Dullness isn't even enough to describe how my life is like. When life is good it always seems to go downfall. But then it comes back up. But mine still has to come back up. I've talked to others and they said it comes up after a year or so. But it's been 5 years. 5 years since everything went downfall and never came back up. Before than life was fine. But now, there's something wrong with it. And i don't know what that is.
5 years ago, i had to leave my life behind to move to Germaney for a job. It was a job that i could really do, but to do that, i had to leave my friends behind. I had to leave everyone at Ponyville behind, and i had to leave Bon Bon behind. It was the biggest mistake of my life. Bon Bon was the only one who knew of my love for humans, mythical creatures that i know are real. I even started watching a show called humanities to take trouble off my life. But even though being a humare brightened up my life significantly, it still wasn't enough.
Everyday i would walk to work. Walking when i have the time to talk to life. And sure it does make me feel better. But what i'm looking for isn't here yet. I'd walk into town as i didn't live that far off and i'd be greeted with familiar faces each saying the same "Hi Lyra," and "How's it going?" But very few actually knew of my life. They just knew of me as a pony. A pony that is living a life. And living a life is what i'm trying to do. The only refuge i have from life is humanities and walking. I always loved each character from the show but i always liked Ashley the most. It's the fact that Ashley has no certain factors to her. She's all around. But most importantly, she's just trying to live a a life. Maybe it's the fact that i'm a humare that's keeping me alive. Maybe that's what's going on.
