I still remember everything that happened that night. When I close my eyes, even when I think I’m dreaming, it all feels just so real. Many of you know me as the spirit of chaos, a creature with the head of a pony, and a body of all sorts of parts that represent disharmony. If you do, then I’m pretty sure you won’t believe me when I say that I wasn’t born like this, I was cursed. Not because I chose to, it was because I was forced. And If I didn’t do it, life that I knew right then and there would be nothing, my family and I, would never exist today.
“Discord? Are you ok?” A sudden gentle voice interrupted my thoughts. I blinked and looked over to see Fluttershy, my best friend, standing there with a worried expression on her face. The day began to rush back to me.
“Why, yes Fluttershy, I’m alright.” I replied simply as I handed her some lettuce and carrots I chopped up to make a salad for that damn bunny Angel. Her warm smile returned and began to mix the vegetables while I leaned against the counter and signed.
What am I going to do? I haven’t told anypony about the curse in years. I‘m still not sure I should even tell Fluttershy. Would she believe me, or will she think it’s all a joke? Will she become scared, never look at me the same way again? I don’t want our friendship to be over just because of my past. I mean, she’s never asked me before but if she does, should I lie, or tell the truth? A sudden sharp pain shot straight up my arm, bringing me to present day, I looked down at me arm and realized that I somehow cut my finger with the knife that I used while chopping the vegetables. My eyebrows furrowed. I thought I put that knife away. A sudden gasp made me jump slightly.
“Oh my goodness! Are you ok Discord?! Does it hurt?!” Fluttershy asked quickly while inspecting the cut, her worried look back.
Before I could answer, she interrupted. “Wait right there! I’ll go get the first aid kit!” She immediately flew down the hallway before I could even utter a word.
I inspected the wound. It didn’t look that bad but I’m it could need some cleaning up. I suddenly looked at the knife. Now how the world did that get there in the first place? A sudden high pitched giggle made me whirl around, coming face to face with Angel. He was giggling and sticking his tongue out. My eyes narrowed. Before I had a chance to attack him, Fluttershy came back. I watched silently as she cleaned and wrapped the wound, occasionally glaring at Angel.
“Thank you Fluttershy.” I said when she finished wrapping the wound up. She smiled and gently placed her hoof on top of my eagle claw.
“Anytime Discord. Now how on earth did you cut yourself if you weren’t doing anything?” She questioned while I simply shrugged.
“I was lost in thought and I was probably holding the knife.” I stated.
Before she questioned further, the kettle whistled wildly and Fluttershy raced over to get it while I sat down at the table. After one look at the Angel, who was doing something else at the moment, I quickly snapped my fingers which caused him to disappear. That ought to keep him away for a while. Fluttershy then returned, carrying a tray with two cups of tea and a daisy sandwich for her. I silently added milk while she slowly took a bit of her sandwich, looking at me with curious eyes. I knew what she was going to ask, but I refused. I really don’t want to tell, to not ruin our friendship. Fluttershy then swallowed and opened her mouth.
“Discord, what were you thinking about that made you cut yourself?” She questioned silently. I shook my head.
“Oh, nothing really my dear. Nothing to be worried about.” I answered a bit quickly, hoping that she wouldn’t notice, but, unfortunately, she did.
“Discord, are you keeping a secret from me? You know that I’ll always be here if you want to talk.” She stated caringly with a smile.
“I’m afraid I can’t share this story with you Fluttershy. I’m afraid it might ruin our friendship.” I said. She frowned, confused, until she flew over to me and wrapped her hooves around me.
“You know that nothing will be able to break our friendship, no matter what it might be.” She murmured. I began to think a little bit before giving in.
“Alright. If you really want to know, then I’ll tell you.” I murmured back. She let out a silent yay and went back to her seat while I signed and looked down at my eagle claw and lion paw.
“I was thinking about my past Fluttershy. But let me warn you, you can’t tell anypony what I’m about to tell you, for my life might be on the line if you do.” With a silent nod, I began to tell my story.
“Well, thousands of years ago, I was actually a pony living quite a normal life in Canterlot. I had a regular sized family, living in a nice home, having all that I ever wanted. Life to me was truly perfect. I couldn’t have asked for anything else in the world. My cutie mark was a tornado, which represented my strength and my passion for changing others point of view, sometimes, for others. And then, they attacked. Within moments, fires blazed through the streets and burned down many houses and markets. Many ponies died risking their life for others while the rest of us were captured and brought to a camp. We hardly got any food or water, and were separated by gender. The weak were killed off as soon as we got there, while the strong were kept inside a small home. Two weeks later, I was brought in to the captain of the camp and the person who enforced the attacks, Tirek.
He know about my strengths, what my cutie mark represented and was quite impressed. He promised me freedom and power over any pony, but I refused. A few days later, he swore that he would kill my family if I didn’t follow his rules. I was torn. I didn’t want to my family to die but I didn’t want to be changed into a living weapon just for Tirek. He didn’t let me chose, for he took me in and prepared me. The pain was horrible but at the same time powerful. I felt like I was the most powerful pony in all of Equestria. But, as you can see, it all came with a price. Shortly after I was changed, I was locked up and forced to use my magic to kill other and turn their world literally upside down. I hated the feeling of being in control, when Tirek promised me that I would be free.
As the days went by, visions of a perfect world that I wanted began to float throughout my head, beckoning me to make it a reality. I tried to convince Tirek to use my plans, but he dismissed me and thought it was all child’s play. A few months later, I was able to escape the imprisonment and made my way toward Equestria. There, I started to play out my visions. It was everything that I always wanted in life, and maybe even more. Although a part of me wanted to let go of my powers, to try to find a way to turn everything back to the way, I just simply pushed it away. Thanks to Tirek, I was now the most powerful thing in Equestria. No amount of imprisonment could ever change that. I was now free to make my own choices and control Equestria the way I wanted to.
And then, you came along Fluttershy. At first, I thought it was absolutely ridiculous that a pony like you would dare to reform me. But then, I began to realize for who you really were and began to change me in ways that I thought had died years ago. I soon felt a connection that began to remind me of my past, and now, I don’t ever want to let that go.” I explained while looking at Fluttershy. Tears brimmed her turquoise eyes and she looked on, a sad look on her face. I flew over to her and cupped my eagle claw under her chin and looked at her.
“You see Fluttershy, you were so kind and caring to me in ways that reminded me of my mother. You never doubted me for a second and nothing ever changed that. You always forgave me when I did wrong, and you always listened to me no matter what.”
I wrapped my arms gently across Fluttershy as she buried her face into my shoulder and finally cried silently. I gently rubbed her back and waited patiently until she was finished. Then, I finally broke free from the hug and place my eagle claw and lion paw on her shoulders, wiping away the last of the tears.
“I’m so sorry Discord, about everything that happened to you.” She said quietly. I only shook my head and gave her a look saying that it would be alright. She smiled and I returned it.
“Thank you Fluttershy, for showing me who I really was in the end."
