A Princess with a Heavy Wish

Yes, there are days where I wish I was normal. Days when greed filled hearts come to complain, and it is those days I wish I was a pony. I would deal with an earth pony even! However, I never got that. I was born when the sun reset, it wiped most of all life on Earth, and gave birth to magic from the excess energy that remained. Never completely understood my birth, and as for my sister, she was a construct of moon rocks that took its own shape. A beautiful shape I might add...

I was born from the sun expanding and exploding, and I was born. I gave light to the whole world with just my birth. It was my duty from birth to move the sun. The world was resetting by our parent's design. My mother never told me what lived before. She only told me that there was a race of creatures that were extremely violent, and they where going to destroy the universe. I learned that peace is what is keeping our world from destruction. From what my mother told me, it would be wise to keep it that way.

Soon after Zion ate his dinner, I placed him in his crib. I took a moment to smile at his face. He gave a blank stare, but I didn't really care. He looked cute just looking at me, and his pink eyes showed the burning flame of life in his eyes. It felt like he was more than what he looked like. Frankly, I was still confused. I've been trying to use different spells to try to find his father, but the errors just keep piling up. It was like his father existed, but didn't. I was about to slam my head into a wall, but I decided against it because it would be a horrible idea.

A few hours eventually passed doing nothing but signing more papers and waiting to see if Hammer would come to tell me I had work to do outside of my room. I figured I would need to go speak to him. It's been almost two days from the last time I was needed to speak to a pompous noble. I took a few moments to stretch my legs, they had fallen asleep from inactivity, and my rather large posterior didn't help but I took pride in my flank. My consorts didn't complain that's for sure. So when I got out of my room after taking a last look at Zion while he peacefully slept I started to walk around the castle, looking for Hammer.

        I didn't know how long I was walking alone in the grand halls of the palace, humming a slight melody, and taking my time to casually walk. I was making my way, and a way it was to take a break. I had been keeping Luna back for far too long in terms of duties. While I was doing this I heard a small bell ring in my head. I looked around and saw Discord standing on the other end of the hall.

        He didn't look too happy, I motioned him to get to me. He complied, and began walking with me. He didn't speak a word, which was by fact, strange, and unlike the Spirit of Chaos like I knew. I looked to him, hoping I could find something out, but all he did was look onwards. I was starting to worry if something was wrong. All he did was look on down the curved hall with clear glass windows, and even the aura around his body seemed to be more tame that it should be. Twilight would consider this to be as serious as a serious Pinkie Pie, which was a rarity like Rarity stealing, and Rainbow Dash being disloyal. Ever since that day he'd been acting out of remorse for his actions, trying his best  to make it up to the elements. They forgave him, but he didn't believe it.

        "Discord?" I said to him, hoping to get a response. "Are you okay?"

        He looked at me, his eyes had looked better, they were red, and it looked as though he was crying. The fur under his eyes were padded down from the dry tears and began to crust. He only replied with, "You understand I am only a spirit, but... how can I feel like I do? I love...I love Fluttershy. How can that be?"

        I smiled. "It's normal Discord, do not worry. I am me, but I can still feel love. I love Zion, I love Twilight-"

        "It's a different kind of love Tia....I LOVE her, not see her as family." His neck bent down. "All she does is forgive, and forgive...and She is so kind, her fur is soft when I hug her."

I looked to him, smiling at his sudden change, though I still had a ward up to be sure. "You respect her enough to love her I suppose. I must say Discord...I'm...surprised to her this, even from you. Tell me, what has caused this sudden change?"

He sighed, guessing I brought something painful up, I thought it may have been the time he betrayed the elements. It was only the sound of his sigh that gave this clue to how he felt about this. "Believe it or not Celestia... I have changed. It is because I found being evil only brings you laughter, but friendship gives you love, laughter...happiness." Discord paused his movement, and looked out the window, over looking at the west side of Canterlot. It was a more...rugged part of Canterlot, an industrial sector of sorts. Drug crime was higher in those parts, but most of it was just from marijuana, so I just used it for medical reasons for Canterlot Royal Hospital. Anyways, "When I saw Fluttershy cry... It was like watching the death of a dragon. Such a respected being, dying from old age... hearing his last cries to end his pain. It was like that..." I was tearing up at this point. He was correct about a dragon, they are in a lot of pain when they die.

For those of you who don't understand. When A dragon dies, it's fire burns it from the inside. He feels all the pain until his brain burns, as a dragon can survive without oxygen for up to twelve hours, allowing them go into extreme stasis, letting them live so long. It's painful to see such suffering, and agony with no hope for help as dragon hide is nearly indestructible. So I nodded saying, "I see, so you wish to repay her for your past transgressions?" I shook my head chuckling. "At least make it to me before you stop."

He chuckled back. "I'll think on it Tia. I must be going however. I suppose I have a date with Fluttershy to the spa with Rarity." Before he snapped his fingers, he paused for  another moment. He inhaled deeply before letting out, "Thank you for this Celestia. It is moments like these where I wish I never went insane."

I seriously nodded. "I agree Discord, perhaps one day."

        Discord left with a smile on his face, presumably for him to meet Fluttershy looking like he was in a good mood. It sounded rather familiar, and I sighed, remembering I just got out of that same situation.

I paused, feeling a slight pulling feeling. I looked to where I I felt the pull, my tail, and I saw a little white colt with dark blue mane. I blinked, and it looked older, much older. That's when I also saw it was a pegasus, missing a wing, a leg, and it was covered in scars. It looked up at me, and a tear came down it's face.

"Mom..." was all it said before vanishing. I felt my heart tugging, and gasped for a breath, feeling the backlash of a powerful spell. I coughed trying to catch my breath, but I didn't recover in time to not alert my favorite guards, Hammer.

"Princess!" He rushed over, checking if I was alright. "Are you okay? I heard you coughing, and I came running."

I nodded, my frown gave him the wrong answer. "I'm fine Hammer, I just saw an illusion."

His horn touched my head, and then it moved away. "You seem fine princess. Have you slept lately? Like, at all?"

I winced. "As of late, not much honestly. It's been three months since Zion, and..." I sighed. "I have this feeling that something bad will happen to him."

"I understand princess, just try to get better soon. I'm sure you're just worrying over something as small as a feeling. The castle is well protected. Luna, and your towers are protected by ten dozen wards and protection spells, and don't forget about the Threstrals guarding during the night." He had made a good point.

"You're right Hammer. If Discord can't enter my room, I'm sure no pony can. Are there any visitors?"

"No ma'am, princess Luna has been taking care of your court duties while you are in your room." My jaw dropped, but he stopped me before I spoke. "Don't worry princess, I've been keeping an eye on her for a while now. She's doing alright. Now, why don't you go back to your room, take a nice bath, and get some well deserved sleep. Eh?"

I giggled. "It's like you're my lover Hammer. You take better care of me than anypony I know."

He bowed with a long smile. "Princess Celestia, I am your highest ranking knight. It is my duty to make sure that you are at peace. If it means giving you the thought of me being your lover, than let it be. I like to think that I am doing my job, your... example is only telling me I am doing it better than I thought."

"So humble Sir Hammer..." I rolled my eyes. "I'll be off then. I shall see you tomorrow."

He bid be farewell, and walked back towards the throne room. His trot had a little bounce, but I laughed it off as I walked back. The halls were beginning to light themselves with magic orbs that slowly changed colors. It gave the castle the look like it was alive from afar, looking over all of Equestria. It already did, but when you have something as big as Canterlot looking over Equestria looking like it was alive, gave you a weird feeling if you stared at it too long. Only slightly creepy, other than that, it was beautiful.

And when I had made my way back into my room, I saw Zion grabbing his toes. I walked over to him, and nuzzled his belly, getting him to laugh again.

"Zion, you are mine." That was all I said before I went to take a shower. The more I thought about what Hammer told me, he was right, I need to relax.