Being Part of the Crowd

by Thunderstorm823

Rating: everyone
Tags: Romance, Original Character, Dinky Hooves, Random, Derpy Hooves, Tragedy, Slice of Life, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Sad
Length: 4254

I met Derpy when I heard things in my attic, I didn't mind and began to notice who she really was. I then started to hear the rumors about her, it hurt pretending I didn't know her, but then again I guess she was used to it.

Meeting somepony for the first time can mean many things, it could lead to hating the person or ending up being the love of your life. Sometimes they become one of your best friends, then there are rare times where you pretend you never met the pony in the first place. That's where this story begins, I met a mare who was really amazing and I knew we were going to be the best of friends. Then I did something I regret every single day, it tore me up inside. But then again, she was used to it.

Inspired by Tell Me by BlackGryph0n and Baasik

Art by lexx2dot0

Published 2014-07-30 22:30:04 UTC
Last updated 2014-07-30 22:30:04 UTC

Being Part of the Crowd

I spend most of my year in my house from when I moved to Ponyville, I never had the courage to go out and socialize, it scared me to death to do it. Things would run through my head like 'What if they don't like me?' 'What do I say?' or 'I can't do this.'

I wanted to see what it would be like to socialize, but where do I start, how do I do it? It's more hard for me since I was also shy, but there is going to be a time where I have to make friends. And I was afraid of it...

I sat down, using my magic to write down on paper. I loved writing, it was my favorite thing to do, but I never showed any of my stories to anyone. I didn't think anyone would care or even look at it, but I would read it to myself sometimes and feel proud of myself, sometimes ashamed that I can't show it to anyone.

*CRASH*

I jumped from my seat, dropping my quill. "What the?" I asked myself, I looked up at the ceiling. I then got out of my seat and began walking upstairs to find out what it was, I started hearing groaning coming from the attic. I opened the latch and set down the step ladder and climbed up to the attic.

I realized part of my roof was destroyed, letting in some of the moons light that shined on a pony who was lying down on the floor. My eyes widened and trotted over to the pony, looking over her. "Are you okay?" I asked.

The mare sat up, pulling some of her hair out of her face, she looked up and realized what happened. "Oh... I'm sorry, I crashed into a house... again..." She then groaned and rubbed her head.

I looked at her head, worried for her. "What happened?" I asked her.

She sighed. "Don't worry, I'm okay, this happens a lot."

I raised in eyebrow. "This does?" I asked a little confused.

"Yeah... I'll fix your roof." She said, starting to sit up, but she groaned in pain falling back down.

"Don't strain yourself." I told her, luckily I read a medical book not to long ago so I know how to help her. "Here..." I focused on her wound and I felt my horn begin to glow as a blue aura wrapped around her head, healing some of the pain. "Let's get you somewhere comfortable." I said, using my magic to lift her onto my back.

I went back downstairs to my bedroom and laid her down on the bed, I began to check her over again and saw that she was asleep. I checked her breathing and sighed in relief, I smiled at her. "You look like you need the rest." I mumbled, using my magic to put the covers over her.

I pushed some of her hair out of her face and smiled, she looked cute when she was sleeping. I blushed softly with a soft smile, I went over to the other side of the bed and laid down next to her, I looked at the back of her head and closed my eyes, joining her in sleep.

In the morning, I decided to make the mare some breakfast. I didn't know what to give her, so I just went with something plain and simple; a muffin.

I heard hoofsteps and looked over at the stairs to see the mare rubbing her eyes.

"Morning." I greeted. "I didn't know what to make you for breakfast so I just got you a muffin." I informed.

I jumped when I heard her gasp and gallop over, she looked at the muffin on the table and sniffed it. "Blueberry~"

That's when I realized she craved muffins. "Muffin lover, huh?" I asked with a soft chuckle.

She giggled. "You have no idea..."

I smiled at her, it seemed like the right time to introduce myself. "My name is Mythic Novel, what's yours?" I asked.

"Ditzy Doo." She said, continuing to stare at the muffin. "Thanks for the muffin Myth."

'Myth?' I asked myself, I then smiled liking the nickname. "It's very nice to meet you Dit..." I turned and saw that the muffin had disappeared.

She hummed, rubbing her belly. "That was delicious." She said, her eyes drifted. "Ooh! What's that?!" She dashed towards my desk and looked over at the papers.

I trotted over, I watched as she read part of a story I was writing and I scratched the back of my head with a slight blush.

She set them down and bounced. "That's really good, who wrote these?" She asked.

My blush deepened. "I did." I said a bit embarrassed.

"You're good at it," She complemented, her eyes drifted elsewhere. "Ooh, what's this?" She asked, dashing towards the painting on my wall.

"Ah, my mother made that." I said. "It's the last thing I have from her..." I closed my eyes, remembering my mothers passing and I sighed.

Ditzy took a step back from it. "Sorry... I won't touch it."

I looked at her. "What's that supposed to mean?" I asked.

Ditzy shook her head. "It's nothing, I destroy everything I touch..." She said.

I nodded, patting her on the back. "It's alright, it happens to the best of us."

Ditzy pushed me away and shook her head. "No, you don't understand. I crash into everything, I drop things, I even hurt ponies... And that's why everypony doesn't like me." She said, looking down with her hair covering her face.

I lifted my hoof to her chin and lifted it up to look her in the eyes, then seeing her eyes separate, making her more cute. "I like you." I admitted. "You seem like an awesome mare."

Ditzy smiled, she then jumped on me, giving me a big hug. "Thank you..." She whispered. I smiled returning the hug, I felt her nuzzle my cheek.

She let out a soft sigh, she then stumbled slightly and I held her up. "Come on, you just woke up from an injury." I helped her over to the couch and she sat down.

I smiled at her, sitting on the spot next to her. "How about we talk about ourselves to pass the time?" I asked.

"Alright." Ditzy shrugged, resting her head against the couch.

"So... Do you live here in Ponyville?" I asked.

Ditzy nodded. "Yes I do and I love spending every moment with my little muffin..." She smiled brightly.

I looked at her. "Little muffin?" I asked out of curiosity.

Ditzy nodded. "My daughter."

'Daughter...' I thought, it seemed like a painful memory that I didn't want to go down, so I went subtle. "What's her name?" I asked.

"Dinky." She answered, her smile widening. "Dinky Doo."

"I bet she's adorable."

"She is..." Ditzy stared at the ground with a smile. "She really is..." She then wrapped her arms around me. "You're nicer than the others..."

Hearing her say that made my heart burn, but in a good way. I didn't know what she meant at the time but I knew something was wrong about it, what did she mean by others? I guess I'll find out soon enough...

I felt her start to pull away and look up at me, her smile then drifted as she leaned closer with her lips start to perk. that's when I felt her lips touch mine, giving me quite the shock, my blush brightened and my eyes stayed open while hers closed. I felt her hoof push softly down onto the couch and continued to kiss my confused lips.

I didn't know what to do, I never kissed a mare before. I just laid there while I felt the warm feeling in my stomach and my heart pumping out of my chest.

Ditzy pulled away and opened her eyes, as she realized what she did, she gasped and bounced off me. "I-I... I didn't mean to... I'm..." She stuttered, her eyes slammed shut and she galloped out the house door, leaving me laying on the couch.

I panted, touching my lips softly. "Ditzy...?" I got up and went out the door, looking around, I then looked up to see her flying away. "Ditzy." I sighed.

I sighed, shaking my head. "What was that...?" I asked myself. "Why did she kiss me?"

I shook my head again and sat down on my couch. I then felt the courage and realization that I actually talked to her without hesitation, I could do it without realizing it. But I still felt a pain in my chest, my first kiss and she thought she ruined it, but to be honest I liked it.

She gave me the inspiration to get up off the couch and leave my house in a while, I closed the door behind me and made sure it was locked. I took a deep breath, if I kept this up I probably run into Ditzy again. I hope...

Where to start? I continued down a market and sighed, looking for an opportunity.

*GASP*

I jumped, looking in front of me to see a pink pony galloping in the opposite direction from me. I shook my head, continued down the market.

I then found a group that was laughing, sitting at a bar where they were drinking Apple Cider. I took a deep breath and walked over, sitting at the bar close to them. "Hi." I said plainly.

The group looked over at me, I gulped feeling a bit afraid. "You look new here." One of them said.

I shrugged slightly. "I've actually lived here for about a year..." I mumbled.

"What?" The big one asked.

"Nothing, yes, I'm new here. I'm actually from Vanhoover."

"Ah, that's quite the place. Well, welcome to Ponyville, you must of met Pinkie Pie."

I looked over at him, remembering the pink pony that was galloping away from him. "In a way." I said.

The big one laughed. "Well, I'm Rough Charger." He turned and pointed at a dark blue earth pony who nodded his head at me. "That's Windy Mist..." Rough then pointed at the unicorn behind him. "and Magical Soul."

I nodded. 'See... it's not that hard.' I thought to myself. "I'm Mythic Novel." I introduced myself.

Rough sighed, looking off to the distance and groaned. "Oh, it's Derpy Hooves."

I turned to see what they were looking at, only seeing Ditzy Doo. "Oh hey, there's Ditzy." I smiled.

I realized the sad look on her face when walking through the market, I looked around seeing all the dirty looks ponies were giving her. I turned back to the group who were staring at me. "You know her?" Magical asked.

I turned back to see Ditzy looking at me, she gave a smile and waved. I turned back to the group who were now giving me a dirty look, I could hear my breathing as I looked back Ditzy who stopped waving and her smile fading. Then I did something stupid.

I shook my head, putting on a smirk as I looked back to the group. "Know her? I don't know her, I've never seen her before in my life, besides, she seems like a freak." As the words came out, I looked back to Ditzy.

I saw the tears start to stream down her face, that's when I knew that she heard what I said. It broke my heart to see her let out a soft cry and gallop away, I then felt an arm around me and got pulled into a hug from Rough. "You're going to fit right in kid." He laughed.

I sat there, staring at the ground after what I just did but I didn't stop there, I shook my head returning to normal as I turned back to the bar. "Get me some cider please." I ordered.

As night began to fall, I entered my house and sighed, closing my door. I closed my eyes as the voices in my head started arguing with each other. 'How could you do that to her?!' 'It was the only way to gain friends.' 'After she kissed you, you repay her by being a complete jerk?!' 'You selfish pony!' I then shut off all thoughts as I collapsed onto my bed, gripping onto the pillow as I began to cry into it. "I'm an idiot..." I muttered.

It's been a few days since that incident and I sat in a restaurant, looking at a menu, deciding on what to order. Pinkie threw a party for me and I gained more friends since then, but I wanted to at least do something by myself since I was more used to being that way then with friends.

I sighed, still feeling worse and worse, I looked up and there she was, sitting at a table across the room, looking at a muffin, staring at it like she did back at his house. I chuckled softly, then the voices came back to argue. 'Go apologize right now!' but I stopped it, it's too late. She probably hates me now, I don't think she'll accept the apology.

Ditzy began to turn my way and I panicked, I quickly lifted my menu and hid myself behind it. I closed my eyes, feeling worse than before. 'Now you're hiding from her!?' A voice shouted in my head.

I glanced behind the menu and saw that she was not there, I then looked around the restaurant and she was no where to be seen. I sighed in relief, I closed my eyes and used my magic to put down the menu. When I opened my eyes I gasped to see her sitting across from me, looking at me with her eyes straight at me, her face was emotionless as she continued to stare at me.

The suspense was hurting me, what was she going to do? "Ditzy..." I stopped when she put a hoof up at me.

"Don't..." She said with pain in her voice. "So, I seem like a freak huh?" She asked.

I closed my eyes, holding back the tears. "I-I..."

"What happened to 'You seem like an awesome mare'?" She asked.

"I'm sorry..." I took a deep breath as she continued.

"Sorry?" She asked. "I get that a lot but ponies don't mean it, on the inside they never liked me. Like you." She said.

I didn't say anything, I had no excuse, but I tried to defend myself. "But I do li-"

"You don't have to pretend, I've heard the rumors. My nickname 'Derpy', how I'm a freak. I just want to let you know... I'm used to it, goodbye Myth." Ditzy got off the chair and went back to her table.

I closed my eyes, laying my head down on the table, hating myself more and more.

I had to make things right, I did something unacceptable and I made somepony feel worse than before. She was an amazing mare but the peer pressure got to me, I did something just so I could make friends. I could only think of how my mother would not be proud about what I had done, I did something selfish and hurt somepony in the process. I just didn't know how to do it, I tried apologizing but she just thought I was lying. I wouldn't blame her, in the beginning we really hit it off and she did seem like an awesome mare and I just ruined the chance of hanging out with her. Then I finally gave up on the whole pretending not to know her, listening to the guys talk behind her back.

As night fell I decided to hang out with the group to try to make myself feel better but it didn't work, all I could do was listen to the group make jokes and I pretended they were funny. But it didn't help the feelings that I was feeling, but I put on a smile and pretended, I never liked the pretending. It just reminded me of what I had done and I just hated myself more and more, as thunder hit the ground it began to rain, I turned to it and there she was... right in the middle of it, staring at the ground as I saw both rain and tears leave her face.

"Look, it's Derpy trying to get attention, she's such a drama queen." Rough chuckled.

Mist laughed. "I bet her daughter doesn't even like her."

That was when I snapped. "That's it, I'm done." I said angrily, slamming the cup on the bar and standing up.

"What?" Rough asked.

"You have no idea what she's like!" I shouted. "Have you ever talked to her or do you only criticize her cause of all the mistakes she makes?!" I asked. "Her name isn't Derpy, it's Ditzy, she doesn't appreciate that nickname that some of you 'supposedly' gave her, thinking it was her literal name."

They looked at me shocked, I was even shocked on the inside. When they didn't respond I continued. "I lied, okay? I do know her and she's one of the most caring mares I've met here, and here I am listening about what you say behind her back? And don't you dare talk about her daughter that way, she loves her with all her heart and just saying something like that is not cool. You're nothing but selfish jerks."

Rough looked at me angrily. "And what are you going to do about it?" He asked.

I raised my eyebrows for a second and grabbed my saddlebags. "This." I then turned pulling out my umbrella and trotted over to Ditzy.

I used my magic to open the umbrella and held it over Ditzy, letting the rain hit me instead of her.

Ditzy opened her eyes and I saw the redness in them as she turned to me, she looked at me with both awe and confusion as the rain soaked my coat.

"Come on... let's get you back home." I whispered.

Ditzy smiled softly as her hooves wrapped around me.

I hugged her back and let out a sigh. "Ditzy... I'm so so sorry... I have no excuse for why I did that to you, it's never going to happen again..." I said.

"I knew it... I just knew it..." She cried slightly as I felt her tears collide with the rain water on my fur.

"Let's go Ditzy, I don't want you in the rain any longer than you need to."

She gave a nod and she stood up, starting to walk in the direction of where I assumed her house was. She then stopped and chuckled. "Oops, wrong way." She said turning around and walking in the right direction this time.

I kept the umbrella above her so the rain wouldn't hit her, I then looked off towards the group that looked at me with sadness. I just knew that they felt bad about it, I turned away from them and walked with Ditzy.

Ditzy then wrapped her wing around me, leaning against me as she led me towards a house that sat close to a hill. I saw something in the window, I knew I had seen a horn. "Is Dinky a unicorn?" I asked.

Ditzy nodded, entering her keys into the lock and opening her door.

"Mommy!" A voice cheered, a excited filly clung onto Ditzy.

"Muffin!" Ditzy cheered back, returning the hug.

I then witnessed her horn glow and she teleported onto my neck with her eyes staring right into mine. "Hi there..." I said with a nervous chuckle.

She squinted as if she was angry, but then she jumped with a smile returning to her face. "Hi!" She cheered as she landed on the ground, her mouth then made an O shape and her eyes widened. "Bathroom." She then dashed upstairs with no hesitation.

I began to chuckle. "She's got your excitement." I said.

Ditzy smiled turning back to me. "She's so sweet." Her smile then faded as she looked at me. "Why'd you say that about me...?" She asked.

My smile faded with hers as she asked that, I took a deep breath and looked down. "I don't know, peer pressure...? I then realized what I was part of and I decided not to be in it anymore, I hurt you and I have no excuse on why I did it..."

Ditzy nodded. "I see..."

"I can guess that it has happened before... Since you said you were used to it."

"A lot of times, only this is one I actually felt hurt about."

"You don't have to forgive me for what I did, I wouldn't blame you. I did something so stupid and you had to pay the price when it should've been me, I'm sorry I did that to you and I'm sorry for lying like that."

I closed my eyes, feeling ashamed of myself, until I felt her hooves wrap around me. "I forgive you..." She whispered.

I smiled from the acceptance, but then it left me with one question. "How do you do it?" I asked.

"Hmm?"

"How do you deal with ponies silently judging you or picking on you?"

Ditzy pulled away from the hug and sighed. "I don't... I let it go, I never cared until they started talking about my little muffin and I get a little angry, but I calm myself down and realize that what they say isn't true."

"I never believed the rumors..." I whispered, I looked up into her eyes and smiled. "I like you, you've got a lot of love inside you and you don't let anypony take that down, but then there are times where you need somepony to comfort you."

Ditzy leaned closer to me. "Like you..." She whispered, pressing her lips against mine.

This time it wasn't a surprise, I saw it coming and I gladly kissed her back.

But the kiss broke when we heard a gasp coming from the stairs, as we looked I saw a surprised yet happy Dinky on the bottom of it. "Oh my gosh!" She screamed excitedly, running over. "Mommy has a new friend!" She bounced up and down.

We looked at each other and both saw the redness on our faces, I decided to play along. "Yes... she does." I smiled.

Ditzy smiled. "Mommy does... and she likes her new friend."

Dinky giggled. "Ooh, this is so exciting, we finally have an extra person to play board games or sit at the fireplace or... or... um... what I said before! Let's play a game, I'llberightback!" She said quickly before dashing back upstairs.

I then decided to ask her a big question. "This might be a personal question but..."

Ditzy turned to me to listen to what I had to ask. "...Where's the father?" I asked.

She opened her mouth to speak but she stopped, taking a deep breath. "Well..." She sighed. "He said he was going away on a business trip, after he left I never saw him again." She said. "A friend of mine; Carrot Top, told me he started a new life in Canterlot." She looked down sadly. "I guess he never wanted to spend time with me anymore."

I then smirked. "Well that pony is missing out on somepony special." I said, nuzzling her cheek.

Ditzy smiled. "Thank you." She whispered.

I heard Dinky dashing down and she stood there with five boardgames balancing on her back. "I got Life, Clue, Battleship, Monopoly, and Candy Land!" She cheered. "Which game should we play first?" She asked.

Ditzy and I looked at each other as we both decided what to play. "Candy Land!" We both said.

That day had to be one of the funniest in my life, ever since then ponies come to accept who Ditzy really was. Somehow both Dinky and Ditzy convinced me to publish my books, ponies from around the world loved them and I felt like I finally accomplished something in my life and I finally had the chance to settle down. I then decided to make a story on how I met my wife... and you just read it.

The moral of the story is never neglect somepony you think is amazing when you first met them. I never realized it since I felt like Being Part of the Crowd was better but it wasn't and I didn't like it, so when you first meet somepony and you start hearing rumors about them, don't believe a word they say until it comes out of the original pony's mouth.

It's been a few years since that day and I couldn't be happier, helping Ditzy raise her daughter Dinky and watching her grow into what she wanted to be: Her mother.

I never saw Ditzy frown since then, making my life all the more better.

The End

Author's Note

A short and loving story that I enjoyed writing, in this story kind of relates little to my life, I won't go into it since it's sort of a mouth full.

Thank you so much to BlackGryph0n and Baasik music for the inspiration to make this story, their music is amazing!

Also I want to give thanks to you guys for reading and loving my stories, if it weren't for some of you I would've quit writing a long time ago.