Journel

September 15th, 2014

Oh, my English teacher just fucked up! My mom hated her in seventh grade and this year she says Mrs Pickford went 'too far'. I honestly could give less of a shit. At any given point, I could give Masty the okay to slit anyone's throat without even thinking. He wants to do so but I tell him not to. I don't want to fuck up our mission at all. I will not let it happen. He understands and so do I.

But anyways, I had to move my lunch and English periods. Alright, I could care less. I put up this pathetic act like I have this 'Selective Mutism'. I obviously don't but what do they know? I would rather them think I was that than know the truth. If they found out... I think I would do exactly what I did so many other times. I hate doing that. This mortal body and life is working out so well right now. But I will do it if I absolutely have to. I hope I don't have to though.

Tomorrow or in a few days, I will have a new English teacher. Alright, great. Hopefully it's further away from room 400, that cursed place. I want nothing to do with it.

So, I did Mario and Luigi's Mind and Heart Eternals tests and the results... I knew it. I fucking knew it. I knew it but brushed it aside. I couldn't focus on it but now I know and not telling them is a bad idea. I got it over with. I told them seperately and said to not worry and to give it time. If it is meant to be that the brothers turn out to be something more to each other, it's better to wait it out. For however long they need to.

It doesn't help that Judas had had a conversation with Mario about it. He doesn't need the results to know. He had once had a crush on his own brother, Cain. Cain never found out and Judas has thus moved on. But I remember him telling me what he told the other. They both may have anger issues but when it comes to the ones they are most close to, they are both willing to calm themselves down for the sake of a serious conversation. From what Judas tells me, he basically said the same thing i did and said that Mario had agreed to it.

It also doesn't help that Meowth decided to go through Mario's mind files with Luigi. I knew what they would fine but on my own accord, stayed out of it. I know that Meowth knows how to deal with this kind of thing much better than I do. He handled it well but that didn't mean he didn't have to shake some sense into Luigi. Mario had a controlled dark side that came out whenever someone tried to hurt Luigi. In a way he was overprotective, going over the darkest line to ensure his brother's safety.

Meowth had said that James had once been overprotective of him and only when it became too much did he call him out on it. Luigi in no way could do that because Mario was determined this side of him hidden from everyone but himself. But Meowth did not hold back as he said he had done much, much worse than Mario had ever done. And no one was necessarily scared of him, well unless he was in one of his many dark sides, then maybe.

But his point had gotten through to Luigi. Mario was just trying to protect him and wouldn't hurt him. The point was clear and so I noticed the bonds amoung the others strengthen. But I am sort of scared as to what would happen if the brothers were to find out about the others' knowing of their secrets. From past experiences, I know it can't possibly end well.