Letting The Days Go By.

( Fluttershys P.O.V )

Five years.

It has been five years since any of my friends have decided to come for a visit.

When I say it out loud it sounds pathetic, who counts the days since they've seen a friend?

I just don't have anything else to do.

The moon outside is shining so brightly tonight, the sky is clear and the wind from above so crisp and welcoming.

Though it alone calms me now just a bit, I fear it is my memories that haunt me now.

Each memory like a blade stabbing at my heart over and over again.

They are not bad memories at all, in truth they are the thoughts of days filled with laughter and love that keep me awake at night.

Five years.

All my friends left Ponyville to chase their dreams and find their path, yet I decided to stay behind too afraid to take the plunge and live my life on another path.

I chose to stay here and live with my wildlife friends, and for a time all was good I gave them company and in return they gave me their love.

But as the years started to pass so did those smiling faces, one by one each of my friends who looked to me for care moved on in life. Be it finding love, looking for adventure or like my dear Angel Bunny- simply run out of time on this earth, they left my side and moved on.

Once gone I couldn't bare to replace them I felt if I did then maybe I was dishonouring their memory in some way, so within time my cottage lost the cozy feeling of a home and slowly turned into a place so silent and lost it felt forgotten.

I would sit outside on clear nights such as this and think about how my friends would keep my spirits high, keep my faith alive that no matter what happened in life they would be at my side till the end. Yet it didn't take long to allow the truth to sink in, within five years not once have those so close to my heart come to see me.

I've sent packages, letters and even gifts.

Never once had I gotten a reply.

I see how things are now, I gave my heart to those who have left and in return got nothing.

I can still join the last of those who reside on my land, I can hear them call for me to return to their sides once more and care for them. Give my love to those who will not throw it back into my face.

I was scared at first of those voices, but now I'm ready- I want to return things back to how they were.

With a broken heart and a single tear rolling down my cheek, I knew it was this perfect night to make my journey back to my true friends.

Turning my gaze away from the soft light of the moon above, I began my slow trott back towards my cottage my heart racing wildly in my chest not of fear but of something else I had not felt in so long.

Excitement!

I could see my friends now waiting for me in a large meadow full of flowers of everykind, the sun shining brightly overhead while the scent of nature would fill the air around us.

My hoof pushed open the old worn door to my cottage as I gazed around the dimly lit room, my blue eyes fell upon a small length of rope set atop my dirty dust ridden coffee table.

Taking it in my mouth gently I gazed about the room looking for the right spot to place it, eyes just about missing a perfectly strong beam nested right in the middle of my living room. Tossing the rope upward I was able to wrap it around the beam in one go, my body began to go numb as I tied the rope into place.

In silence that I had grown so acustomed to I started to tie the noose into place, my mind drifting off to a sight I just couldn't wait to see.

Angel Bunny staring over to me with that cute look on his face, so happy and glad to see me after all these years I bet he has been as egar to see me as I am to see him. The first thing I want to do when we meet again is fix him his favorite treat then from there we can catch up on everything.

Taking a deep breath I gently pounced up atop a small chair set under the rope, The howl of the wind outside sending a small shiver down my spine.

Smiling I placed the noose around my slender neck and tugged until I could feel the rope tighten, tears started to fill my eyes as I looked ahead just a few more moments and I wouldn't be surrounded by this pain no more.

I wouldn't be alone.

I just want to feel the warmth again, if only for a second.

I could feel myself kick the chair out from behind me as the weight of my body plunged me downward hard., kicking my legs back and forth my mind started to race wildly I was hoping this might be quick.

Unfortunately I could feel my air being cut off roughly a painful strain on my neck caused tears to roll down my cheeks quickly, I felt my legs start to go numb my eyes growing a dark red as everything around me started to grow black.

But instead of light ahead of me.

Instead of seeing my friends.

All I could see was darkness.

Cold.

Silent.

Darkness.

What have I done!!

My mind screams for my wings to start fluttering, but my whole body is numb now I can't feel anything.

I...I...can't breath.

I don't want to die.

It's comepletly dark now.

Please Celestia...

Spare me.

But most important.

Forgive me...