Once more unto the breach, once more
I sigh, school is over. Thank Celestia for that. Now it’s time for sleep, food, and relaxation. Maybe if I feel particularly ambitious, I’ll indulge myself in a book. But no real need to get ahead of myself is there?.
There’s only one hurdle I have to pass. My marefriend Vinyl. Now I know, shouldn’t I be glad to see her? On the contrary. She’s been coming on a bit too strong, if you know what I mean. Frankly it’s getting to the point where it’s more than a little intimidating.
“Hi Tavi!”
Oh bugger, here we go, time to try to play innocent. Maybe that way I’ll be able to spur her subtle advances. Well one can hope. *Sigh*.
“Hello Vinyl.” I say dejectedly.
Unphased. Vinyl Scratch wraps her forelegs around me in a hug. “Feeling sad?”
Oh Celestia! it’s worse than I thought. I’d trade this moment for a thousand of her worst periods, Luna No! She’s going to isn’t she? And this isn’t going to be one I’m going be be able to worm out of is it?
“I know how to make you feel happy.” She says seductively.
Here it comes, I guess it was inevitable wasn’t it?
“To make you feel really happy...” She winked.
“Look, Vinyl all I need now is a nice long nap.” Lets hope, c’mon please!
“Well I did imagine our activity in a bed, but I wasn’t thinking of sleeping.”
“You know we could-” She puts a hoof on my mouth.
“I’ve found it very sexy with you playing innocent, but you can cut that out now. Lets get down to business. You know what I want, and I know what you want…”
You really don’t Vinyl, you really don’t. This can’t possibly end well.
“And as your marefriend, I suggest we get this done.”
Why?
We walk as slowly towards our house as she will allow..
Why am I so afraid of this? Aren’t marefriends meant to feel euphoric over such a thing? It’s not like I’m straight, I don’t think so anyway, and it’s not like she’s unattractive. Hell, I’ve known Vinyl since, well, forever, and have been dating her for, what? Too long that’s for sure.
What is wrong with me? She’s a lovely, charming, attractive, funny, pretty, entertaining female. What more could a pony ask for? But never once have I fancied her in that way. I’ve even enjoyed some romantic moments with her for Luna’s sake! But time and time again I’ve ruined them to stop it going too far. Urgh, I should just- I dunno. But do that and be done with it.
*click*
“Here we are!” Vinyl announces, opening the door to her house. “Welcome, once again to our humble abode.”
*gulp*
That walk wasn’t nearly as slow as I’d wanted it to be.
*shudder*
Neither was that coffee. (I don’t even like coffee)
Next thing I know, I’m in her bedroom, in a position where buggering off destroys any integrity that I could possibly earn. Chin up Tavi. You’ve played in front of thousands, surely you can muster up enough strength for this. Most ponies would give their right foreleg leg for this. Seriously she’s just lying there, and you’re standing there like a turd waiting for it all to go away.
“So we’re here.” She says seductively.
“Yea.” I agree. “So lets get this done then, shall we?”
“Octavia is there something wrong?”
Alright, think Tavi, think. Do you tell her, and risk her flipping out on you? Or do you try to get through this properly?
“I just haven’t…” Oh sod it, option one, abort nervous start! We’re going in for the truth. If I’d prefer a thousand periods for this, I can handle whatever follows. Anyway it would only delay the inevitable. “Vinyl… Look… I’m not sexually attracted to you.” There. Now have I set the world on fire?
Vinyl looks at me and cocks her head to the side. “Tavi, that was a very unfunny joke, I’m going to have to punish you for that.” She purrs.
“OH FOR FUCK’S SAKE VINYL!” I stamp my hooves, instantly regretting that. “Sorry… But look.”
“NO TAVI! YOU’RE MY MAREFRIEND! IT’S YOUR JOB TO DO THIS!”
“BUT ISN’T IT MEANT TO BE MUTUAL?!”
Vinyl stares at me, I swear her eyes are turning red. “So you’ve been lying, is that it?!” She asks quietly. “Is this some kind of sick joke Tavi? You’d do this to your best friend, and lover? Oh with friends like you, who needs enemies?”
That hurt. I stepped back wounded.
“Is that it Octavia?” She continued. “Am I a joke to you?”
I cowered in the corner, too afraid to answer.
“I just want you to know it never was with me…” She said, “I loved you Tavia. So well played, you win this sick game of yours.” Vinyl collapsed back on the bed beginning to cry.
Oh god, what had I done?
“Vinyl…” I said, “I…”
“Oh fuck off Octavia, and go!”
I begin to make my way out of the room. “Vinyl please…”
“What part of fuck off don’t you understand?” She wasn’t even looking at me. She just stared out into nothingness, defeated.
“I love you Vinyl.” I say. “I always have.”
She looked towards my direction. “Then why won’t you show it?”
More pain. Still, I make my way to her bed, taking a seat beside her without any objection. “Vinyl, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve always loved you, I’ve just never desired you, well in that way before. I know it’s sick, but…” I trailed off. “What I mean to say is… You see, I’ve never fancied anyone like that before. I can say with honesty that I’ve never experienced it, that kind of fancying I mean. But it doesn’t mean I don’t love you.” I wrapped a foreleg around her. She didn’t push away. “I love you.”
“But how?”
“I don’t know Vinyl, I don’t know. But can you work with that?”
My heart skipped a beat waiting for her response.
The longest single second in history passes. “Yes.” She said, finally returning my embrace. “We’ll figure something out. You said you wanted a nap? Can I join you?”
“Yes.”
Vinyl Scratch and I lie down on the bed. Her arms around me, as we fall asleep.
In my dream I am on a mountain. Vinyl is beside me, and the shimmering sea is in the distance. We walk together, towards the future, our future.
Author's Note
Well I hope you enjoyed my first story on this site, I hope it gave an interesting insight into asexuality for you. As an asexual I wrote this hoping it would be enlightening and entertaining. Let us know what you think.
First to get the reference gets a reward. It's pretty blatant if you know what to look for, actually it's quite shameless.
