It had just stopped rainning and I was outside my mom went to work and my little sister and brother were at my grandparents house so I had the house to myself. It was a beautiful afternoon the sun was just setting and I was laying on the cool,wet, and green grass in my hand a pencil tring to write a rough draft of my fanfic and in my other hand a notebook opened to a new blank clean paper. I had many ideas flowting in my head when I would start to write it down I would rip the paper out and say no that was a stupid idea, or oh no that one sucks to, and OH BUCKING CELESTIA NO CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT! At that moment I took the notebook and threw it across the lawn I tried to calm down before the neighbors saw me. So as I calmed down I remebered what I did to my family 9 years ago still lingering around haunting me but I couldnt tell anyone or they would hate me. I thought to myself saying "you need to tell someone before you hurt yourself shithead". I sit their thinking again who can I tell I dont want to be alone so I think a couple minutes and say I dont deserve to live no one deserves to live with me. So I go inside and grab a knife from the kitchen I was saying "im going to end my sowrrow and everyone elses by doing this" so I go back outside and look around to see if anyone is there. No one is so I think to myself whats the quickest way to end my life I think then I say well I could try and stalbe myself in the back of the neck and paralyze myself from the neck down and stop all functions completly and die of lack of oxygen. So I decide to do that I take the knife place it were it needs to be I go to push down onthe knife when all of a sudden I dont fell the knife in my grip. I turn around to see if I droped it but it wasnt behind me then I hear a voice I remember the voice from somewere but I couldnt figure out were, the voice asked "why would you do that to yourself". I look around but cant find the owner of the voice then it cries out and says "ANSWER ME DAMIT"! I realise the voice is comming from above I look just in time to see a purple blurr hit me. As I get up I look to see what my injuries were but they where only some scratches. I was more consierned with what hit me I look around and see the reason why I reconized the voice there was a lavender alicorn with a 6 pointed star for a cutie mark with 5 others surounding it and a dark purple mane with a royal purple and pink streak going through it. Thats when I realised I was looking at princess Twilight Sparkle.
Instinctively I bowed and said "hello princess" then asked "shouldnt you be in Equestria"? I didnt even have to look up to feel the stare she was giving me then she opened her mouth and said "WHY DID YOU HAVE THIS KNIFE UP AGAINST YOUR NECK"! Thats when I realised were the knife had gone and panicked I couldnt lie to her she would just use her magic and find out anyway so I told the Twilight "I was going to kill myself". After I said that I got a shot of pain go down my back as Twilight hit me in the back of the head "Ow" I whispered so she wouldnt notice she then landed and asked me to explain to her "why I would want to do that" "I cant tell you, you will hate me just as anyone eles would if they knew" she again stared daggers at me and said in a calm voice "you know who Iam but I dont know you so go ahead and introduce yourself"." My name is Kairn Im 15 years old and I like horror movies and playing baseball when I was 6 years old I did something awful and never let it go and Im afraid of how everyone I know and love would react" she started to ponder something she turned to me and I quickly l turned and stared at the ground she asked "what did you do" I turn my head because I couldnt even face her and said "you would hate me if I told you".She then got up and walked over to me and whispered into my ear "you never know until you tell someon I stare at her my eyes begin to tear up and I start to tell her.
9 years ago
I was in the car with my mother and her friend from work Stephen I somewhat liked Steve he was nice and cool about stuff not like my father who would flip about everything. So to be nice my mother drove him home when we got there he invited us in we accepted and went in Me and Steve started playing raw vs smackdown we played for about 15min and the my mother asked "Kairin who would you pefer to be your father Steve or your father know" I didnt like my dad at the time and me and Steve were having fun so I said "Steve".
Presant Time
I turn to Twilight and continued to say what happened "3 months later my father was kicked out I tore a part my family Twilight thats why I was going to kill myself because all my ideas are junk because I cant have god idea without screwing that up to". I start to cry and Twilight gives me a hug I smile and say thanks she then said "I want you to think that all of your ideas are good and that you can do, or be anything you want you just have to beleve in yourself and let go of the past". I look at her and nod "your right thanks Twilight" she smiled and waved then flew off. I went over grabed my notebook and started writing what just happened.