The Darkness Inside

by LunarGazer1500

Rating: mature
Tags: Twilight Sparkle, Gore, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, Dark, Other, Pinkie Pie, Princess Celestia, Human
Length: 4910

After succumbing to depression Pinkie Pie soon has to deal with many things that follow...

Pinkie Pie, the well renown happy, silly and rambunctious party pony finds herself dealing with depression and more.

Published 2014-08-26 02:20:02 UTC
Last updated 2014-08-26 22:34:08 UTC

Depression

Pinkie pie lied on her bed, silent and looking up at the ceiling fan whirring as usual generating cool air.For several weeks now she had been depressed for unknown reasons not talking to anyone but herself nor leaving her home, Pinkie had turned 18 just a few weeks ago and Twilight and her friends had thrown her a party equal to the caliber of parties she herself had thrown, it seemed perfect in every sense, there was a nice big cake, gifts, guest and party favors but somehow even so she was still depressed. Truthfully she had been depressed at her own birthday party but had hid the feelings and pushed them to the back of her mind. Pinkie's stomach growled, she looked over at her clock it was 12:15 p.m.

''Guess its lunch time...Pinkie sighed sluggishly dragging herself out of bed and into the kitchen each slow footstep of hers contributed into her efforts of getting to her destination. Shortly after she made it, everything seemed normal a few empty things were on the counter nothing too bothersome for her at the moment.She grabbed Sweet and Sour curry from the fridge and looked at the cooking instructions on the back.But then she gave up on the curry.

''Fuck this Curry...who needs food anyway'' she said while sighing once again, putting the curry away and instead getting nothing more but a glass of water.

''This should be enough'' she thought as she slowly drank the water down to the last drop.

Once finished she sat down at the kitchen table the same large ''butcher knife'' she had a few days ago still sat there on the table in the same place it had been put down.She stared at it for awhile, looking at this brought back the memory of the chaotic event from two days ago.

-FLASHBACK-
Twilight came over later on that night she noticed pinkie wasn't herself lately and had unusually been alone with herself she had actually noticed before hand but Twilight herself had procrastinated on dealing with her troubled friend simply because she dreaded of what she would find.
Twilight knocked on the door several times and no one answered at the knock, she twisted the knob, the door was unlocked so she cautiously entered her friends home.

''Pinkie...Uh i-it's just me Twilight I came here to talk, your door was unlocked too'' Twilight said speaking clearly enough for her words to be heard.''

Twilight ventured further into the house looking for her friend, an eerie silence immediately filled the house.It had started to get to her but she stayed as quiet as possible. Upon coming near the kitchen Twilight saw a small trail of blood leading to a corner of the kitchen, she instinctively followed it, her curiosity wouldn't allow anything else at this time. When it came to an end it lead to Pinkie sitting in a corner facing the wall Twilight could tell that she was holding something, she tapped her shoulder and Pinkie turned her head to face Twilight her eyes were covered by her straight hair only a demented smile could be seen and a spot of fresh blood splattered on her cheek.

''Get...out...!'' She said in a unusually strict and serious tone. Then Pinkie herself got up from the floor,she was holding a mangled mess of small lungs and intestines in her hands, her hands were also nothing more than a bloody mess blood reached to her elbows.

Twilight was horrified of this grotesque sight she stepped away from Pinkie, tears started to fill her eyes.

''Tha-thats gummies...isn't it....'' Twilight said choking back her fear and sadness.

Pinkie said nothing she merely nodded, chuckling at the fear in her friends eyes, that simple chuckle turned into an outrageously twisted and loud laughter.

For the first time ever Twilight ran away from Pinkie Pie.She hadn't been seen since...

Self Proclaimed Captivity

The men in white jackets sat in the front seats of the vehicle,they had sat Pinkie Pie in the back.
She was still restrained by the restraint jacket and she still had that god awful muzzle on her mouth but regardless she could still speak clearly. She heard the men's conversation, it was about her.The man in the passenger seat spoke first

''Did you hear what our little friend back here did?'' The man on the passenger side asked, looking at the driver.

He nodded , ''It was said she massacred her pet, tore some organs out.'' The driver said looking ahead, concentrating on the road.

''Hm, that's quite the a problem...you think she'll be okay?

The driver nodded ''Iv'e seen a lot of people come in doing the worst of things and have also seen many leave out returning to
the outside world better than ever, the only thing is, just as well with pretty much all the patient's is that she needs to accept the help instead of fighting it.'' The driver said responding to the passenger's concern.

The passenger looked back at Pinkie and smiled ''Hi, What's your name?'' He asked trying his best to be friendly.

Despite his efforts Pinkie didn't reply, she just stared at him without blinking nor any expression whatsoever.
She didn't even care for his friendliness nor whatever else at this point, she felt as if she had been kidnapped and betrayed
because of how Celestia dealt with this situation, just taking her away to some ''helpful place'' that would ''cure'' her. Pinkie had no problem at all, she never had.She felt as if everyone else had gone mad and she was the only sane person left among all she knew.

''Don't feel like talking I bet, well I won't blame you this obviously isn't a good time'' he said still looking at her for a bit then turning back around.

The rest of the ride was quiet, no words from anyone had been spoken, the only thing close to speaking was Pinkie's thoughts echoing in her mind, she wanted to leave this vehicle and go home, continuing her solitude inside the comfort of her own home but more importantly Pinkie had an urge to kill it had slowly starting developing into the depths of her mind.

The Doctor is wrong

The driver stopped the vehicle in front of an enormous ivory white building, it looked to be well maintained on the outside and very clean.Surrounding the building was a small garden in the front, the plants looked healthy and well kept as far as anyone, including Pinkie could see. The man on the passenger side got out of the vehicle and opened the door on the side Pinkie was on, he gently grabbed onto her assisting her out of the vehicle and towards the buildings entrance.

''Just in case you were wondering, this building is called the Canterlot Mental Rehabilitation Center or C.M.R.C for short, it'll be scary at first but after a few days you'll be just fine.'' The man said as he guided Pinkie inside.

Pinkie didn't say a word in response, she didn't want to talk to anyone right now nor be around anyone this whole situation was taking her out of her recently created comfort zone spawned by her depression.She was guided to the front desk near the entrance. The attendant saw she and the man approaching.

''Yes, how may I help you?'' She asked with a warm smile. The man answered.

''Just bringing in a new patient, a report about her from her friend Twilight Sparkle and Princess Celestia should have been submitted to you already'' the man said.

''Hmmmm...let's see here...What's the patient's name?'' The attendant asked.

The man looked over at Pinkie for a moment and smiled.Pinkie started to think the man's smile was irritating and unpleasant despite his happy and calm demeanor.

''Go on, its okay.Just tell her your name.'' The man said giving Pinkie a comforting glare.

Pinkie sighed ''Pinkamena...Diane...Pie'' she reluctantly said looking at the attendant with a dead, emotionless stare.

The attendant gulped a bit looking away from her and onto the computer screen.
''Ah yes here it is. Room 120A is where she's assigned to, the doctor will be there shortly he's in a meeting'' the attendant said.

The man nodded in approval and guided Pinkie down the hall. She looked around at the other rooms, some doors we're open and the others we're closed, passing by one of the open doors she could see it was tidy and clean, she didn't hear a sound but regardless of how this place looked Pinkie knew this was her captivity, her holding place until everyone eventually wanted her back or until everyone eventually forgot about her. She knew she was going to rot here but she also knew she wasn't going to allow such an act to happen nor go unpunished. The man sat Pinkie down on her bed in room 120A, just like the other rooms this one was tidy and clean, the bed was soft and a bit warm.Pinkie's room had a 28 inch T.V mounted on the wall, a bookshelf full of books up against the lower left corner on the right side of the room and a potted peace lily in the window seal. Lastly there was a door near her bed it was closed but it was safe to assume that it led to a bathroom. The man came over to her and took off her muzzle.

''It should be okay to take this off but I wont take off the jacket until the doctor comes, its nothing personal but its a rule'' the man said

For the first time Pinkie responded, she didn't speak but she gave a simple nod in response. The man went over near the entrance of the door as if he was guarding it.

''This too is part of the rules'' the man said.

But Pinkie knew he was lying he was trying to secretly trap her inside the room without trying to make it obvious to her, inside her mind Pinkie had imagined herself getting loose from the restraint jacket and attacking the man furiously with all the strength she had and banging his head against the window until his skull smashed upon impact and his blood...his fresh, red satisfying blood gushing from his head, pouring out onto the ground signifying his imminent end.The thought of that strangely satisfied her, it made her very happy she actually almost wanted to smile. Shortly after that satisfying thought the doctor arrived entering the room, The man stepped aside.

''Hello Pinkamena, I am Dr.Light, my full name is Luminous Light.I am here regarding your condition''.The doctor said looking down at some documents.

Pinkie looked up at him immediately after hearing the word ''condition''

''What are you talking about I don't have a condition, I'm just as normal as anyone else in this world, don't classify me as some kind of sick, psychological mess just because I'M LOCKED IN THIS PIECE OF SHIT PLACE!!!'' Pinkie yelled furiously, her anger had once again bursted , she started breathe heavily, that very thing only further represented her frustration.

The doctor simply sighed and took a note, he held a recorder to his mouth, speaking into it.

''Patient seems to be somewhat hostile and neglectful of her condition' perhaps a one on one talk is recommended at a later date, consider running test and visitation from a friend and have them record her behavior for possible breakthrough.'' The doctor shut the recorder off and looked towards the man who had previously guarded the entrance to her room.

''Release her restraints and lock her in this room, i'll assign a nurse to periodically check in on her and I'll try this again later.''

The man nodded going over to Pinkie helping her out of the restraint jacket, he and the doctor left the room, the door closed behind them. An electronic beep could be heard signifying the door had been locked.

To her it was so very clear now, she was a rat trapped in a cage now, who would be tested on like guinea pig.And now her friends were probably going to help him, Pinkie believed she should have expected this, the doctor was a crafty character who were going to do everything in his power to keep her here for a very long time but no, Pinkie would not give in, she was going to break out of here even of she had to stab and kill everyone who apposed her, why she even though as far as beating any and everyone to death just for the joy and thrill of it. A sick smile started to form on Pinkie's face, thinking of the glorious ways of killing someone brought back memories of murdering gummy, she remembered how easy the knife tore through his belly as she slid it downward making an incision, she remembered his blood seeping out of his incision and digging her hands deep inside of his belly taking out his intestines and ripping out his precious lungs. She remembered how much she enjoyed that feeling, how much she enjoyed the kill. But most of all she remembered how much she enjoyed the lamentations of her prey.

Who could be more correct than I?

Finally done with reminiscing of a glorious memory, Pinkie looked over at the second door.She had already knew what it was I mean it was way to obvious that it was a bathroom, she didn't necessarily need to go to the bathroom but boredom had stricken and she couldn't do much else at the moment other than watch T.V or read a book so she grabbed the knob and opened the door.It was an ordinary bathroom with basic tiled floor, a mirror above the sink, a toilet and a shower. She was able to open the mirror, that revealed a simple cabinet with three shelves and was of course empty. She closed the cabinet and looked into the mirror, a reflection of the now old poofy-haired Pinkie Pie that everyone knew and loved appeared, but even she wasn't happy a saddened frown was on her face.

''Wow..never thought I could end up here'' the former Pinkie said with grief in her words.
The new Pinkie Pie could here these words echoing in her mind as the saddened reflection spoke.

''Well I like things this way'' new Pinkie Pie responded aloud to the reflection. ''Being the town's best party person, making everyone smile and spreading laughter sickened me...sickened US. So now I've tried a different approach. New Pinkie Pie said followed by a stomach turning smile.

''But your making us into a sick freak, a psychological pile of shit to be frank, just..stop this I don't even know where you came from...how your even here now its just all so baffling..but no matter what, I'll always fight against you...even if you do make me lose all my friends...'' old Pinkie Pie said with a bit of passion and courage in her words.

Hmph...I'd like to see that day...well I won't waste my time here anymore I just need you to finish acting like there's nothing wrong with us so I can get close to everyone and 'play, with them, you've been doing a good job with those random pleads and shouting saying there's nothing wrong its really helped me out kid, but it too has had some backfiring... because of you I have to break out of here. I don't understand why you just wouldn't shut your stupid mouth and let me keep us in that house it was peaceful and silent no annoying friends around, no stupid parties no nothing why if Celestia hadn't done that little surprise attack I would've killed her but no! You just couldn't stop your yelling...and another thing...I know these random yellings have just been your way of signaling people so they could purposely get you help in which is what your trying to do now...but it won't work because..IM PINKIE PIE NOW!

With those last words Pinkie Pie walked out of the bathroom and lied down on her bed sickly smiling and giggling' this insanity was her entertainment and she was enjoying every bit of it.

His foolish return.

After some time the door unlocked and Pinkie heard the familiar electronic beep go off again .Pinkie arose from the bed, curious about who was going to enter her room.It was the doctor and a nurse, she stood beside him holding a clipboard and pen.

"So...Pinkamena, have you simmered down a bit? Well nevermind that, i need to ask a few questions and gather data" The doctor explained.

Pinkie chuckled ," Data Dr.Light? Why...no research could ever describe the...truth... Once again .Pinkie chuckled she thought the doctor was being ridiculous, wanting to gather data. She knew this would be a short visit.

"The truth? please, explain what you mean" The doctor said, he immediately sat by her side on the bed and the nurse readied her pen for notes.

Pinkie got up and went over to the window seal, looking at the potted peace lily "Well doc..i just can't acheive...PEACE! just as the word peace had been spoken from her mouth Pinkie quickly grabbed the potted llily and threw it at the doctor's head.

The once decorative potted peace lily had smashed against the doctor's head he himself fell on the floor, a mixture of his blood and pieces from the pot as well as the dirt inside the pot were scattered all over the floor and on the doctor. The nurse ran for help as quickly as she could and Pinkie herself had also ran out the door but now she needed a weapon because she knew that other threats would of course be on their way, even though she had no clue where to go she still ran.

"Maybe if i find a kitchen i could get a knife or two" She thought as she raced down the hallway, she saw an elevator in the distance.

At first everything seemed fine for her until she got to the elevator, when it stopped on the floor she had been on which was floor 1A, she saw an annoying but familiar face, it was the passenger from before. His eyes widened upon seeing her but then he quickly sprung into action pulling out a handgun and aiming it at her. He seemed a bit frightened but nonetheless stood his ground.

"Listen I-I dont wanna hurt you b-but i will,now..put your hands up where i can see 'em. He ended his sentence with a fear filled gulp.

Pinkie laughed at his courage, this fool was nothing to her he was obviously afraid in this moment, which more importantly ment he washesitant And that is what exactly would lead to this man'sdemise.

Pinkie fearlessly touched his gun, gently grasping it at first but then forcefully tearing it away from him with a powerful snatch.So now Pinkie had what she desired, a weapon.Guns weren't here forte but she had to make it work, for now atleast.

She held the gun to the head of the now ill fortuned man "You sir are going to not only guide me to the kitchen BUT also help me escape, now take me to the kitchen i require knives.

The man, now overcome with fear stepped onto the elevator with Pinkie and pressed a button to go to the third floor, at this moment he was too wise and too frightened to lead her to the 4th floor which held the completely insane, it was second to the max and guard were EVERYWHERE on that floor.But little did he know Pinkie was going to kill him anyways when she meeded him no longer.

Secret Ingredients

Pinkie and the man arrived on floor 3A, they both walked out the elevator but the man led the way while Pinkie held the gun to the back of his head as closely as she could, keeping her hand on the trigger. They walked down the hall and made a left at the two way path at the halls end, she could smell the scent of food in the air, it was not tantilizing nor alluring to her but she knew exactly what it needed. 35 paces or so later they both arrived in the kitchen, the cooking crew were all hard at work making healthy meals for the many patients at C.M.R.C no one seemed to notice they were there. Pinkie carefully examined what she was facing. 6 chefs in this area, 3 on the left and 3 on the right and a cleaver on the cupboard, next to the 6th chef's left side. She imagined her best bet was to take them out in backwards order but first put the man in a head lock and face him in front of her as a body sheild just in case someone wanted to be a hero... She decided d to start from the right so Pinkie put her hostage in a head lock , facing him forward to use him as a sheilf and fired at the three chef's on the right as quickly as she could, she had successfully hit them, 3rd died from a headshot, 2nd from a stomach shot and the 1st from a direct shot in the chest. The same fate came upon the chef's on the right in the blink of an eye, well, all except one, Pinkie missed and instead hit her leg. The wounded chef tried to crawl away.

Pinkie approached the last Chef. "Your food...it needs something...how about i add in my 'Secret Ingredients'?

The chef grimaced at what it could be, she didn't want to find out anytime soon.Laughing at the expression on the chef's face, Pinkie ordered the man to tie the chefs hands and feet to something, and so he did, he tied the chef's handsand feet tightly to the table he had beem able to by tying the ends of the cords to the legs of the table. Pinkie went over to the cupboard to get the cleaver and came back over to the table then she immediately chopped into the ladies stomach hacking and slashing her skin away until her stomach was wide open. The chefs eyes overflowed with tears and her screams filled the room, Pinkie was enjoying this a great deal, she wished this moment would last for a lifetime.

"So...first ingredient is two kidneys, you seem to have those so...i'll just reach in and-" Pinkie yanked out the chef's kidneys like paper and set them aside. The chef had never known such agony, she wished she would just die already.

"Secondly we need one cup of blood" Pinkie said while grabbing a cup and obtaining the blood with ease.

"Lastly but most importantly we need one beating heart, i bet yours is okay, lets see" Once again, hacking and slashing but at the chef's chest revealed one beating heart.

"Wow your better than the grocery store" Pinkie said while cutting out the chef's heart and adding it to the bowl.

That final thing gave the chef what she had wanted; death. Pinkie held the ingredients and took it over to what was cooking, different soups were being made so to be fair she added as much of each ingredient as she could and grabbed her new best friend, the cleaver. Blood had of course been splattered on her from top to bottom she was almost soaked in it. She once again took the man hostage at gun point.

"We are going to the parking lot and we are getting a vehicle and we will DRIVE away." Pinkie ordered.

The man silently nodded his face was stained with semi fresh tears, at this point he dared not to oppose Pinkie, he was scared to the core now, he'd seen her in action and now regardless of how she was, how SICK she was he had just wanted hergone

Worst Case Scenerio

The time had finally come, it was within her grasp, Pinkie's escape was now inevitable she would get out of here amd find her traitorous friend and ruler Celestia and murder her to bits in her very own home, Pinkie even considered getting her body stuffed, like a taxadermy bear and keep her as a trophy for all to behold, she loved that Idea and couldn't wait for Twilight to see that. She and the man arrived at floor 1B, it was a parking lot just as she requested, he had led her to a midnight blue sedan.

"Th-this is my car...H-here" He said while giving her the keys.

"Thanks hun your a big help but....time for bed, nighty night, dont let the bugs eat your entire corpse" And with that Pinkie effortlessly shot and killed the man and unlocked the car, getting into it, starting it up and driving away, backing out of the parking spot she ran over his corpse. Pinkie made her way away from the C.M.R.C in about 20 minutes flat and was officially on her way back home.

She zoomed down the empty clear road enjoying her freedom it was too easy she thought way too easy....Upon closing in on her destination she stopped dead in her tracks, A brigade made up of all of Canterlot's best soldiers stood strong and tall, Both Twilight and Celestia stood in front of them, Twilight held a megaphone in her hands and Celestia held not a sword but a gun. Pinkie got out of the car holding her gun, she predicted to have one bullet left. Twilight began speaking through the megaphone.

"Pinkie, you have ONE chance...drop your weapon and approach Celestia, If you don't she'll shoot without a second thought, please just make this simple you need intensive care...everyone in town now's that your sick, just do the right thing and yield..Twilight begged with all her love for her ill friend.

But Pinkie shook her head, disagreeing with her, she had devised a last resort plan with this last bullet, two plans actually she would either shoot one of them or..herself, the odds were so greatly against her and she could clearly see she was overwhelmed but all humanity had left Pinkie Pie, she was too far into the darkness to try again nothing remained of the old Pinkie Pie, nothing at all she was gone. dead. deleted just like new Pinkie Pie would now be.

Pinkie carried out her final plan, she cocked the gun and put it to her head and with the other hand she waved goodbye, pulling the trigger. The bullet came through the other side of her head followed by blood and a bit of brain matter, her body dropped to the ground.

Twilight dropped her megaphone in shock, tears began to overflow in her eyes, pouring down her face.Even though Pinkie was sick Twilight would still miss her friend.

Celestia took Twilight's hand and led her away from the area, she would of course comfort her as much as she needed it. Celestia herself began to have second thoughts regarding Pinkie's humanity, Perhaps there was a very small remnant of it, Why else would she wave...?

Treatment.

A soft knock on the door interrupted Pinkie's reminiscing, she got up to answer the door wondering who it would be
Maybe it was Twilight or anyone other friends she had. That simply remained a mystery until the door was answered.

''Wow..haven't had an visitor In awhile'' pinkie mumbled.
She opened the door, it was Princess Celestia, all alone and unguarded.

''Hello Pinkie, May I...come in?'' Celestia hestitantly asked

Pinkie nodded and let her enter she showed Celestia both floors of her home and all entertainment she had to offer just in case she maybe stayed for awhile, either way Pinkie was prepared for guest even if no one had wanted to visit her.
Celestia sat down on the couch across from Pinkie and Pinkie sat on the one across from Celestia she briefly stared at her before opening her mouth.
Yes Celestia? Pinkie asked

Celestiia hesitated for a moment then answered.

Pinkie you..you need help Twilight told me what happened to...gummy it's deeply concerning me not as a Princess but...a friend, you could have really hurt yourself or anyone else...you would'nt want that..I know you wouldn't because your a good person I know you are I've seen it..So...there are places you can go away to that can help you a great deal...

''I knew it everyone hates me now...NO EVERYONE'S SCARED!!!....WELL FUCK YOU IM FINE DAMNIT YOUR JUST TRYING TO PUT ME AWAY SO I CAN ROT!!" Pinkie's anger bursted out of control, her face turned red with anger and her fists tightened.

"No its not li-'' Pinkie interrupted her

''Shut your stupid mouth you don't know anything...get out...pinkie quickly directed her to the door by pointing.

Celestia paused, appauled at the hurtful words that had been spoken...then let out a simple whistle.
Suddenly guards and 2 men in white jackets bursted into her home restraining her, the men in white put a restraint jacket on her and a Muzzler to prevent biting they carried her off into am transport vehicle.

''I hope you understand... please forgive me for this I promise you'll get better.
Celestia explained while looking into Pinkie's
cold eyes full of rage and hate
The vehicle took its leave...