Blazing Souls

I laid on my bed, shutting my eyes tight. I tried to count sheep, but nothing happened to me. I changed my sleeping positions every minute, still nothing. I threw my blanket away angrily, sighing in frustration. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep because I couldn't sleep twice a day—not even a nap. That was my sixty-fifth attempt of trying to sleep in this month.

I wasn't even sleepy to begin with, even when I only slept for two hours. Seriously, what was wrong with my body? Dark rings under my eyes grew even more and I was paler than before, making me look like a ghost. Perhaps I should go see the doctor.

I made my way outside my house and locked the door with my key. I looked around for any signs of Pinkie Pie, and then I remembered that she was going to prank someone else. Walking towards the direction of the hospital, I felt something lightly hit the left side of my body. Noticing that I was levitating something I didn't even know, I levitated it in front of my face. It was my baton.

I groaned in frustration. It was the third time of this day I involuntarily carried my baton with me.

I decided to bring it with me, since I didn't feel like going back home again. Continuing forward, I saw Thunderstream clearing clouds with his four co-workers. He waved at me and I waved back lazily, rolling my eyes. I heard him snicker softly, maybe he saw my baton.

Finally, I reached the hospital. Pushing the glass doors with my hoof, I saw the policestallion nodded at me while smiling. I nodded back awkwardly, maybe he remembered me because of my monthly visits to the doctor—well, at least somepony actually remembered me, I was getting vexed by the rare ‘Welcome to Ponyville’ greetings.

As I walked down the hallway, I saw several nurses doing their work—some smiled and some ignored me. I found the ponies who smiled at me quite friendly, because they wasted a second to smile at me. After I talked to the receptionist, I reached Dr. Blood’s office. I had always found his name disturbing, what kind of parents name their foals like that?

I opened the door quietly and I saw the red stallion with a brown mane, his flank was adorned with a drop of blood and a syringe. He was busily playing with his tiny gaming console. I took a seat and stared at him, waiting for him to notice my presence. Coughing loudly, he finally noticed my presence. I raised my eyebrow at him, I knew he liked playing with his Gamecolt, but bringing it in his work is unprofessional.

He put down his Gamecolt, smiling sheepishly. "Hello, Boltstream, didn't see you there."

"Didn't the receptionist call you?"

"Well, yeah, I just didn't notice you."

I gave him an incredulous look, tapping my hooves on his table. "Even when I opened the door and took a seat?"

He just grinned.

Deciding not to question him anymore, I looked at him and resisted the urge to punch him in the face. "I think you know why I'm here."

Dr. Blood nodded and grabbed his medical tools. Before he made medical investigations on me, he noticed the red aura behind me. "I just don't understand why you always have your baton with you," he snickered and proceeded to investigate me.

I rolled my eyes and sighed. "Ignore it."

After he was finished investigating me, he briefly wrote something on his clipboard and looked at me with a serious face. "You look worse than before."

"Didn't notice," I said sarcastically and looked at my hoofwatch.

Dr. Blood rolled his eyes and took out a syringe. He knew the drill, investigate me and take small amounts of blood to check my red blood count. After he was finished sucking my blood with his syringe, he frowned at me and clicked his tongue. "You really need to quit being a policemare and be a doctor."

I looked at him lazily with my tightened jaw. "Wouldn't that be busier than being a policemare?"

He paused a little and nodded. "Well, that's better than that job," he nodded sheepishly and finished writing on his clipboard.

"Nope, I'm a policemare, forever."

"I don't understand why you're dedicated to that job, even when it is killing you," he sighed at me and looked at the time. "Well, we're pretty much finished here. Continue drinking iron vitamins, exercise daily, don't stay up late—which you probably won't follow, and other things you know already. I'll call you once I'm done studying your blood," he took a deep breathe and continued talking. "And for the umpteenth time, Boltstream, you need blood transfusion if you don't want anemia messing your life, you're AB negative for Celestia's sake!"

I shook my head stubbornly and made a tired look. I knew I need blood transfusion, but I didn't like that idea, and I didn't know why. "And for the umpteenth time, Bloody, the answer is no."

He twitched his eyes and chuckled. "You're so stubborn. I'm not responsible when you died because of severe anemia. Too bad your brother is AB positive."

Dr. Blood continued rambling medical things while I eyed his Gamecolt lying on his table. Darn, he forgot to shut it down, what a complete waste of battery. I could see that he was playing Ponymon and was battling a rare ponymon. So foalish of you, Bloody, so was I. I swore that I was going to trade ponymons with him once he was done catching that ponymon.

"And we're done here," he happily said, lying his back on his chair and stared at his Gamecolt.

I stood up and began walking towards his door, then I stopped to look at him. "By the way, thank you for bearing with my stubbornness."

He rolled his eyes and waved his hoof dismissively, smirking at me. "Good thing I can still manage."

Nodding, I continued walking slowly towards the door, but I was stopped by Dr. Blood with his cough.

"Regardless to say, you also need to smile, I never see you smile before," he smiled at me warmly and continued. "Smiling will make you live longer."

I continued walking again and opened the door, then I looked back. "Never."

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I went back to my room with dizziness and my baton behind me. I glanced at the clock on the wall and groaned in frustration.

8:30 A.M.

Oh Celestia, what was I going to do in my life? I couldn't sleep, I couldn't meet my friends, I couldn't go to Thunderstream to check out what he was doing because of my lack of wings, I couldn't play with my Gamecolt because it was charging, and I couldn't do anything productive.

I just realized how boring my life was.

"You really need to quit being a policemare and be a doctor."

Nopey nope.

I was so devoted to that job that I forgot to take care of my health. If only I was a pegasus like Thunderstream, I wouldn't have anemia messing my life. I could have a same job as him and kick clouds all day, or I could stand on clouds. I really wanted to fly with my brother or race with him. Needless to say, I was aiming to become like Rainbow Dash, even when I knew that it was hopeless.

I had always wanted to be a pegasus that I became so zealous of Thunderstream and Rainbow Dash.

Sighing, I sat on my comfy bed and stared at my guitar case standing beside my bed. I loved my blue guitar, but I had neglected it because of my busy schedule. I wondered if the guitar was still in tune, but I would do that later after I relax my mind—tuning a really out of tune guitar could be a total pain in the flank. I looked out the window, then I saw the crystal castle-y thingy of Princess Twilight.

Maybe reading could help me destroy boredom.

I heard she started a new library in it because her formal library was completely destroyed by that centaur, but nopony had the guts to enter that castle library because of the building's design. Entering the castle was like entering Princess Celestia's castle full of royal guards, only that there were no guards. Well, I had the guts, and nopony could ever stop me.

I had to admit though, I liked Golden Oaks Library, too bad it was destroyed. That was the only reason I had hated Tirek.

Standing, I made my way towards the door. Reading it is, then. Books wouldn't hurt me, right?

I stopped walking, I noticed that I was carrying my baton again. I sighed in irritation, then I put my baton under the mattress of my bed. Then I walked outside my house, feeling lightheaded as ever. I wondered if I could still manage to go to the library without fainting.

Frowning sadly, I saw the library tree being demolished by ponies. I rarely went to that library, but it caused me great sadness. Just how much Twilight suffered when Tirek destroyed her formal home and library? I continued walking towards the crystal castle, indirectly muttering words of sympathy to Twilight.

My stomach rumbled, completely questioning it because I ate tons of Thunderstream's delicious pancakes this morning, how could I become hungry? I slowly walked to the apple stand, sighing as ponies walked by. "Hello, Applejack, two apples please," I took my bits out and received a smile from her.

"Hello, Boltstream, you're looking fine and dandy today, aren't ya? Rarely seen ya in the mornin'!" the orange pony happily initiated a conversation, taking the bits and giving me the two apples I had wanted.

I swore she implied sarcasm.

I nodded and took a bite from the juicy, red apple. I decided to play along with her, so I put up my best energetic voice. "Yeah."

And I swore there was an obvious meaning behind her small smirk and mocking eyes—even when it was not visible to untrained eyes.

The blond mare tipped the end of her cowpony hat and gave me a pat on the back. "Well, where are you going today? I reckon you're going to visit the doctor?"

"Did that already," sighing, I pointed at the crystal castle. "Actually, I'm going to read a book to entertain me."

"Well, have a good day," Applejack winked at me, "Twilight is still shelving the new books, but she won't mind you."

Waving goodbye, I continued walking while biting my apple. The dirt below me was cold, making me shiver slightly. I checked the time in my hoofwatch and decided to trot towards the library to save my hoof from shivering. I liked warm places, especially when it's winter—but sadly, being a policemare made me feel cold every time I was guarding. My mind was lost in deep thought that I didn't know where was I.

Darn, I had to find the castle again. I facehoofed but I did it completely wrong—I almost gave myself a black eye! Looking at my vicinity, I saw the castle just meters away from me. It might not look like it, but Ponyville was enormous, you could actually get lost here. I galloped to my right, where the castle was. Now I was wondering why I couldn't get to places fast, I was so slow that I began to think that I was walking in Ponyville for hours.

Finally, I reached the Friendship Castle, Crystal Library, Twilight's Castle, or whatever Twilight name the gorgeous building. I took a step forward on the golden stairs with a slight feeling of butterflies in my stomach. I looked at the crystal star above me, it was glittering as the sun's beams hit it. The exterior was extremely breathtaking that I understood how ponies feel when they were entering this castle. I began to wonder the small castle's interior.

Without further ado, I knocked at the door.