To my mother, Twilight Sparkle

by BlindBlossom

Rating: everyone
Tags: Slice of Life, Sad, Main 6, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Spike
Length: 3796

Twilight recieves a parcel containing a book and this book will help Twilight connect back into the world.

Twilight gets a familiar looking book and upon reading it, she learns lessons not only from her number one assistant but she learns from her friends too. Dealing with the struggle of forgiveness and lost opportunities.

Disclaimer: I do not own the Cover Art image, it belongs to Hasbro.

Published 2014-08-16 21:40:02 UTC
Last updated 2014-08-18 20:49:11 UTC

Honesty

Twilight Sparkle gazed out of her window, she saw the young fillies playing around, the adult ponies were following what there cutie marks told them and the oldest of ponies would sit and observe needless to say that Twilight was proud of Ponyville and it's inhabitants.

It always seemed so peaceful and calm, not like the old days where you couldn't have a months peace and yet... she missed that adventure, working together to solve the problem however if there was one thing no, one assistant she missed it was Spike ever since he had grown into an adult dragon he had to leave even though many ponies tried to build him a cave it just wasnt big enough.

She could picture the moment when he and her had to part ways... a knock on the door quickly woke Twilight from her daydream and wearily she shook her head and began to walk towards the front door when she opened the door a mail pony gave her a parcel, she closed the door not noticing that the mail pony wanted a approval signature.

"A parcel? I hardly recieve much these days except paperwork from Celestia" Twilight sighed.

As much as she loved helping Celestia she much preferred a challenge, of course though at first this was hard to wrap her head around but now... not so much.

Twilight then unrapped the parcel and it didn't look like the usual parcel that'd arrive it was purple with a green bow.

"A gift from my subjects?" Twilight wondered.

Twilight now more intrigued opened the parcel whilst preserving the ribbon, it was well made and rather cute after all.

"A book?" Twilight looked at the cover, it was purple but it'd seem that light had made the once strong purple turn into a violet, the corners of the book were torn clearly it was a well read book for some reason it seemed familiar Twilight smiled and opened the book to see there was no content page making her frown, "What kind of book doesn't have a content page?"

She turned the page and gasped "It's a diary"

"Should I read this?" Twilight wondered she bit her lip and turned the page her curiosity stronger than her will.

Dear Diary,

Twilight gave me this blank book, I thought I should write how i'm feeling?
Well I should start with my earliest memories...
I remember Twilight taking me to her house and being very protective. But that could have been because I was a test from Celestia to see if she had compassion and an ability to care for others or just her motherly instincts, mind you she was still young herself so this would have been a challenge for her. There were days when she would leave me at home, whilst she went to the special school but that wasn't too often as Celestia might have noticed that she was tired from looking after me so I lived with Celestia whilst Twilight visited me.

I can remember the one time when I snuck into her classroom and wound up causing havoc and even ending up changing a teachers hair into an afro. Of course I wasn't in Twilight's hooves but even so I can't help but thinking back to that day and shamefully laughing. Of course me and Twilight have had many happy days together like picnics and study sessions together but then we have like any mother and child we've had bad days... I don't want to write them down.

An ink splatter indicated that Spike had finished writing that page.
Twilight wiped away a tear missing her beloved assisstant more than ever, she grabbed a box of tissues and turned the page.

Dear Diary,

I guess I should note down what happened today since I found out from Fluttershy that writing down what happens in the day is fun to look back at. Not sure if i'll ever want to look back but hey who knows right?

Anyway, today I spent the day with Rarity.
There really isn't any pony more beautiful or special to me, except Twilight of course but she isn't nearly as special to me at least not in a
sense. I help her out with anything that she needs I felt like I was her special some pony as I always was helping ease her stress and more often then not she would discuss any issues with fabrics or if she needed a certain gem then I would fetch it for her.

I'm a dragon though and I hate that, I claim that i'm a proud dragon but I feel like such an outcast. We have no books on dragons and I count myself lucky that I havent been seriously ill otherwise who knows what would happen...

But I should note that her mane looked as silky smooth as ever, her eyes glowed like a sapphire gem and of course she has this passion of making the latest trends whatever that means but it's that drive and the way she takes care of herself, I think she needs to learn not to get too stressed but hey at least she can show her emotions freely and well thats what I love most about her... she's is perfect in every way. Me and Twilight had a talk about my love for Rarity, sometimes I think that Twilight is right and it wouldn't work out but I want to try. Just once... but if Rarity does turn me down then I hope we can stay friends.

On the other hand would I be an alright dragon for her? I mean even if she did agree to go out with me it'd only last so long since I grow
to the size of a mountain... guess I would make every moment special with her. Oh Rarity, I really love you.

Twilight sniffled, her tears nearly falling onto the pages she noticed that there were spots on the pages where tear stains were already, she was conscious that Spike suffered with his love for Rarity but she never knew that he was in such pain.

"Spike... Why? If you looked towards me as a mother then why?" Twilight wiped away the tears before closing the book, she couldn't continue reading it any further she needed air so she walked to her door and took off into the skies, hoping to find her old friend. Inspiration seemed to have come over her.

"Ah" Twilight grinned, she gracefully managed to land at the entrance to Sweet apple acres she then upon arriving paid her respects and bowed to the grave towards the back of the house.

"What is y'all doing here?" Applejack said as though she had only seen her friend yesterday.

Twilight turned and hugged her friend, she could feel every wrinkle and creak that her body had.

Applejack however was always amazed that her friend looked exactly the same as to how she used to look with only minor changes such as a few wrinkles under eyes which was likely from exhaustion and her horn had grown much like what the Princesses did, not to mention her wings.

"Come on inside, Sugarcube will grab y'all some apple juice"

As they entered the house, it was clear to Twilight just how time really went by now that she was an alicorn and had been for over forty
years it'd seem that she just hadn't noticed how much things have changed.

Applejack groaned her back was clicking as she sat in what used to be Grannysmiths favorite chair.

Twilight sat next to her friend and was about to ask something but couldn't as Applejack yelled "Sugarcube! come here will ya?"

An adult mare popped her head around a door "Yes mama?"

This mare had a coat that Twilight would associate with the apple family as it was an shade of orange that was very similar to her mothers her eyes were an emerald green and her mane was also just like her mothers, or at least what it used to look like but a darker shade.

"Would ya'll get me n Twilight here a cup of applejuice and none of that market stuff! Fresh apples is what I need" Applejack said loudly, making Twilight jump.

The mare nodded her head and went back into the kitchen rustling could be heard.

Twilight fiddled with her hooves before looking towards her friend.

"So Applejack I need to ask you something" Twilight said.

Applejack turned her head "Yes?"

"Well I recieved a diary from Spike and um..." Twilight thoughts trailed off before the thud from the kitchen snapped her out from her
daydream "Remember when Spike had a crush on Rarity? well-"

"One sec honey, let me check on ol' sugarcube" Applejack began to sit up but Twilight heard her grunt and her bones almost creaked.

"I'll go check on her if you want?" Twilight offered, Applejack sat back into her chair and smiled.

"If you'd please" Applejack quickly fell back onto the chair and relaxed "You know i'd go but mah legs ain't as good as they used to be"

Twilight stood up and went into the kitchen, she didn't see no pony until she heard ouch

"Are you alright?" Twilight asked, when she got to see the mare it became clear that she'd dropped a cup onto the floor.

"I'll be alright" Sugarcube said "After all i've had worse injuries from working on the farm" she chuckled.

Twilight smiled and used her magic to put the glass into the sink, whilst Sugarcube had put a bandage on her hand.

"Is everything okay in there?" Applejack yelled.

"Yes mama!" Sugarcube yelled back.

Sugarcube looked at Twilight and blushed a little, "Sorry I don't like yelling in front of people..."

"It's fine honestly, anyway lets get the apple juice cleaned up"

They both cleaned up the mess and made fresh cups of apple juice.

Twilight put the cups on a table that was next to the chairs that they were both sat on it creaked a little from age, it made Applejack chuckle.

"Haha, sounds like me does that ol' table" Applejack looked at Twilight "Oh honey, it's been so long, where have you been?"

Twilight took a sip from her drink and placed it down "To be honest Applejack, i've been lost in my books and with Spike having to leave so suddenly..." Twilight sighed, "I'm sorry Applejack, i've missed out on so much and..." Twilight began to sob "now your old... and, and-" Twilight began to cry.

Applejack put her hoof onto Twilight leg, "Don't cry sweetie, your here now" Applejack smiled "Make the most of your time with us now"

Sugarcube gave Twilight a handkerchief.

"Thank you" Twilight said wearily, she blowed her nose.

After some time they both talked about what had happened and they shared experiences Twilight noted vaulable pointers down for future books.

"Haha! so hun I recall you asking about Spike" Applejack laughed.

"Ah yes... well your a mother and apparently Spike looked towards me as his mother, I assumed Spike saw Celestia as his mother but
no anyway... did your daughters ever confront you about problems with there crushes?"

Applejack had a serious look on her face, which gave Twilight shivers.

"My daughters?" Applejack looked towards Sugarcube, whom in turn looked rather shameful.

"My daughters thought to deal with these problems alone for some reason, thought they would be okay without my help" Applejack looked at Twilight and saw that she looked uncomfortable.

Applejack sighed "For the longest, they preferred to solve the problem themselves, we've had issues with this but in the end...
i'm a little proud of my Sugarcube, at least she... she had the courage to get help from me" Applejack smiled "So uh... why do you ask this?" Applejack asked.

Twilight drank the last of her juice and said "It was Spike, apprantly he suffered far worse with his love for Rarity"

"Sweetie..." Applejack started "That was a long time ago things have changed, don't beat yourself up on past feelings"

Applejack slowly got out of her chair and stretched "Twilight i'm sorry hun but i'm very tired" Applejack yawned.

Twilight stood up and stretched her legs too "I'll head home then" Twilight smiled.

Applejack smiled back and gave her a hug.

After that Applejack went upstairs and into her room, whilst Sugarcube took Twilight to the door.

"I hope to see you more often, Princess Twilight" Sugarcube smiled.

"Oh, please refer to me as Twilight" Twilight chuckled.

As Sugarcube opened the door, Applebloom was seen talking to Big Macintosh.

"Goodbye" Twilight took of into the sky, whilst waving to the ponies below.

Twilight ride home was a short one and whilst tears were shed, she got home safely.

As she landed at the entrance of her castle, she heard mother ponies yelling for there young ones to come home, Twilight couldn't help but smile and so she shut the door and tidied up the mess she had previously left behind and after a long evening of relaxing she tucked herself away into her bed, she left the diary on the desk in the library, convincing herself that she would read it all as no book shall be left unread whilst Twilight Sparkle was breathing.

Though she couldn't help but wonder what tomorrow would bring.

Author's Note

This is what Sugar Cube looks like.
:)
http://yugiohbasemaker.deviantart.com/art/Sugar-Cube-564629230

Loyalty

Twilight woke up to the sounds of birds, chirping away in the trees. Such a nice way to wake up, she'd often think.
After all that had happened in her life Twilight would appreciate the little things and she would tend prefer this then some odd adventure,
at least thats what she'd tell herself.
Twilight's ears perked up and she stretched her legs before spreading out her wings, they needed preening from the previous nights flight but in the morning she really didn't care much.
Wise words came into her head and made her chuckle, "Twilight you must preen your wings everyday even someone as awesome as me has to do it"

Twilight looked at her wings, only a few feathers needed preening so she dismissed it and thought to herself "I just wont fly today"
She wandered over into her kitchen and made herself breakfast, she wondered about having staff in her castle like the two princesses but when she tried one time, it didn't end to well. And besides Spike at the time felt left out so there was no need for staff but now...
Twilight's eyes opened wide, and with her magic she saved the bowl from crashing on the floor.
She sighed with relief and scolded herself for going off into deep meaningless thoughts again.

After breakfast Twilight went into her library and made sure that every book was in the right place, alphebetical order and just the way
she liked it. It passed the time after all.
Twilight believed that one day she could open up the library for anypony to see but not now, it's too soon for just anypony to come into her home and wander around. Sure it was okay for her to do so in her old home but now that her home is bigger, it's easier for anypony to steal from her or even ambush her.
Twilight knew these were silly thoughts but who knows right?

When Twilight had finished in the library she was about to go out and have some tea but one book caught her eyes.
"The diary..." Twilight used her magic and brought the book with her into the lounge room, it was up as few stairs but thats no problem for her, at first however she'd get lost easily but now everything was imprinted in her head, just like Celestia.
Twilight sat down on her sofa, it was light and fluffy. It reminded Twilight of her friend that represented... Generosity.
Spike's love... Twilight quickly snapped her head back into what she was doing.
"Oh right... reading Spike's dairy. Makes me feel better..." Twilight said sarcastically, knowing full well no pony was with her.
Twilight sighed and opened the page, where she last left it.

Dear Diary,

Today me and Twilight went to Rarity's house or boutique and had some tea. It was nice not having to do chores, it's all I ever seem to do nowadays. Anyway we all got talking about some big fashion show coming up and just like Rarity she giggled like a filly going to a sweet shop. It made me laugh little but I managed to hide it.
Then Twilight told Rarity that she was going to be a judge. That is when conflict was inflicted and that was a nightmare for me.
They argued because Rarity was hoping to get Twilight to give her some good points, then Twilight insisted that it wouldn't be fair on the
other competitors, which I agreed with but had to disagree because of Rarity and well... eventually me and Twilight left.
I hope that never happens again. As after that when the show in question arrived, Twilight was a little harsh with judging Rarity's clothing
it's not what i'd expect from her. But before the show had ended Twilight had to explain that she was in the wrong and opted that her
points don't count, obviously the other judges weren't too happy as they had to go and re examine the clothing, in the end Rarity gotLu
second place and was offered a contract from a company. Happy days right?

Only... now I have to give up my love on her. Since she'll be so far away I can't go and see her and obviously she is bound to meet some
stallion and fall in love herself. I'm done with this one sided relationship anyway, I want to study and learn more about dragons.
It'll take some convincing but I bet Luna will let me into her library in Canterlot.
Twilight stared at this page, her mind zoomed off into that day. The day when Rarity left...

Twilight once again shook her head, she was getting agitated.
"Why is this happening?" Twilight wondered "It feels like yesterday that Spike left! and now..." Twilight stood up, a hoof on the page
"I've missed so much! I don't understand!" Twilights head feel down and a tear fell from her eye.

"INCOMING!" A loud crashing sound came from the window.
Twilight looked up and saw Rainbow Dash sat in the window casually, acting like she meant to do that.
"Twilight!" Rainbow Dash got down from the window and raced towards her.
Rainbow Dash hugged her tightly, even causing them to collaps onto the floor.

Twilight had a shocked look on her face, that quickly turned into a soft grin.
"Where have you been?" Rainbow Dash mumbled into Twilights ear.
"Lost... i've been lost Rainbow Dash" Twilight mumbled back.
Rainbow opened her eyes wide and quickly got up, rubbing her hooves onto her chest.

"Ahem, so what do you mean by... lost?" Rainbow Dash questioned.
Twilight got up and shook her mane into place.
"When Spike left Ponyville, I guess that I just kept my head into my books and... watched the years go by" Twilight looked directly at
Rainbow Dash and it was clear that she was not amused.
"You realised that you've missed so much, birthday's, funerals, births of our children and even weddings! Twilight there was so many times when we needed your wisdom and support, but you always came up with excuses!" Rainbow turned away "You broke so many hearts, my heart
Twilight"

"Rainbow, I was depressed and to be honest I feel like I have only just woken up yesterday!" Twilight argued "Please Rainbow... forgive me"
Rainbow turned her head and looked at Twilight.
As she was about to say something, the front door could be heard swinging open.
"Rainbow!" A voice yelled out.
"Up here!" Rainbow yelled back.

Hooves could be heard, rushing up the stairs and within seconds the door opened wide.
"Rainbow!" Scootaloo hugged Rainbow "Your okay!"
Rainbow pulled Scootaloo away and looked her in the eyes "Of course! I'm too awsome to get hurt"
Scootaloo wiped away her tears and nodded.

Twilight gazed at Scootaloo, her wings had grown. Not too much but they had indeed grown.
"What were you two doing?" Twilight asked.
"Well me n squirt here were practising tricks and pranks when one prank backfired, well... you can guess what happened"
"Did you know Twilight, that Rainbow has adopted me as her daughter? I'm not just a sister! I'm Rainbow Dash's daughter!" Scootaloo grinned.
"Thats right Squirt" Rainbow Dash ruffled her mane.

Twilight smiled "Gosh Rainbow, I never expected you to be the one that'd have kids or even adopt them"
Rainbow looked at Twilight "And why not?"
Twilight blushed "Heh... I suppose because..." Twilight fiddled around "Because... you know what never mind"
"Hey squirt will you head home? I need to chat with Twilight" Rainbow said whilst never taking her eyes of Twilight.

Scootaloo looked at Rainbow then Twilight and without another word she left.
"And don't forget to preen your feathers by the time I get home" Rainbow Dash yelled.
When the front door of the house closed shut Rainbow sat down.
"I'm sorry Rainbow, I can't change time and even if I could... I wouldn't" Twilight said "I want to focus on my friends for who they are
now, not on what I missed. And I totally understand that because your Loyal, it'll be hard for you to forgive me" Twilight stood up and
walked to Rainbow, she sat in front of her and looked her in the eyes.
"I promise you Rainbow, I will never be like that again, I will make it up to you and everyone else"

Rainbow looked at her friend, tears fell down her face.
"Twilight... I needed you!" Rainbow hugged her friend "You hurt me so- so-" Rainbow sobbed.
Twilight hushed her and slowly stroked her faded mane, the wonderful colours were no longer so bright and it wasn't nearly as soft as it
once was. Twilight cried a little too.

After a while, Rainbow pulled back. The wrinkles now more apparant to Twilight, but that didn't matter.
Rainbow bid her farewell and left. Twilight looked back at the diary and noticed that the sun had already set.
"This book..." Twilight smiled "Thank you Spike"
She walked back into her room and felt exhausted.
However she managed to put a bookmark on the page she was at, then she placed it on her bed stand, Twilight herself collapsed onto her
bed and sighed.
"Good.. night... Spike..." Twilight fell asleep.

End of chapter 2