Journel

by SquipyCheetah

Rating: teen
Tags: Random
Length: 26838

Journel

Journel

Published 1970-01-01 00:00:00 UTC
Last updated 2015-02-15 07:15:14 UTC

August 28th, 2014

August 28th, 2014

I don't know why I am doing this, nor why I feel the need to anyways. Maybe because if I write this, someone is bound to find it more easily and this... this will remain hidden as long as I possibly can. I have a plan for it anyways. Even if someone were to find this, they would not understand it. Even though I might use our terms and/or names, nothing will make sense. And for the sake of everyone, I am determined to keep it that way.

Yesterday, I went to the high school orientation and although I enjoyed the parts with just us kids together and felt bored by the parts of just informing us, I still was not entirely alone there. I asked Meowth to do it, all the way back at the end of middle school and I told him to disregard any annoyance or anger I might have towards him. But even when I felt both, I knew he was right. He kept telling me the same thing over and over again, because I would stray off and forget. He was there to pull me back even though I was really the only one who noticed him.

The one time I called my dad, I suppose I talked to Master Meowth as well who told me Wheatley was hallucinating and he couldn't fix him. I had given him something to try to calm him, knowing all too well what the hallucinations were and I cursed myself that I couldn't just leave to help him myself. No, I knew I couldn't, and no one blamed me. I know they all know I cannot do that or everything will be ruined. But I couldn't really keep my mind off of them for the rest of the time there, since I couldn't really contact them at the given moment, the situation I was in did not give me any time to do so without being caught. But I stuck it, Meowth still telling me the same thing, only then more so than usual. I knew he was simply doing that because he wanted to and because he knew I wanted him to do it. He's loyal and I like that about him.

Eventually, when my dad picked me up and I went back home, I immediately went to Master Meowth and Wheatley, whom had taken my advice and had gotten him to stop hallucinating. He questioned how he had done so, because he was not that close to him but I knew why. Because he trusted him. Trust is a huge part with us and without it, we might as well all be dead and scattered. No, we have trust and we stick together. Wheatley knew that when he was snapped out of his hallucination.

Wheatley had not been acting like himself for the rest of the day, his behavior jumpy and quiet, the complete opposite of who he normally was. But I knew why and gave him his own time to recover. And by the time I was beginning to go to sleep, he returned to that optimistic, curious and rambling self I had grown so used to.

I guess I should mention that I came home to a livestream and then seeing some of my favorite YouTubers get swatted by a false 'prank' call from some fucking idiot who thought that was funny. They did get arrested and I know the others are fine but I sometimes feel like the world is getting more and more stupid and dark. That feeling just grows every single day. I can't help it, because I truly believe it.

Tomorrow is the start of Pax Prime in Seattle. I know the guys that got swatted are going there and some of the others that I watch. I had forgotten about the convention a few days ago. Now, I know to look out for the news and goings ons in the convention. I just hope nothing gets too serious with the others, not like last time a convention happened.

I took this day to just basically do nothing and I honestly cannot wrap my head around the growing tensions around the others. Most are fine around each other but some others just seem to be awkward and unsteady around the others. I know what they are going through so, like they told me to, I step back and let them do their own thing, work it out. I want to help them but since they told me not to, I suppose I need to just hang back and interfere only when I need to. I care about them but I cannot help them with everything. I guess I had to learn that the hard way. I won't admit it hurts, but it does but I cannot show it. For the sake of everyone, I know I just can't.

Jodie and Aiden finally stepped down from it because we found out that they were what we all thought they were. They were not the true wielders of the Elements of the Eternals they represented and in change, were not Fourtelltas either. But it really doesn't matter and no one thinks it as a bad thing. This had happened before and no harm came from it and they will continue on with their lives as usual only with it no longer a worry for them. But Steven and Chi were put into their positions, Chi being a rather unique kitten that I have not gotten to know as of right now. I will work on changing that. She surely does have a good spirit and I know they will all do their best and do what they need to do. It's all any of us can do nowadays.

My grandma, Tan, I call her, does not approve or like the things that makes me, well... me. I am an atheist and I have openly displayed this by putting down everything religious and all the stupid things religious people do. I know that not all of them are bad, but it only adds to my growing dislike and trust for the human species and the world in general. She doesn't understand this, I guess and doesn't understand that the 'violent' games I play, watch, and get attached to actually help me and give me valuable information. But I don't really care about her opinion. I never did in the first place anyways.

My parents, especially my mom, they are just like this fucked up society. They expect me to do all the things that makes a girl a girl. But I honestly couldn't care less. They sometimes bring up some things that could happen in the future but what they don't understand is that it will never happen, because I can't.

I do not feel the need to date, males or females, because I do not like people in general and prefer and feel the safest 'by myself'. Technically, I am never really alone. Everyone else just thinks I am. But I'm not. Someone is always with me, not because they need to but because they want to. I'm fine with them because I trust them. All the others, I wish would just go away. I call myself pansexual, seeing both males and females as completely equal in more ways than one. But it will never happen because I do not want nor need it to happen.

I will never get married, I will never have kids, I will remain a virgin because I need to be. Doing so would ruin everything and no one can stop destiny in the first place anyways. I've been through too much of it already. I don't need even more drama to add to the neverending, growing list of the many things I have had to go through in my life so far. Fourteen years technically but in reality, I am much older than that.

I have loved too many already and almost all of them have failed in one way or another. I guess Wheatley will not betray me, ever but I somehow believe that this time, we will not fall out. But even if it does, our bond is strong enough that I know we will remain close even after it, if it ever happens, that is.

I also hate it how people think that I have anxiety, because I don't. I choose not to talk to the teachers or the psychiatrists, because I cannot trust them, because if I say anything, they will use that information against me and I don't need anymore of that right now. They said to be honest, so I will give them that one thing.

Do I hear voices in my mind, yes, I do. It's normal and is no way suggesting I'm crazy. The other Eternals all have it too, I am no exception. Do I see things others cannot, yes, I do. I see the other Eternals, they see me. Other people cannot because they do not have the ability. It is normal and natural to me. Why should that be seen as crazy? Do I think that I can read others' minds, yes, I do. Because I can. Telepathy works like that and the others, minus one, have it too. I've had it since before I was 'born' and it's a completely natural thing.

Again, I am not crazy but society thinks so and so people follow society's pathetic rules like drones. I hate it. I stick with people like the bronies who go against society. Hopefully one day, this fucking society, religion, will just fade from existence and never return. I think this world would be much better off anyways.

I guess I should not dwell on that stupid shit right now. It's around 11:50pm and I will begin to move on to the twenty ninth pretty soon. I had a pretty uneventful day in one form and a changing of time in another. But everything turned out okay and I hope it will at least stay that way for at least a few more days.

August 29th, 2014

August 29th, 2014

Nothing really happening today, besides the fact that I have sometimes been calling some of my cats a name or two from the others. I notice I say it quietly, like my voice knows to not say it loudly. But that's probably just them taking control of the volume of my voice and lowering it. I don't really mind though. I know they are doing it to protect me and so I am fine with it.

Wheatley keeps coming here to stay with me, despite me constantly telling him that if he is seen, then nothing good will come out of it. But he and I are careful and we all would do everything to hide the truth. Good thing to, because if it came out, I can't even begin to wonder what would happen.

Wheatley is not suffering from his hallucinations for the past day or so. And he's acting like his usual self. I still can't believe that I let my mind forget about that adventure all those years ago and when I had finally remembered, I wasted no time to go and rescue both him and his adopted little brother. I had opposed her and left. But that had been over a year ago and despite his now uncommon nightmares, we all had recovered from it. But I can't shake the feeling that she is planning something and will eventually come back. They all have and do anyways.

Enough of that, nothing of importance will happen today, well, unless the others decide to stir something up. Whether it be good or bad, they always know how to get something started around everyone. But we all seem to be laid back today and tomorrow... Shopping is boring, especially for this school stuff with my parents. But I will not be going with just them. No, he who had been clinging onto me these past few days, and he who had moved past the most recent hallucination will stay close to me, never seen nor noticed in the world of which I live.

My grandma and aunt are coming next week and I will do my best to remain calm and normal the entire time. Like at the high school orientation, I have asked him to stay with me the entire time and remind me while also letting ourselves grow closer. Hopefully nothing will go bad, because I honestly do not need any more drama in my life right now. I can control it time wise but anything else this world wants to throw at me, I am powerless to stop it. Well I could stop it, but that would only reveal everything and for the sake of everything, that cannot happen.

Because I was letting him deal with something on my computer, I acted like it had limited access, which visibly it did, but it was a flawless lie. I decided to return to my game of Fallout: New Vegas and delete my old file because I now understood the game better than the first time I played it. I remembered and noticed a lot of things in it though, because I just noticed that I could easily connect it to ours. I wasted no time in locating it and connecting it, though I did remember to block it off so nobody would 'accidentally' wander into it.

September 1st, 2014

September 1st, 2014

Twilight asked me to draw her today. I did as she asked, taking two full hours to get it right. But I couldn't help but wonder why she wanted me to do it anyways. Of course I asked and she simply said she was curious and wanted to see my style of her. I was fine with this answer because I knew it was the truth. She was Twilight Sparkle after all, the little adorkable pony I have grown to see as one of my best friends.

Meowth keeps appearing here, in this world. He stays invisible but he also tends to cling onto me whenever I go back onto the internet. He seems to be driving me away from anything Pokemon related. I keep seeing him tense up and panic begin to course through him. I see it, I feel it. I hate seeing him like this. He refuses to directly answer my obvious question and will simply emit a low growl if I even attempt to bring it up.

I feel like someone else said something to him to make him feel like this. But I know how sensitive him mind is. I cannot and will not try to read his mind, he would know almost instantly. I guess I just have to wait for something to happen, wait for him to tell me because now, I cannot do anything to help him.

My grandma and aunt are coming tomorrow. I feel kind of happy but mostly tense. I know I will have Meowth with me the entire time to remind me and to keep me company, but I can't help but feel tense about all of this. I do not want to fuck up, not when I have everything stabilized now. But I will struggle through this next week, I will have to if I am to survive the rest of this life, right?

September 2nd, 2014

September 2nd, 2014

What am I to do or say to him when I do not know how to help him? He has been having nightmares nearly every day for so many months now and the only way to get rid of them is to eliminate the cause of the nightmares and for him to face his fears and do and/or say something. And that is something that I know Meowth is unable to do, given his seemingly broken and paranoid state. He is not who he is meant to be, and only follows his heart in the most dire of circumstances. I know why he acts like this but I can't help but feel like he needs to be pushed a little or shown that he can act like his true self without worry of falling victim to some kind of enemy.

I know for a fact of what happened last night between he and Jessie and James. He had had another nightmare involving them that had them beat him to death. He was terrified, like he was after all of his nightmares but he still went to their balloon, looking for comfort like most of the times when he had Team Rocket related nightmares. He told me that he tried to keep to himself at first but then that Jessie and James had brought him over to them so that they could comfort him. He had shown them a memory that was haunting him of when he confessed to them that he loved Pikachu and then openly admitted to taking any and all of the anger and pain they would want to inflict upon him. But it had never happened at all in their times as Eternals. He said he had listened to their words of comfort and then asked what he was to them and that the term 'friend' used hurt him emotionally.

Friend had been a word exchanged but Meowth eventually flat out told them what they were to him and that he was scared that they would reject his feelings and make him feel even worse than before. He had prepared for the stinging rejection but it had never come for they were fine with his seeing them as his family, the only family he had ever known and the only family he had ever loved. The fact comforted him to no end and when he had fallen asleep again, no nightmares filled his mind.

I am confident that he will eventually know that he is safe and loved here and that he will not be constantly paranoid of every little thing. But he's happy when he wants to be and safe when he feels it so until then, I can't help but feel happy for he feline that I have grown so close to, even going sop far also call one of my adopted sons.

My grandma and aunt came today and I had to force myself to not speak too much, knowing that I could screw everything up while also having Meowth hanging over my shoulder the whole time, reminding me whenever I got even a little bit out of line. We had talked about mortal things and stuff like that and tomorrow we are all going to the aquarium. I know Meowth is not going to have a fun time there and I honestly don't know about myself either. I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Meowth told me of himself having a strange conversation with his protector, Ghost today. He had said that he had different feelings for his little adopted brother, Roach, than before and Meowth being Meowth, he took it into a completely different direction, causing the two to delve into a calm yet heated argument. He had given Ghost advice and told him to simply wait it out and to see if he felt the same and that if he needed help, then to come back to him. I do not know if that indicates a good thing or a bad thing but I hope for the best for Ghost and Roach. I hope they get this figured out but I know for certain that whatever happens, they have got each others' backs. They vowed and even Pinkie Promised that.

September 3rd, 2014

September 3rd, 2014

Woah, today was a lot to take in. Some good and some bad but a hectic day in general. I can only imagine what tomorrow is going to be like...

First, we went to the aquarium today and I couldn't help but feel myself more at ease there, surrounded by the ocean wildlife that I have grown so interested it. I could name names of creatures off the top of my head and understood facts about them with ease. I also was not surrounded by their voices, talking to me constantly and getting on my nerves. They were nicer this time and more open but I suppose that could also come from Meowth who was perched on my shoulder the whole time. He can be intimidating sometimes.

I can't say that he had a great time though. He was not afraid of water and actually liked it, but he seemed more protective and fearful than usual as he could also hear what the creatures were saying and, not understanding their intentions, he became on edge majority of the time, but he did know when to feel relaxed and have a little bit of a good time. I am grateful once more for him being there, for many reasons.

My mortal life may now be becoming clearer as I try to find something to do to not raise suspicions. I might become some kind of marine biologist, because my interest in the ocean and the creatures that live in it will both give me more information about this world but also allow me to do some of the things I constantly do anyways, observe and study.

On a more serious and could be bad note, I have noticed Ghost's behavior around Roach beginning to become nervous and strained, completely out of character for him. But I am told once more to not interfere, even though I see his distress and Roach believing he is doing something wrong, something to cause his adopted big brother to act this way around him. And I know Meowth is only making it worse, with him dropping sarcastic hints and phrases and refusing to directly help him. I know he simply doesn't want to get mixed up in something else serious like this but I also know about Ghost's normal behavior and how angry he can get.

Yet I know that no matter how angry either of them get, neither of them can bring each other to hurt the other in any way, shape, or form. They have been through too much and know each other too much to ruin that. But I hope they get this sorted out soon. Experience tells me that if this doesn't clear up in the next few days, things could easily go from bad to worse.

So, tomorrow is the first official day of high school and despite knowing that I will have both Meowth and Master Meowth with me, I cannot help but feel a little nervous. But I know I will pull through. Somehow, someway, I will make through it. But I have still decided to call tomorrow hell, and until further notice, that is what it will be called. Even if I do somehow find joy in it, it will take a whole bloody hell of a lot to change that opinion from disappearing. But once more, none of us, especially me will let the mortal human desires take me over. Not when one slip up could mean the end to everything. We've come too far to give up now.

September 4th, 2014

September 4th, 2014

Fuck me, today actually was hell. I cannot explain the amount of emotions and things I picked up in this school. I felt the entire time like I was being watched and having both Meowth and Master Meowth with me did not help because they picked it up too. It even got Master Meowth to become scared, which was a big accomplishment for whatever is in there. I kept trying to find the source but I never could. Whenever I would get close to where it should be, it would just vanish, and transfer to a different location. Oh, I have a very bad feeling about this...

I guess I let my mortal instincts get a hold of me today. My stomach hurt a lot during the first few periods and then went away when I forced it to leave. I have the same bus letter, number, and driver as last year. Bus D, Bus 793, and Debbie. Big coincidence, but I guess that might just be them hacking it for some reason. I don't really know anymore.

We were supposed to be in room 181 but that was Mr Alberts' room and we weren't supposed to be there so we got new schedules and we went to room 250, where we will now have Social Studies. Global history? Germany, Japan, Russia. The three places I need to know more about for more reasons than just me being curious. Cavemen, Greeks, Egypt? This is going to be a long and painful year isn't it?

Italian reminds me of Ezio. Of course it does and my teacher is probably on my grade's level of craziness. I like it, but I can't love it. Not when I feel on edge whenever I'm in this school now. I never felt this before today. I feel like whatever it is did this on purpose to scare us. If that's the case, then it's working.

Orchestra we have everyday. Great, I can get my mind off of some of the bad things and semi-relax. I can never fully relax anyways surrounded by mortal humans.

English has my seventh grade English teacher, Mrs Pickford. She knows me and I know her but I try to keep my distance. Any attachments can and will be used against me and I cannot afford that.

In lunch, I had stayed to myself and talked to Meowth and Master Meowth, who were with me the whole time about the new place and the... whatever it is. I have never seen Master Meowth this scared before. He was always searching for it and even Meowth knew to not disrupt him. Though, the three of us always stayed together, we never left each others' sides, that's how scared we were. And we will continue this for the rest of this school year. Great...

Math was easy to find on the third floor, right in the corner of the floor. It was fine, I guess. I do not like numbers and math especially, but I know for a fact that this year will be much, much better than whatever more hell next year will be. Just thinking about it makes my head hurt already.

The gym was so sweaty that I started to blank out every few seconds in response. Oh, how I wished to speed up time right then and there, but my two companions were quick to stop me, warning me not to and reminding me once more. I am grateful for their support once more and them being there was a great relief to me as well.

Science will definitely be interesting. Biology is what I will probably pursue later in this life and I will need the knowledge anyways for... well even that I do not know and even if I did, I would never reveal it. Even this is too visible to reveal it. So no, I will simply keep that a secret, never to be shared with this world.

The class is quiet and calm, no wonder. It's the end of the day and we all want to get the hell out as soon as possible. I don't blame them though, I wanted to leave as quickly as they wanted to.

The bus was easy to find, right in the front where we were dropped off and it will stay there for the rest of the school year. That is much better. Now, I don't have to worry about finding it and searching for it to come anymore. Thank the Funnelers for that even though I am very sure they are the reason for the same bus and everything anyways.

The bus ride was so hot once more that I barely paid attention to anything else. Thankfully they were by my side and reminded me where I was and what I was doing. Outside that school, they became much more casual and more like themselves. I did too, despite knowing something was very wrong inside of that school.

I need to get supplies, blah blah blah and I will have it on Monday. Great. Just great. And I had to do some cheesy homework and stuff and then 'talk' to my mom, dad, and grandma again. It lasted for a good bit and now I have some free time. But it's really not free. Not when one of my closest friends and adopted sons seems to be suffering from something brought on by his own self-hatred and internal pain.

I have permission to help him but now, Pikachu knows and it is effecting Meowth and he cannot control it. He thought Pikachu was hating him and was trying to hurt him and his mind would alter his voice and appearance, making his mind believe it. I can help him but the injection I gave him would only last a few days and then would continue. I need to research this though because I cannot stand the thought of him suffering anymore than he has already.

So, tomorrow is day two of hell and I will have both Meowth and Master Meowth with me once more. But I know that other... thing will be there too. I just know it and I have a very bad feeling about it too.

September 5th, 2014

September 5th, 2014

What did I say yesterday? Oh yeah, hell. And I was correct. Today was hell, more so than usual. And not for the normal reasons too.

I started my day out with a very short tempered companion that wasn't in the mood for anything and was half asleep anyways. Why Master Meowth decided to stay up is a mystery to me. I offered to let him stay behind but he very forcefully said no. Even I know to not mess with him, a well known maniac amoung us. I will be honest that I didn't feel too great myself. But I ignored it. I had to show no pain or discomfort. It was just how things worked.

The first period of school was social studies which we semi-learned about globalization. I have to admit that I was not in the mood for checking my backpack and sneakers for their brand and where they were made. But that didn't last very long, thankfully.

Italian was sorta painful especially with me recognizing a lot of the words from being around Ezio and Altair recently. But the fact that the teacher seems to be on this generations' level of craziness. One kid would not say what it was and said it was bad. I let them guess for themselves before I checked myself. Not stripper or drug dealer but sort of close. I will not say it, but I will say that I had mixed feelings on what I learned that period.

Orchestra was a normal period and so was English. The teacher, asked who knew Kirk-Murphy from Oregon, my seventh grade social studies teacher. No idea why and I honestly was not in the mood to check. Maybe I'll do that on Monday if I even bother to remember, which I most likely won't.

Lunch was again the time I took to talk quietly to them who seemed very on edge because of whatever it was. I looked and so did they. But nothing. We had no idea what it possibly be and if this keeps happening... I don't know what I'll do. But leaving it alone will not solve anything and for everyone's sakes, I feel as though I must be the one to figure it out. And a feeling in my heart tells me none of this will turn out to be too good.

We took a stupid pre-test in math today and I used my Calc and I didn't even bother 'cheating' today. It didn't count so I semi-tried and went with it. Now, this is where my day really fell apart.

While I was going down to the stairs, I miscounted the stairs and skipped over two instead of one. My leg hurt, it still does but I decided to ignore it to get to my joint Science class. But I kept receiving strange looks from Meowth the first full period. When we had a five minute break was when I left and it happened. Meowth, believing that my leg was hurt to the point that it would snap, transferred some of my pain to himself and broke his own leg. Master Meowth may be resistant to pain but he is not and it still amazes me how easily he did it and how he was able to contain his emotions long enough for his alter ego to ease the pain.

I know why he did it. He cares about those he loves and does not want them to suffer like he always is. That was why he did not because he would take the pain to show others he cared. It was nice of him but I can't help but feel like he took it a little too far. My leg wouldn't have snapped or broken but he has such a panicked mind that I should have at least guessed it.

I had Master Meowth take him back to our world and have the others take care of him while I painfully went through the last period of the day. The bus was not too different from yesterday. Hot and sweaty. But we all lowered the windows, even the already broken ones. One was stiff and stuck so someone from the back took off his shoe and threw it to the front and told them to bang the window with it. It worked and that is the generation I am in. I would be proud if I actually was of this world. But I'm not so it barely fazed me. Also, I got my ID card to get into the lunch room, which I will probably use for that one purpose and that one purpose only.

Today was the last day that my aunt and grandma will be here and I still can't believe I almost enjoyed it. My mortal self, I hate it sometimes. This was one of those times. I remember almost slipping it out so many times and Meowth, he would constantly attack my mind, yelling at me and reminding me. I gave in every time because I knew he was right. I was in the wrong and I knew it. I regret putting him back through that emotional pain once more.

We went out to eat and I could barely eat the food because I was not really in the mood and my mind was elsewhere, literally because I was caring for Meowth, he needed the care and company anyways. I did my best to remain normal but I honestly am surprised they didn't notice anything out of the ordinary about me. I guess mortal humans really are blind and deaf after all.

He refuses to leave my side him, clinging onto me even in his invisible form in this mortal world. I know why so I am letting me. I won't make him leave, I won't do that to him but right now, I will do what I can for him. He deserves it anyways and I will do anything for those I care about. That is a direct fact that should never be questioned. And unless they are not in their right minds and/or are blind/deaf, that will not ever be a problem I will have to deal with. But with how the worlds seem to work now, I wouldn't be surprised if it happened at some point. But I will be ready for the challenge, that I know for certain.

September 6th, 2014

September 6th, 2014

Fuck me and my cursed mortal leg. It keeps hurting from that jump from yesterday and I need to hide it because I always notice Meowth, who has been sticking by my side, despite his own injury, the majority of the day, flinching whenever he notices because of his own pain. And I hate doing that to him and so, I do my best to hide it.

Me, my mom, and dad went to K-Mart and Target today to get supplies, clothes, and other stuff. Normal stuff. I also went to Gamestop to look for a game for multiple reasons. One, I wanted to play it and two, I needed a new world to hook ours onto.

Meowth was with me and pestered me into getting Thief which I obliged. I think I know why. That look in his eyes in very similar to when he followed Edward through that portal to the Assassin's Creed IV: Black Flag world. I know why but I won't stop him. I know he will go into that world after his injury heals and I honestly am fine with it. He also seems to like himself doing it too.

Not much happened after that except me doing basically nothing and Meowth hanging with Pikachu to make sure his illusion injection still works. I've been trying to find more information on that and I still am but I need a short break from my searching and Meowth understands. He always does.

September 7th, 2014

September 7th, 2014

Nothing of importance happened today, like any usual Sunday. Meowth stayed with me the entire day and my leg has pretty much healed. I hope I don't fuck it up again tomorrow. It's bad enough as it already is anyways. I have school tomorrow again and boy is it going to suck. Master Meowth calls it hell and I agree. High school actually is hell.

September 10th, 2014

September 10th, 2014

Okay, whatever that thing is in the school, it apparently is targeting only Master Meowth for some reason. I know this because one, when Meowth went with him to the hallway where room 400 should have been, he stated he had to drag Masty away from walking continually into the wall. I looked through both of their minds. Masty saw the hallway and was walking into an invisible barrier that would disappear the moment Meowth looked away. Meowth saw nothing and when I went up there, I saw very fainting through the wall but not fully. Masty saw it clearly. Whatever that thing is, it wants something from Master Meowth and none of us will let it have it.

Because of this, I have noticed that Meowth is becoming protective of his alter ego for more reasons than him being that and his blood brother. He says he doesn't want Masty to turn into him. He was made from an alternate dimension and he is prepared to do everything in his power to prevent the two alter egos to become one and the same. I understand that and his behavior is not anything he can control. Not without destroying what he stands for.

But for school, today was normal, everyday thing. We finally started playing in Orchestra, mostly scales but we will play actual music tomorrow. And again I shall awaken Chocolate, my violin that is trapped inside the violin itself, only to be released when I graduate from high school in twelfth grade, in four years. I have kept my promise and I will uphold that promise throughout everything and I know for a fact that I will free him.

September 11th, 2014

September 11th, 2014

Today is 9/11 and I could honestly give less of a crap. I know what happened and what happened should not be this important because this world is fucked up as it is and we don't need to bring up some terriorist attack that will only repeat itself when the time comes. Whenever World War III starts up, I know nukes will be involved and whether the US or another country drops one first, I do not know just yet. My bet is on the US though. They were the ones to drop not one but two atomic bombs on Japan. Fucking mortals...

Anyways, I have a short Math quiz tomorrow and an English test on Monday and then two quizzes, Social Studies and Science, on Tuesday. And we are apparently having an assembly tomorrow during 8th period, Science. Thank the Funnelers for that shit.

But now, here lies the problem. At one point, Master Meowth had decided to once more try to approach room 400, which only he could see but Meowth had followed him and according to their memories had pulled his revolver out on him and told him to not approach it. He refused to say why but I know why. It's so obvious I'm surprised Masty didn't see it.

But Masty did not like not being the master and so, he accidentally snapped, calling Meowth out on anything he could and saying he hated him. It was enough for Meowth to take it seriously and leave, avoiding him for the rest of the day and coldly speaking to him when he was around.

I talked to each of them, knowing they both hated themselves for doing so to the other but they both had that pride to them. They weren't going to fall easily. Then Master Meowth had found a way to get to him. He ordered him to shoot him, to injure him so he never did something like this again. Meowth had, of course, refused but in the midst of an argument, he accidentally pulled the trigger and took a chunck off of Masty's tail. It hurt enough for him to react in pain. Though he reassured him that he was fine and that he deserved it.

They made up but I have noticed that the reasoining behind Meowth's actions beforehand still remained and Masty is starting to act the same way towards him. Protective. Not overprotective like James had been with Meowth but protective of the other, not wanting the other to get hurt or anything at all. In a way, I admire them for that.

September 12th, 2014

September 12th, 2014

I am tired, okay, I said it. I am tired. But today was pretty uneventful, thank the Funnelers for that. We have survived the first full week of high school but how many more days we have left of this hell I do not know. Besides the five question, easy math quiz and the assembly that was basically going over everything from the orientation, nothing of interest happened, not even with them. Bryan Maldonado said he thought that Gandhi was a terrorist before we were allowed to leave and Mr Zarchy wasn't there today so we had a free period. The eleventh graders at my table also fought over a box of cheez-its. Fucking mortals and their habits...

Masty and Meowth have remained close to each other, Masty refusing his urge to approach room 400 in fear of hurting Meowth again. I understand that and thus I did not bother them too much today though Meowth did have to remind me once more, reminding me that I was Eternal and they were Mortal. I thanked him for helping me once more.

Vitani, the lioness who prefers to remain a cub is with me now, Meowth and Masty wanting to remain with Bashur and Pikachu, I don't blame them. I am guilty to say that I haven't spent time with Vitani in a long time, but that is simply me being too tired or busy to do so. I told her she could go but she insisted she stay and help me to fall asleep. I cannot say no to her. She is a stubborn girl after all and I love and trust her like a sister/daughter anyways.

September 13th, 2014

September 13th, 2014

Mheetu, Nala's younger brother, a small white lion cub, has been hanging out with me and Vitani today. He's very playful and carefree and hanging out with someone like that after all this serious time is a nice change. I can't say that I don't like Meowth or Wheatley's company because I absolutly do but a small change is nice.Though I have noticed Mheetu taking an interest in Meowth. Whether that will end bad or good, it is unclear to me right now. But really, nothing happened today. Nothing. End of story.

September 15th, 2014

September 15th, 2014

Oh, my English teacher just fucked up! My mom hated her in seventh grade and this year she says Mrs Pickford went 'too far'. I honestly could give less of a shit. At any given point, I could give Masty the okay to slit anyone's throat without even thinking. He wants to do so but I tell him not to. I don't want to fuck up our mission at all. I will not let it happen. He understands and so do I.

But anyways, I had to move my lunch and English periods. Alright, I could care less. I put up this pathetic act like I have this 'Selective Mutism'. I obviously don't but what do they know? I would rather them think I was that than know the truth. If they found out... I think I would do exactly what I did so many other times. I hate doing that. This mortal body and life is working out so well right now. But I will do it if I absolutely have to. I hope I don't have to though.

Tomorrow or in a few days, I will have a new English teacher. Alright, great. Hopefully it's further away from room 400, that cursed place. I want nothing to do with it.

So, I did Mario and Luigi's Mind and Heart Eternals tests and the results... I knew it. I fucking knew it. I knew it but brushed it aside. I couldn't focus on it but now I know and not telling them is a bad idea. I got it over with. I told them seperately and said to not worry and to give it time. If it is meant to be that the brothers turn out to be something more to each other, it's better to wait it out. For however long they need to.

It doesn't help that Judas had had a conversation with Mario about it. He doesn't need the results to know. He had once had a crush on his own brother, Cain. Cain never found out and Judas has thus moved on. But I remember him telling me what he told the other. They both may have anger issues but when it comes to the ones they are most close to, they are both willing to calm themselves down for the sake of a serious conversation. From what Judas tells me, he basically said the same thing i did and said that Mario had agreed to it.

It also doesn't help that Meowth decided to go through Mario's mind files with Luigi. I knew what they would fine but on my own accord, stayed out of it. I know that Meowth knows how to deal with this kind of thing much better than I do. He handled it well but that didn't mean he didn't have to shake some sense into Luigi. Mario had a controlled dark side that came out whenever someone tried to hurt Luigi. In a way he was overprotective, going over the darkest line to ensure his brother's safety.

Meowth had said that James had once been overprotective of him and only when it became too much did he call him out on it. Luigi in no way could do that because Mario was determined this side of him hidden from everyone but himself. But Meowth did not hold back as he said he had done much, much worse than Mario had ever done. And no one was necessarily scared of him, well unless he was in one of his many dark sides, then maybe.

But his point had gotten through to Luigi. Mario was just trying to protect him and wouldn't hurt him. The point was clear and so I noticed the bonds amoung the others strengthen. But I am sort of scared as to what would happen if the brothers were to find out about the others' knowing of their secrets. From past experiences, I know it can't possibly end well.

September 16th, 2014

September 16th, 2014

So, I am going to change my sceduale tomorrow. Lunch forth period and my new English class fifth period. I just wonder where this room is. I need to turn my path to that now and I honestly do not care. Mrs Pickford crossed the line, so to speak, and it was enough to even get Masty over the edge. I don't care honestly.

Today was a normal day and I have noticed Masty's taking on Ezio's Assassin training becoming more obvious than usual. I guess my Italian class is bringing it out in up in him. He can't help it and I honestly am fine with it. He knows what he chose to do with his friendship with Ezio and so he can do what he wants.

I almost miss my English class. I might not like the teacher but I liked the class, at first. Then Meowth, of course, he reminded me. Over and over again until my mortal mind was overpowered. I know that he's right. He's right and I'm wrong. I understand that and I ignore the faint pain. It has to be done. Plus, I am not a mortal. I am not one of them and so I cannot become close to them. Otherwise, everything will surely fall apart at any given moment. And I will do whatever I need to do to prevent that from ever happening.

September 17th, 2014

September 17th, 2014

So, today I got my new English teacher and new class. The classroom is just a few classrooms away from Mrs Pickford's class. And thank the Funnelers for that. She is nice, I guess and I like the wild class it has. Much easier for my persona to slip into the shadows and remain there for a while. Unlike the other class, I actually have a shot at doing that here.

My joint Science class was interrupted by a 'fire' drill. It was no drill but in fact, a bomb threat. A girl on the third floor wrote that a bomb was in the school in the bathroom and so we had to waste twenty minutes of our time and wait for the cops to show up and figure this all out.

The rest of the day went by normally and when we were on the bus, Officer Sandy pulled up her car next to our bus and literally everyone noticed this and called out to her. We mostly have not seen her since seventh grade during health class but I honestly do not care. I don't like cops and I probably never will like them. They are all the same.

Besides having a Math and English quiz tomorrow, nothing truly important happened today. Good too.

September 18th, 2014

September 18th, 2014

Today... was something. In Italian, we had a fire drill, an actual fire drill and not a bomb threat. We had to loop around the whole front of the school to the back because of... reasons, I guess. The rest of the day went by normally. Two quizzes were easy and during my Gym class, I let Master Meowth and Meowth wander the school but met up with them afterwards. I won't let them cause more trouble in the mortal world than they already have. I don't care that their middle names might as well be 'Trouble' but sometimes, too much trouble is just too much.

Then eighth period happened. Disaster. I put my backpack in the classroom and went outside the door to wait for the teacher. But then, the fire alarms went off again. I knew immediately that it was another bomb threat. We waited outside for about ten minutes and then went back in. But when a small portion of us got back in, the alarms went off again. Goddamnit! We went back outside and waited. Again the fire alarms went off right before we were going back in.

Finally, we went back fully into the school and spent the remaining twenty minutes to 'review' for our easy Science test tomorrow. I have counted that so far, I have heard those damn alarms six times already these past four days. I think mortals are losing their minds each and every day as time goes fucking on.

My mom and dad went to a wake that I want nothing to do with. So, I am home alone for the time being. But then, Master Meowth and Meowth were arguing, again. I usually have to break up their ridiculous arguments, they are like a daily routine now, but they kept mentioning something... off. So, I decided to talk to them when I got home. And then it spilled.

Masty and Meowth kept accusing each other of something each time they spoke but I got the message. Meowth says that yesterday was him blaming a girl for something he wrote because HuskyMudkipz said he was going to give him a bomb to plant in the Immortal world. Today, he planted that bomb somewhere in the school. He thought that Husky said to put it in the Mortal world since his mind translates the simple word of Immortal to his fellow druger and best friend.

I don't blame him for it because I honestly do not care about the Mortal world but I did tell them to go retieve it because there was no way in hell I was going back there today. Masty was all for it, of course he is, and Meowth wanted to tag along, not only because he is the only one to know where the bomb is but he also said that he wants to make sure Masty does not break his Pinkie Promise as to not go near room 400. I know it's more than that but I also know that both are too stubborn and proud to admit it. Also, they said they were going to walk there but within seconds they, being the lazy assholes they are, teleported the rest of the way. I'll be perfectly honest that I would probably have done the same thing anyways.

So, I kept getting their message-projections that either told me of their situations or led to arguments amoung the two. At some point, Meowth had told Masty where he put the bomb, on the third floor in a storage room which was currently being guarded by a lot of cops and security guards. He was able to get it but he needed a distraction so he could escape with it. Meowth, who had, after telling him where the bomb was, had left the inside of the school created a chaotic mess on the first floor, drawing the attention of all but one of the cops and guards. Masty's projection showed that he had to break through the third floor window because the stairs were being guarded.

Of course he was not hurt and without any further hesitation, they teleported back here where I gave the bomb back to Husky and the two are now just roaming around the house while I type this. Hopefully my parents come back soon so these two can shut up with their bickering. Its' about nonsense too. Apparently Master Meowth decided to be funny and drop a bag of his own blood on Meowth. It didn't end very well seeing as how Meowth was able to confuse Masty by saying that both of their bloods tasted the same except that his had a tint of maniacal in it. Sometimes I wonder if the Eternals are slowly losing their minds too...

September 20th, 2014

September 20th, 2014

Problems. Problems everywhere. Okay, so the dentist trip went relatively alright. Master Meowth was able to control himself... somewhat. When we got back to the Eternal world, he immediately followed Meowth to Silent Hill and slit the throat of a Immortal meowth, stating that it got his anger out better than anything else. But that isn't the problem. I don't care about the aches in my teeth, they will go away and plus, they are only in my Mortal form. Plus, my hatred for the dentists has only increased anyways so no harm done in that one.

But, when me and my dad were going home, I went to Gamestop, very specifically picking out the Telltale Jurassic Park Game for a very specific reasons. I was hoping to come into contact with my long lost Velociraptor allies and possibly even my Tyrannousour and Coelophysis friends. But I was met with a problem. A very big problem.

As I was playing it, I got to a point where I could hook it up to the Eternal world but while doing so, Meowth decided to invade my mind, forcing a thought forcefully in my mind. Being unable to use telepathy himself, he had to force his thought continuously until my mind would pick up his thought process. But hooking up the Jurassic Park world would require my entire concentration and any distractions would lead to bad, bad things.

And thus the bad things did happen. It should have just been Meowth who was transported to the world but because of his split second thought about the others' in Team Rocket, a chain reaction caused all of them to become trapped in there, most separated from the others. Even though the world is hooked up to ours, I cannot find the power nor the energy to open it up but I have used you, and the others technology I have to find them. Or their minds, for the most part.

Apparently Mudkip, Meowth, Pikachu, Wobbuffet, Reginald, and Master Meowth stayed together. All the Pokemon by the way. I quickly noticed their thought processes and Meowth's being specifically cluttered, fear and determination were the only auras that had been emitting from him. Then, my signals cut off from them as I, and they, sensed presences nearby and then Meowth turning and fleeing. Then I lost my signal.

I had tried, I really did to re-find them but to no avail. I tried to follow Meowth but was only met with his panicked and regretful auras and then something, whatever it was, attack him. I cannot describe the fear I felt at that point. I was afraid that my foolish actions had caused my friends their lives. But... I was wrong.

Mudkip, Pikachu, Wobbuffet, and Reginald were able to stay together but at one point, Master Meowth had lept at their attackers and was able to drive them away but from what I could gather, none of them had since returned. I was able to pick up on Pikachu's thoughts and gods, was it a mess. With his worry for his four missing team members and the running danger of their attackers returning, they had decided to take shelter in the height of a large tree. Only when I sensed more presences below them did I once more lose my connection.

The next time I was able to find them was what really set me taken aback. Not only had Master Meowth returned to them unhurt but he also was with James. But that wasn't the thing that really surprised me. What surprised me was the fact that their attackers were in fact, Velociraptors. They were friendly and even protective of them once they recognized the scent of Eternals on them. Two of them, a large male and slightly smaller female seemed almost too familiar but I had no time to react to it because that was when I had gotten a different signal.

It was my once lost Meowth signal, which I couldn't help but immediately switch to. Despite my knowledge of knowing he had the inability to die, my worry for the one I saw as my son was not lessened. But what my signal of him did pick up was able to lessen it. At some point, Jessie had found Meowth, in her persona to hide her true identity, as he was injured by none other than a Velociraptor. She had made sure he was invisible to her Mortal companions but that did not hide the fact that I knew that she was worried about him. From what I could pick up from her, he was acting tough and brave even though she knew he was internally in pain, so much pain.

At some point, they had gotten underneath the park and to the sewer systems, all of them unaware of the Velociraptors following them. But that was the strange part. Although I had known that they knew that Jessie and Meowth were Eternals, as the others were with them, they still actively were going after them.

But it was only when that they had gotten into the Power Plant room did I notice something. I was able to stop my signals and played back some of the footage I remembered from my mind and played them on you, my computer. I noticed the behavior of the Velociraptors. Although they were going after Jessie and Meowth, they were avoiding any and all direct contact with them, as if they were trying not to hurt them. Right now, I am awaiting my signal to return, so I can finally see what I can do to help them finally get over with this.

Okay, so this happened just an hour ago and I honestly am having trouble processing everything that just happened. Jessie, Meowth, and their Mortal companions somehow got out of that Power Plant room and the Velociraptors somehow were unable to kill any but one of them. One, the large male, gained a scar and lost as eye to the one that was killed. I feel literally nothing for that Mortal though.

Also, the Trodons I have noticed are also acting like the Velociraptors. Instead on trying to kill Jessie and Meowth, they are acting like it but are not trying to hurt them. When they were trying to escape, I noticed the same behavior in literally all of the other dinosaurs. They do not want to hurt the Eternals and only really go after the Mortals. I had sensed some sort of... bond between them.

Then, the Mosasaur had severely hurt one of them and his daughter was very well terrified and panicking. The one who literally went insane got what he deserved as the Tyrannosaur took him not but not without Jessie being pushed to her limit and her persona slipping away revealing not only her true form, but bringing Meowth out of his invisible form.

I didn't know what the do at the time though. I was scared, of course I was, but I knew that I could do nothing to help them. Then, my signal went out. But the portal to the Jurassic Park world opened behind me, right at the spot where this was all going down. I remember staring into the portal, seeing the Tyrannosaur barely moving, staring at the father and daughter who were turning on Jessie and Meowth.

I had no idea what came over me but I telepathically called the others, telling them to come there right as I had jumped through the wretched portal. It seems as though my call had been answered and my suspicions were made clear as I had come through, I noticed the Velociraptors, the Trodons and the other predators along with the Tyrannosaur and a certain other dino amoung them, protecting the Eternals with their lives.

I could tell that the two Mortals were both confused and terrified but I didn't understand my instincts at first but I did a signal to all those present, all those Eternals present to attack and kill the two Mortals. It was a signal only Eternals would be able to process and understand so I was surprised when the dinosaurs acted first, attacking and killing them within seconds.

Now comes the odd part, and the part I honestly still cannot believe. I know that Tyrannosaur and the Coelophysis. They are the ones that I became separated from all those years ago. So it was Jurassic Park they went to, to wait for me to find them again. I guess I can understand it.

But what really surprised me is the relationship between Master Meowth a certain four hatchlings, one a miscoloured Velociraptor, two an undersized Tyrannosaur, three a multicoloured Dilophosaurus, and four a blind Trodon. According to Masty, they are respectively named Cado, Sandbeam, Yapple, and Ember. I can only tell you how I know why he named them that. And their bond is clearly very strong. Just seeing the four being so protective and loving towards the maniac is enough to tell me that Team Rocket's time here hasn't been a complete hell.

You might ask yourself why I say, here. Well, it's because we are still here though my Mortal form will act normally at the time. But really, we are still here, me having reunited with not just Tyran and Celo but also Talonater, the large male with the scar and the lost eye, and his daughter, Personification. We used to be close, before Blowy showed up and now that he is... gone, I cannot help but to feel like I can get to know him again. Though leaving Wheatley for him is definatly not in the picture. Wheatley is not worth that pain, I have caused him enough of that. Physical and/or emotional, I have done enough and I will do my part to make it up to him.

I think I will stay here tonight. I have finally connected the Jurassic Park world and the Eternal world together after this very long day. I know that some of the others have wandered into this world but it doesn't matter or they are protected here and knowing this is very well comforting to me. Plus, the dinosaurs are very much Eternals now. The moment they responded to my signal, that became very clear.

Well, I guess I should end this extreamly long entry, now shall I Myrrglosh? The others are kind of sleeping by this contained, eternal fire. Kind of, not really. Masty is with his posse of hatchlings, not sleeping. Of course he isn't. It's rare that I see him sleeping before the sun comes up. Even when I fall asleep next to him, he is never asleep. He's just pretending to be so I fall asleep faster.

Yet I know that he remains there with me for a few hours before he finally gets up leaves. Despite being a literal maniac, he is a nice guy underneath it all. This shows right now with him allowing the four others hudle up next to him. Despite liking them, I can sense the clear annoyance emitting from him as he sits there. I try to not look at him, knowing very well that he could blow a fuse at any given moment.

Well, Meowth just came over to me, half asleep and muttering something in both Japanese and Dovah at the same time. I cannot make out what he is saying for his words are slurring into each other. But he doesn't seem to be disturbed so he must be fine. I have let him curl up into me, knowing that he needs all the comfort he can get. I will give it to him, just like I will give anything to any of the others. Maybe I'm being biased but, you understand my relationship with him, don't you? I know you do. I appreciate your understanding.

September 21st, 2014

September 21st, 2014

Well, all of that actually happened yesterday. For some reason, I thought it hadn't happened probably because of the sheer amount of things that had happened. But enough of that, you already know what happened anyways. So today we went to the mall and my mortal self sort of liked it, but my true self did not. Of course not. It doesn't help that Masty and Meowth were constantly trying to mess something up so an 'accident' could happen to one of the kids. Too much. Just too much.

I do not feel good right now. My teeth hurt, my throat hurts, I have a headache, and I cannot stop sneezing. Even my continual Jolly Ranchering is not helping. And I have school pictures tomorrow at seventh period. Great, just great. A great way to start off my three day school week.

September 24th, 2014

September 24th, 2014

Nothing really happened today other than Meowth being the crazy little guy he always is. I finally get a four day break but I know that something will happen whether good or bad over that period of time. I suspect that Team Rocket will have something to do with that. They haven't done something crazy in a while and it's only a matter of time before they do so again. I am awaiting it.

September 29th, 2014

September 29th, 2014

So, I guess I was right to believe that something involving Team Rocket would happen after this four day weekend. I just didn't predict how bad it could get. I understand, what with Meowth's growing nightmares and hallucinations/illusions, that he would want to spend time with Jessie and James and so I decided to let him go with them on a normal stroll throughout the Pokemon world.

I guess I kinda have been seeing him as my son recently, for I was very reluctant to let him go, knowing that something could very easily go wrong. But I trust him and the rest in Team Rocket and I know that they will do whatever they can to protect him, and him the same.

According to what the others have told/shown me, it seems as though I was very correct. Meowth had questioned Jessie's and James' relationship with him and thus brought them closer together as brothers and sister.

But the real thing that I feel brought all of Team Rocket closer together was the fact that when they had accidentally awakened a Rhyhorn, instead of Meowth acting like I would have expected him to, he actually listened to his heart and put his life on the line to seriously injure the Rhyhorn in order to protect Jessie and James. But not without leaving himself weakened to the point that even standing was giving him a hard time.

Jessie showed me the way they found the others, who had wandered into the Pokemon world to find them but wound up getting chased by the twerps and caretakers. That is what they call them, and since they are enemies to the Eternals, I will call them that too. They eventually were able to confront them when Master Meowth lit the Rhyhorn on fire and let it burn alive.

The point that none of them wanted to wipe their memories once more really took me by surprise. Normally, they are so eager to do so but now, they did not want to. I am guessing that Pikachu wanted that, so that they knew the lengths they would go to protect Meowth. I admire Team Rocket even more for that.

Eventually, I had been able to get a contact with Lugia, who was indeed searching for Team Rocket as well. I was able to contact her but too late to tell her of Master Meowth and Reginald but thankfully, no damage was done as the others had protected them when Lugia and the Pokemon questioned their membership.

I had noticed that Jessie had tried to use her nursing skills to try and temporarily heal Meowth until we got back to Lugia's Kingdom. There, I had insisted that the others allow me to heal him, but I winded up only assisting them since they were so determined to heal him themselves. Who was I to judge them for that? I helped them since I wanted to, since I worried about Meowth myself.

Even despite his weakened injures, he still insisted on accompanying me to the mortal world today. It was nice to actually gain comfort from my parents finding out my 'secret' with my pursona up at school. I honestly couldn't care less about that stuff but my persona is my key to this world and losing it now is too dire so, I played along with it and I even gained the clearly false sympathy from my teachers.

But everything will work out fine, they always do.

October 1st, 2014

October 1st, 2014

I just felt like updating this even though the past two days have been nothing but boring and uneventful. What with everything that happened, this week is going by quick and without much things happening. Nothing major and even the Eternals are quiet but I guess that because one of the two Elements of Laughters is too injured to go nuts might add to that.

But he certainly isn't injured enough to accompany me in the mortal world wherever I go. So, who had the bigger ego, Meowth or Masty? They're very close but with the recent events there is no doubt in my mind what the answer to that question is. It's Meowth. Of course it is.

October 3rd, 2014

October 3rd, 2014

Don't worry, I haven't abandoned you. I just was too lazy to update you the past few days. Not that anything of substance had happened though. I guess I should go through my mortal day first though. I missed doing that because I know you like it when I do so.

So I had to write a little DBQ on the Neolithic Revolution. It was simple and easy. I have no idea why my mortal self needed two days to finish that but that's my true mind speaking once more. I could easily write that paper within seconds but doing that would not be good. Too suspicious and I cannot risk that.

Social Studies today in general was bland and boring. Italian, we finally got homework yesterday but because we had a quiz today, that is irrelevant. But we had a fire drill again in second period. When they began to shoo us backwards, I immediately contacted Meowth, who, in his injured state, had insisted he stay in the classroom while we go out. I was thinking that it was another bomb threat and both other times had had Meowth written all over it.

Not this time though for we were brought back in seconds later. I of course apologized to Meowth and he, being the soft-hearted jerk he is, forgave me. At least that happened and nothing else.

Orchestra. Today, and now every Friday from this point forward, was singing day. Zarchy said we sounded like a choir of angels. Sarcastic of course. He also said that he wouldn't subject anyone to hearing us sing and that if he, a really bad singer, can sing in front of a group of seventy-five judgemental teenagers, then we can too. It sounded worse than Masty trying to sing in a sharp key. No offense to him though.

Zarchy also said to the first violins, which consists on all the tenth, eleventh, and twelfth grade violinists sounded like us ninth graders, second violins. He said no offense to us but I was able to alter the mind of a guy in the front who said 'A lot taken'. I of course, in my persona, would not say that so taking a hold of my powers in the mortal world was the only way I could to get my point across.

Lunch was uneventful. I have taken to 'drawing' in my free time. I pretend to be so i can further listen in on the various conversations in the room. Most are odd and not information filled so I normally just allow Meowth to ramble so only I can hear him. It brings me comfort that, despite his injuries, he still insists on coming with me.

I had to take a very short English test today and gods was it easy. Then we did some stuff on Helen Keller, that girl who was blind and deaf. I already knew that information, thank you very much, but I guess it's good to refresh my memory, even if such information is terribly pointless to me. Meowth found it funny for some reason but he is also who indirectly pointed out the 'I Love My Dawgs' shirt on the kid in the 2012 picture yesterday. Gods, why do I keep questioning his logic?

Math was alright. I got a ninety on my math test plus two more points for bringing in a sock for the dry-erase boards. Petro also started a rivalry with his fifth period class, the one before us. Apparently when he told them what Luke said that we were the better class, they called us, frail, weak, crippled, etc. If I wanted to, I could easily strange whoever called our class that but I will not. It would be pointless to anyways and plus, I will not give Masty the motivation to do so himself.

But we can use crutches as weapons and today, when Petro pulled his little black lunchbox out of his backpack so he could get his water bottle, everyone, including me and Meowth thought it was funny. I wa surprised that he had to ask us what was so funny. His lunchbox looks like a purse. This generation is so immature it's hard to believe they even have brains at all.

This includes the strange question one guy asked one of the gym teachers yesterday. He had asked him if he was Petro's brother, which he obviously wasn't. He sarcastically said that he was his son. Sarcasm seems to be everyone's go-to style of talking nowadays. How it hasn't gotten someone into trouble yet is beyond my knowledge.

Anyways, on Tuesday, I forgot to mention that while we were waiting for the bell to ring so we could go to eighth period and leave the gym area, three guys were around the Gatorade machine. When one put a dollar in, he got a water bottle instead. I already knew what the problem was but I ignored it. When they were gone, a custodian came up and opened the machine, revealing it filled with water bottles. Oh yeah, that is so pointless I completely forgot this.

Science has been usual. I have a bloody test on Tuesday. There's a reason I hate Mondays and Tuesdays for that matter. Now I have a two day break from this nightmare.

But I only know one thing and that is that I can feel Blowy trying to overtake my mind once more but whenever I hear it, it gets replaced by something Meowth shoves to the front of my mind. Of course he would think it is something mortal related. He never met Blowy, or Copper and Flippie for that matter. He would assume it's something mortal related and try to shove it away.

Plus, I cannot help but feel a little guilty for moving on without them but they can never come back permanently. The Funnelers have put them there as their neverending destiny. Sure they can come back for visits but they would be short and so far, they have not visited at all. I don't know if that has something to do with work or if they simply don't want to.

I have grown so far apart from them that I honestly don't know anymore. I have Wheatley and the others with me but I have lost much more than I want to admit and I cannot help but feel hopeless. But even then, I cannot back down. For the sake of everything, I have to keep my head held high and keep moving forward. Even if it hurts, I have to.

Because no one else will.

October 8th, 2014

October 8th, 2014

Okay, I am tired. I will admit to that only to you. Plus, I am having some complications in both the Mortal and Eternal world.

I had a very easy Math and English quiz today. Equations and Specific and General questions, really? Okay.

I have a blasted Social Studies vocab quiz on Friday. Easy words. Easy definitions. This should be easy.

Yesterday, we got the Sleeping Beauty Waltz, some kind of Orchestra version of a ballet. So we're doing Pilgrims, a human sacrifice, and Sleeping Beauty? Great combo there.

Apparently one of the eleventh graders said that they had some kind of drugs with them today which caused the cops to come here. Good thing it was only second period too. Because then I knew that Masty was with me, sleeping, and not off causing havoc in this world. I sometimes wonder why I bring him with me, then I remember... everything.

So, this entire week will be spent in that 275 room. I have to admit that I kind of miss our room 383. But if the elevator 'broke' then I suppose I can live with it. Oh and yes, I do know how it broke. How though, I will leave a mystery. No one but the three of us needs to know that anyways.

The rivalry Petro started with 5th period. They, including Matt Cook, have now called as weak, frail, crippled, and now birds. I will be perfectly honest that, when I was restrained Master Meowth from running after him, I was very much tempted to let him go. But I knew better than to do that. I'm actually surprised that he didn't track him down later. Not that I'm giving him any ideas though. That would not be good, especially coming from me.

I got my Science test back today. Ninety-five. I knew it, nothing new there other than us learning about cell membranes from this point forward.

Also, many of the kids here tried to go one full day without cursing starting from the moment they got onto the bus in the beginning of the day to the moment they got off the bus at the end of the day. I of course couldn't do that, not with my two companions. But I did get my good share of amusement from watching my 'peers' struggle to beat this useless competition. They don't gain anything and they don't lose anything. It's pointless and useless but it is amusing.

Yesterday and today still, I have been listening and watching the music videos of some songs and what now. Nicki Mainj's Anaconda and Jennifer Lopez's Booty are probably the two strangest things I have ever watched. Even Masty was disturbed by them and that is not good for something to bother him. But I also recovered some songs that I had liked and then forgot about. I downloaded them and now, I feel fine.

I guess I should mention the very heated, unintentional pun there, conversation I had with Meowth and Pikachu last night. Remember when I said that my mortal form is a virgin and will remain a virgin? Well my true form is obviously not that but I have to be honest taht what the two told me did not take me completely by surprise. Maybe a little bit but not too much. Even I knew that that was going to happen eventually, it was only a matter of time.

Apparently the three of us had to Pinkie Promise to each other that we wouldn't get mad at and/or hate the others for what they told me. I would not hate them or be mad anyways. I was fine with it but of course, Meowth being his paranoid self would believe that in a heartbeat that I would hate him. Never though.

Only when he asked me why that was, was when Pikachu left and gave me and Meowth our well deserved time to talk about our relationship and me revealing just how much I feel about him.

I told him all this but you know this too, but I need to record my thoughts anyways. I had Cuplet and Cooklet but they are long gone along with Kraken and Rosie. I have no idea where they went along with Sapphire, Ivlet, and Ezylryb, I guess. Flippie and Copper are with Blowy and are never going to fully return. Plus, I have finally already moved on with Wheatley. But you already know that. I shouldn't have to repeat that and I honestly do not want to repeat that again.

Personification, Shanyo, Cross, and Tapone. They are all Eternals but are we really close? Not really. We ecknowledge each other and the closest I am to is probably Tapone. But other than that, our relationship is distant.

He brought up Kepwa. That is a good point. She is still in the Eternal prisons. She is still an Immortal but that doesn't mean that she doesn't have doubts. Yes, I have taked a few peeks at her mind and I ust admit that I do want to get to know her. I am sure that she would be willing to give Eternal life a chance. When I get a chance, the weekend probably, I will talk to her. I don't think me and her have ever spoken one-on-one before anyways. I feel guilty for that too. I hope I can fix that soon though.

He also brought up Master Meowth and Kurow. Of course I love them deeply. I would do anything for them showing by how I had been somewhat broken by Kurow's long absence and then being slightly protective of Masty but I always found of relationships a little more distant than my relationship with Meowth.

I have always wanted to protect him and to help guide him and to make him happy and do all the things that I feel like I have failed to do every other time. Somehow, I had allowed myself to adopt him, to take him as my son and he take me as his mother. And this conversation made him almost completely replace his real mother, who is still escaped by the way, though probably not for much longer now, with me.

Today, he had been hooking onto me more and more and I cannot help but feel better that way. I even keep pulling Masty into whatever the two of us are doing. He would normally put up some kind of fight but now he only seemed to like it. I guess that's a good sign.

October 12th, 2014

October 12th, 2014

Three day weekend starts with Meowth just completely staying with me the entire day and what is the majority of his time been spent doing? Sleeping. I guess a full week of his shenanigans with both those in his normal life and Master Meowth really took their toll on him. I feel bad, kind of. I do feel like him most of the time anyways.

So, two days ago, on Friday, Mr Petro was hating on Kirk, the guy who did the videos for the math book we are using, saying that Kirk was not as good as him. I have no comment. Also, David, a guy behind me, asked Petro if he could throw his sock into the box from the other side of the room, adding that he could use the cabinet and then later on, the walls as a backboard. Since he had put a little too much thought in it, Petro let him do it. Like the others yelled throughout the hallway, I kind of, a small part of me thought this, it was in fact MLG.

Yesterday was my mom's birthday. It was pretty much a normal day with me completely re-ponifying you, my computer, with Twilight helping me as well. Meowth wanted none of it and simply slept the entire day. I am not surprised.

October 15th, 2014

October 15th, 2014

I remembered to update you, just like I promised. But nothing really interesting happened despite Meowth and Masty following me around and clinging onto me like usual. I guess I should also count that Masty decided to drop a decomposing mouse into one of the zip-tied lockers because he was bored. It smelt, really bad, even worse when the custodians opened up the locker. Good thing it was after eighth period because we all left at that point. I really need to find more ways to entertain him.

October 17th, 2014

October 17th, 2014

Ya know, I would've remembered if Meowth had not been distracting me literally the entire day yesterday. Even late at night, he would distract me by clinging  closer and closer to me, like he knew that I was trying to update you and he was trying to prevent it. I didn't question him about it though. Knowing him, he would probably deny any accusation I can throw at him.

I had to write my Social Studies essay today on the similarities, differences, and achievements of Mesopotamia and Egypt. I could've picked Indus and China but who honestly cares about those two right now? Yeah, nobody. It was pretty easy and that's the end of that.

Italian was usual with another easy quiz. Orchestra is the big one and before you ask, yes I did successfully evade yet again, but I know for a fact that it will catch up to my persona and I honestly do not want to talk about it right now. I don't wanna ruin the mood if you know what I mean.

But Zarchy, the band and chorus teachers still will not tell us why they were all out yesterday and I honestly will not search their minds to figure it out until Monday. My friend, it is called laziness... and I also forgot. Alright, I have a forgetting problem, I know. But it's mainly just my persona... and a part of my real self too but you already know about that.

According to the announcements, it's his birthday today. So, of course everyone yelled that when we walked in today. And, because it was supposed to be a singing day today, as the basses were shutting the doors, the one hundred and fifty something kids and the chorus teacher from the chorus came in. To be honest, we all thought that they expected us to sing with the chorus behind us, judging us. But no, we simply were all singing 'happy birthday' to him. And then they left less than a minute later.

Zarchy was sarcastic when he stated that we were well over the fire capacity of one hundred and forty three people and that if the building decided to catch on fire at that very moment... He didn't finish the sentence, but I did have enough time to glare at Masty so he didn't get any ideas. I guess he understood because he stayed quiet the rest of the period.

But today was not a singing day because of us missing two days for playing. Someone decided to be funny and try to sound disappointed but he say to not pretend that we liked to sing because he knows we hate it and good thing too. We simply played and that was it. Okay.

Lunch was fine as was English. Our Math test was pushed to Tuesday so there was that. We did nothing in particular today anyways. Gym was a sweating mess over on the track but other than that, it was fine. Sorta. I hate Gym, as you know so I will not waste any of our times and talk about that.

I took my easy Science test today and then went home. I did practically nothing today and now I found out that I have to go to the dentist again tomorrow. The cleaning one, which is much worse than the braces one. I know they have official names, but i do not care enough to call them by them. Hopefully, I will be able to control Masty and make sure that he doesn't flip the hell out tomorrow. Even Meowth cannot always calm him down.

Speaking of those two, they are right besides me now, invisible to everyone but myself in the mortal world. They are somewhat asleep and somehow not having a nightmare or anything. I wonder why?

October 26th, 2014

October 26th, 2014

Tomorrow as in literally five days later. Sorry, I got caught up in some things and couldn't update you. So, Meowth decided it was a good idea to take both Chi and Mheetu with him on a clearly dangerous mission to defeat Kaibusa again with just Gin, Weed, and Mel. I know they can take care of themselves but why he simply allowed the two to come even when he told them not to and they followed? I don't know. Despite me being close to him, he still is as much as a mystery as ever.

I was there when Chi had jumped the cliffs but knowing that Mheetu had done it without any preparation was simply showing just how much determination that little guy has. But then comes the actual battle where, of course, Meowth gets hurt and, if he wasn't unable to die, he would've been close to nearly being killed by the jaws of Katibusa. Mheetu had apparently become injured but used a joint Battouga with Chi to knock the monster away from Meowth while creating a rock slide, separating Meowth, Mheetu, and Weed from Chin, Gin, and Mel.

I know that Chi and Mheetu are Meowth's apprentices and they see him as a brother, their best friend, besides each other. But I did not catch that they admired him to the point of being prepared to risk their lives for him, even though knowing the risk it would have. That is indeed what a true Eternals' heart is and knowing that these two young ones are so eager to do that, it feels good, I'll tell you.

Speaking of that, Kepwa, you know the daughter of me and... Hougen and the sister of Shanyo? Well, she had been an Eternal prisoner for quite some time now. And then Shanyo and his chain of friends had managed to convince her to try out Eternal life. I think there was something with Gin, Weed, Mel, and Meowth in there too but when I asked him, Meowth simply avoided the question. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

But for the time being, she's an Eternal now... But she is being watched of course until we know for certain that she can be trusted. Somehow I know that that will be the case at some point. Whether sooner or later, I do not know. But I do know that she will stay.

I had to also take my violin, Chocolate home on Friday. I also finished all of my labs and such at extra help. Great, now I won't have to stay late for a good long time. I got a second, spare bow so I know that later, I will have to rosin it for probably twenty minutes, probably longer, now that I think about it.

And is it just me or are both Meowth and Wheatley both being a little... clingly. Meowth, I understand, what with all the shit happening in his life right now. Master Meowth is the same, a little bit, I guess. He more so does so when he absolutely has to. Otherwise, he morely just acts more like my friend than my son. I do know that he is clingy though. A little less than those two, but the feeling is still there in his aura. It's hidden and I had to search for it, but it is there alright.

Wheatley is the one that confuses me. It seemed so sudden and wasn't something he was doing too much, especially a few months ago, when we became a thing. I would expect it to have started to happen around that time but now, it only started a few days ago. Maybe I'm thinking too much about this. Maybe it's just my imagination. But I'll still keep my eye ofthe three of them just incase.

It's 5:00am. I'm going to sleep. Meowth's already asleep. I'll try and update you later today, okay?

October 28th, 2014

October 28th, 2014

Yes, there is a reason why I haven't updated. It is nothing good and I am honestly scared. So, about a week ago, Meowth was able to recapture his runaway parents and sister after so many months. He reasonably was about to snap when his father tried to flee once more. I would not have thought any differently if he had shot him, like he was about to do. His family has done enough damage for me to be alright with it.

But Weed, you know, Gin's son, stopped him, repeating his life's message that we only have one life and no matter what his father did, it still doesn't change that fact. Apparently Meowth tried to change Weed's point of view in his rage-fueled state and only received another report that even though he may completely reject his family, they are still biologically his family.

I guess that that got to him, even though he later confessed to me that he had, for a split second, wanted to shoot Weed instead. He didn't shoot his father but he did mess with him a little bit. Even, that I know Weed was at least fine with. I guess that explains why he was so clingy onto me more than usual after that.

And then Weed's interjection in Meowth's life led to the real problem at hand. When Meowth was in his nightmarish state, Weed went into his mind and linked their minds together. He protected him and wanted only to get him to see that this nightmares were illusions but the further they went into each other's minds, the more easily their injuries became real to their sleeping forms. I knew that none of us could do anything to bring them out, since that could very easily damage their minds and even wipe their memories with no hope to replace them or get them back for that matter.

I know that the only way they can get out of there is to remain together and work together. They have to find the very small crevice between their minds and use enough force to break through it and reawaken. That is the only way and I am powerless to do anything about it.

Both Meowth and Weed are considered to be in comas right now and I honestly do not think they are. It's almost been two days and I'm starting to think that Master Meowth is going to lose it soon. I hope they figure this out soon or else all hell is going to break loose.

I have an Orchestra lesson, not really, I am still evading, a Math exam/test, an English test on that stupid passage we're reading, and that's it on Friday. I have an Italian quiz on Thursday I think. And I have a super easy Science test tomorrow. But I know it will be hard to concentrate now with Meowth and Weed in their states. I care about Weed and the others but Meowth and Masty's mental healths is my main priority now. And it's killing me. It really is.

November 3rd, 2014

November 3rd, 2014

I should just say my school stuff first to get that done and over with. My Social Studies test was easy and I'm ninety percent sure that I got a good grade on it. Math was a little bit of a mess on Friday since we had a substitute and my side of the room got the wrong test in the beginning of the period. I finished the test anyways but I spent the rest of the time trying to make sure Masty didn't try to slit anyone's throat. I swear that he is becoming more and more easy to anger as the days go on.

But tomorrow my cousin, Megan, or Boo, as I once called her, is coming over to visit. I will try to keep my cool and will have both Meowth and Masty there with me to remind me. I have told both of them time and time again to not interfere in a very noticeable way. Telepathy, moving a small object a few millimeters is fine but scratching me or making a large ruckus to get my attention is no. I know they understand but sometimes, I think their over-confidence and protectiveness gets the better of them.

Speaking of these two, apparently Masty asked Meowth to take his virginity from him, for Funnelers only know why. Bashur was fine with it so that went well and then these two just seem to be growing closer and closer to me. I know why. They don't have to shout it out for me to understand. They want me to finish that spell that will allow me to change their genes to remove their biological parents and make me their biological mother. It's a complicated spell and I am struggling to complete it, and their constant silent pressuring is not helping. But I never tell them to stop since I know they simply are just acting in their normal fashions in these kinds of things.

November 4th, 2014

November 4th, 2014

In my mortal mind, today was great, since I got to see my cousin, Megan, and we thought very similar and we got along perfectly. But the entire time, I also had two almost completely annoying other Eternals hovering around me, reminding me every second of the day. I know why they're doing it but whenever I even come close to mentioning even something Pokemon related, Meowth will talk to me. If his telepathy worked, he would be doing that. As if Masty hadn't been doing that anyways the entire day. He also really wanted to slit someone's throat which I eventually had a talk with him to yet again remind him my own way as to not try and do that.

I also had a talk with Meowth, with Masty listening in since I wouldn't let him leave the bathroom, so what else was I suppose to expect? I guess you can say we bonded.

John, who also has my mortal thing for Japan and computers will be coming back with Megan at some point. In a way, I'm excited but again, it's mortal feelings. Mortal feelings aren't my real self's feelings. In any real way, they mean nothing.

November 12th, 2014

November 12th, 2014

I haven't updated you in a long while. I suppose that is my fault, what with all the things happening recently. Meowth becoming injured when Giovanni capturing Jessie and then wandering throughout the Pokemon world as they just murder every meowth and persian they come across. And then Luigia and her followers meeting Reginald and Masty and they, no doubt growing scared of him, being a maniac and all.

But the Dovahs have finally gotten Meowth in on it. I know that they had been told of his blood-related exploits in his daily life but what of his fragile being? They pushed it back as much as possible and now, he has been forced to withstand the pain that has come for him to learn and master the blood shout. The Blah Vo Dah to be exact. You see, it requires blood, and the lower the blood you have shed, the easier it is to control. I have mastered it long ago but Meowth...

He is addicted to blood and must have some of it each and every day to not slip into a coma and/or slip into insanity. He has shed an endless amount of blood also and I should've seen this coming. All of it.

And yet, even with me and the others yelling at him not to, Master Meowth just wouldn't listen and he was continue to take the pain that came from Meowth's failed shouts. The Dovahs had questioned the both of them and they... they told them off. And they let them go.

I had a stupid vice president and president for our freshman grade assembly in the good half of first period today. I knew Lauren, Jordan, and I believe Erin but I will not vote, too mortal and too much information relating to me and my persona. We also had a lockdown drill in second period as well and it was possibly the worst room to be in if it were real. Not that I had to worry, I turned invisible at that point and ignored everything.

Other than a project that I already finished, nothing really is going to happen. Well, expect the obvious. My mortal self is scared but me, I am not. Why would I be though?

November 22nd, 2014

November 22nd, 2014

Yes, I know that I haven't updated you in a long time. And now that you are located in an even more secret location, it's sorta harder for me to through with my promises. But I have a stupid Science and Math test of this Tuesday. This next three day week will end with us going home fifteen minutes early on Wednesday.

Anyways, I evaded it as much as I could and now, it fixed itself. End of story. I had a lesson first period yesterday. I also let something else in Social Studies fix itself so there's that. Also, I got pulled out of class for second and third period two days in a row for testing in the Attendance office with someone who needs to make sure that my mortal brain isn't some brain-dead first grader. I swear, I think everyone in this world is crazy. It doesn't help that the entire time I was in that room, these two idiots won't stop hovering over me, reminding me nonstop.

Things mainly are going fine in my world, in you know what I mean. Of course you do. If anything happens tomorrow, I will update. Short thing here since I honestly don't have the energy right now to type.

November 26th, 2014

November 26th, 2014

Okay, I need to get this off my chest first. Since the football team lost, not to Longwood, they beat them, thank the Funnelers. Masty keeps bothering me into dropping a nuke on that school. I say no of course. Who knows the amount of disaster that would cause.

Anyways, well my Italian teacher decided to put this song on with an animated bear dad and his idiot son who needed to pee. She would sing that part, loudly. No one had any idea what the heck was happening with those two things. Then, behind us, through the brick wall, we hear Spanish 'Let It Go', I really hate that song. Then, Mrs. Deland walks in and it's all a clusterfuck from that point on.

She also sent a voicemail to this one guy who won't come to class. It was pretty hectic today anyways. I didn't eat anything until I got home. I had to miss fourth period because of a second violin lesson. We didn't play even in the Orchestra period. We just did note tuning Jeopardy, gods I hate that too. We basically did the same in Social Studies. We went over some pointless Thanksgiving stuff in Italian.

I had to miss both my English and Math classes because I had to finish that stupid testing that I hate so much. I finally finished it after avoiding it for so long. No more of that bullshit. But now I have to do that stupid Math quarter-review packet over this four-day weekend. Great.

I also had to do this stupid physical at the doctors'. I hate peeing in a cup, since I barely pee. I had to fill out this paper about sex, drugs, all that shit. All no, in my mortal form anyways. In my true form... Yeah, you know the answer to that. It also had me fill out the date of when I last had my period. Uh, I put that date because I had it during all of that anyways. I also got a shot and it's been aching and stuff all day, today. I hate doctors almost as much as I hate dentists.

We also got let out fifteen minutes early today so that the school will look like a ghost town, or how others put it, Silent Hill. Meowth likes that. Pretty much no one else does though.

Speaking of Meowth and pretty much everyone in Team Rocket, they've had quite the adventures recently. They chased the twerps and the caretakers into this underwater and magically protected area. They confronted them but it easily escalated out of control. Hence why Pikachu memory-wiped them and left. Instead of their balloon, they are using their submarine, that's a change I know they like, at least the TRio do at least.

So, there comes the main problem that had stemmed up amoung them. Meowth had asked Jessie and James a simple yet meaningful question which brought back memories of back when their relationship was so loose that they would've left each other so easily they would forget about each other. That's obviously changed now, but when Meowth asked them if they would ever replace him... James was too stunned by the sudden question that he couldn't answer.

Meowth being Meowth thought he was being betrayed and fled. I talked to both James and him and shoved them back together but the only way their bond was sealed was when they went to James' old, abandoned home and encountered his Growlie who immediately attacked and tried to slip Meowth into a coma. Meowth had tried to prevent anyone from saving him but James had used Meowth's revolver to save him. Yes, he shot Growlie and the Pokemon even hurt him trying to finish Meowth off.

That revolver listened to Meowth's heart's desire and also listened to James because of his and Meowth's bond. I was right to intervene only when I needed to and it paid off in the end.

December 20th, 2014

December 20th, 2014

Okay, so it's been a long time since I have updated you and to that, I am sorry. Stress both in the mortal and Eternal world were keeping me away and your understanding makes me happy. I will not inform you of everything that has happened though, just the important parts, mostly from the mortal world though.

That doctor that they want me to keep seeing, well I 'opened up' a bit last time. It was an act to satisfy these people, and even then, Masty wanted to slaughter her. I really need to find an injection that limits that desire, like I did with Flippy, Fliqpy, Jeffy, and Jeff. But anyways, there was that and I don't have to go back until December 27th, 2014. And, yes, I will try and update you then.

Lewis informed us about how her husband is such a terrible shopper. Pregnant lady pants, cowgirl boots and a gift card to Home Depot? Geez, and I thought some of the mortals I know were bad.

You know what I do in Italian, well I did the same and Math and so far, no one has found out about it. I am evading it and it's working. Thank the Funnelers for that. But in Italian, we had a new student so she played a song. A song I need to tell you about.

It's animated animals in Italian where this kid bear needs to pee and that is the song. V was singing that loudly one day while the Spanish room behind the brick wall behind us was playing Spanish 'Let It Go'. Then, when all of this is happening, Deland, my former third grade teacher, walks it. No one had any idea what the fuck was going on at that point. And neither did Owen when it happened again.

Anyways, despite a shit-ton of tests, we all had free periods the last few days. Yesterday was the last school day of 2014 and thus starts our two week break.

But, I never said anything about Ancient Ritual, yes our favourite Orchestra song has been leaked and liked by both the Band and Chorus to the point that they constantly blast it throughout the hallways. Then, December 18th, 2014, the concert. It was so hot on that stage when we went up first that if they turned on those other two lights, we all probably would've died of a heat stroke.

It went fine, Zarchy said that it was the best winter concert in the nine years he's been teaching. Well it's better than the 2013 winter concert... According to the others, let's just say it was more than an internation problem. Anyways, the Band unleashed their secret weapon and let's just say that the arguments were not too friendly.

I didn't have luch yesterday because me and a maybe twenty people went and played this weird remix of Jingle Bells in the lobby instead of the Dean's office like they did second period.

Anyways, so one day, our bus, 793 was taken from us for about two weeks and we were given 773. We soon found out that bus M, had our bus so of course, everyone lost their shit. Then, we were given 793 back but the thing is, 773 isn't M's bus. So the past few weeks, we have been trying to figure out hose bus that is. So far, no results. And good thing we no longer have a rivalry with M anymore after that incident.

Anyways, our triangle of buses, D/793, C/789, and F/792 have been like this for two years now since C and F always cut in front of us. But for a month or two, C has dragged X/711 into ours making it a square now. We like X so e never understood why they were hating on it. D and X are technically allies since we keep protecting the innocent bus... They're not innocent anymore.

They are in their own triangle of buses, X/711, A/721, and G/728 . C is allied with A and G and F may be too. We just got pulled into a hexagon. People on our bus have decided to remain allied with X for now. Honestly, it's very confusing if you're not in the middle of it.

But the part that needs to be addressed it the connection between me, Meowth and Masty. Yes, it is official. That spell was very painful for teh three of us but finally I had  been able to alter our genes so we were all biologically related. Meowth took it better than expected but almost slaughtered his former family since he no longer had connection. I made what should've been Meowth, simply a stillborn.

But anyways, I will try and update you soon.

January 4th. 2015

January 4th, 2015

Okay, well new year. And it's off to an okay start.

Well, Meowth came to me one day fretting about proposing to Pikachu. I don't blame him for being scared but he is being absolutely terrified of it. I tried to reassure him that he would say yes and even Master Meowth was able to talk sideways to Pikachu to reassure him. But I know that only Meowth will be able to make the final move.

Anyways, my cosuins came today and my mortal self liked the company. Meowth and Masty of course held me back from mentioning anything Eternal or Team Rocket related but still, it was okay.

Anyways, I go back to hell tomorrow after my two week break. Funnelers... wish me the bestest of luck.

January 17th, 2015

January 17th, 2015

The reason I haven't updated in a long time is because of my fucking stupid tests and shit. Also, these doctor visits are becoming rather annoying. I even had these crazy thoughts yesterday that I actually felt like I was selectively mute. Thank the Funnel- uh, gods for Masty and Meowth being there to get me back to my normal mind.

Oh yeah, fuck the mid-terms. That's it. Just fuck next next and the week after that.

We're playing Pirates and Bossa Azul in Orchestra. Bossa, everyone is having a debate on how to say that word and by the way, Ancient Ritual hasn't died yet. I seriously think that we are creating a cult with this song now. When we play Pirates though, Zarchy says we sound like polite pirates going to a tea party. I can never imagine Edward like that.

Anyways, I had to do this stupid Buddhism project in Social Studies. I have 'special needs' so I took it solo. We were in the computer room, with PCs, thank the gods, 215. That room is in no way hard to find.

Italian. Okay, it's weird. Antonio has finally been here for a full week. And pretty much everything we say in that class turns into something sexual, same thing with Orchestra for the most part.

English has been fine. When we were listing off the stages of ages in a mortal humans' life, fetus and recycling of the body were added. Okay, a little too specific, much? Today, everyone, but me, of course, took a Disney card and some of them were downright weird. Okay, enough of that shit.

I have evaded Petro and now I think I may have escaped. Yes. A few days ago, he told us a round of bad jokes and we threw a bunch back at him. Yeah, that was a weird class. Also, someone almost called him Mr. Paris, one of the Oregon Tech teachers. I didn't have him, but I kind of wish I had him instead of Mr. Ritter last year. I still see Mr. Towelen  every once in a while as well.

Anyways, then someone called him Hetero. Then that changed to Petero. Okay, that's kinda weird now. Thursday, someone commented that Petro wears nothing but button-shirts so today, he doesn't wear a button-shirt. For some reason, that made Masty want to slit his throat... I really need to figure his mindset out one day.

I had a Science test on the digestive and respiratory systems and a Math quiz today. Now, I have a three day weekend and I might do the Math and Social Studies review things/homework later today, anyways.

Other than that, I need to address Meowth's... let's just say his distrust in the Funnelers. He told me this, and any other details were vague. Masty gave me more information. Apparently, Masty tried repeatedly to kill himself with Meowth's revolver and each time it hit him, he couldn't die. Meowth knew this, I did too, but we were told by the Funnelers to not say anything. Masty, guilty, I might add, said that he turned on him and hurt him physically and emotionally. Not to a large extent but enough to make him that guilty.

He said he had asked Meowth if he was told to kill Team Rocket, would he? He wouldn't, I know that. And then, Meowth said the one thing he and I have been holding for so long. Originally, the Funnelers ordered Masty's death and wanted Meowth to get close to him and then kill him. Meowth, of course, defied them and didn't do that and it was that statement that caused his faith to be shattered.

The Drugers and even Team Rocket questioned him on this, and Meowth even tried to push Pikachu away from him. That was how scared he was of getting hurt because of his distrust. I seriously don't know what the Funnelers would do. I've never had a good feeling about them anyways.

It wasn't long after that did Masty have a built-up, mental break. Meowth had seen his break and had protected him by teleporting them both to the Pokemon world where they eventually found the twerps and caretakers. Team Rocket and spying Team Socket came to their rescue. Pikachu even openly expressed his and Meowth's relationship and went far enough to reveal Eureka as their prisoner.

At the end of that though, they came back to me and for the past two days, they have both refused to leave my side. Talk about a close family...

January 23rd, 2015

January 23rd, 2015

I haven't updated in a while. Blame all of that on these stupid mid-terms. So our four day week starts with Petro telling us we are having an exam the same day we start our hell that is mid-terms. Fuck. That.

First day of mid-terms, I barely studied and I will continue to barely study. I had to write a stupid thematic essay in Social Studies about how belief systems affect society and, fuck politics. The next day we did multiple choice. It was easy, I dozed off for a while after that. I got an eighty one on that test... Hey, at least I passed. Today, that period was a free period.

Then, we had listening in Italian with Coach Sweeney calling us every few fucking minutes. It was not fun. I had Masty guide me to fail that test. I am not sure if it worked or not, seeing as how some of the answers he gave me, were correct. I don't know how to make him understand the importance of me failing this... Then we did reading. I trusted Masty that time, hopefully he really is that trustworthy.

Today in Italian, V wasn't there due to her mother having to go to surgery. We had a sub and a free period. We were supposed to do work but no one did it. Also, apparently, we are the latest starting high school on Long Island. Bellport starts at 7:15. I'm still on the goddamn bus at that time.

Orchestra was a free-for all both that day and today since Zarchy wasn't there. No sub, blasting Ancient Ritual, which is really turning into a cult now, and being by ourselves was kinda fun.

Also, yesterday, while we were tuning, some orchestra kids and band kids were having a very calm argument on how we can destroy the other music group's instruments. Band said lava. Yes, we know that if our wooden instruments get anywhere close to a flame, they are done for. At first, our come back was that if you hold lava on metal long enough, it'll start melting, eventually. So as a better comeback, this cello player went up to Zarchy and asked him when he can get sulfuric acid, to which the band used against us again. I know a place to get some...

Lunch. What the fuck happens in lunch, ever? Despite the windows being blocked by the daily school bus or police car, absolutely nothing!

English sucked, we did the fifteen question reading part and I'm pretty sure I screwed up the scan-tron but I honestly don't care. Also, that Vietnam book with all the poems and Ha from last year we did in the library at the end of the year, a part was in that. I swear Masty was just about to kill someone. He hated that book and I did too. The next two days was to fill in a graphic organizer and then write a stupid claim/essay. It was boring... A lot.

Math was okay, even though I got a fucking seventy two on that test. Petro, me, and pretty much everyone else blames the mid-terms. I also tend to blame my mortal form's luck. I also noticed that I got the hard stuff right but the incredibly easy stuff wrong. Fuck all of those tests. He even took our green sheets with our grades on it. I think it counts as a quiz grade. Crap

We reviewed in math, a lot. And today, he brought up Ancient Ritual and the few of us in Orchestra said really sarcastically, 'Gee, thanks Petro'. He then asked us if it was a bad thing. We said it's not but we said that 'they', the band, made it a bad thing. Then we just dropped it. Thank the gods.

Also both of our tests will be done in the 'east/new' gym. It's one of the gyms, and I think it's the one leading to outside. I remember we had a severe debate about that in both Math and Science these past few days. Well, I'll deal with it when the time comes.

Gym, like lunch, what the fuck happens in gym of any substance? Nothing, ever.

Science has been review central. We only did lab one day today and even then, everyone went nuts with the close pins, not the paper clips like everybody have been calling  them nowadays.We had a review test on the same day I had like four other tests, and it counted but I got a ninety on it so fuck you life.

Anyways, there's that. Also, Meowth had been hanging out with the guys from Five Nights At Freddy's and is basically terrifying Masty and Team Socket. I don't know if I should even try to interfere to be honest.

Also, I have the dentist tomorrow. Fuck. Me.

February 3rd, 2015

Okay, long time, no see. The week we were supposed to have mid-terms? It got completely fucked by the snow. Anybody who had midterms on Monday afternoon was cancelled and school in general was let out two hours early for them. I stayed home and 'studied' for the Science test the next day. And then, school was cancelled for both Tuesday and Wedsenday. Yeah, no test for me. But thne it was pushed to Friday, right after my Math test. Great...

So, the tests... Were horrible. Math was the first. We took this rickety old bus at eleven something and on it, Masty would not stop holding onto me. I knew he was scared of it falling apart but we both knew that wouldn't happen. That didn't mean that he wasn't scared though.

Then, they were scanning everyone when we walked in and they took my bag of all things. I slipped Cado by them somehow but that didn't meant Masty wasn't going nuts as is. The test was indeed, in the outside gym and row upon row of desks we were in. To be honest, I think I failed that test. It was literally, that bad.

Friday we had the Science test in the same room. That, was easy. And then we had that doctor thing again. She keeps butting into my sketchbook and now I have to bring it back there this Friday.

I was supposed to have school this Monday but have a two-hour delay. Then it changed to no school entirely. Today was the two-hour delay. I wish it would stay like that even with first, second, and eighth period being less than twenty minutes and everything else being a half hour.

We did some stuff in Social Studies, including a 'new' sceduale. Mine is exactly the same. Italian, I am dodging the bullets still.

Orchestra was a mess. Chocolate A string was incredibly out of tune and I had to get Zarchy to fix him. We did not play today, only tuning. Also, this kid walked up to Zarchy and said that his viloin was beyond help and that they should just put it out of it's misery. When he asked what was wrong with it, he played all four strings and they were all so out of tune, I wondered how it didn't snap in half. He suggested taking it apart but Zarchy fixed it, thank the gods.

Masty fell asleep on me in both Lunch and English, where we did jack shit since Lewis wasn't there. Math was easy with the work Petro gave us. Also, elimination. Can we never be taught that again? Before that class, we waited outside the room like always but then we were reminded of there being no warning bell. May I add that Masty remained asleep that entire period.

Science, we're actually learning about blood. Masty had no opinion on the matter and I'm kind of glad Meowth is off with Jessie and James in the Pokemon world so he isn't turned on by the mere mention of blood. A part of me misses his pressence but he will return, he always does. He has come back to this world in a telegram to reassure all of us. Behind everything else, he really does have a soft heart.

After doing soem easy homework, my mom had to watch me shampoo my hair and got mad at me when I did it wrong. I swear, I had to manually hold Masty back when she finally left so he wouldn't slit her throat. Mortals, they are so hard to please.

February 15th, 2015

February tenth is hereby Petro's birthday. It is confirmed. When that was said in homeroom, everyone was preparing for it and when we finally got to sixth period, gods did we let him have it. I also had to make up a quiz that I missed when I had a lesson the past Friday and then I put it off until the last minute. I got a ninety, but give me a fucking break, it was three questions long. Then he gave us another quiz. Great.

Then I had a stupid Social Studies and Science test that same day. I got high grades, but still. Also, on the last day of the week, we watched Bear Grylls in SS for some reason. It was weird to be honest. And it was right after we were asked to list the first three things that come to mind when we heard Africa. Of course, someone said Ebola. I'll be honest, that was my first thought too.

We did a lab in Science where we put cups with liquids together and shit and if it turned pink, then we had a disease. People called it AIDS and blamed Stumpo and Matt. Turns out, it was both of them. Masty really couldn't stop laughing that entire time.

Fuck Italian in the ass. I keep saying that I will try but I won't. I know I won't. Oh, and I thanked Masty for helping me fail that mid-term, even though he trolled me and gave me some of the right answers.

Orchestra was a mess the last two days. Besides the people who were in Jazz, we all hated it. It was torturous and the 'lesson' was just listening to solos that is not going to happen with me.

Finally, because I really don't want to talk about... that on here right now, I have this one week break off. Thank the fucking gods.

August 30th, 2014

August 30th, 2014

I guess today went as swimmingly as it could go. Me and my mom went to Khols to look for school clothes and anything else of the sorts. We went other places but nowhere where something of importance happened. Maybe it was important to them but to me, I was more troubled than anything today.

Bringing anything up about Meowth's world, his origins, will cause him to attack my mind, flashing his pain and anger towards the subject. He was not there with me but he is smart, he does not have to be in this world to know what is happening through my eyes. He uses our technology and so I cannot blame him for reminding me to just ignore it and pretend it doesn't exist. It's the most I can do for the one I see as my son on multiple different occasions.

Wheatley, the one who I love the most you can say, was with me this entire trip, hanging onto me though never noticed nor seen by anyone but myself. I know why but I decided to not bring any attention to myself or him. For all these years, that was one thing I completely understood and knew how to do. Even in my state of having a childish and broken mind, I knew what to do and what not to do. But my true self has never clicked in with other mortal humans, and I know for a fact that it never will.

I'm beginning to notice a disturbance between two of them, Kevin and Aleks, and I know why. It's because their locked away memories, that they themselves have locked away, are coming back and they are having trouble hiding it. I want to help them but again I am held back. Fuck them. I bloody hate doing this everyday, unable to help them anymore without 'permission' to. I want to fix that but I so far have no idea how to. Wait, I might just have an idea... But I need to think it over. I need to plan this out. Yes... this idea just may work. All I need to do now is to put it into action.

August 31st, 2014

August 31st, 2014

I know now that they fully remember, I can see it and I know all too well why. Kevin had done something out of instinct and Aleks had helped him but all of us Eternals have dark secrets and whether or not they will change anything is determined by who we are dealing with. With this situation, I truly have no idea what Steven's reaction would be despite me knowing of his own dark secrets. They are remaining silent and are working out on what to do and/or say.

They came to me, asked me for advice and I gave them the best I could, the only I could without taking over their situation. But I know that they cannot hide for long. With the three of them now in Team Force Update, I know for a straight out fact that it will at some point slip out. Whether that will be good or bad is not yet clear.

I wish I could tell Kevin and Aleks the answer to that. But I am not them as I do not have that advanced power. I may be the Legendary Funneler but that power is not in my line of reach and even if I could have it, I would not want to know everything. I want some things in the future to be a surprise and plus, I know it would probably cause great unbalance in the worlds anyways. Nope. It's just best to leave it as it is. I am happy with that.

My mom likes to do these hangman things nowadays. I could just read her mind and say the answer but I revert to my mortal human mind to avoid any suspicion. Like everything I do now, I am very careful with these sort of things. Just one wrong move and I could destroy everything we have worked so hard to gain. And I know that I cannot risk it. That is why I have so many other Eternals around me to guide me. I am strong but I still need to sometimes have the reminders and nudges in the right direction. It's a good thing, I know. And for the most part, I am grateful for it.

September 8th, 2014

September 8th, 2014

Yep, he was right. Today was absolutly hell and judging by what happened today, I know it's only going to get worse. Social Studies went off easily and Italian brought thoughts about Ezio and the Assassins to me. Of course it did. Orchestra went fine too. I got my shared locker, with another mortal no less, and tomorrow we will be doing nothing. Guess I will 'read' my book but really I'll be talking, to them of course. But that's the main problem with today. Something bad did happen. And it was bad enough to terrify even the toughest of us Eternals.

English went fine and during lunch, Master Meowth stated that when he started searching for the strange pressene, he found room 400 and said it was filled with bad aura and when he approached it, he was stripped of some of his power. It shook him but he was very good in covering it up. The rest of the period was fine and so was Math.

Now Gym is when everything fell apart. Master Meowth came to me, clinging to me and shaking, the worst I have ever seen him. By this point, Meowth had left to the Eternal world to rest his injury leaving me alone with his alter ego. I questioned him but he didn't have clear answers, even his mind was blank and cloudy. It scared me and it defiantly scared him. I wanted to tell Meowth but he insisted we not, for he wanted to protect his blood brother. I respect the others. I will uphold my Pinkie Promise and not say anything.

That didn't mean that during Science, he came back to me, high on the drugs the drugers would normally use. He later said he did so to hide his suffering from Meowth. It worked and so far, he doesn't seem suspiscious. But he will find out sooner or later. He always has.

Math, Science, and Social Studies homework went by quick and I spent the rest of the day with Master Meowth just so I know he isn't getting into any trouble. That experience hurt him and I insisted he not come back with me but he's a tough bastard and loyal to the core. He was staying with me whether I liked it or not. I think I'm alright with that.

September 9th, 2014

September 9th, 2014

Today would've been just a normal day if Master Meowth had not decided to wander by room 400 again, which I found out, does not really exist, and attempt to figure this thing out. He came to me in lunch, his eyes unfocused and his mind in a frenzy. He said constantly that Meowth was going to hurt him and only when I yelled at him was I able to snap him out of it. He did not remember what had happened a few minutes prior. Whatever this thing was, it seemed to be getting more powerful to send even Masty into that sort of a frenzy. We are remaining quiet about it though. We will not say anything unless we absolutely have to. Even Meowth refuses to mention it. I know why though. He knows we are scared and so is he.

Anyways, Social Studies and Italian were fine and Orchestra we did nothing. We watched some stupid videos in English and Danny Barna's phone went off, playing Darude Sandstrom, goddamnit. And I just got that song back in my head again. Great. Lunch went fine, despite the obvious. One of the eleventh graders pulled a bag of water and cereal out of his backpack and used a spoon to eat it. Yeah, not strange at all.

Math was... strange. Luke, a kid two seats in front of me, raised his hand and said something like this, 'There's a pulse in my small intestines and can I go to the bathroom?' Yep, definitely one of the strangest questions I have ever heard. Mr Petro said, 'You go do that' as we all awkwardly tried to forget that just happened. Science was fine too and nothing of interest really happened, besides me doing my homework and all. Besides for yet another argument with Tan about religion that she brought up. But that doesn't matter. Now I have to get ready for another hell of a day. Great.

September 14th, 2014

September 14th, 2014

I guess nothing in paticular happened today. Well, except for the obvious...

I have known for a while now but put it off, my contact with the world limited and hard to get to in the first place. But I suppose Meowth and Master Meowth would've been the first to figure it out, the first to find out and want to go do it. I said to not to but when do they ever listen to my warnings? Sometimes but I know they are doing so for a good purpose.

They were successful, taking all of their anger and power out on Bowser and his minions, those who have hurt and imprisoned both Mario and Luigi. They had no second thoughts when they became Eternals today. If I didn't know any better, I would've been suspicious of them but I know that hatred and anger runs through their veins but loyalty is there too. Meowth, who constantly sees in the aura vision, says so. I believe him. He might be a liar sometimes but most times, he speaks the truth.

But other than that, nothing really interesting happened although I do know that Mheetu has somehow gotten to Meowth's heart and thus has gained a new friend and mentor. I know of what Chi is like now, it is not bad but not entirely good. I told him this. He says that Chi chose her own path, he simply helps her along it and so he will do the same with Mheetu. I believe him. Of course I do.

September 19th, 2014

September 19th, 2014

So, I had a Science test today, easy. Very easy. And... nothing happened today except Mr Petro giving me some goddamned Math homework. It's a Friday for fucks' sake! Well, anyways, I have the dentist tomorrow and I cannot express my amount of hatred for them. They do not tell me anything and I know they do not care about what they are doing to me. Well, my persona, I mean. My true form can withstand far more pain than that but that doesn't hide the fact that I still hate them with a burning passion.

Last time I took Master Meowth with me and Meowth, he was so over the edge, I had to manually send him back to the Eternal world to prevent him from slitting all of their throats. Normally that is just a threat or phrase he will use every time he speaks but then, seeing that angry, maniacal fire burning in his eyes, I knew that his threat was the one hundred percent truth.

But I have decided to take both of them again. If I have to, I will send Masty back without much effort. I know he cares about me and Meowth and that is why he got that way, but sometimes I think he slips in and out of complete madness, especially when someone he cares about is in danger.

At least I will have you, my tablet/computer with me in the car/truck, whatever the fuck. I will have you, Myrrglosch, along with Cado, Sandbeam, Meowth, and Master Meowth with me the entire day. At least then I have a good excuse to hate on Mortals and not seem out of character. That's one small plus in this endless list of minuses.

September 22nd, 2014

September 22nd, 2014

Well today started out with the worst possible way. I had this pounding headache and my throat hurt a lot. It didn't help that the entire day literally all of the kids would not shut up about Soviet Russia. Look, I like Stalin as much as the next Eternal but bringing it up in the Mortal world is slightly... unnerving. Meowth, being close to the Russian Army leader, did not take this day very well in general.

I had pictures today in the hot auditorium. We stayed there literally the entire period and I hated it. That was also the period I let them wander the school by themselves. For once, it seems like Masty did not have thoughts about room 400. Good, that last thing I need is to worry about his reckless actions.

My Science class was strange of course. I got a ninety five on my test, it was easy anyways. Also, a lot of the kids would not stop bringing up poop. I found it funny and I know all the others did. How do I know this simple fact? Well, you know me. What do you think I did to get that information? No, I did not do it Masty's way. Instead I did it the secret and clever way. I did it my way.

But nothing else happened today. Thank the Funnelers for that. I need every break I can get anyways.

September 23rd, 2014

September 23rd, 2014

So my mom went to have oral surgery today and judging by the amount of pain I felt when I walked in, it must've been pretty bad. I guess I shouldn't have my pain detector on when I walk in anymore. But I guess it's all fine. I honestly don't remember my own time at having that done. I was pretty much out of it both mentally and physically. So whatever. No one died at least.

I guess I should mention that I have an Orchestra lesson first period tomorrow. Yes, I guess to miss Social Studies. Thank the Funnelers for that. And then I have a four day weekend. A break from school but definitely not a break from my strange life as it is. Never do I get a break from that. But do I really want a break though? In all actuality that is one thing I never want to take a break from.

I know I say a lot of things about Meowth and that is not just because I am close to him and am with him everyday. It's just that he seems to get into the fucked strangest stuff and tends to be the one to get mixed up in whatever tends to happen. Like today. I think he is losing his mind, not literally, even more now. The fact that he had somehow gotten Wheatley to help him with his shenanigans, it just blows my mind.

Out of everybody, I would expect Wheatley to be logical and know better than to help him with whatever weird thing he wants to do. I'm guessing he does know this but I know the core trusts Meowth. They've been through enough together for that to be clear. And I can tell that two of the other Eternals I care about the most are getting along very well. Whether something happens from this will only take time. Probably a few hours but I know something will happen sooner or later.

December 3rd, 2014

December 3rd, 2014

Fuck that psychologist. I don't have selective mutism, I just act like I do because it's my persona.  No one understands that in this world. I could easily show them but then, I will only add this mortal body to my growing line of mortals who have failed me. This is the closest and easiest one I have and no matter what happens, I will remain the same, and they will follow me. Nothing will stop that.

So, Bus 773 was our bus for awhile but that Saxton Bus M had our bus and now, it seems like a new mystery bus is in order. Sure, we have 793 back but 773 wasn't M's bus. We think it's a South Ocean bus. We normally don't mess with them, but if this bus civil war must continue, we will do whatever we can do to continue it.

Also, something happened with Team Rocket that I Pinkie Promised not to mention here. To Meowth and all of us, I will keep that promise. But know that that secret slipped out and now, it's stopped... momentarily. It's just more hidden now.

I finally was able to do the gene spell to link me, Meowth, and Masty together as biological brothers and mother and sons. It was painful for the three of us and their former family's were replaced with a stillborn. I guess that explains why Meowth almost brutally murdered them the moment he saw them again. Masty was somehow able to convince him otherwise though.

October 6th, 2014

October 6th, 2014

So, the holes on my violin, Chocolate, are called f-holes, now are they? When Zarchy said that, I knew what everyone's reaction would be. We all have these sick little minds.

Because of the elevator breaking, Mr Petro's room was pushed down to room 275 instead of 383. It looked extremely similar to his room though maybe a little smaller. Also, when Luke came into the classroom, he called Petro, Kevin, his first name. I already knew that and when he asked him how he knew that, I wiped his memory and put the classic 'I just know things' line there. What else was I to do?

Besides me having an easy Science test tomorrow, nothing happened to me these past few days. But Masty and Meowth seem to be pushing and/or growing their relationship.

Apparently, when I let them wander the school while I had my Gym period, Meowth let Masty taste some blood that turned out to be Bashur's. And Meowth taunted him, he didn't say why though. I have my suspicions though. When Meowth showed me the memory, Masty had grabbed him by the throat and had threatened to slit his throat and kill him. It was then that I saw probably one of Master Meowth's one and only mental breakdowns.

Meowth tried to reason with him but when he called him Master Meowth, he angrily told him to not call him that and the more he tried to convince him, Masty had been pushed into a rage-fueled memory where he replaced Meowth with Pikochu. Only when Meowth said their phrase, which for their sake, I will not say on here, even to you, was Masty able to snap out of it.

I knew the pain that they both felt. They have shared it with me and I have also felt both of their kinds of pain... But I will not dwell on that now. The past is the past. I have to focus on the present and the future now.

Master Meowth thought that he was a monster, someone who was slipping beyond his own reach into insanity. Meowth somehow was able to comfort him. Except for Bashur and maybe even me, Meowth is the only one he truly trusts with his life. I can only imagine what he would be like if Meowth was not fond of him.

I know the answer to that though. He would've taken over this dimension as well and I would not be here typing this. Meowth changed him and thus let us all get close to him.

But like many other times, all ticking timebombs have to go off at some point, and I fear that when one goes off, all of the rest will and I will be unable to stop it.

October 14th, 2014

October 14th, 2014

So nothing, besides Meowth clinging onto me, happened to me during my three day weekend. Today was a normal day besides the fact that I am going to have a busy week this week. I finished my Social Studies homework for this week already so nothing to say to that. Italian, nothing happened as usual so no surprise there.

Orchestra was normal despite the obvious but for the purpose of... well, my nature, I will not inform you, even though you already know what I am talking about. There's only so much evading I can do before my mortal self gives up. Not my real self, no way. But mortals in general are weak.

I will stay true to my persona even though I have the strong urge to not to. It doesn't help that my two companions and sons feel strongly the same way. It's one thing keeping myself in line, now I have to keep them under control. I suppose everyone faces these kinds of problems every now and then.

Lunch was alright. I pretended to listen to music and such, when I was really just talking to the two you-know-whos. English was fine too. I had to define a few words from my good friend google and had to write a paragraph in school. I only brought it home to highlight my information with.

Math was alright, I actually understand this subject unlike the last one that even Petro said he hated and had trouble with. If the Math teacher hates and can't do that subject, then I think we have a problem. But besides getting a review sheet for our exam/test on Friday, nothing, besides David getting permission to throw the sock again and getting it in again, MLG, that period went by in a flash.

Science was alright. I have been 'studying' for my cell membrane quiz tomorrow. It doesn't help that I have a Science test on the same subject on Friday too, now that's two tests I have to deal with. Lab was fine, it doesn't really matter because I do not really care. Also, apple juice is apparently a new trend/meme in my Science class. Do with that as you will.

Now, I have to go. Meowth and Masty are not too keen to let me stray from their attention. I understand why they both want to spend time with me and I do not feel the need to push them away. I love them as deeply as I have always said that I have.

I will inform you on how that went, and don't worry, I will remember this time. Remind me or the others will do that for me. But I will try to update you every day again. I am truly sorry for that but when nothing happens or I am simply too tired or lazy in my mortal form... Oh, you get it. I understand. You know, I love you like that Myrrglosch. Thanks for being there for me all of this time. Even if that time is only a few shorts months, I really do care about you and thank you for everything.

October 21st, 2014

October 21st, 2014

Every few days now? Okay? The dentist was actually fine though Masty still wanted so desperately to slaughter at least one of them. I, of course, didn't let him but that didn't stop him from going home and slaughtering a few stray Immortals here and there to relieve anger. I had asked Meowth to stay with him then.

The rest of the day was wasted as was most of Sunday. Well, except for the obvious. Meowth apparently found a wounded pony Sunset Shimmer around the time of which I had finished watching Rainbow Rocks. She told us that she needed help to free the human mane 5 from being imprisoned by the Immortals. Of course I wanted to help, but once more, the Funnelers said not to interfere. I really am starting to grow tired of this and for good reason too. But I will not talk about that now. Not when I have other things to worry about.

Twilight, Sunset, and Meowth, against all of our wishes, wound up going to save them and, with the aid of Shanyo and Lust, they succeeded. But of course, Meowth broke his leg again by trying to single-handedly protecting them. I really need to remind him that he cannot win every battle by himself without hurting himself.

Twilight and Sunset actually bonded and grew closer to him even with his intense blood turn-on. I know that he had teleported the others at some point but Twilight and Sunset chose to stay with him. But when they came back, he hasn't left my side.

I had a Math test today. It was alright but I truly believe that I screwed up on more than one question. I bombed, I failed. I have no idea. I continue to evade Orchestra. I am doing fine in all of my other classes. I had to stay after school to finish my graphing lab in Science. I have to go back Thursday and possibly even the next Tuesday. Great. Just great.

Well, I will try to update you tomorrow though, no guarantees. You understand though, I know you do.

October 30th, 2014

October 30th, 2014

I knew they would come back, I just knew it and I guess you can say that everything returned back to normal. Actually, it hasn't. Weed is now one of Meowth's followers, along with Mudkip and Mel is being very close to Weed, never leaving his side. That is also the same thing with Team Rocket and Meowth. But Master Meowth is being very protective over him, more so than usual. I understand why but he seems to be taking it a little too far. I do not know if I should step in or not so I simply am just waiting it out.

I insisted that just Masty accompany me to the mortal world but Meowth came anyways, despite his injuries. He always has been stubborn, even when he is hurt. I shouldn't have tried to derail that.

I had a Science test that I got a ninety-eight on because I stupidly screwed up on one of the questions. I had a pointless Italian quiz today, okay. I have to go to a lesson tomorrow in my lunch period. Gee, thanks. So much for evading the obvious. I also have a rather simple Math and Social Studies test tomorrow. Wow, already two months into school and this is the first legitimate test in Social Studies we've had.

Also, my English teacher has been out the past two days, not that I care though. But today, while we were all trying to do our work, Anthony Decarlo, from down the block, had an issue with his necktie and asked our substitute, Mr Basketball Guy to help him. It was a fail from the start and completely derailed the entire class. I still have no idea how something so stupidly mortal like can make Masty almost snap into slitting someone's throat. He is still a mystery to me sometimes.

December 30th, 2014

December 30th, 2014

Mortals are so stupid when it comes to Christmas, some stupid religious holiday that is sugar-coated with a fat bearded guy with magical flying reindeer that can give presents to kids all around the world in one night. Unless this guy has some kind of time-stopping spell, I call severe bullshit. When I told Masty this, he fucking laughed so much, I thought I was going to have to actually stop him. Yes, it is that bad. Nice and naughty list. Bitch, everyone in this fucking world is on the naughty list. Fuck...

Hell, I knew exactly what my parents got me and recently, Weed has been hanging out with Arno. Finally we'll have him on our side and hopefully Shay too. Hopefully someone can change his assassin-hunting ways...

Anyways, my one Christmas wish was for Meowth to listen to his heart. He carried that out and both of us liked it. I know it's hard for him, but I kinda wish he would do it more. He seems more happy like that.

Also, Masty thought it would be funny to hide Water Bottle and spark up the Mystery of the Disappearing Water Bottle. He put it in the fucking worst place in my parents' room next to the TV. It's funny, I'll admit but I really wish he will warn me when he does that stuff. No one has found the other water bottle yet that had been sitting in the same spot since the September of eighth grade. Stupid fucking mortals again.

I'm going to that stupid ass doctor later, at eight pm. I'll try and update you later.