Life is Unfair

So diary, now I have that all out of my system and I can also refer to it at any time in my life, I must get to what I did today. I had a quite inspiring conversation with my older sister this morning after staying up all night writing in you. I only had the energy 'cause at about 2:00 in the morning I made myself my own carbohydrate-full meal. I was bored(and hungry), okay?

Anyway, I was still thinking about what had happened. Fuzzberry Orphanage isn't so much an orphanage as it is a Home. If Home has a capital at the start, it definitely doesn't mean an ordinary house. It means a home for foals that either aren't wanted or don't have anywhere to live anymore. Everything was still whizzing round in a blur, and it seemed no one else knew what I was going through. I felt so alone. I felt like no one wanted to be friends with me.

At breakfast time, I sat next to my sister and stared forlornly down at my food. Deep down inside I wanted her to notice my bad mood but she wasn't looking at me. She was more focused in finishing her own food. I tried harder, picking up my spoon and dropping it back into my food. It made a loud clang and blaze's sensitive ears perked up and rotated to where the noise came from. She then looked at me, with a face on that almost said 'I feel sorry for you but I don't want you to know.'.

I played with my food for a while, then put down the cutlery and said,
"Can I be excused please?". It wasn't even a question. I just wanted to go. I left all of my dishes and stuff at the table and was out the door before they could even begin to try and process a response. My heart was still shattered from last week when the whole incident happened.

Blaze must have sensed this, because she was the next to be excused, but she cleaned both of our dishes for us to lift the burden. I had gone to our dormitory and was sitting uncomfortably on my bed, snuggling to my pillow while trying not to remember what was going on in my life currently. I fell absolutely terrible. But what made it worse was the next ponies to enter the dormitory weren't my sister. It was the three local bullies(who were also our roommates), Tangleweed, Cherry Pie and their ring leader, Strawberry Bliss.

"So, I heard you pushed your parents off a cliff, you little murderer." Strawberry mocked, putting extra emphasis on the word so. She wasn't using the word murderer jokingly like you would say, 'you're killing me you're so cute, you little murderer.' she was using it more seriously. She acted like she actually mean every word. "It takes a lot of courage to kill someone you love, especially the ones that made you..." she had an incredibly intimidating expression on which was mixed with pure joy and pride. She seemed to like making me upset.

"Don't talk like that." I moaned. I didn't think to make eye contact with them. By this point I had pulled out this diary and started drawing in the back. It was a very graphic picture of me and Blaze punching and strangling the three awful fillies while their parents helplessly watched in the corner, tied to a tree. Tangleweed's head had already exploded. I was wondering how much it would take for us to get that far with them.

"Watcha doin'?" She sneered and tried to look over my shoulder at what I was doing but I shut the book. "Hey, let me see that!" she said with an annoyed tone. She must have been frustrated by not being able to invade everyone's privacy. "Give it to me, you little weasel!" she snatched the book from my hooves and read it aloud to her minions. " Dear diary, Today I was so happy to meet Strawberry Bliss, Tangleweed and Cherry Pie." She stopped reading. "You like us?" My eyes started to well up with tears.

"Ever since I first met you. First time I saw you all, I thought you were the prettiest fillies I had ever seen. At the start you were so nice to me. But, then you changed. When I went to the Ponyville schoolhouse, the bullies back there said they were 'just kidding' so they could get themselves off the hook. So, I presumed you were too."

They all seemed touched. But then Strawberry smirked. "You got all that, Cherry?" She asked.
Cherry pie came out from behind Strawberry with a notebook and pen. "All of it." she had recorded everything I said." See you in the morning, sappy stuff." She dropped the book so it landed on the heart shape padlock on the front and smashed it. "Oh, i'm so sorry!" She said sarcastically. "I hope your parents's spirits come back and fix it in your sleep!" She started walking away and her little minions followed. "If they're not too mad at you for KILLING them." Tangleweed mumbled, but intended to make it so I could just about hear it.

At that moment, Blaze came out from behind the door frame with a tape recorder and said, "Could you confirm what you just said?" and Strawberry repeated,
" WE HOPE YOUR DEAD PARENTS COME AND FIX HER DIARY THAT WE BROKE IF THEY'RE NOT TOO MAD AT YOU FOR KILLing.....them....a while ago. Oh." She had turned around and seen the tape recorder. "We didn't mean any of that! Please don't snitch on us!"
"Sorry girls, but as you know, bullying is not tolerated at Fuzzberry. Come on sis. It's time to end this." and we both trotted down to Miss Coaco's office to show her everything.

After we were finished, we both galloped happily back up the stairs and leaped onto our beds. I started to sing a song that we had both made up.

"And though you're oh so far away, I miss you everyday,"

Then blaze joined in.

"Everyday since forever. I've loved you, I've loved you all the wa-a-a-a-a-y."

Blaze got up, "I'm gonna go wash my face, okay?" and with that, she plodded over to she bathroom, rubbed some shower gel on and splashed some water into her face before trotting back up to me. I looked up at her and inquired,
"Us losing our parents and friends, being sent here, the BULLIES. Do you think any of that is fair?"
"Well, when you ponder about it too much..." she began,

"Life is unfair."