Dear, Princess Celestia...
Dear Princess Celestia,
Hello. My name is Twilight Sparkle. I am ten years old. I like to read books and play with my doll. His name is Smartypants. I love him so much. But not as much as I love you. Well, I don't really love you, love you. I just really like all the things you do. You make everypony equal and you raise the sun and the moon.
I am writing to you because I don't have any friends. It's almost like no matter how hard ~~i~~ I try, I can't find anypony who will be my friend. I have tried everything. I have read books about friends. I have listened to advice from other ponies. In fact, I even listened to your advice and it still never worked.
Why is it so hard to make friends, Princess Celestia? I don't get it. I thought other ponies were supposed to be caring of each other, even if they are strangers. If that is the truth, then why has it not happened to me yet? Is there something wrong with me? Is there something that nopony likes about me?
I always said to myself that I should list down some positives about myself. I always love to make lists. Lists about cooking ingredients, lists about books and even lists about my lists! Isn't that funny? I always loved to stay organized. But my house isn't very clean, so I guess I really aren't that organized.
I have wrote to you many times before, but I never get a letter back. I thought to myself, 'well that is weird. Isn't Princess Celestia perfect?' Sometimes I have a hard time understanding why you don't write back. But I guess maybe it is because you get so many letters with ponies saying how perfect they "think" you are.
Then I realized. Nopony is perfect, so why would they think that you are perfect? Maybe that's why my parents say that I'm not perfect. I was never perfect and I think that I may never will be. I guess it makes sense, because I didn't earn my cutie mark until last month. I think I said that in my last letter, but I'll say it again in case you didn't get my letter.
I like to cast magic spells. Sometimes they are nothing special. My horn is pretty weak, so I can't really make anything amazing or jaw dropping. But there was one time where my entire body was filled with magic. My horn tingled, my body felt weird and everything was bright white. Then I blacked out for a little bit.
Everything started getting weird after that. I finally got my cutie mark. I was so happy that I finally got my cutie mark! But my parents were afraid. They said that the mark was "dark magic". There were these other ponies that cane came into our house and 'studied' me. They asked me a bunch of questions. They kept looking at my cutie mark, then quickly looked back away.
Soon, things were getting worse. I started blacking out during questioning, and then once I woke up there was somepony on the floor. They looked at me with wide eyes, although I didn't understand what they meant. Why were they looking at me like that? Were they mad at me? Soon, more ponies came, but they were wearing golden armour and had weapons.
I read in a book that they were part of the Royal Guard. These were stallions who were tough as nails and that they were the strongest in the entire land of Equestria. They were guards who even protected you, Princess Celestia. They surrounded our entire house and they didn't let us out of our home. We were stuck in there for a while.
Soon, my parents wouldn't look at me anymore. I was sent to my room and I spent most of my time reading books. Things were getting worse. Soon, my parents started yelling at each other. They said that they had a "cursed" foal. The rest I couldn't make out. I didn't understand. Why would they talk like that about me?
Soon, I was starting to get mad. Why would my own parents talk about to me that way? Soon, I started to yell at my parents. They started to get scared of me. I hated that. Why would they be scared of their own daughter. Soon, I got really mad. Then my horn started to tingle like it did before. My entire body felt weird again, and then I blacked out.
After I woke up, I found that both of my parents were on the floor. I tried to shake them, but they didn't get up. I started to cry. I didn't have any friends, my parents were gone and I was all alone in my little house.
That's when I started writing letters to you. Soon, that's all I ever did. I wrote letter after letter after letter, hoping that finally someday I would get a letter back from you. I stared at my mailbox in front of my house for hours, but no mailpony came. Then, if he didn't come, I would send another letter. Then another. Then another. Then another.
Now here we are. Sometimes, I wanted to go to the Royal Castle myself so I could see you, but I was afraid that nopony would like me. I didn't have any friends, so how would I be able to talk to you? In fact, I wondered if you would even like me. Nopony likes me, so why would you?
Why, Celestia? Why is it so hard to make friends? It gets so hard sometimes that I want to hurt myself. Sometimes, I think that it's not worth it to keep going on. Is there a point in going on anymore? Why would I want to live in a world where nopony else likes you for who you are?
All because of my stupid cutie mark. Nopony likes me just because of my cutie mark! Why is that, Celestia? Why does it have to be that way, Celestia? Why can't you fix me, Celestia? Huh? Why not?
Why not, Celestia?!
Are you too dumb to fix my problem, Celestia?!
I HATE YOU, PRINCESS CELESTIA! I HATE YOU!
Princess, I am so sorry for what I said. I don't hate you. I really like you.
I just want to feel loved. Why can't I feel loved? Why won't anypony be there for me when I need it most?
I'm sorry. I won't get mad next letter.
Sincerely,
Twilight Sparkle.
