I've been wondering on how I can still live like this, but I know no one can live like that. Hi, my name is Elliott Johnston. I am a fourteen year old boy, and a very sad boy as well. I am also a Brony, but let's get to the point on why i'm writing in my diary. This is all because of when my mother Clare died of melanoma level 4 skin cancer. She died a year ago 2013 7th of December and yes readers it really did happen. I thought she was going to be ok but here I am sitting on my bed crying while writing this. It’s so hard to control my emotions from anyone anymore. I’ve bottled them up too much, but then I burst out in front of those stupid bullies. I completely lost it I was a wimp at first saying I didn’t want to fight but they pushed me to far they were calling me a faggot, gay and retarded. But do you know what hurt me the most, was that they said my mother was dead and they were laughing at me. So I walked up to them when I was in front of them the first kid tried to punch me in the face but I caught his hand and crushed it breaking all of his bones in his right hand he was crying in pain but I payed no notice then I kicked him in the face he was knocked out cold. The other two boys looked at me angrily, but all I did was make an expression of Gohan's face from Dragonball Z. Yes I watch alot of anime too it was Gohan's face when hes was facing Cell. The two boys look really scared one of them was about to run but I grabbed his foot and flipped him and he landed on his face with a broken nose. He was knocked out cold but the last one tried to kick me so I blocked that and went straight at him at an incredible speed and punched him in the throat. Luckily he wasn't choking, by me punching him in the Adams apple. After all that happened I was sent to the heads office and I was in a meeting with my dad he didn't shout at me but he was proud that i defended my mum’s honor and defending myself as well. He wasn't impressed that I sent 3 unconscious boys to the hospital but I didn't care at all they deserved it.
The school really did went mental at me but I didn't care not in the slightest because all I cared about in that moment was my mother, that's all I think about. I remember all those happy memories I had with my mum she cared so much, for me she gave me a home she gave me food, comfort, and, a bed to sleep on. She did everything for me but that damn cancer had to take everything away from me when my life was starting to get better. It had gotten a lot worse. I thought she would get better when she was in the hospital but then when the man told all of my family to come in to this room he did not look happy at all he looked really sad so then I knew it my mother was gonna die. I denied it I denied everything I keep saying to myself that shes still alive and I’ll wake up from this horrible, no terrible dream but this is reality so I gave up and started to forget. So after the school madness was over I went home and cried myself to sleep but I couldn't sleep so I guess I cried my self all night and that's why I’m writing this. Everyone in this world should cherish the ones you love before you lose them.
If you lose them without cherishing them for life then you will regret everything you did and that's how I ended up how selfish am I.. I don't deserve to live instead I tried to kill my self with tablets by overdosing. I stopped because it wouldn't help the pain that was inside my body so I left it and never told anyone else no one knows and they will never know.
all I want to do is go to my utopia, I wouldn't mind going to Equestria in fact that would be awesome to meet the mane six and especially my fave pony Princess luna. Its just a cartoon so things like that could never exists could it? I walked over to my window I saw the moon and stars around it. It looks so beautiful I looked up at the moon and prayed that my life could get better, but then I caught a glimpse of the moon’s light flash. But I thought of nothing that whole night after 2 hours sitting there listening to the sounds of the outside, dogs barking railings rattling and the slow sound of the nice cold wind. After the next five minutes my window started to glow as I jumped off my bed and looked out the window again there was a dark blueish shape flying towards me. My whole vision became cloudy as I passed out onto the floor before I faded into unconscious. I heard a female voice until I passed out.
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2 hours later
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As I woke up I found myself on my bedroom floor. Then I heard a knock near my bed it was dark so dark that I couldn't see anything from my nose. So I decided to get up and walk over to my bed, but then I saw an ominous blue thing on my bed. It was pretty big but not too big, and then it moved and it turned its head around with dark blue eyes. I could get lost in those eyes forever and ever. I was shocked because it smiled at me I first i thought it was going to kill me, but I weirdly felt calm and caring around it. so I went over to it and said who are you? "Princess Luna I am the Princess of the Night I have been watching you for 3 years now. I have not come here to harm you but I know that you're going to say yes to what i’m going to offer". Right then I realized what she was referring to she wanted me to come with her to Equestria. The land of wonders I was so happy so excited, but some part of me said no to it because I still have a dad and a sister. So I can’t just leave them but if I stay like this for all my life I’ll probably kill my self anyway so its best to go with her. "Luna I want to go to Equestria with you".
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in Equestria
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It was a rather boring night in the quaint town of Ponyville as the many residents were sleeping in their warm beds. Some Pony's were tending to their shops, talking among one another, heading towards someplace to grab a bite to eat. That sort of nightly stuff.
But celestia was still awake and very worried, about her sister Luna. She said she will be back an hour ago but shes been two hours, I wonder on what’s happening I hope nothing bad. I swear if something happens to her I will find out who's responsible and when I do. (Royal Voice) They will Pay!
