Something That Means More...
"But there's no thing that's worth as much to me as a friend"
I couldn't stop thinking about that. Ever since the train ride home, it had been on my mind. It always made me wondered if they were really the most important things in my life. Apparently they mean more than my lifelong dream of being a Wonderbolt, that I can definitely say is true. But are friends seriously that important. They're a big part of my life and all, but I don't necessarily need them to live. But they do make me happy, I'm not saying that they don't. Together we have done so much but... is it truly the main thing in my whole entire life? I remember a time where I didn't have friends, and ponies make it sound like it's a bad thing. I was just neutral with everyone and talked to others when they talked to me, but I didn't feel miserable like everypony makes it out to be. But I am an element of harmony which makes it not only a huge part in my life, but in others lives too, so it's not like it should be this debatable. Obviously it is! But I don't know... something in me is just doubting it all. What could possibly be better than friends?
Living... family... wings...
Wait a minute! Did... did I just put my... wings... over my friends?! Would I seriously take my wings before my friends? If I really had a choice between the two... would I just let them all go just to fly and pursue my dreams and live a happy life? No, no shut up, Dash... you... you're the element of loyalty ya big dummy! But... there's a limit on how far a pony can go, right? Like, Twilight's magic isn't endless, Fluttershy can only be so kind until her emotions get the better of her, Rarity can't just give away practically her entire life... So there's a limit to my loyalty too, of course. But something like... wings... It's not right is it? That's be like me saying I'd rather die than not live without wings because... because I could live without wings, of course. Yeah... I... no... I don't think I could really....Wait, what am I thinking!? Of course I should be able to manage without my wings.
But your wings... to fly... to feel the wind rushing through your mane... it's what you live for, right?
N-no, shut up! I don't know why I'm yelling at you! You're... you're just some stupid voice in my head! Celestia... am I insane?!
No... yes... maybe... I dunno, you tell me. By the way, you know I'm right. Your wings are everything to you and you know it!
HEY! Stop making me question my loyalty. It's my element and I will stick to it! I don't care what anypony says, even you. You aren't right! I WILL-
Tsk, tsk... Dashie, Dashie, why do you doubt me. I am only you, formed by you, to make you see the truth. Yes, you love your friends very much, but your wings... Without them you'd be lost... a shell of what you used to be...
Wait a minute... Heh, okay Discord, stop messing around with my brain. Only you'd do something like this. You're just trying to mess with my and make me feel insane aren't ya.
Nah, I'm not Discord, I'm formed by your brain. I'm made up by you and everything I say is subconsciously made by you. You are arguing with yourself.
What...? No, this seriously isn't funny. STOP!
I don't think it's funny either. Y'know, because I'm you.
Geez, you don't make this easy at all. I... I don't even know what to think now. It's really not good I mean... A bundle of feathers over my living, breathing, wonderful friends?! What... what type of pony am I to even think of this crap?! Why am I contemplating this?! No... I can't be doing this... oh geez, oh crap... Celestia help me! I... this isn't how I'm supposed to be! I'm not right!
Help me!
Help me.
Help me...
"I'm so sorry, Princess Twilight I... there's nothing we can do to help her. She's completely lost and at this rate... *Sigh* We're almost completely sure she'll never make a full recovery. The best we could ever hope to do is to... keep her safe from herself and others. Other than that... I'm sorry."
The doctor had said told the bad news with a heavy heart. He took a deep breath. He hated seeing ponies fall into insanity, but this was a very special case. He'd never seen anything like this ever in his life. He looked at the shivering form of the patient he was currently talking about and... it was a sad sight. She had become a completely grey and black pony, the color removed from everything and she never looked up from the ground. She cried very often and she'd always whisper "Wings... friends... wings... friends...". Sometimes, she'd randomly lash out at nopony, yelling that they were wrong and that she loved her friends.
Twilight, despite being heartbroken, took a few days to monitor her behaviour and find out what was the cause of this mental breakdown. She came up with the possibility that she did something or a few things that were against her element and it made her snap. Actually, all of her theories led to something about her element and going against it. Discord was striped of his magic, but it didn't work. Apparently, this happened on her own account. Something, even a little thing possibly, sent her over he edge. For some ponies, it didn't take much. A sentence, a flicker of something, a small action, really it matters how their brain works, reacts to stuff and how stable it is.
The doctor stopped his internal rambling and looked at the once cyan pony and frowned. She stared back. And before he left to go and check on another patient, he swore he saw a flicker of violet in those eyes and it seems as if she were begging for help. He could hear it in his head.
Help me, please!
He then shook his head and walked away. A few seconds later, the now grey mare cried on the floor.
All hope was lost.
Author's Note
"But there's no thing that's worth as much to me as a friend" : A quote from Trade Ya.
Just something I came up with out of nowhere. I know it's not very good though compared to a lot of the other things I have written, but hey, it's something. This was just my first story for the Oneshotober challenge. I know what you're thinking... "FIRST?! THIS LATE IN THE MONTH?! How are ya gonna get yourself through this one, Sonic?" Well, the truth is that I don't know at all. We'll just have to see what happens eh?
