Fluttershy was confused at what she was looking at. There was always illusions going on in her mind. This one was playing tricks on her. Applejack stared softly at her. Those emerald eyes, the golden hair, and her orange body. Fluttershy didn't know what to do. The rush of fear and joy mixed into her thoughts and decisions. So many questions to ask, yet her tongue felt twisted. But how could she? She saw Applejack right in front of her. Only one thought popped into her mind. It's been weeks since it...

Her mind got cloudy
She felt as if her head was being banged on. The headache was confusing her mind and joggling her judgement. The sound of her heart slowly grew louder at every beat. All other sounds turned mute. She felt her heart beat furiously and painfully. Her vision darkened and her legs felt weak. At an instant, she felt the cold wooden floor. The last thing she saw was her friend warmly smile at her. Fluttershy's instinct told her, everything is going to be all right. Fluttershy felt comfortable and with that, she passed out.

Fluttershy could not see anything at all. Her sight was only black. She knew her eyes were open, but there was nothing to see.

Oh dear, she thought, where am I?

After turning every direction, she finally found a light ahead of her. Fluttershy then went towards the light at a steady pace.

Growing impatient, Fluttershy galloped towards the light. As she sped up, the light grew bigger. Her heart was racing. What was up ahead?

She reached what was the end of the darkness. She looked forward and saw a forest. It was quite familiar in fact. All the trees were aligned in rows. The leaves looked fresh and green. On the branches were small, red apples. Some ripe and ready and others barely blooming. On the bark of the trees were small crawling insects. They were going opposite directions, carrying about their own business. The ground was soft and muddy. Fluttershy smelled the air, sweet and cool. The sound of birds singing out their souls captivated her.

She started heading forward, until she saw a barn ahead. Chills flew down to her spine. Everything was completely intact and not burnt. The birds were flying by. Butterflies were here and there. The decorative pots in front of the barn had white flowers blooming with life. Then it made sense to Fluttershy. It was spring. This was years ago. She was in her own memory. "But why this day?" questioned Fluttershy to herself. She then turned behind to see that most of her surroundings weren't there. They weren't drawn in her mind, and all of that not drawn was blank white. In fact, the colors near the blank areas were faded.

Fluttershy heard soft steps behind her. In panic, she galloped towards the barn. She saw two ponies walking slowly out of the apple farm from behind her. Except, it was from a row left of her. With no time going forward without being detected, she quickly hid behind a tree. Peeking from the tree, she saw Applejack and herself. She couldn't believe what she was seeing. This Fluttershy looked younger here, and less gaudy. Her body was more thin and frail which was why she had a gangling, awkward walk.

Yet, what was interesting was that she looked happier here. Her eyes weren't filled with sorrow, but happiness. The younger Fluttershy had her face hidden mostly behind her mane. She still remember that same hairstyle. She has always kept like that since childhood.

Fluttershy then observed at Applejack. Not much was different, except she was a little smaller than her friend next to her. Her features consisted of freckles on her cheeks, a soft muzzle, soft pointy ears, a pale olive-grayish mane, or bright blonde, and light-green eyes that showed boldness and determination, but they also brought a warm welcoming invitation.

The young couple walked towards the barn. Fluttershy kept up with them, but at a slower and quieter pace. At the door, Applejack opened the door and let her friend go in first. Shyly, young Fluttershy thanked her friend. Applejack heard her faint obligation and nodded slowly. Applejack then went in and the door closed quietly.

It was Fluttershy's turn to go in, and she reached for the door. The door felt invisible to her and she fell from trying to open it. Quickly getting up, Fluttershy went closer and touched the door with a hoof. The hoof felt no contact with the door. She can walk anywhere, but she can't touch the door. Why?

The door then faded slowly away. Fluttershy gasped and turned around. Her whole memory started to disappear. The trees, the birds, the barn, and the ground. Everything faded around her, and all she saw was white. She fell down in all fours. Fear and sorrowfulness grew around her. It felt like an eternity.

She sobbed, until something was touching her front arm. It was warm and comforting. Opening her eyes, she saw a being that was unimaginable to anyone's eyes. The entity looked like a pony, but taller and thinner. Its fur was a pattern of stars that were infinite and mesmerizing. Its mane too was celestial and beautiful. Its eyes were black, but filled galaxies that were grand and astounding. Fluttershy hugged and held close to this entity without thinking. She felt safe around it.

"You are not ready too see that yet," said the entity. It's voice had a calm, but assuring tone. The voice had a peaceful, harmonious sound. Fluttershy nodded with her eyes closed, tears leaking out her. "Do not cry anymore," coaxed the being as it wiped the tears away from Fluttershy's damp cheeks.

Fluttershy obeyed and muttered, "Why am I here?"

"You are lost in your own memories," it responded, "You will be in this state until you're ready to go back into reality." Pausing for a moment, the celestial being let the words sink in to Fluttershy.

"For now, you'll go through a memories that have haunted you for years. You will accept them and you will grow."

Fluttershy now saw the white world turn slowly back into her own memory. Instead of staying at where she was, she felt a tug and was flung back into a new memory. The pull felt continuous as for everything around her started changing. Most of the trees shrunk back slowly into the ground. Night and day were going backwards.

Another pull was felt on her right side and she closed her eyes. She opened them and saw a forest in front of her. She heard a scream from the heavens above. This was one of the earliest memories she had. It was the day she landed on the earth.

Author's Note

UPDATE: Good news! I'm not dead, but was busy. It's hard enough to have a school life, but nonetheless, I will try to write as much as possible when I can! This time, it will be shorter and quicker. Sorry for the long wait.