on both sides of her bed, were shattered, glass lying on the floor in front of them. Rain poured in through the windows, soaking the wooden floor. Luna looked down and saw her favorite giant rug, a black rug with her cutie mark in the center, lying in her favorite spot in the center of her room.

Luna stepped into her room, it seemed almost like stepping back in time. She looked around. Her oversized dresser still sat against the right wall. She smiled, remembering how she had begged her parents for it, even though she was still just a filly. She walked across the room, across her favorite carpet, and stood at the foot of her old bed, looking over the blanket. It was the same blanket she always had on her bed, even though not that comfortable, the same blanket her mother had made for her when she was born. It was a cotton blanket, that had her name embroidered in the center, surrounded by the moon in many different phases, and stars of all different types and constellations.

Luna choked at the thought of her once happy childhood. She chose to look away, as to not make herself feel any worse than she already did. She found it was a huge mistake, as she turned around, to find hundreds of drawings glued to the wall of her doorway. Her mouth fell open, but nothing was able to find its way out.

All across the wall, was the drawings that she, and Celestia had made together as fillies. Every single drawing she remembered was there, and not a single section of wall was visible.

Lightning flashed from outside her window, and light flickered inside the room. Off to the right of Luna’s eyes, she caught the reflection of another pony, and nearly jumped out of her skin. Once she had gathered herself, she realized that it was only her old full-body mirror, in the corner of the room. She sighed, and walked up to it. She hated what she saw.

Inside the mirror, was a soaking wet, dark blue alicorn mare. Her eyes were extremely red and puffy, and her mane and tail were stuck against her body. The alicorn looked pathetic. She had already pushed away her sister, and lost her brother. Now, due to her foalish stupidity, all of the rest of her friends hated her. No one liked her. She looked up at the alcorn's crown. It was lopsided, and dripping wet. Luna gawked in disgust, and threw the alcorn's crown off of her head. The alicorn in the mirror began to cry again. Even though she appeared to be soaked, Luna could still see more tears rolling down over her face. She watched as the tears flowed further down her body. Eventually one of the tears fell upon a necklace.

The necklace was black, and had a crescent moon in the middle. Luna sighed again, and pulled the necklace off of the alicorn mare. Luna sighed, “You don’t need any of this. You don’t deserve it.”

Luna grew frustrated at looking at the horrible blue alicorn. She spun around on her fore legs, and bucked the mirror. The mirror shattered into tiny pieces, and fell to the ground. Luna turned and looked back to the mirror, satisfied by her work, before she collapsed to the floor, bawling her eyes out.

She cried for hours, or at least it felt like it. She had no idea how long she had been crying, but she saw no reason to stop. Luna had no friends left. She had practically no family left, and what was left, wanted her dead. She had no friends left, they all hated her, and probably never wanted to see her again. She finally made up her mind, that the least she could do, was make the rest of her pathetic waste of a life, worth while for Equestria.

Luna rose to a sitting position, and successfully wiped the tears from her eyes. She looked around her room, and found exactly what she was looking for. In the opposite corner of her room, by the window, was an old oak wardrobe. She quickly stood, and galloped over to it. She swung the doors open, and looked all around the inside. It was completely empty, but that did not worry her. She focused magic in her horn, and pulled the bottom up out of the wardrobe, to reveal the items beneath.

She smiled slightly as her eyes came upon a black hooded cloak. She lifted it up out of the bottom with her magic, and threw it over herself, it around her neck. She looked back inside, to find a leather belt, and two sheathed katanas. She pulled the belt out, and slipped it around her waist, followed by attaching the two katanas.

Luna pulled the hood up over her head, and walked over to the broken window. She looked back inside her room one last time, before unfolding her wings, and taking off into the sky, in the direction of Canterlot.

Author's Note

This was actually a pretty difficult chapter to write. I think I did a rather good job of portraying Luna's emotions. If your wondering why I didn't follow the fear emotion, it was because she was deathly afraid of Twilight.

Love to know what you think.

Thanks for reading!