what if it ended like this
What if…
“What if it all ended like this” spike thought to himself as his lungs slowly fill with water now a good 40 feet under the water after jumping back first off the tallest waterfall in Equestria. “is this what my life amounted to you twilight, those soft velvet eyes burn his soul as he recalls how bad she broke him and yet those eyes looking lovingly at me if only in my head. You never quite knew how much I did in fact love you, how much I sacrificed in hopes you’d just see me. I wonder if anypony will find me… if not oh well this is a better end it’s more peaceful,
I start choking softly and gasping for air that isn’t there, I was just quietly brilliant making extravagant meals, taking you home when you had FAR too much cider, and on many nights was puking all night cradling in my arms saying that you loved me not really meaning it… when you sobered up I made your bed and laid you in it and tucked you in and kissed your head and even stayed awake to make sure your still breathing and now It all just ends like this. My eyes grow heavy and my lungs start burning like fire. Twi…please co..me…sa..ve..m..e anypony…save me…
I wake up jolted by the nightmare ice cold sweat forms as I look up and see twilight and see her dreaming peacefully… my heart sinks knowing i can’t have her so I get up quietly and leave without saying a word or leaving a note like I’d normally do out of habit. I just need to be alone to sort out my own feelings and realize she doesn’t love me back, and so I leave to the highest point of Equestria my save haven if you will. As twilight wakes up rather late in the morning because her assistant was not there to rouse her from her sleep she groggily groans “spike why didn’t yo-“ she moves to the end of the bed where her assistant resides “spike?” *he must be down stairs making breakfast* she thought to herself. She hops out of bed “Spike?! What’s for breakfast” she raises her voice as she comes down the stairs “Spike! Answer me! Would you?! Geez-” *hmm….not here… either…* “SPIKE!??” she is growing a bit worried now “Spike this is not funny anymore! Come Here!” after a good 15 mins searching her home she uses her magic to form a sort of homing spell.
*hmm I wonder where he could have gone*”she was the one that gave me this life I’m like a brother to her…and yet I love her so much so much my heart aches and she does not see it but… she is smarter than that….she knows…” twilight traced my path and teleported to my Haven just in time to see me break…”twilight just leave please…” “spike there yo-…” tears start streaming down my face as I meet her eyes with my own “twilight I want to be alone…please…. “spike…” she trots over to try an console him with a hug, he takes the hug for a brief moment then swats her away out of fear “no twilight….don’t do this…please” he starts tearing up “I’ve had enough..” “enough?” she asks “enough of what!?” “This” he replied “you comforting me being there for me loving me…when you don’t!! IT’S ALL…..all…lies….” he steps closer to the edge of the cliff “I love you twilight…more then you’ll ever…. Know” He closes his eyes and lets gravity take him in the shock of it all her brain just froze and watched him drop then 4 seconds later she snapped out of it.
“S-SPIKE…SPIKE NOO!!!!!!!” Bawling tears streaming down her face and she tries to use a teleport spell to reach the bottom before he hits but she is so flustered she can’t calm herself down then within the last seconds there is a loud splash her heart gets torn from her in a matter of speaking seeing her friend, her brother, her love.. just give up and fall like that right in front of her she finally manages teleport down the bottom of the waterfall find his body, take him to land and start muzzle to mouth recitation *spike SPIKE please for the love of Celestia wake up…. After a good 15 mins of this he coughs to show at least a sign of life. spike wakes to see twilight over him bawling and now seeing as he is alive she is kissing him ever so gently “spike don’t ever leave me I don’t even know how I’d live with myself” she said in a faint whisper caressing his face with her hoof
“I love you spike…I love you..i understand how you must have felt all this time but suicide is not the answer it never is, all the girls, and I would miss you the most I have now come to know just how much you do love me, all of the pain you must have felt to the point of if if you can’t have me then I want no part in watching you with anypony else. I am so very lucky to have somepony like you always by my side. Now please can we go home spike? If you’d like later tonight I’ll let you sleep with me, I know about your nightmares I have Luna keep tabs on you because you are so important to me so I’ll be the one to fight them away so please spike no more attempts like this please” she trots back with spike on her back humming softly with spike sleeping on her back silently crying at the almost loss of one of her closest friends, as she trots inside she gently lays him down kisses his head and lets him sleep *now what can I do for him as repayment for everything he has ever done for me.*
and thus she starts to plain….