What Dreams May Come
Awkward Aftermath
Previous ChapterDear Twilight Sparkle,
Before I continue with this letter, Spike? If you are reading this, give the letter to Twilight and give her privacy to write her response. Do not read further.
With that out of the way, Twilight, I believe it's time we spoke of what happened. I have given you a week to think about everything, and to clear your head. Hopefully we can both approach this in a positive manner. Also, I believe it's best if we handled this through letters. You do not always think clearly when you are around me, so perhaps taking care of this through a written medium will give us a better chance of you being open and honest.
That actually brings me to a second point. Twilight, when discussing this, I need you to be fully honest with me and to hold nothing back. I want your blunt opinions on this.
When you are ready for this discussion write back to me.
Signed,
Princess Celestia
PS: Luna informed me that did apologize to you for going about this in an underhoofed manner. I do hope that went well.
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Dear Princess Celestia,
I just received your letter. You're right, when I'm around you my head gets a little bit crazy sometimes, and I want perfect clarity while we talk about what happened. I will try my hardest to be as open as possible with you.
Now, we both likely have some questions needing answers. The first one being, how should we go about this? Should we trade questions back and forth, or do we try for a more normal conversation approach? Personally, I would prefer the former. Having some structure to this talk might help to prevent any potential misunderstandings. Either way, I am ready for whatever will come of this.
Oh, and about your postscript, Luna and I did talk things out. I understand that her heart was in the right place, and I'm not that upset that she lied to us. It was quite the learning experience if nothing else.
Signed,
Princess Twilight Sparkle
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Dear Twilight Sparkle,
I am glad to hear that you weren't too upset with her. I think she has a hard time understanding the idea of personal boundaries. Then again, that is likely a harder concept to understand when you're used to being able to peer inside the minds of anyone during their slumber.
Onto your question about questions, I agree with you. So then, we shall exchange questions and each one of us will answer to our fullest ability. Twilight, I am serious about that last part. Sorry for repeating myself, but it must be made clear, you are not to hold back in these letters.
To keep Spike's workload a bit lighter I will ask my first question here. Twilight, what exactly am I to you? I know you revere me to a great degree, but considering what you did with my 'copy' I am going to guess it goes beyond that. Luna has said that your feelings run very deep but won't tell me more than that; she is actually very good about keeping dreams confidential.
Signed,
Princess Celestia
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Dear Princess Celestia,
Wow, you certainly didn't waste time getting to one of the big one questions. To me, you are a true goddess. Wait, don't get me wrong, it is not because I believe you are some all knowing deity. I am not that naive anymore. I know that you're just a mare, and yet you've accomplished things most could never dream. Even your failures stand head and shoulders over the success of most.
I don't think most ponies can truly fathom what your role in this world is. You carry the hope of an entire nation. You live with knowing that if your hunches and decisions are right you can create a golden age, but if they're wrong you could doom us all. You have had to make horrible choices in the past, the type where no one wins, and those are just the ones that history recorded. Sometimes, I shudder to think of the choices that never became a part of official history. You have had generations of ponies devoting themselves to you, putting their future and the future of their families in your hooves. Carrying the weight you do for just a single lifetime would be enough to break a lesser mare, but you've done it for over a hundred lifetimes.
Despite that, and despite knowing that everyone you meet will die before you, you still smile. It's not a polite smile just to appease us, it's a genuine smile. You can still laugh. You can still cry. You can still bond with and show kindness to mortals who must seem like children compared to you. To still be able to be happy after all these centuries, you have an immense inner strength that outshines anyone I have ever met. This is why I say you are a goddess to me, because no title short of that is good enough for you.
I want to be the pony that makes you happy. I want to be the pony that helps your carry the weight of the world. I want to be the pony that gives you pleasure, and I mean that in every sense of the word.
I hope that answers your question. It seems that it's my turn now, so I'll address one of the biggest issues at play here. Princess Luna told me that you are straight, and I would assume that means you have no interest in a relationship with a mare. Is that true?
Signed,
Princess Twilight Sparkle
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Dear Twilight Sparkle,
I must admit, I was not expecting an answer quite like that. It's not often a compliment makes me blush. Regardless of what may come from this next part, know that it does make me happy to know I am held in such high regard by a pony like you, who has also accomplished things very few could.
To answer your question, yes. It's not as grandiose of a response as yours, I know, but that is the truth. In all the centuries I have lived, I have never met a mare whom I had romantic feelings for. There is no hope for a romance between you and I as you currently are. Which brings me to my question.
Are you willing to become a stallion again? It does not need to be a permanent thing, as we're bound to spend a lot of time apart. But, you would have to devote a large chunk of your life to being male. Is that something you can do?
Signed,
Princess Celestia.
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Dear Princess Celestia,
I knew that question was going to come. Do you know, that you're the reason I discovered my sexuality? I was looking out the window of my tower and I saw you standing on your balcony in the rain. You had your wings spread out and it looked like you were really enjoying being out there. I can still remember the way the water clung to your coat, your mane, and feathers. It was beautiful. I could never look at mares the same way again after that.
That was ten years ago. That's how long I've had these feelings for you. Being a part time stallion is not nearly a high enough price for me to turn down something I have wanted for a decade.
There is one small problem. I can be a part-time stallion. Yes, it will likely lead to the occasional awkward moment between my friends and I. Possibly even between my family and I. I can deal with that. What I can't do is be the stallion I was in that dream. After I was told the truth, I was scared to death that I had hurt you, and I felt guilty for treating you like that. The only reason I could do what I did is because I thought you were nothing but an imitation. To be your suitor, would I have to be the dominant partner?
Signed,
Princess Twilight Sparkle
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Dear Twilight Sparkle,
First off, do not worry, I was not harmed in the slightest. You yourself know how hard it is to truly hurt an alicorn. Secondly, there is no need for you to feel any guilt. Nothing happened that night that I didn't allow.
To your question, no. While I do have a fetish for dominance, it is not a true requirement for a relationship. That being said, I do hope you at least warm up to the idea a little. It doesn't always have to be as intense as it was in that dream. But, I suppose we can go over smaller details like that some other time.
The only question left is, when will you be free to visit Canterlot?
Love,
Princess Celestia
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Dear Princess Celestia,
Ponyville has been surprisingly peaceful recently, so I doubt anypony would mind if I left to discuss matters of state with another princess in Canterlot. I will come by this weekend.
Love,
Princess Twilight Sparkle
Author's Note
And then they fucked, in the real world this time. Hope you guys enjoyed.
