The Logician's Recovery Log [Reworking]

After Le`Vanna found herself  corrupted by the influence of Insanity, and after her failed attempt to hunt down the child who escaped her at the train, she moved to Baltimare and began systematically breaking down the population. She began by spreading her influence among the children. This was a slow and arduous process. It took almost three whole years, it would have taken longer but, thanks to the extended time she could spend isolated with the children, she brought them to shed their social identities and moral standards, and fashioned them into murderous rapists who still haunt Baltimare, even in during the events of this story, LRC.

Even as she corrupted the children, she continuously worked to find ways to influence Baltimare directly. She ambushed and stole from ponies on their ways to and from Baltimare. She would let them walk away, thinking they had escaped with their lives, and then chase them down and rape, torture, and slaughter them. Some of them she brought into her lair in the forest, so that she may either amuse herself with them, use them as emergency food sources, or use them to further her research on magic and to discover a way to grant herself access to magic. Her research was ultimately successful. However, she never fully perfected her potion. She could not take too much of it before purging her system of it, or she could be at a risk of short term organ failure and hallucinations.

She set herself up as a provider of medicine among the poorer districts of Baltimare, as her servants in the forest vandalized the northern district. Occasionally, she would mix in some poisonous contaminants among her medicine, and then return to rob the home of the now dead ponies and take their bodies for food. She accumulated a small amount of wealth, which she used to acquire more implements to use against Baltimare, things like fuel with which her slaves burn down houses in northern Baltimare.

As time passed, Le`Vanna found her stability of thought breaking down. In the back of her mind, from the very beginning, there lurked a subtle click noise that simply faded into the background of the forest sounds. However, as years passed, it began to amplify. It thundered at her like a storm drum, pounding at her stability like a battering ram attempting to break a door down. It followed a rhythm. One light tap, two deep booms, and another light tap. Then it would repeat this day and night: it was there when she dreamed and when she ate, when she spoke and when she ran. It never ceased. In the clicks, she felt she could hear words, like they were some kind of hidden message.

The day came when she was nearing her goal of traumatizing all of Baltimare, there was a subtle tension in the air as not a single pony felt they could look out their window without something happening behind their back. However, while paranoia was just making its roots in their minds, Le`Vanna found herself unable to close her eyes to sleep anymore as she could practically hear the words muttered beneath the clicks. They said, or so she believed, that the moment she turned her back she would die. Finally, after many mental breakdowns and failed attempts to look to her own prisoners for comfort, she began to try listening to the clicks. She begged them, what did they want? They spoke, and she listened.

At the will of the clicks, LeVanna set out on a journey to Ponyville, for there the clicks claimed they would finally be appeased. However, in an effort to outsmart the clicks, she brought along her two most trusted servants: Yarn Spinner and Kinos. A brother and sister pair. On the train ride to Ponyville, LeVanna went out to the walkway between two of the carts so that she could gather some fresh air, and a young mare followed her out. As Le`Vanna leaned over the railing to watch the ground pass, she became aware of the young pony behind her. She ignored her presence, as she felt that the universe was just toying with her, and she would not give it the satisfaction of seeing her terrified.  Here is how it turned out.

"I can't do this!" LeVanna burst out, sweat rolling down her brow. The children Yarn Spinner and Kinos looked up at her in worry, her insecurity was worrying them greatly, for she had always acted confident and in control when around them. However, months of torment without rest were crushing her structure of thought. All the ponies in the cart looked at the strange creature in surprise. Everypony had avoided eye contact with this obvious predator up until then. "I... I need some air. Wait here, my children." LeVanna rose and moved out the door, which she closed roughly, and settled herself onto a railing on the walkway between the two carts. She heard the door she had walked through open with a grittiness, but she paid it no mind. A full minute had passed before she was aware of a menacing presence behind her: she could feel the aura of hate and fear emanating from somewhere behind her, and it was beautiful.

Seconds passed, and LeVanna's paranoia began setting in. *Whose behind me? Why are they still there? Should I turn- No! That's what they want! It's all part of their plan... They think they can toy with me... I won't play along, I will just ignore them.* LeVanna sat there, cold sweat flowing down her neck like a river, pooling atop her shoulders and between her breasts. And then, in the sound of the clicks, a voice spoke. Execute function! A sudden rush of pain rocked Le`Vanna's entire world as something sharp pierced her back and popped out of her right breast: it was a blade. Much like the one Fluttershy had used while hunting with Herbert in the Everfree.

LeVanna tried to gasp and scream, but she found herself temporarily unable to breath: she worried maybe the blade had punctured her lungs, but it was not so. A whole five seconds passed while LeVanna stood there with a knife in her body, and then it slowly drew out of her with a popping noise. Blood had not even begun flowing out of her back and chest before she fell over the railing and crumpled herself against the ground. She tried to shout out in her suffering, but the pain was choking the breath out of her. As her heart pumped the blood out of her body, she used her left arm to roll over onto her back to try getting as much air as she could. Am I going to die? As she looked at the sky, she saw how the sky had took on an orange and yellow hue. She didn't know how long it had been like that, but she knew the sun should have still been high in the sky. She also found it odd that she focused on such a trivial detail when her life was being ended. As she lay there in absolute suffering, she heard the sound of the ground crunching beneath a pair of hooves. She raised her head to look at the pony who approached her, and was a tad insulted to see it was a child. With Le`Vanna glaring at her the entire time, the child made their way with a casual slackness next to the crippled monster.

"Well then..." The child muttered as she made her way over, "It certainly is a... pleasure." Le`Vanna quivered as she tried to process what was happening. Three seconds passed, and then she spat out blood at the child. It did not touch her. "Oh come now, there really is no need to be so unpleasant... Don't you think you do enough of that?"

"Fuck you! I'll kill you?" The child held an air of silence for a short time as she walked calmly around the wounded animal. She took a seat right above her heard and looked down. Once she was seated, she began to speak.

"You know, I've fantasized about this for years now... But this is not how I expected it to go." LeVanna tried to reach up at the girl, who flinched when she saw LeVanna's right arm move up, but then LeVanna found herself sorely regretting that choice as her wound sent blinding pain through her. "Oh... I don't think we have long left, do we? I've watched you kill plenty ponies, and not many of them lived through a wound like that. That's good, I certainly wouldn't want you to suffer too long." Another short silenced passed, and then LeVanna spoke.

"...Why not?"

"Why wouldn't I want you to suffer?" LeVanna nodded. "Because that would make me like you, silly." LeVanna took note in her mind that the child had called her silly. "Hmm... Yes, if there is anything I want to avoid, it is becoming like the monster I seek to destroy... Hey, does the sky look weird to you? I think it looks stupid." The child muttered as she looked up, away from LeVanna. More silence passed, and LeVanna felt her body slowly becoming numb. "So... Were you ever a baby? I'm trying to imagine you a a child, being all happy and cute... But I look at you now, and I can't think of a way anything cute could have become something like you..."

"You're a fucking weirdo." Le`Vanna said with a matter-of-factness.

"Oh, don't worry about apologizing to me. I was weird before you killed my mommy and brother." Le`Vanna chuckled to herself.

"Do you really think... What is wrong with you?" Le`Vanna found the anger seeping out of her as the numbness spread up her neck and around her head. She was starting to get dizzy and tired. She yawned.

"Try not to fall asleep. I don't think I was supposed to murder you. Just defeat you."

"Hm? How come?" Le`Vanna asked as a sense of passivity came over her.

"I dunno. I just do what the clicks in our head say to do."

"Oh, you hear those too, huh? They're so mean, right?"

"They aren't mean, they just don't understand emotions."

"How come?"

"Ask them yourself. They're here."

Le`Vanna blinked and found the child looking at her with an angry and pained expression.

"What?" Le`Vanna asked, not understanding why the child was so upset when, just a moment ago, she seemed so indifferent to the entire situation.

"What? How dare you even ask that!" The child shouted at her. "You murdered my life! You took away everything I care about! You've haunted me forever, why? You don't even have an excuse! you go around taking whatever you want, and not thinking about other- No! You don't even that. You purposefully hurt others! You are a monster. Die, monster!" The girl lifted her hoof over Le`Vanna's face, and the beast flinched.

"Something wrong?" Le`Vanna's eyes opened again, and she saw the child looking at her impassively. "You are in pain."

"...Yeah, I am..." The child nodded.

"Acknowledged... Your time is almost up." Le`Vanna nodded. "What do you think will happen afterwards?"

"...When my time is up? I'll die, of course..." Le`Vanna found that speaking to the girl seemed to give her a kind of calmness, a clarity. It seemed to put a structure over her mind, and make her thoughts go straight and the pain nothing more than a thing to be acknowledged.

"Do you really think I would kill you?" The child looked at her inquisitively.

"You already have."

"Hmm... You must really care about control, if you compare losing control to losing your life..." Le`Vanna found her entire world falling apart around her as a coldness began to seep into her and fill her mind inside and out.