Keep it Secret

I made it home about half an hour after midnight. I walked around to the back of my house to my bedroom window. I opened the window and wiggled my way inside, quickly closing the window behind me. I tossed my backpack aside and sat down on my bed, letting out a sigh of disappointment, "I wish we didn't have to keep sneaking around. I wish she'd just tell her parents already."

I kicked my shoes off and laid back on my bed, staring up at the dark grey ceiling. It wasn't really my choice to keep sneaking over to her house, it was her fear that kept making it happen. But, there was nothing that I could do, I loved her too much to want to force her to do something she didn't want to. But I also didn't want to keep sneaking around behind her parents' backs. It wasn't right to do that her them, or her. I sighed as i turned over onto my side. I felt my phone vibrate against my chest and I pulled it out of my bra; it was a text from Octy.

"Hey babe, I'm sorry that my mom ruined the mood."

I sighed in annoyance as I texted her back, "It's fine. I'm not too worried about it. I just wish we didn't have to keep doing this." I sat my phone down next to me, it vibrated again a short moment later.

"No, it's not fine. I didn't plan for it to happen."

"I just wish we didn't have to keep sneaking around. You need to get over your fears and tell your parents about us."

"I don't know, Vinyl. I'm afraid of what they'd say about it. I told you how they felt about it. Imagine what would happen if they found out their only child was a lesbian."

"We cut it too close this time, next time we might not be so lucky. I don't want to end up losing you over this."

"You could never lose me, Vi. No matter what happens, I will always be here with you."

"But what happens when we actually do get caught. What are they going to say when they see us in the middle of having sex?"

"I don't know."

"You have to tell them, or risk having things turn out worse if we keep this up any longer."

"It's not as easy as it sounds."

"I just don't want to keep having the risk. I just don't know how much more I can take."

"A-Are you saying that you might break up with me?"

"No, I'm just saying that if you don't tell them...eventually...I will."

I sat my phone back down and silently waited for her to text back. But, it was now out there in the open. What else could I do? I don't want to keep on if it would mean losing the one person that I love the most. It was either she tells them, or I do. But I knew that either way would end up hurting one, if not, both of us. I never really planned on telling her that I would tell them before she could. I wanted to see if she'd finally get the nerve to tell them herself.

I looked at my phone for what felt like hours, and Octy still hadn't sent me anything back. I was beginning to think that she didn't want to talk to me anymore. Though, I don't really blame her. I wouldn't want to talk to anybody if they told me to chose between them or my parents. I sighed as I sat my phone on my nightstand and closed my eyes to go to sleep.

Just as I was about to be completely out of it, my phone vibrated again and I quickly looked at the message that Octy sent.

"I-I'm sorry."