Bittersweet Trails

Optimal music choice.

A/N: Here's my commentary on reading this chapter with that music.

OH GOD THE TEARS MAKE THEM FUCKING STOP. PINKIE. QUIT IT. YOU MAKE ME SO FUCKING SAD. NO, DAMNIT. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Right then, continue, music or not. I'll leave a break for you to start without this.

My name is Pinkie Pie, and I'm the happiest pony in Ponyville!

...or at least, I...I used to be. Now, that title can go to Roseluck, or maybe Dinky.

I just haven't been able to smile all that much recently ever since Twily left me. Well, she...she didn't leave, exactly. She's still here, and she's still alive. She definitely wouldn't leave me, since we both love each other that much. But the doctor ponies say she's in a 'ko-muh', or as they explained it to me, 'a very, very long nap'.

I just hope she wakes up soon.

I sit by her every day in the hospital, just holding her hoof and talking to her about my day so far. I like to think that she can hear me, because I hope that she wakes up like, really soon.

If she doesn't, I...I...

I just don't know.

I...I've known Twily for soooo long, and I always really liked her. Like, how sweet her voice is, how adorable she is when she's all smarty-pantsy, how cute her mane is.

And ever since I saw Twilight when she touched down in Ponyville, I knew I wanted to be with her. My Pinkie Sense told me, and I was just so happy. But getting her to like me was hard.

And even then, it was hard getting through her...things. Especially that day when she fainted at the festival from the necklace I made her. She seemed to forget it, and think that her brother died, and that made me worried. Even for Twily, that was weird.

And even now, as I'm talking to myself, I only have one thing to say:

CELESTIA, PLEASE! DON'T TAKE MY TWILY! I LOVE HER SO, SO MUCH! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT HER! I WANNA TALK TO HER, HUG HER, AND DO SWEET FUN STUFF TOGETHER! WHY DID YOU TAKE HER?! WHYYY...

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T-Twily. You...you c-can hear me, right?

I...I heard you in my sleep. I heard you s-say that you loved me. But...y-you didn't have to do it! I...that's just...why, Twilight? W-why...?

The doctors, they...they say you 'suffer from both magical overload...and from chronic menatosis'. I don't know what that means, but...but I recognize the second one. It's...it's what you...

Why did you take it? Twily, why? I know you're a nice pony, b-but...going that far for me...

...you're breaking my heart, Twilight.

Why?

...

You have to promise me something, Twilight. Even if you can't hear me, all right?

You have to fight it.

You have to fight the komuh, the magicky stuff, and my own thingy, so we can be together again! You have to!

Please, Twily. For me?

Please.

Pleeeeeee-eee-eeease....

...

Sorry I keep getting all sad and crying. I know you don't like me like this. But I miss you so, so much. My heart's all achy and breaky because you're gone.

And my parties. I don't have them anymore. I...I just can't. I told everypony that unless you come back, I can't party. And it's true. Because after I met you, you became the party in my heart. And now my party-hearty is gone.

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Our friends miss you too, Twilight. They keep stopping by. If you can hear me, then...I bet you heard Rainbow's half-poem (sweet, it's the gesture really), or Rarity trying to form a sentence...it breaks my heart twice over, Twily, to see this stuff. I know that it isn't your fault, and I don't blame you...

...but I still wish you'd come back.

...

It's a nice day today, Twilight, and I'm sure you'd love it too. I...I can see some birds, and everypony seems to be having a perfectly good time.

It's the kind of day that me and you would enjoy.

Remember the day at the park? The picnic? That was such a fun day.

But it was nothing compared to the book day.

Remember, Twilight? You were sitting and reading a book, and I came up and gave your tasty earsie a little nip. The look on your face was great, and then from there you started getting all cute and shy. Kind of like how I liked being wrapped in the fluffy blanket cocoon, not being able to move, but still being all cozy and with you. Sharing cozy little kisses this way and that, wiggling like two ponies in a blanket. But I guess we were two ponies in a blanket, right?

But nothing will ever compare to that day, Twilight. Nothing...

The ice.

You were so silly and fun, and I had lots of fun trying to get you to skate. When I caught you, and our eyes met, I...

...I'd never loved a pony more, Twily.

I'm serious, so please don't laugh. I...I just can't explain it. I knew I loved you for who you were, and the whole wobbliness of yours just...

...I loved it.

And that spark when we kissed. Just...plain amazing, super duper wow! It felt like a fireworks show going off in me! Not like the others aren't, but that one was special! Our first kiss (on ice, too)! I don't know how we ignored that at the time, because it was great.

My life changed, Twily. For the best. I had you. I thought that might be all I never needed. If we were together, no matter what, I would be happy.

...

I'm crying again, Twilight, and my voice is all waverley. But you know why?

It's because I'm just so happy now.

We loved each other, and I haven't stopped loving you. I know you still love me, and that will last five-ever.

Cross my heart, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eye, that IS a Pinkie Promise.

I won't stop loving you either.

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I...I just hope love is enough to bring you back. I love you oh so much, and you'd make me so happy if you came back.

I...I also had a question to ask you when that day hit 0, like it did today. It was a special question, but...you only get to hear it if you wake up. It was about us. Just us two. And...what we could do from now on.

...it was a big one. It was one that if you said 'yes', we'd have the biggest party ever. And it would be the happiest day of my life, and...hopefully yours, too.

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Twily. C-can you still hear me?

I...I love you. Always, always, always. Please. Come back.

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Oh, Celestia. I'm sorry for yelling at you. We're good, right?

...

Twily.

One last thing.

I love you as much as it's possible. But if you come back, I promise to love you even more. I'll wipe these tears away, and...and we'll be together.

We will be, right?

...

We're together now, marefriend and marefriend, and that's great. It may be only physically (as you say), but I can still hug you.

...you look tired, Twily. Your eyes are just gently closed, like a worn out foal. I...are you having a good sleep? I hope you are. Life can be tiring.

Just remember, there are ponies waiting for you. Ponies who care for you, who love you. You can take all the time you need, my...Twily, my sweet princess...

But please, Twily...

...come back.