Sweet Like Cotton Candy

by ausimex

Rating: teen
Tags: Romance, Fluttershy, Pinkie Pie, Sex, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Rainbow Dash
Length: 2859

When Pinkie discovers her feelings for Fluttershy, Rainbow Dash realizes he'll probably never have a chance with her. Or so he thought.

Pinkie Pie and Rainbow Dash are best friends. Pinkie even helps Rainbow with his gender identity. But Rainbow always saw Pinkie as a romantic interest. But Pinkie soon finds herself liking Fluttershy, who doesn't return her feelings. Confused, she only seems to make things worse when she leads Rainbow Dash on.

Published 2014-08-15 20:50:02 UTC
Last updated 2014-08-16 22:43:34 UTC

Chapter 1

Rainbow Dash always had a soft spot for a cute crazy haired girl named Pinkie Pie. He would hang out with her often, but he never really felt anything for her before she started having feelings for Fluttershy. That day, when Pinkie Pie confessed her feelings, Rainbow felt his heart tear slightly for the first time.

“Rainbow, I have something to confess…” she said. “I think I may have a crush on Flutters.”

Looking into her deep blue eyes, he didn’t know how to feel. He always knew Pinkie wasn’t as straight as she said she was, but he was secretly hoping that when she realized, she would see that in him. He hadn’t told her about his gender yet, so she still saw him as a woman. He didn’t even know what he was, but he sure as hell wasn’t a girl. But it didn’t matter if he told her or not anymore- it wouldn’t change that she didn’t like him.

“I mean, they’re just so cute! I don’t know how to explain it… just seeing them makes my heart leap into my throat. I’ve never had this feeling before.”

Rainbow smiled. “Thats good! So you think you might be pansexual?”

Pinkie smiled. “I guess I am.”

“Listen, Pinkie, I wanted to tell you something, too. Well, more of ask you something.”

Pinkie cocked her head to the side with a questioning look. “Yeah?”

“I wanted to ask if you… could call me a ‘he’,” Rainbow said. “I mean, like, I always felt kind of awkward hearing ‘she’.”

“Oh! So, you think you may be trans?”

“Not exactly… I feel like a boy, yes, but I also feel like something else. I don’t exactly know what it is. But I just wanted to tell you-”

“Demiboy!” Pinkie exclaimed, pointing her finger up and raising her eyebrows.

“Huh?”

“I’ve heard of what you’re going through!” Pinkie smiled, continuing, “I was reading up on gender when Fluttershy came out as agender, and I found an identity called demiboy/demigirl. Basically, you’re partly a boy or girl, but you’re also something else.”

Rainbow Dash smiled. He liked the sound of that- demiboy. “Thanks, Pinkie! You’re great.”

“Well, it’s my job to make my friends happy!”

Upon hearing “friends”, Rainbow’s heightened mood dropped again. Sometimes he liked to imagine him and Pinkie as something more, but whenever she described them as “friends” he was yanked back into a reality where he didn’t have what he always felt he wanted since the day he met her. She looked beautiful- her hair was curled perfectly, bouncy and a vibrant pink. Her smile told him she was confident, happy. He knew he had to talk to her.

He did. She was excited to see a new girl in town, and she freaked out when she saw him.

“Oh, I have to throw you a welcome party!” she had said. Rainbow didn’t exactly know if he wanted one, but he got one. She dragged him to Sugarcube Corner, grabbing his hand and declaring that he had to come with her. Her hand felt soft in his. He could feel every groove in her skin, the warmth of her body, just by holding her hand. It lit a fire in his heart. A fire he didn’t even know existed until Pinkie snuffed it out by saying she was interested in someone else.

When he went home the night after Pinkie confessed, he dug out a piece of underwear he bought a few months ago but never used. Before he put it on, he made his way to the bathroom and cut his hair to the top of his ear, a little piece in the front long enough to rest on his cheek bone. He went back into his room, took off his bra and put on the binder.

Looking at himself in the mirror, he finally felt like himself.

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Rainbow Dash took a sip of his coffee and nodded as Pinkie talked about her feelings for Fluttershy. As they sat at a table in Sugarcube Corner, she rambled on about cute moments that Rainbow could tell were imagined. But he didn’t say anything.

“I… I don’t know how describe how they make me feel.” Pinkie said. She paused and locked eyes with Rainbow. “I think I love them.”

Rainbow wanted to scream. His chest tightened and he couldn’t breath. For a moment, he wished he could just disappear from existence.

“Rainbow, is that you?” Fluttershy approached, wearing a cute lime green dress. “I couldn’t recognize you with your haircut! It looks great.”

They smiled lightly. Rainbow heard a tiny squeak from Pinkie.

“Thanks, Flutters. You look quite good yourself.”

“Well, anyway, I’m actually here to talk to Pinkie. I was wondering if you could help throw a party for Angel’s birthday.”

“I, uh… y-yeah, sure!” Pinkie smiled forcefully, looking very nervous. Fluttershy didn’t seem to notice. They just smiled, said thank you, and left the shop.

“Oh my CELESTIA, I can’t believe this is happening!” Pinkie looked like she was about to blast off into the cosmos. Rainbow Dash couldn’t help but smile because she looked so adorable. “Do you think I should say something to them while we plan? Like, maybe ask them out on a date?”

“Uhh… sure.” Rainbow wanted to say no, but he couldn’t give a reasonable excuse as to why not.

As much as he liked Pinkie, he felt he couldn’t keep her from this.

Rainbow hurried to the door when he heard a knock. He wondered who could possibly be at the door at 10pm. When he opened the door, he saw Pinkie Pie standing there, wearing a cute fluffy pink dress. She wore bright pink lipstick to match, but her eyes and cheeks were stained with smudged mascara and tears.

“They don’t l-like m-m-me,” she stuttered, trying to withhold her sobs.

Bringing her inside, Rainbow let her sit at his dining room table with a box of tissues as he made her her favorite drink- a margarita. He put down the drink in front of her and sat across from her with a bottle of beer.

“So… are you okay?” It was a dumb question, but he didn’t know what to say.

“I don’t know,” Pinkie said, taking a sip of her drink. “I told them… I said ‘I really like you’ and they… they looked at me and said they liked Twilight. I wanted to tell them that Twilight is straight as a flagpole but… I couldn’t. I looked in their eyes and I just… I didn’t want to ruin it for them.”

Rainbow Dash nodded. “Well, um… I’m sure it’ll… I’m sure it’ll be okay.”

Pinkie smiled solemnly, another tear running down her cheek, stopping above her top lip. Rainbow leaned forward and wiped it away with his thumb, smudging her lipstick across the skin above her lip.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to smudge that.”

Pinkie giggled. “It’s fine, I already look like shit anyway.”

They both laughed, and looked at each other. Rainbow didn’t know what Pinkie was feeling, but he could see the gears turning in her pupils. The look in her eyes- it was tender, almost romantic.

“Rainbow… I think I…” Pinkie paused, looking down and Rainbow’s hands, which were wrapped around his beer bottle. “I think I may… have someone else in mind…”

Rainbow cocked his head in confusion. Pinkie got up and walked over to Rainbow, but paused in front of him. He couldn’t read her face, but he could feel his heartbeat quicken when she grabbed his hand. She looked him in the eyes and asked him to dance.

“W-what?” Rainbow said.

Pinkie, still holding his hand, lifted him from his chair and brought him into his living room, where she started a slow song on the stereo. Rainbow noticed how he could still feel every groove in her skin, still feel the warmth of her body in the palm of her hands.

She turned around and directed his hands to her hips, wrapping her arms around his neck. He stared at her lips, so soft and puffy like cotton candy. He wondered how they would feel on his lips. He imagined they would feel like how cotton candy dissolves in your mouth, imagined that they would taste like fresh water.

He didn’t realize that he wasn’t imagining this until she pulled back. She had a faint smile on her face, her eyes filled with life.

He didn’t want to ruin the moment, but he could help but ask, “What about Fluttershy?”

Her smile faded, and instead of answering, she just leaned forward and kissed him again. He ran his hands through her hair as they fell back onto the couch. Running her hands down his chest, she whispered against his lips, “That binder seems to be working pretty well.” He chuckled and placed his hands back on her hips, pulling her closer.

She pulled back, saying, “I want you so bad.”

Chapter 2

The next morning, Rainbow Dash awoke to knock on the door. He looked to his side to see Pinkie laying next to him it her underwear, sleeping peacefully. Another knock echoed through the house, and Rainbow shot up to answer the door.

“Hi, Rainbow Dash!” Scootaloo waved with a big smile on her face.

Rainbow Dash felt dread fall in the pit of his stomach when he realized that today was the day he was supposed to help Scootaloo train for her school track competition. So, here he stood in his underwear with a 14 year old girl at the door and a half-naked 22 year old in his bed.

“Rainbow Dash?” Pinkie walked into the hall, still in her underwear. Her eyes widened when she saw Scootaloo standing in the doorway and Rainbow Dash shaking his head frantically.

“Oh. Is this um… is this a bad time…?” Scootaloo asked awkwardly. A small smirk was forming at the corner of her mouth, and she looked at Rainbow with a look like she was saying “nice catch.”

“Okay, could you wait out here for a sec, Scoots? Pinkie and I need to get dressed.”

“Heh, okay then.” Scootaloo giggled to herself as Rainbow closed the door. He turned to see Pinkie standing there, staring at the ground.

“Uh, so I have to help Scoots train today…” Rainbow said. “So can you, like, get dressed and go? Sorry.”

“Uh, sure.”

A few minutes later, Pinkie was back in her dress and was ready to go. She leaned over and kissed Rainbow one more time and made her way out, waving to Scootaloo as she walked off.

“So, I see you got some action with Pinkie,” Scootaloo said, giggling like a 7 year old daringly saying “sex” for the first time.

“We’re not talking about that right now. You, young lady, need to practice, so lets head to the field.”

Rainbow tried to focus on helping Scootaloo, but the entire time he couldn’t stop thinking about the previous night. He enjoyed it and he was excited, but yet somehow it still gave him an odd feeling. It felt wrong, ungenuine. What had it meant? Why had Pinkie suddenly gone from being head over heels for Fluttershy to fooling around with Rainbow Dash in his apartment?

That night, he heard yet another knock. When he opened the door, Pinkie stood there, just as he suspected. She had short denim shorts and a light blue crop top that was cut right at her ribs. She smiled at him.

“Oh, hi. Um, come in.” He brought her into the living room and almost immediately, she kissed him. She pushed him back onto the couch again, pulling back only to take her top off. She she reached to unbutton his pants, but he pushed her away.

“Pinkie, I… why are you doing this?” Rainbow asked.

"I like you, Rainbow.”

“Well, it doesn’t feel like it,” Rainbow snapped. This had been bothering him all day, and he wasn’t going to take something that simple for an answer. “I want the truth.”

She pursed her lips. "I don't know. I want to feel something."

Rainbow Dash closed his eyes. He expected she'd say something like that. "If you don't actually like me, I don't think you should be doing this."

Pinkie looked down and his chest, eyes glossy with with tears. "Fluttershy came to me today. They said that maybe they should've taken up my offer."

"Why didn't you say yes? Why are you here?" Rainbow felt his eyes start to burn.

"I-I don't know!" Pinkie raised her voice as she got off his lap. "I feel something for them, but... I don't know, I felt something with you last night too, but it wasn't the same. At least I think it wasn't... I'm so confused. I just came here to make sure."

Rainbow could feel himself start to shake and his chest felt like it might cave in. He didn't know if the feeling as anger or anxiety, but he knew he didn't want to be used as an experiment.

"Pinkie, I know its confusing, but I'd rather you had just told me this from the beginning instead of making me feel so used." Rainbow sighed. "Look, just go with Fluttershy. They were your original interest, and if you still feel something for them, you should go."

She sniffed, wiping a tear from her cheek. "Okay... I'll just... I'll go."

She put her shirt back on and made her way to the door. Softly, she kissed Rainbow on the cheek and smiled solemnly. "I'm sorry."

"I-it's fine." Rainbow stuttered. His heart felt heavy as she opened the door and left. He stared at the door for a few seconds, a lump forming in his throat.

Rainbow gathered his friends at Sugarcube Corner the next day to share the news of his gender. When he arrived, they all already had cups of coffee and hot chocolate and were laughing. He felt tense when he saw Fluttershy and Pinkie sitting together, holding hands under the table.

"Heya, Dash!" Applejack said. As usual, she sat next to her girlfriend Rarity.

"So, I hear you wanted to tell us something, Rainbow?" Twilight said with a curious look.

He sat down next to her and wrung is hands. "Yeah, I uh... I wanted to talk to you guys about my gender."

Applejack leaned backwards with a smug look. "Ah knew it. Ah told ya, Rarity!"

Rarity shot her a disapproving look and smacked her leg. "Let her finish."

Rainbow cleared his throat. "Have you guys ever heard of demigender?"

"I have." Fluttershy said quietly, raising their free hand.

"As have I." Twilight stated. "I've read up a bit on gender."

"Yeah. Well, I've been thinking about demiguy. I just wanted you guys to know, and I want you guys to call me he."

"Will do." Applejack said. "Now how 'bout we get you some cider?"

She tapped the table loudly and called for a waiter. A few minutes later, there sat a bubbly apple cider in front of Rainbow.

"I got surgery a few years back." Rarity said suddenly. They all turned to look at her. "Reassignment surgery."

The table went quiet. After a few seconds, Applejack spoke up.

"So ya used to be a guy?"

"I was assigned male at birth." Rarity corrected. "Before I moved to Ponyville, I had surgery. I moved here for a new start because my father and friend's weren't exactly accepting."

"What about Sweetiebelle, though?" Twilight asked.

"M-my father... he was a drunk. My mother didn't want her daughter to grow up with him, so she sent Sweetie with me."

"My father was a drunk too." Pinkie said quietly. It was the first thing she'd said since Rainbow had gotten there. She stared at the table solemnly. "I moved here to get away."

Twilight let out a small sigh. "Well, at least we're all happy now, though."

Rainbow stared at Pinkie as Fluttershy wrapped their arms around Pinkie's shoulders, kissing the top of her head. "Yes, we are."

Rainbow's vision blurred as he felt his eyes start to water, the tight feeling in his throat intensifying. Getting up, he muttered that he needed to go to the bathroom and made his way out of the main room. Once in the bathroom, he stared at himself in the mirror.

"Suck it up, Rainbow." He said to himself, his voice cracking as he flicked his hair out of his eyes. "She's happy, and thats all you need."

He thought back to that first day he met her. How he could feel her energy so well. He always felt that energy when he was near her, and it made him feel happy. Now, being around her was so overwhelming. He always feels that happiness, but now he feels a stress, a bittersweet sadness mixed into the energy she creats in him.

He backed up against the wall and slid down. Resting his head on his knees, he whispered, "What am I going to do?"

A tear fell from his eye.