My Rarity

"Spike, Rarity needs your help with something."

I sigh. "With what?"

"I don't know. Rarity just asked me to say she needed help."

"Hmmm. Alright. Let me take a shower, then I'll go. All right, Twilight?" I nodded while heading upstairs to take a shower.

"Ok, don't take too long! If you fall asleep in the shower, I'm not getting you out!" Twilight yelled.

I rolled my eyes. I'm not even sleepy.

Rub.

Ok, maybe a little bit. But, I gotta stay awake for Rarity. She'll probably have me lift some heavy stuff. Again. But, no matter. I would do anything for her, she's a friend.

At least that's what I think is what's going on. I'd like to think of her as a special somepony, but, it's complicated. I still remember, when I was greedy, and I grabbed her, and started carrying her around Ponyville. When I shrank to my size, she looked amazed. I couldn't tell if she was angry or disappointed. But, after that, she still loved me for who I was, and I was thankful for that. I still wish I could have saved her when the Diamond Dogs captured her.

As I open the shower door, I felt the hot water pour down on my scale-ish body. It felt good. But, it also gave me time to think.

Am I capable for Rarity? Do I look good? Am I not her type? I sigh. I don't even know if she even love loves me...

I grab the soap, and start rubbing it on my scales. It smelled good. Like cologne.

I get out of the shower, and start to get ready.

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"See ya, Spike!" Twilight waved.

"Bye!" I smiled as I waved back, walking to Rarity's shop.

Ding! Dong!

Rarity opened the door.

"Ah, Spike! You look cute as always."

I blushed a bit, but it was noticeable. "I know. What did you need help with, Rarity?"

"Oh, nothing really, just wanted to spend a little quality time with you, that's all." she replied.

"Ok. Are we planning to go somewhere? Like, when you mean by 'spending quality time' you mean, by collecting jewels and stuff?" I licked my lips.

"No, silly. No work for today. We're just going to have some tea, and relax." Rarity smiled with pure kindness.

"Oh... Alright." I smirked a bit while making my way inside the shop.

I launch myself on the sofa and relax. Rarity sits next to me.

"Feeling comfortable, Spikey-Wikey?" Rarity asks.

"Yeah." I smile.

"Okay, just wanting to make you comfortable. Don't want my 'knight in shining armor' to leave me."

Knight in shining armor...

The words echoed in my head. Am I really her knight?

Rarity starts to cuddle up to me. I put my arm around her, and blush a bit more after feeling her warmth. I too, am starting to feel a bit hot. Rarity sits up, and notices my unusual warmth. She looks at me with concern.

"Are you alright, Spike?" she asks.

I snap out of it. I look at her immediately. "Y-yeah, I'm fine. Are you?" I question back,

"Yes, but, you're burning... Are you sure you're alright?" Rarity feels my cheek.

I knew I was blushing really hard. But, her touching my cheek was even worse. I felt my heart skip a beat, though, and it started beating like a bullet. I turned my head away, and stared at the ground with a embarrassed face.

"Hey, look at me, Spike..." She turns my head to her face. I look at her.

Even though I was red, Rarity was beautiful. Her purple hair groomed and fancy as ever, her sky blue eyes... Dear Celestia, she looked amazing...

No. I don't think I'm ready yet.

Be true to your heart, Spike.

But, what if I'm not ready? What if I'm not worthy for her? Why don't you tell me that?!

...Love always comes. It will not come sooner than expected, but it will come. It always will.

I look outside of the window. It's sunset. I need to get back home.

I dragoned up, and stared at her with a firm look. "I... need to go home."

"Are you sure? You could stay the night if you wan-"

I cut her off and dashed straight home. I opened the door, and ran upstairs. I heard Twilight say "Hey.", but I didn't stop to answer her question. I just went to my room, locked the door, and laid on my bed. I thought about Rarity. I thought about her soft touch, and her beauty. I yelled out,

[b"]Why can't I handle it!?"

I heard Twilight trying to open the door. The handle was shaking. She started to get worried.

"Spike!? Are you okay!?"

I didn't answer back. I just... I just didn't know what to do. All I thought about was Rarity.

I didn't know a single thing about mares giving hints... I don't really know anything about love... I don't know how to kiss... I don't even know how to-

"Who?" Owlowiscious hooted.

"It's Rarity..."

"Who." Owlowiscious hooted once again.

"I don't care. She probably doesn't even like me."

"Whoo." Owlowiscious hooted again.

"I don't want to... I screwed it up, bro... I'm done."

Owlowiscious didn't reply back. I was so tired... I was so done with this. I just wanted to crawl up into a circle and die... I wanted to be in a relationship with Rarity, but I couldn't even spend quality time with her!? I couldn't even handle it!? Why!?

I started crying. I felt the tears roll down. I kept asking myself, "Why?", and "Why couldn't you handle it?".

I started to cry myself to sleep. I was so confused... And I don't even know what to do...

I couldn't stop sobbing. It was the only thing that made me feel better, because I just didn't want Twilight's comfort. I could handle it myself.

After an hour or so, I fell asleep. I finally blacked out...

I felt peaceful.